Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

[Todd]

*runs*

[Will]

Since I'm the one who made a big deal about this thread, I'm going to go right on ahead and make the first post.

When I got home from class, I got into a fight with my dad. I told him I wanted to talk to him about one of my classes, and he seemed fine.

I wanted to drop the class because all we do in that class is read and then discuss the stories in class, whereas in all my other classes we read and do actual work and take notes based on the readings. I figured if I dropped the class where all we did was read and discuss, I could focus on the other classes where we did actual work.

The only downside is that I wouldn't be a full-time student anymore and I'd be dropped from my parents' health insurance. Since my dad got laid off, he's losing his insurance in a month anyway. So, I asked him what the difference would be if I was dropped from the insurance now instead of waiting until we just didn't have insurance anyway. He told me he didn't want me off the insurance, so I said OK.

Then I decided to ask him if there was any way for me to get back onto the insurance if there WAS the chance that I dropped the class. He said he didn't know. Then I asked him if he'd have to call the insurance company to find out, and he said he probably would. So, that was it.

After that, I wanted to explain why I wanted to do what I wanted to do, and he started flipping out about it, and ended up yelling and screaming at me and threw things all around the living room for no reason.

Then he had the audacity to tell me that I had a tone and attitude when I was talking when I never once raised my voice, changed my tone or had an attitude, and I never got mad about anything. But the whole time, HE was getting mad and had a tone and all that.

So, I dropped my notebook and he yelled at me for throwing things. So, I said, "What's the difference? You threw things." He gave me the "I pay the bills" routine, which was complete and utter trash, and had no place at all in our conversation whatsoever. He started yelling again, and I told him I asked him about it because I didn't want to make the decision WITHOUT talking to him about it, and he said I wasn't even listening to him, when HE'S the one who wasn't listening to ME. I told him I didn't think I'd end up getting lectured or yelled at by trying to have a normal conversation with my dad.

That's why I never talk to him about anything anymore, because all he does is yell and yell until he gets his way no matter what anyone else says.

Needless to say, I'm stuck in that BS class and I'm not talking to my dad. On top of that, I've got two essays due tomorrow that aren't done because I've been spending my extra time reading hand-outs for that stupid class that we don't even do any work in.

I knew I should've taken five classes so I could've dropped one if I needed to. Go figure it'd come down to this.

[.Amanda.]

I think your dad and my dad would be good friends. =\

[Will]

I could understand why he'd have gotten mad if I'd have been acting like a complete and utter brat during the entire conversation, but I was trying to be very civil about it and express my reasons for wanting to drop the class. I knew there was very little chance he'd let me drop the class to begin with, but I wanted him to know why I wanted to drop the class, so he didn't think I'd thought about it on the drive home just to come home and say, "I want to drop this class for no reason whatsoever!" But when it came to my explaining why I wanted to drop the class, he turned it around and kept saying I wasn't listening to him, which didn't make any sense at all, because, every time, I said, "I understand that, but..." before making my next statement.

It's just starting to get really frustrating that every conversation with him turns into some sort of fight or argument for absolutely no reason at all. The other night I was talking to him about some roster changes the Browns were making (which doesn't do anything but set the topic of what we were talking about to begin with) and I mentioned something they did that I thought was going to really help the team. Rather than disagree with me and state why, he changed up his tone and attitude and tried making me feel like a complete and utter idiot for thinking what I did. It was completely unnecessary, and that's how almost all of our conversations end up anymore.

[.Amanda.]

I'm being abandoned by part of my own family. It's not fair.

[Rachel]

My own fucking father wouldn't go to my college tour.

Me: Dad. Can you take friday off to go with me to Salem?
Him: Can't. Already took monday off.
Me: Oh, why, doctor's appointment?
Him: No, yankees opening day.

...he can take a day off for a fucking baseball game THAT HES WATCHING AT HIS HOUSE...but not for his only child's college tour.

[John]

My own fucking father wouldn't go to my college tour.

Me: Dad. Can you take friday off to go with me to Salem?
Him: Can't. Already took monday off.
Me: Oh, why, doctor's appointment?
Him: No, yankees opening day.

...he can take a day off for a fucking baseball game THAT HES WATCHING AT HIS HOUSE...but not for his only child's college tour.

WOW, that's all i have to say.

[Misfit Jay]

My own fucking father wouldn't go to my college tour.

Me: Dad. Can you take friday off to go with me to Salem?
Him: Can't. Already took monday off.
Me: Oh, why, doctor's appointment?
Him: No, yankees opening day.

...he can take a day off for a fucking baseball game THAT HES WATCHING AT HIS HOUSE...but not for his only child's college tour.

So yeah. I really dislike your dad hun.

[Louis]

I'm about to break.

That's really all I can say to describe me right now. I truly am about to break. Whether it's to break down, or just break out and explode and get mad at everybody, I am not sure. I have a feeling that it may be a combination of both, but I am truly not sure.

