Staring At The Wall I'm running headfirst into something I can't control Wondering if I'll ever make it through all right I know how much the pain has taken it's toll And I wonder if I can make it through the night Seeing you again the memories come back I remember when I first saw you back then And now I see everything that I lack Beginning to wonder if true color's a sin I remember when my life was turned upside down Feeling like nothing I did was for the best It's like nothing I could do would distort the sound But your voice has put me down to the test Nothing I can do will change my sympathy It's like anything you say can change my life Yet I've been broken down by your empathy And now I'm thinking of ending it all with a knife Running headfirst I slam into the barrier It prevents me from speaking my heart I'm staring at the wall like it's scarier Worse than anything thought from the start I'm staring at this barren blank wall Knowing that I can paint my words unto it But as soon as I do I trip stumble and fall And wind up falling into a deep dark pit