(Verse 1) Beneath these sick thoughts, There has to be something that makes me proud As much as it hurts to hear your voice, I know that you can only scream so loud Even though it hurts to be this person, I can only hope there will be an end to the pain I've taken But even if there isn't, Like you, I'll move on, Cause I'll get use to the pain after so long (Pre-chorus) I know, I digust you But I can't help the way I feel I know, cause I digust me But it's all aginst my own will (Chorus) My whole life I've tried to change everything, I've never been able to accept things for what they are, and everytime you've pushed me, Takes up for everytime I've pushed myself just as far (Verse 2) When you see my face, does it make you want to puke? No commitment to anyone, not even myself All this time I've waited, to feel something else It was just another reason, to ask for more of what I haven't felt Cause sometimes I feel like, Everyone hear the secrets that I keep, and I'm the only one that believes the words I speak (Pre-chorus) I know, I digust you But I can't help the way I feel I know, cause I digust me But it's all aginst my own will (Chorus) My whole life I've tried to change everything, I've never been able to accept things for what they are, and everytime you've pushed me, Takes up for everytime I've pushed myself just as far I'm sick of being haunted by my past, I just want to move on and make it through this at last