I Was Thinking Of You Again Lately sadness has suppressed me from smiling truly. I’ve had to hide my inner feelings from blooming. Now when I see you, I want to cry; I want to run away. I knew our good times close together would soon go away. I just never knew my fears would awaken today. I thought we were perfect for each other, but perfection is again a dream away. After weeks of forgetting, shouldn’t I have forgotten by now? If I don’t cry anymore, then why is it I feel so down? How can I not go on as friends without having a feeling I must hide? Why do I still lose my words every time you’re near my side? Questions without their answers linger throughout the days. I feel I’m wearing a mask to hide the true expression on my face. The night draws and the stars come out pasted on the sky so dark, Wishing on the brightest one once again as I ache within my heart. No matter how hard I push my feelings aside, They push right back and squeeze inside. Someone else in your life isn’t hard to believe. Every time I hear your voice, oh how I grieve. I die when I know someone else has made you laugh. I sulk the days passing by on life’s meaningless path. When someone else has made you smile, I can’t bear to look at you. In a quick moment, how I’d love to steal a kiss out of the blue. I was thinking of you again today when I saw you pass me by. Even though we agreed that we’d just be friends, it brings tears to my eyes. I hoped that if I couldn’t have you, you’d give nobody a chance too, And like a butterfly, I could watch you under glass and admire you. But now my butterfly takes off with open wings away from my sight. Never again will we share that secret togetherness I thought we had inside. I was thinking of you again today, and at first it made me smile to myself, But the more I pondered, I felt like autumn when all the leaves have died and fell. I have a premonition that you’ll never look back on any of this. You’ll never remember our conversations that lately I already miss. I can’t blame you for not falling for me like I did for you. I was so caught up in all my dreams I forgot what reality can do to you. Keep smiling and being the wonderful person you are, For I will continue to hold you deeply in my heart.