Portal It's hard to understand the thoughts inside It's enough to make me want to die I trusted my heart and now I see that It doesn't want me to hurt like that Yet it can't stop itself from being blocked There's a wall in the way and it's on top It's not letting it through, stands in its way It's forcefully pushing me back away I can't break through, knock it down I just need to find one way around The way that can lead me to what's real So that I can know that all that I feel Is true inside me so I can safely say to you That what I feel inside is real, and it's for you It's standing in my way Biting at me today It's hurting me inside But even though I try I can't break through I can't get to you I'm trying not to fall apart at the seems Trying to turn into reality my dreams I want it to be the way I vision it Yet now it's just like a fantasy skit It's hard to make it real, hard to make it right Hard to say to you what I need tonight Flowing inside of me like a river of gold Thinking about days that aren't old They're still close to me in this way That makes me hurt more everyday Fighting it away yet it's still so close It's funny you can't see what hurts the most Tearing me apart inside and it's Wearing me down to what fits It's standing in my way This pain I feel today It's hurting me inside And even though I try I can't break through I can't get my thoughts to you I see what I need to do To make this all so true I need to combat it away So I can be with you today I need you to be with me But my reality is still a dream It's standing in my way This pain I feel today Hurting me inside But even though I try I can't break through I can't get my thoughts to you I can't tell you how I feel, there's a barrier in the way It's fixating itself on preventing me today My soul inside is cut, bruised, and bleeding It wants to talk to you yet it's receding It's torn down, worn away, and slowly broken It needs to get to you right now, it needs to be spoken But it's torn down, worn away, and receding For inside I'm cut, bruised, and bleeding It's standing in my way Biting at me today It's hurting me inside But even though I try I can't break through I can't get to you It's standing in my way The pain I feel today It's hurting me inside Filling me with cries I need you to be with me But reality is still a dream