I love Alex. It's simple. I don't know how else to describe this feeling. To constantly think about her; for everything, in some way, to remind me of her. To worry about her so much; for her to be my major concern. I don't know how else I can describe it.

It's just that even this, I am not sure about.

When Kristian and I were together, I thought I was in love with her. I could see nothing wrong with her for some point in time. I thought she was incredible. She was something amazing to me.

But Alex, I can see the flaws in her. I take notice of them and I don't like them, but I live with them 'cause it's worth it, to me, to see the good sides to her. But even with these flaws, I still think I love her. I think about her more than anybody else and I've felt this way about her for more than half of a year now.

She just seems to be so troubled by her feelings for Nick.

It comes off as odd to me, how I'm not upset about her feeling that way about Nick. I'm more concerned for her welfare and her happiness, rather than mine. I knew she'd have feelings for somebody else sooner or later, it would have had to come. But Nick is my best friend. Why am I not upset about that and upset about her happiness?

The thing is, I can't tell Nick about her feelings for him. I'm not sure if he knows or not, but I don't think he does. When I talked to him about what happened the Sunday before last, I told him that I felt it'd be wrong to tell him. He was fine with it but after a while he seemed to start wondering who it was.

Actually, forget that. The real thing is that I get uncomfortable when I'm around Alex and Nick is around or being mentioned. It just seems like I know it's going to bother her and I get worried and it seems like everything kind of just mellows down immensely and all of a sudden I start to feel extremely concerned for her. I begin to beg to whatever is up there that Nick will move away, or that she will not notice him, or that someone will make her laugh about something so that she can forget about him for the time being.

It just seems that, no matter what, she'll think about him. It's something that I can't help, but it's something I don't like and I don't want her feelings for Nick to bother her as much as my feelings for her bother me.

I just want her to be okay. I want her to be happy. I don't want her to be unhappy. She deserves to be happy. The only way I can be happy is if she is happy. If she's not happy then my day is ruined, it seems. Why does it have to be this way? Why do I have to be so concerned for someone? Why am I in love with this girl? Even I don't understand sometimes why I am so fascinated by her, and why I am so infatuated with her.

It seems like everything she does impacts me in some way. Whether it be her facial expression, the way she closes her locker, the speed she walks to class, or just simply how she looks at me. It impacts me in some way. It either makes me feel happy, or sad. There doesn't seem to be any middle ground. Sad includes angry, upset, concerned, depressed, etc. Happy is just one thing. If I'm happy, I am just satisfied.

Actually, if I really wanted to be half and half, there's satisfied and unsatisfied. Simple as that, really.

God, I love her. I love her so much.

But why does that not seem to be the end of my troubles? Why is there another girl, although I am not as infatuated with her, who I am constantly concerned about? Why is it that the more time I spend with her, the more I feel this sense of infatuation with her.

After the Steel Band California Tour, I started to feel differently about Rachel. I had spent so much time with her, and at the end seen her cry and hugged her and she leaned on my shoulder and I tried to console her as best as I could. I started to feel like I had feelings for her. I felt also that I was betraying my feelings for Alex, in a sense.

Now, after just several hours in Tuscon, I felt nearly the same.

I know for sure that I don't truly have any feelings for Rachel, seeing as how my thoughts a good majority of the time are with Alex. But it just seems like every time I am around Rachel I start to feel like I have to satisfy her in some way, whether it is to make her smile or make her laugh. I mean, I have to do that as a friend anyways because she is a relatively unhappy person and seeing her smile and laugh is always a nice thing. But it's more of a priority with these 'feelings'.

I don't know. I'm just lost, really. I don't know what to do and where to turn and how to do anything if there is anything I can do. I want to be helpful to both Alex and Rachel and I want both of them to be happy. And I want to be the brother to Nick like I have been to him and he has been to me. But this whole situation is complicated. I love Alex, and I care dearly for she, Rachel, and Nick. Nick is my best friend. Rachel is Alex's best friend. Nick doesn't care for Rachel and he seems fine with Alex. Rachel doesn't care for Nick. Alex loves Nick.

Doesn't that just sound so complicated to you?

I get dizzy just thinking about it. Moreover, I get upset and angry and I feel like breaking something. This whole situation is extremely frustrating and very aggravating and irritating. I just want this all to fix. I want Alex to like Nick and for him to like her back so that they can be together and they can both be happy. I want Rachel to find someone too, and I want Rachel to be happy and I want to know what happened those 2 years ago that seem to have changed her.

As for me? I mean, where would this leave me? I wouldn't be one of Nick's better friends anymore. Well, I would be, but I wouldn't be as high up. I mean, it wouldn't matter, but he'd spend more time with Alex. Which is okay. But it might be troubling for me, considering I love Alex. As for Rachel, I'd be glad that she was happy, but I almost want her to be with me too, in a sense. I want to be the one to help her. I want to be her savior, so to speak. But I don't know if I can.

I doubt any of this will happen, although I hope it does. I want Alex and Rachel to be happy with their lives. I want to see them smile and to see them laugh. And I don't care if I see them both get into relationships. I just want them to be happy.

