Jawknee's Poetry

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    Jawknee

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    Hey everyone, I think Omar just wants me to put all my poems in one topic so I'll do him that favor. I don't know how often I'll update this but keep checking for poems of the past and present.
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    This poem was written for my first long-term girlfriend.

    Nothing Even Matters

    It feels good, when my name you call.
    You make me wanna faint or fall.
    I was in a trance when you, I first saw,
    Because nothing even matters at all.
    Be with me, in this world so small,
    Please, let’s never bicker or brawl.
    From my heart, my love you’ll never withdraw,
    Because nothing even matters at all.

    You can’t disguise your true beauty,
    Since that’s what makes me so loony.
    If I was blind, I know you’d make me see,
    Because nothing even matters to me.
    I could gaze at you endlessly,
    As we kiss ever-so gently.
    If I had to, I’d climb the tallest tree,
    Because nothing even matters to me.

    I’ve had others just come and then go,
    But I still remain to love you so.
    You thrill me and look more divine than before,
    Because nothing even matters anymore.
    When you’re here, there’s no place that I’ll go,
    I’d be kissing you from head to toe.
    I wish that I could buy you big gifts from stores,
    Because nothing even matters anymore.

    To be with you again, each night I pray,
    Since a fondness deep in my heart you make.
    You leave me speechless with nothing at all to say,
    Because nothing even matters in any way.
    You’re as bright as the sun shines each new day.
    The looks you possess take my breath away.
    It’s impossible for my love for you to fade,
    Because nothing even matters in any way.

    We’ve had our good times, and our times of blue,
    But through it all, I keep on loving you.
    No one can or will ever love you like I do,
    Because nothing even matters except for you.
    I feel blissful when you say, “I love you.”
    With passion, I reply, “I love you too.”
    Love me baby, that’s all I’m asking you to do,
    Because nothing even matters except for you.
     
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    Jawknee

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    Here's some contrast: This poem was for that same girl after she played me numerous times.


    Don’t Know Why

    I should have seen this coming, but it never occurred,
    That you would drop me just like that, like sh!t from a bird.
    In one second, my feelings had changed,
    From happiness, to more f***ing pain.
    That’s just like you Kimberly, leaving me here,
    But what goes around will come around my dear.
    The hell with my feelings, like it means anything to you.
    You just love to have me suffer in agony, don’t you?!
    Why do you do this?! What the hell did I do?!
    I’m not gonna be depressed; I won’t cry too.
    I don’t know why I keep falling for your looks,
    If you back-stab me so hard, like you’re a crook.
    How could you say you love me, and dis me with a snap?!
    I’m so sick of this sh!t, because I feel like I’m trapped.
    I loved you, but you were the one who f***ing lied.
    After two times, I guess I don’t get it do I?!
    Well, that’s my damn personal problem I have now, not yours,
    So just deal with your man, & don’t play with my heart no more.
    You didn’t even give me time,
    But just f***ing left me behind.
    I don’t know why I still have feelings; you’re so cold,
    And my heart is no longer yours to ever hold.
    I’m just trying to forget anything you’ve ever said,
    As I sit and stare into nothing, shaking my lone head.
    It will take a while, maybe even weeks for my heart to heal up and mend,
    And you’ll be trying to apologize and sh!t, but you don’t need to pretend.
    Just let me let it all out; at myself I’m so mad.
    I feel like sh!t and like I was used; it hurts bad.
    Still, I don’t know why I had my hopes up,
    If the whole time, you didn’t give a f***.
    Somebody hit me for being so dumb!
    The joy left in me is practically none.
    It’s aggravating me so deep inside.
    I thought you loved me, but I don’t know why.
    Now I see what’s really going on,
    You f***ed me up again, and that’s wrong.
    Yeah really Kimberly, some f***ing “happy” late birthday it is,
    Since I’ve been anticipating for what, to be treated like sh!t?!
    All I wanted was to be with you one more endless time,
    But you deceived and I was shocked, and I don’t know why.
    I’ll hide forever in a place so small,
    “Because nothing even matters at all.”
     
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    Another lot of good stuff......Keep it up! :)
     
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    both poems are really good.
     
