Lonely Box Looking across the waves of deep blue I sit here dreaming of only you As I sit here in my lonely box I think about breaking the locks The confines that are holding me back Trying to find just what I lack I know I can say what I have to say Yet I suffer with the pain everyday Can't form words with this mouth of mine Trying to separate me from my confine I can't see how to break it though I just don't know how to show I care to much to keep it inside Still no matter how hard I try I can't get it out instead They're just thoughts locked in my head As I sit here in my lonely box I think about how to break my locks The confines that are holding me back Still trying to find out what I lack I've been pushing myself to do it Yet when I get there I just trip I fall on my face and lose the words Then my thoughts just become blurred It's like a wall always in front of me Prohibiting me from what I should see Playing with my conscience inside This is one thing I can't deny I need to break through the iron bars And set my sights on the stars It's ironic how it works Life has so many perks The problem is getting to them To say what I need to say then I push myself to the edge Sometimes I think I'm better off dead 'Cause I can't deal with what I feel Sometimes I doubt it's real You said you'd like to know me Without a doubt it's true probably But there's a wall blocking my sight And now I'm thinking it's not alright I sit here in my lonely box Knowing now I must break the locks The confines that are holding me back I need to push through what I lack And take it for myself Without it I'll stay kept on the shelf And she'll never know what I feel She'll never know it's truly real