And I don't care if I become suicidal over those outcomes. So long as they're happy and enjoying themselves.

I wish I could find a way to disappear...

I can't do this anymore. I really can't.
I just can't.
*sigh*

[Misfit Jay]

Folks.

Ladies & Gentlemen.

Boys & Girls.

Children of all ages.

Please bare with me as I vent about a certain someone...


You.

Yes you.

I just happened to stumble onto your page after leaving a comment to my beloved self-adopted sister, who has died, by who? You. It'll be a year in July, and all of a sudden you have her on your number 1 spot on your top friends. You did nothing but treat her like shit. Believe me. I know. How do I know? Because she would call me up every fucking night, crying because of you, and what you did. Whether it be, breaking up because "there's too much stress," "people saying you cheated on her," or things you've said.

And suddenly, after she's gone you decide to go and make it seem like you care about her, and you give a shit. Well, I'm sick of it. When I saw you at the Scarecrow Hill memorial concert my girlfriend held me back from punching you in the fuckin' face. Why? Because I saw you flirting. I've tried so hard to keep peace and keep my feelings for you as hidden as I could, for her. But oh my God, you were with a different girl right when you came out of the hospital. That's real compassion. Her death must've been really heart wrenching for you, if you're fucking someone new when you get out of the hospital. Ask anyone. I could not stop crying for a week, when I heard she died. I still tear up and cry every time I think of her. I still go to call her expecting her to answer. I still expect her to call me every night.

And wow, it didn't stop with Brittany. You've also cheated on your girlfriends after her. And, last time I knew, you were seeing three different girls at the same time.

You make me sick! Absolutely sick. And I swear, next time I see you, it better be when I can use both hands. So I can give you the beating of a life time, you God damn, good for nothing hypocrite. Let this be known, Ben...



EVERY BREATH YOU TAKE IS A GIFT FROM ME


I needed to let that out before tomorrow.

[Friskey™]

There's nights where I just lay there and all of a sudden, she pops into my head. I haven't even talked to her in months yet she still meets me in the dark mind where I think everything's happy. So I throw on my .mp3 player and try to drown her out. It works for the most part...but now, it feels like she's getting into that part too and I can't let that happen. Music's my mindset, she can't overtake that. I won't let her overtake that. NEVER NEVER NEVER!

[John]

OMFG i just a found a pic on myspace of this girl that looks similar to the one i've been crazy about for months. *dies*

http://i109.photobucket.com/albums/n55/lordjohnny/m_00ce2ff5c596f6b7abd2c1dde96df7e2.jpg

[Arashi]

There's nights where I just lay there and all of a sudden, she pops into my head. I haven't even talked to her in months yet she still meets me in the dark mind where I think everything's happy. So I throw on my .mp3 player and try to drown her out. It works for the most part...but now, it feels like she's getting into that part too and I can't let that happen. Music's my mindset, she can't overtake that. I won't let her overtake that. NEVER NEVER NEVER!

Is it that girl who you went out with before then?





Honey why don't you have a nice long chat and get it over with forever.
And Arhaz- you better think of gaining weight. Fast.

[Seinfeld]

So...not sure if I should call this a problem...or some sort of...sickness...

I can't stop screaming at night...I don't know why...I'm so hyped up...and sort of strapped to it...I really want to cut good as a shouter...and for some reason...putting so much pressure on myself has made me snap in some weird way...

My own screaming doesn't satisfy me...I want it to...really tear up my vocalcords...but for some reason...I can'T pass this certain point...the point where it goes from: "some kid screaming" to "letting your demons out"...well, that's what I call it...

It pains me to know what it should sound like...but I still can't get it out...like...something deep inside...something bubbling...boiling...waiting to burst out...like it does when I fight with my mom...that's...the only time I can actually shout...is when I'm being beaten...

I'm kinda...disturbed by the fact...that this is true...:mellow:

[Tomi]

I'm so fucked for math this term. :mellow:

[Seinfeld]

I'm so fucked for math this term. :mellow:

Totally now what you feel like...I'm fucked for history and social studies...so...yah...pretty much just my being lazy...:lol:

[Harlz]

The last time I even came close to feeling this strongly about a girl, it took me four years to finally stop feeling pain everytime she mentioned her boyfriend.

And now, I can just see where this is going, I'm getting sucked in more and more every day, and every time i try and talk to her, make things right between her and me again, and I just get shot down, it kills me. I honestly believe I love her, and I don't say that lightly, I've only said that about two other people before.

Its just like I'm not good enough anymore, like her standards are suddenly so much higher, and I'm just something from her past that embarasses her. And that image of her when the two of us did our dancing assesment together, to me, she was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

It just kills me that I could have had have her, but i screwed it up, let her get away, let her froget about me.
Too bad I can't forget.


And All That Could Have Been...

[Friskey™]

Is it that girl who you went out with before then?

Honey why don't you have a nice long chat and get it over with forever.