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    Jawknee

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    Thanks guys, I'll update soon. ^_^
     
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    I used to talk to this girl and we were about to start going steady and something out-of-the-blue destroyed that chance. We had a huge argument and eventually she forgave me and we started over with a friendship. Here's the poem I wrote for her when she forgave me. P.S. It's not supposed to rhyme. ;)

    One Step, Two

    Apparently things are working thus far.
    It doesn’t mean that things are okay from before,
    But I’m trying my best this time to make it work.
    I’m hoping we’re able to establish our basis,
    Our beginnings and introduction to a story of wonder.
    A novel of friendship that will evolve out of the dirtiest and darkest of gutters.
    I’ve been a fool to you,
    Been a fool to myself.
    No longer will I play the role and the acting shall cease,
    Decreasing what was “fake” and increasing our bonding.
    To bond and to be closer is my goal,
    Showing you I care and you can trust me,
    Depend on me and expect to see me there for all your terrible days,
    Days I couldn’t try and make splendid by being the best for you.
    How long it takes isn’t the question because I have all the time in the world,
    Of the universe and all the other worlds to prove to you that I’m patient,
    Wherever it is this is going,
    As I hope it leads to bliss and delightfulness.
    With all the colors of friendship and trust,
    We can paint a work of art,
    A masterpiece if you will,
    A creation that people will awe in and admire,
    Like the way I adore you and how you let me be a part of your life.
    We could sculpt and build this into a statue,
    A monument of precious memories and wonderful emotions.
    I want my arms to be the ones you feel most comfortable in,
    Like the snugness when you’re warm in bed on a cold winter day.
    I’ll be somebody that will not only listen but also respond and make an effort.
    Someone to guide you when you’re lost in the woods,
    Confused on your direction you’re traveling,
    Not sure on your next move in this game of chess,
    This game of life that isn’t even a game at all.
    The infinite steps towards reaching the top,
    Seems not so impossible now that I believe in us and you care.
    Up the steps with any knowledge I pick up on the way,
    I’ll be at the top with a wide smile on my face,
    With a happy future to look forward to,
    And we’ll see our treasure glare in the sun,
    The treasure being the completion of our wonderful friendship,
    Our masterpiece and our sculpture.
    I don’t have to worry
    Don’t need to fear climbing alone.
    There you are, right by my side climbing with me,
    Me climbing with you.
     
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    you're a great writer.. i recommend you to make an account in www.fictionpress.net.. this is a site for those who want to get their literary pieces publish.. you will also be given copy right.. it's a protection from those who want to plagiarize your works

    ;)
     
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    Jawknee

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    Thank you for the positive feedback. :)
     
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    I got really close to a girl I really liked over the summer a few years back. She really lead me on by doing things like holding my hand, sitting on my lap, etc. So I figured she liked me too and I went ahead and told her. Well, it turned out she didn't. I was so upset. She said she'd still be my friend and all, but how do you stay with friends with someone after you open up your heart and they smash it? She hurt me real bad. Check this one out and grab some tissue.


    <div align=center>Open Up

    I want you to think of me everyday,
    Miss me every second in every hour.
    I want you to say that in your heart I lay,
    And to smile whenever I bring you flowers.
    I want you to trust me with all you have,
    Kiss me when a frown slips on my face.
    I want you to promise me that in my arms you’ll always be glad,
    That you’ll come to love me at a slow pace.
    I want you to tell me we will never end,
    That the love will continue to grow and be strong.
    I want you to be open and not pretend,
    Be honest so that nothing will ever go wrong.
    I want you to treasure every moment we share,
    Reminiscing when you held my hand tight.
    I want you to be my lady and always care,
    Praying for our love to the stars each night.
    I want you to kiss my cheek when I cry,
    Tell me it’ll be okay and be my friend.
    I want you to be my lady for all time,
    Damn, wake me up because I’m only dreaming again.
    I don’t think I can walk again,
    With all this pain in my heart that kills.
    I don’t think we’ll be more than friends,
    If you need me, be there by your side, I will.
    I don’t think I can stop feeling weak,
    My heart depends on your love to live.
    I don’t think there isn’t one time I melt when you speak,
    You bring out my inner thoughts within.
    I don’t think you’ll see how I yearn,
    I’ll love alone and hurt on my own.
    I don’t think I will ever learn,
    Living a dark & gloomy life alone.
    Why must I go on living without you by my side?
    Why must my heart hurt so much I cry?
    Why must I be so unhappy and yet fool others?
    Why must I be a good friend of yours but not your lover?
    Why can’t you talk nice about me like you do ‘bout him?
    Why does life only get darker as if the lights have dimmed?
    Why do people tell me it’ll get better when it has not?
    Why don’t you get so excited whenever it’s something I bought?
    Why do you treat me so nicely and yet I can’t have you as my own?
    Why are we so perfect for each other the forces of nature say “no”?
    Why do you sit there and look pretty when all I can do is watch and adore?
    Why can’t we take walks on the beach on ocean shores?
    Why does the heart never truly heal but yet get weaker with the lack of love?
    Why do I feel I’m ready to join the angels in the Heavens up above?
    Why isn’t there enough time in life to admire you longer?
    Why must I soften up rather than become stronger?
    Why do I stare at you and wish I could hold your hand?
    Why do I ask you how you’ve been and how’s your man?
    Why do I hide the truth and lie to myself inside?
    Why does everyone think I’m okay when I really hide?
    Why isn’t it obvious by now that I need you?
    Why won’t you give me one damn chance to prove?
    Why is it that you don’t see the sorrow in my eyes?
    Why is the hardest part of leaving saying goodbye?
    Why have you had an effect on me for months of time?
    Why doesn’t anyone else understand me when I lie?
    Why does everyone say move on to someone new?
    Why can’t they see that someone new is you?
    Why doesn’t anyone else help me get through this?
    Why do I disguise what I feel when it’s you I miss?
    Why do I feel secure every time you hug me?
    Why don’t I want to let go when I know you don’t love me?
    Why are your eyes so pretty that I can’t leave?
    Why do I keep giving and giving when it’s plain to see?
    Why don’t I have control over this?
    Why can’t I just end this poem and finish?
    Why does my heart break when I think about you?
    Why do write when I have nothing else to do?
    Why did you lead me on and you know you did but you ignore?
    Why do you get away with hurting me each day more and more?
    Why am I willing to give you all my time to be together?
    Why do I want us to share a love that’ll last forever?
    Why do I dream the way I dream?
    Why can’t I wake up and face reality?
    Why did you do this to me?
    Why won’t you stay with me?
    Why are you everything to me?
    Why?</div>
     