Yeah, but I told you, I haven't talked to her, let alone seen her or anything in a few months, what the hell am I supposed to do honey, write her a note, e-mail her?

[Dr. Octogonapus]

I swear to fucking god when I rule the world I'm going to ban record labels outright.

[Will]

I swear to fucking god when I rule the world I'm going to ban record labels outright.

I want Brazil, England, Antarctica and Australia. :lol:

I've got to write two essays tonight based on stories I haven't read yet, and there's no information on them on the internet for me to even cheat! It sucks so much. I'm going to be up all damn night.

[Zak]

God. I got my phone and jeep taken away from me for skipping class.

[Arhaz]

God. I got my phone and jeep taken away from me for skipping class.
they do that?

[Andrea]

I hate it when my boss here at work jokes about slitting her wrists. She does it for attention and sympathy too. You can tell when someone is doing it for attention or when someone is just plain out of it and they need help. She's the first choice. What kind of person jokes about it for sympathy anyway? :rolleyes:

Ugh, the things I go through every day.

[Derek The Infamous]

I hate it when my boss here at work jokes about slitting her wrists. She does it for attention and sympathy too. You can tell when someone is doing it for attention or when someone is just plain out of it and they need help. She's the first choice. What kind of person jokes about it for sympathy anyway? :rolleyes:

Ugh, the things I go through every day.

I could say a few things about your boss but I think they'd break the rules. :lol:

[Andrea]

I could say a few things about your boss but I think they'd break the rules. :lol:

It's just.....it pisses me off. I mean the way she came right out in the open and said that. You should know why this irks me so much. God I hate her.

[Arhaz]

I hate it when my boss here at work jokes about slitting her wrists. She does it for attention and sympathy too. You can tell when someone is doing it for attention or when someone is just plain out of it and they need help. She's the first choice. What kind of person jokes about it for sympathy anyway? :rolleyes:

Ugh, the things I go through every day.

i know a friend like that. they need help...because of their need for attention.

my parents are anti LP. what more can i say?

[Holiday]

I LOVE MY NEW CAR! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(w00t) (w00t) (w00t)


*cough*



I just had to let that out.

[Colonel Sanders]

I LOVE MUSIC! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[John]

my sister's such a bitch, i asked her what was wrong and he replied:

"I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT"

fuck u bitch.

[Bryan]

Guys, guess what..I like this band Linkin Park!!!! Has anyone every heard of them???:D (just trying to add some humor to everyones problems ^_^ )

[Tom]

God. I got my phone and jeep taken away from me for skipping class.

Boule.


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awww man, why the fuck am i having feelings for her again?! >_<
I thought me and her were done and that was it, but noo, stupid heart has to get all fluttery and shit, not to say i don't ever like people :P, just why her...again? i bet she doesn't even feel the same way.

Yeah that might not make sence to anyone, but it does to me.

[Dr. Octogonapus]

Blah, I hate how I'm so good at giving my friends relationship advice and getting people to hook up with each other, but I can't find anyone for myself for shit. I mean...part of me is happy to see my friends happy with their relationships but it just makes me even more lonely inside. =/

[John]

Blah, I hate how I'm so good at giving my friends relationship advice and getting people to hook up with each other, but I can't find anyone for myself for shit. I mean...part of me is happy to see my friends happy with their relationships but it just makes me even more lonely inside. =/

I feel that same exact way. IT SUCKS!!!

[Rachel]

Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish I followed through with my threats of killing myself.

I wonder, I just wonder, how my dad would react. Maybe he'd realize how much of a fucking failure he is as a father.

[John]

Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish I followed through with my threats of killing myself.

I wonder, I just wonder, how my dad would react. Maybe he'd realize how much of a fucking failure he is as a father.

He will realize it sooner or later, u don't have to go to the extremes.

Killing yourself is not the answer.

[Rachel]

He will realize it sooner or later, u don't have to go to the extremes.

Killing yourself is not the answer.

I don't want to now, but when I was suffering depression really bad, I wish I had followed through with it, so I could watch in the afterlife how fucking psycho my dad would go.

[Misfit Jay]

Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish I followed through with my threats of killing myself.

I wonder, I just wonder, how my dad would react. Maybe he'd realize how much of a fucking failure he is as a father.

I'm so glad you never went through with it.

I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you.

[John]

I don't want to now, but when I was suffering depression really bad, I wish I had followed through with it, so I could watch in the afterlife how fucking psycho my dad would go.

he will realize sooner or later that he hasn;t been the best dad, time will take care of that.

[Harlz]

Blah, I hate how I'm so good at giving my friends relationship advice and getting people to hook up with each other, but I can't find anyone for myself for shit. I mean...part of me is happy to see my friends happy with their relationships but it just makes me even more lonely inside. =/

Shit, do I ever know that feeling.

Doesnt make much sense does it?

:cloud:

[Linja]

STUPID THING TO DO stupid thing to do, Mali!

[John]

STUPID THING TO DO stupid thing to do, Mali!

?????

[.Amanda.]

So my boyfriend[?] and I are on a break.

Because I complain too much and I'm a flirt. And he's right.

So I'm sorta like on probation until I get my act together.

This is gonna suck. =\

[John]

So my boyfriend[?] and I are on a break.

Because I complain too much and I'm a flirt. And he's right.

So I'm sorta like on probation until I get my act together.

This is gonna suck. =\

don't flirt and dont complain, you're gonna be alright.

[.Amanda.]

Thanks, Sir PointsOutTheObvious-A-Lot.

[Tomi]

Thanks, Sir PointsOutTheObvious-A-Lot.
...you mean Captain Obvious?

[John]

Thanks, Sir PointsOutTheObvious-A-Lot.

well u can always flirt behind his back and complain when he isn't around.

[.Amanda.]

And that would make me a huge bitch.

[John]

And that would make me a huge bitch.

decide something then.

[.Amanda.]

what are you talking about? There's nothing to decide.

[The Doctor]

Johnny you have absolutely no idea what you're talking about do you?

[Luke]

You know, whether Johnny knows what he's talking about or not, it seems as if he was trying to give some kind of support to you so be somewhat grateful. And Amanda if you care about your fella then don't flirt and complain, yeah it is quite obvious isn't it? Then why were you doing it in the first place?

And Nate, for the love of god, what was the point of that?

Sorry to seem like a bastard but I think all of that was uncalled for.

[Misfit Jay]

You know whether Johnny knows what he's talking about or not, it seems as if he was trying to give some kind of support to you so be somewhat grateful. And Amanda if you care about your fella then don't flirt and complain, yeah it is quite obvious isn't it? Then why were you doing it in the first place?

And Nate, for the love of god, what was the point of that?

Sorry to seem like a bastard but I think all of that was uncalled for.

Don't worry. I was thinking the same thing.

[John]

*sighs*

thanks Hellflame and Misfit.

[.Amanda.]

Sorry, I thought this was a venting thread not a "give advice that doesn't make sense and then have people rip you a new asshole about it" thread

[John]

Sorry, I thought this was a venting thread not a "give advice that doesn't make sense and then have people rip you a new asshole about it" thread

damn girl, it's ok take a chill pill.

[.Amanda.]

And Amanda if you care about your fella then don't flirt and complain, yeah it is quite obvious isn't it? Then why were you doing it in the first place?

And you? Have no right to take that sort of attitude, especially not having any clue what's going on behind all of this.

I didn't ask any of you for advice. I was getting something off my chest.

So get off my fucking case.

[Derek The Infamous]

Whoa whoa whoa guys. Since when did this thread become "Got Someone You'd Like To Shit On When They're Down?".

You all disappoint me. I don't care if you feel what Amanda admitted to was wrong, you could've found better ways to say it.

[John]

Whoa whoa whoa guys. Since when did this thread become "Got Someone You'd Like To Shit On When They're Down?".

You all disappoint me. I don't care if you feel what Amanda admitted to was wrong, you could've found better ways to say it.

you're right.

[Luke]

And you? Have no right to take that sort of attitude, especially not having any clue what's going on behind all of this.

I didn't ask any of you for advice. I was getting something off my chest.

So get off my fucking case.

You're right, I havn't got a clue what's really going on and niether does Johnny or anyone else here that I know, however whether you wanted support or not, Johnny gave it to you. Whether it was good or bad advice it doesn't matter, the fact is that he took an interest and tried to help you. You replied in a sarcastic negative manner which was uncalled for. Quite frankly Amanda my view is that I don't know you and whether I give a toss about your situation or not is besides the point. You don't react negativly to someone who is trying to help you, bottom line.

And advice is given out to probably more than half of the people who post their problems here anyway, perhaps in future you should leave a comment saying ''don't give me any advice'' because no one knows any better.

Sorry if I seemed out of line before but this had to be said.

[Derek The Infamous]

Amanda isn't god. Amanda isn't some angelic perfect being that needs to do everything right.

Honestly, I'm a bit tired of some people judging her on here and I notice it happens a lot. Her boyfriend is almost blind, and albino. She took a kid some jerks would look past and respected him for the person he is and not his physical disabilities.

You guys are quick to judge someone you barely know. Please, for the sake of being good people..just grow up. You can't begin to pass judgment on someone you barely know. It's wrong and makes you look prejudicial.

Maybe I'm taking it wrong. I know you were giving "advice" but you gave it in a negative way that provoked her negative attitude.

[.Amanda.]

lol Derek, I appreciate the effort but you really don't have to make me look like some sort of saint just because Casey is the way he is. He could be a black man with 20/20 vision and it wouldn't change anything. :lol:

Physical apprearance is trivial imho.

[Luke]

I apologise if it seemed as if I stepped out of line, I'm usualy the last person to start judging. It's just that I strongly believe that if someone is trying to help you then negativity will get you nowhere. I didn't mean to judge, it was just a comparisent (dunno if that's the right spelling lol) to a sarcastic comment. I apologise once again for it. :)

[Derek The Infamous]

Now lets all kiss and make up.