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    Great


    I can also see it being called 'Why?' :lol:
     
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    I'm more of a working-title kind of man. ;)
    I start off with a name and sometimes try not to use it in the poem at all. That way, you interpret the title your way.
     
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    I like them all alot
     
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    Shinji

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    they are great !!!!! (w00t)
     
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    You should be a published poet
     
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    Jawknee

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    Thanks, everyone! :D
     
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    Everyone gives me praise for writing such great poems and songs yet I never praise anyone else.

    Well, that's going to change:

    Neo, you're an amazing poet. You rock bro. :)
     
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    Jawknee

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    :blush: I appreciate that, Will.
     
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    Hey, it's true. You're very talented.

    I could see these being published someday, they're real good. :)
     
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    A few years ago, I went to my Sophomore Winter Ball with this friend of mine. Well, we got really close that night, and I even ended up holding her hand a few times. It really felt like she was feeling me too, as if we were already going out. The following Monday, when I told her I wanted to take it a step foward, she told me she didn't want to. She said she held my hand because it was "part of the moment" and all this other stuff. Here's the poem I wrote in my suffering:

    <div align=center>Put Me Down

    I do it to myself all the time and make myself cry.
    I put myself down; make dark, hidden feelings come alive.
    So go ahead, tell me you just want to be friends.
    Add more sorrow to all my pain that never ends.
    Tell me you’re sorry, and you don’t like me that way.
    Say that I’m sweet, tell me that it’ll be okay.
    After all, it’s just another dumb broken heart in the wind.
    Oh sure, I’ll be fine, I’ve been here often, you can’t imagine.
    What exactly do you expect or want me to say?
    We were getting so close as the night drifted away.
    I may not be attractive for you from the outside,
    But believe me, I know I really care for you, deep inside.
    You know I care for you, why are you doing this?
    Why were you pretending? It felt much more than bliss.
    Leave me here, crying in the shadows alone.
    So is this really how you want things to go?
    Maybe It didn’t really mean nothing much to you,
    But it was butterflies in my stomach like the flu.
    I had hope that things would keep going, but now I don’t believe.
    How you can tell me you have no feelings, I just can’t perceive.
    I know you’re really into someone else,
    But that night, I had you all to myself.
    It felt like we were a couple; the smile on your face.
    The dress you wore, how you seemed so elegant with grace.
    The night was perfect; it felt like you forgot all about him,
    But I was to find out this wasn’t true, once that school came in.
    “It was part of the moment,” is all that you just have to say,
    But I had hoped it would start something in the upcoming days.
    The days after the special night felt like you were avoiding me,
    Always getting away, never letting me get a chance to speak.
    You have no idea how much courage it took just to hold your hand.
    You don’t get how much I’m hurting here, you really don’t understand.
    Never had I seen you in that light; in that way,
    I didn’t know that just one night could make things change.
    That night was all I had, but it was so right.
    Dancing with you, holding you with all my might.
    I don’t hate you for this, but just know you put me down.
    My pain is crying out loud, but you can’t hear a sound.</div>
     
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    Terry

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    wow. neo youre AMAZING. i love your lyrics. theyre so deep. i think (do i dare say??) that u might give LP a run for their money. lol.
     

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