Actually no, knowing the hormones of LPAers it'd turn into porn. Don't do that.

[Luke]

Now lets all kiss and make up.

Actually no, knowing the hormones of LPAers it'd turn into porn. Don't do that.

:lol:!

That's going in my sig. :lol:

[.Amanda.]

NO, THAT'S FLIRTING.

[Rachel]

just friggin acknowledge me already.

its been 3 years since you blew me off.

[Tomi]

*reads posts between Amanda/Johnny/Hellflame/Derek*

...what the hell? :lol:

[John]

*reads posts between Amanda/Johnny/Hellflame/Derek*

...what the hell? :lol:

yeah, that was madness Tomi.

[Linja]

So I got called an elephant-girl in incorrect russian today, because I accidentally jostled some kid and his mother while trying to get into the marshrutka. My friends and I had been waiting longer than that woman and her kid, and I honestly did not see them. Nor did I see the kid crying or looking annoyed in any way, yeah, okay, I did it accidentally, and had she acctually told me about it without the insult (I do not appreciate being called an elephant-girl (it is much ruder in russian than it sounds)) I would have apologised. I did not.

He's put me in ignore.

Bunch of assholes.

The banana daiquiri was yummy.

[Harlz]

Why do I have to console his girlfriend?
Not that I mind, she is basically my best friend, but it'd be nice if he looked after her every now and again.

What makes it all the more confusing is that he is my other best friend.

Head spinning yet?
Well im nuts about her best friend, who happens to be nuts about my footy teams captain.

Woo, talk about love trapeziums
:cloud:

[Daniel]

;634574']Why do I have to console his girlfriend?
Not that I mind, she is basically my best friend, but it'd be nice if he looked after her every now and again.

What makes it all the more confusing is that he is my other best friend.

Head spinning yet?
Well im nuts about her best friend, who happens to be nuts about my footy teams captain.

Woo, talk about love trapeziums
:cloud:

:blink: wow that certainly did make my head spin. I'd try to give some advice, but hey look what happened when someone did that a couple of pages ago.

Working with that bitch of a private school chick today fucking sucked >_<

[Christopher]

So I got called an elephant-girl in incorrect russian today, because I accidentally jostled some kid and his mother while trying to get into the marshrutka. My friends and I had been waiting longer than that woman and her kid, and I honestly did not see them. Nor did I see the kid crying or looking annoyed in any way, yeah, okay, I did it accidentally, and had she acctually told me about it without the insult (I do not appreciate being called an elephant-girl (it is much ruder in russian than it sounds)) I would have apologised. I did not.

He's put me in ignore.

Bunch of assholes.

The banana daiquiri was yummy.

Obviously, you're not a "elephant-girl" and it obviously wasn't your fault so don't feel bad, Mali. :hug:

[Linja]

Obviously, you're not a "elephant-girl" and it obviously wasn't your fault so don't feel bad, Mali. :hug:

:hug: Thanks, honey, it really bothered me for a while there, still does a bit.

Another thing that's bothering me is how the two girls I went to the film with probably think me nuts for going out in the cold blizzard so lightly dressed, and my parents nuts for letting me. Damn judgemental. Why do peoples' opinions of me bother me so much?

Aw, fuck them.

[Christopher]

:hug: Thanks, honey, it really bothered me for a while there, still does a bit.

Another thing that's bothering me is how the two girls I went to the film with probably think me nuts for going out in the cold blizzard so lightly dressed, and my parents nuts for letting me. Damn judgemental. Why do peoples' opinions of me bother me so much?

Aw, fuck them.

Being concerned about how people think of you isn't a bad thing, it shows you want to be a nice person and that that is important to you.

People are way too judgemental sometimes and that sucks, but you can't change how people think. Sometimes you really have to say fuck them, if it helps anyway. :P

And those girls probably had a great time with you at the movies, so they won't care if you were dressed lightly.

I wore shorts all week even when it started to get really cold. :lol: It's not a big deal.

[Linja]

I guess so :hug::hug:

[Christopher]

I guess so :hug::hug:

:hug: *double hug* :lol:

[Urantia Girl]

Something I wrote in a blog, I got bored.

As a person of a somewhat seemingly rebellious attitude, I would like to take the time to wonder aimlessly on a few select things, first off Why? Why the sterotypical judgements people? What is the definition of normal to you? If we were all normal, then we would all be the same. But are we? As I begin to ponder these things, I finally realize how arrogant some people can be. I don't appreciate when one calls somebody a name all because of their differences. All this is is a trigger of the mind. You think that if this person isn't like you, then they are automatically lower. This is not the case, due to many different upbringings in a household and the like. Many people appreciate different things. People listen to different styles of music, dress differently, and act differently. This is all because of your self-expression. We are all self-expressing our ideas and morals. Just because someone isn't as "cool" as you are or have as many friends as you do dosen't mean they are lower. I don't want to see naysayers preaching their thoughts about how amazing and popualr they are. Personally and as a human of intellect, I think that all of us can get along if we just put aside all this negativity. As I may sound like a sort of hippy, this statement is true. Why would you judge someone based purely on looks alone?

Listen to me, if you are reading this, especially if you yourself do these things: Does it make you feel better that you are making fun of people? If it does, then you have some problems that need to be worked out. If you're under 18 and smoke, how does that make you feel? Why do you do it? Because everyone else is doing it? Think back to what I stated before: "If we were all normal, then all of us would be the same." Tell me, what is your definition of cool? What they potray in the media?

I am very active in these kinds of things, and I am sick of seeing this happen. I'm a very open-minded person, I talk to many shapes and sizes of people, and never judge based on looks alone. You may read this and think "Wow what a (insert word used primarily today to enforce negativity)". Honestly, I don't care. Take your arrogant remarks and tell it to your friends. Well, how can they be friends if you're just judging on looks? They might be complete morons on the inside.

In conclusion, I find naysayers a disrespectful group of people. I have no need to express active hate and utter discrimination.

-LEGION TORY

[Arhaz]

I'm ugly. I'm ugly. I'm ugly. I'm ugly. I'm ugly. I'm ugly.
and i sound like a girl.
and i'm ugly.
gah.

[Harlz]

:blink: wow that certainly did make my head spin. I'd try to give some advice, but hey look what happened when someone did that a couple of pages ago.

Working with that bitch of a private school chick today fucking sucked >_<

:mellow: Shes still around???

Can't you come up with some devious scheme to get her fired?
'cos that'd be funny, and get her out of your hair at the same time.

See, its a win-win situation! :D

:cloud:

[Daniel]

;635066']:mellow: Shes still around???

Can't you come up with some devious scheme to get her fired?
'cos that'd be funny, and get her out of your hair at the same time.

See, its a win-win situation! :D

:cloud:

:lol: I don't need to, she had a $200 till shortage, so unless her dad (who's a cop) gets it sorted out, she'll probably get fired. Next week I'm gonna go in and act hell nice to her just to weird things out lol.

Plus I've met a chick at the bakery near my store who digs metal and is b-e-a-utiful. Who called ME to have a random 3 hour conversation yesterday. xD

So I'm in a fairly good mood despite working with the other one.

[Harlz]

:lol: I don't need to, she had a $200 till shortage, so unless her dad (who's a cop) gets it sorted out, she'll probably get fired. Next week I'm gonna go in and act hell nice to her just to weird things out lol.

Plus I've met a chick at the bakery near my store who digs metal and is b-e-a-utiful. Who called ME to have a random 3 hour conversation yesterday. xD

So I'm in a fairly good mood despite working with the other one.

Nice, hopefully this one turns out better.
And even if it doesnt, you don't work in the same place, so go for gold! :lol:

:cloud:

[Daniel]

;635072']Nice, hopefully this one turns out better.
And even if it doesnt, you don't work in the same place, so go for gold! :lol:

:cloud:

:lol: too bad the bakery she works at is literally all of about 5m from the entrance to my store!

[Harlz]

:lol: too bad the bakery she works at is literally all of about 5m from the entrance to my store!

So its within stoning distance?

bugger.

Oh well, go for it anyway!
:cloud:

[Daniel]

;635075']So its within stoning distance?

bugger.

Oh well, go for it anyway!
:cloud:

Well maybe not stoning, but bread-ing distance anyway :lol:
But yeah, I'm gonna go for it. Maybe not straight away, but I will.

[Harlz]

Well maybe not stoning, but bread-ing distance anyway :lol:
But yeah, I'm gonna go for it. Maybe not straight away, but I will.

Hmmm, stale bread could probably be quite painful :lol:

And good luck then. :thumbsup:

:cloud:

[Daniel]

;635077']Hmmm, stale bread could probably be quite painful :lol:

And good luck then. :thumbsup:

:cloud:

:lol: thanks man.

EDIT: and I hope things start to look up for you too mate.

[Tomi]

:lol: I don't need to, she had a $200 till shortage, so unless her dad (who's a cop) gets it sorted out, she'll probably get fired. Next week I'm gonna go in and act hell nice to her just to weird things out lol.

Plus I've met a chick at the bakery near my store who digs metal and is b-e-a-utiful. Who called ME to have a random 3 hour conversation yesterday. xD

So I'm in a fairly good mood despite working with the other one.
Scooooore.

[Daniel]

Scooooore.

You're telling me. *Does happy dance*

Oh wait, too bad she's in Queensland (so like the complete opposite side of Australia) for the next two weeks >_<

[Jacen]

Awww wish you told this to me sooner....I would've spear-tackle her or anyone completely at random :lol:...and no i'm not a girl basher....I just like contact *ehh ehh:lol:*

[Louis]

It makes me wonder, sometimes.

All of those hints, and all of those nudges. But I was so blind. I completely missed everything. I was so blind.

A good majority of how terrible I feel is wanting her to be happy. Now I'm actually getting upset that she likes him. Or maybe just that she has liked him for so long.

Maybe she was thinking about him at the time. She could have been lying to me.

- - -

I'm lost. I really am. It's upsetting to think that this, even though it's not that big of a deal, is practically killing me. It's ruining me and it's making the good times bad. I can't enjoy myself anymore because of this.

What do I do?

[Arhaz]

It makes me wonder, sometimes.

All of those hints, and all of those nudges. But I was so blind. I completely missed everything. I was so blind.

A good majority of how terrible I feel is wanting her to be happy. Now I'm actually getting upset that she likes him. Or maybe just that she has liked him for so long.

Maybe she was thinking about him at the time. She could have been lying to me.

- - -

I'm lost. I really am. It's upsetting to think that this, even though it's not that big of a deal, is practically killing me. It's ruining me and it's making the good times bad. I can't enjoy myself anymore because of this.

What do I do?

your best friend fallen for another guy?

[Louis]

your best friend fallen for another guy?

Yes, and that 'another guy' is my best friend.

[Linja]

It makes me wonder, sometimes.

I kind of get you, minus all the angst that came along with the confusion.

I really liked this guy, and a girlfriend of mine said she'd help me. He fell for her and she for him. I didn't see it coming, guess I misread it all. I'm over it now, though, don't know about them.

[Christopher]

"Love" is too hard for words...

[Louis]

"Love" is too hard for words...

True that, brother. True that.

[Arashi]

I posted in the last thread about how my aunt fainted.

She lives in a joint family system, and I've already mentioned what her husband said to her. His brother's wife said "Atleast I don't pretend and act to fall and hurt myself".




Bitch.

[Beca]

FRICK! I TYPED OUT A MASSIVE PARAGRAPH THEN CLICKED POST AND IT SAID DATABASE ERROR SO NOW I GOTTA POST IT AGAIN.

I hate him SO FRICKIN MUCH! He makes me so mad!! He thinks hes this best at everything, and that he has the best stuff ever, no one can beat him :roll: Its all " i have this, its so good, better than yours" or some other crap that comes out of his huge mouth.
He calls me names. Before he wouldnt shut up calling me them so i actually strangled him. Then he goes and says it again! WTF?!?! And to think i actually liked him last year, i actually kissed him!
The other night when i was camping with him and a few friends he was like "Ooh your just jelous because you like me and im paying attention to Sarah" His face is too far up his arse that he actually thinks i like him?!?!
fuckin bastard.

[MooMoozer]

Sometimes I wish people would understand me. I like to be different, but I dont know why people can't accept people who are different. Owell I guess there will always be those type of people in this world.

[Tom]

Why is she still trying to get my attention?! o_0 i said i never wanted to see her again, but no she has to rub that she has a boyfriend in my face...

If only she knew that i was going out with the one girl she hates more than anything ^_^

[MooMoozer]

Why is she still trying to get my attention?! o_0 i said i never wanted to see her again, but no she has to rub that she has a boyfriend in my face...

If only she knew that i was going out with the one girl she hates more than anything ^_^

ooOOOoo that's sounds like a fun soap opera.

[Arashi]

WOW. A lot of people are posting here now.

[MooMoozer]

That's because it's teh secks.

[...Lauren?]

I can't stand my mother. At all. She's a fucking Jehovah's Witness, so she doesn't let me fucking hang out with any of my friends who aren't Jehovah's Witnesses. And even though I'm agnostic and I have been for quite some time, she still makes me go to Jehovah's Witness meetings (they don't call it church IDK why) 3 fucking times a week. I just can't stand it anymore. And I'm ADHD, but the medications that I have to take make me depressed and make me act and feel like a zombie, but when I refuse to take my medication she says that she doesn't give a shit about how I feel, I'm being a burden on the family and that she's going to make me switch schools if I don't take them. Then, of course, I won't get to ever see any of my friends ever again. And as far as my friends that are Jehovah's Witnesses go, if they found out I was agnostic they'd stop talking to me.
And on top of it all, my boyfriend broke up with me a couple of months ago, and instead of getting over him as time went on I'm only missing him more. When he first met me he wouldn't stop talking to his friends about me and he wouldn't leave me alone so I have no idea what to think about why he broke up with me. He won't tell me. But at least we were still friends, but now he's mad at me and he won't talk to me because I was crying all last week and I wouldn't tell him what was wrong.
And I'm so sad and stressed right now that I haven't been caring about school and my grades are dropping. And I need 20 hours of community service to graduate but I only have 1 and I don't even know if they'll let me graduate 9th grade. And exams are coming up.
And I sprained my ankle and it's all bruised and swollen.
Fuck!>_<

[Rahat]

my best friend angel recently died...he was like my older bro and we used to hang out all the time and we used to go drinking together and everything and we even both decided to become sober at the same time and we both still would be if he was still here

[MooMoozer]

Sometimes I really wonder why I even try anymore. Why do I want to die so much? It bugs me so much.

Maybe it's because I'm so stressed about school. It's my senior year, I need to prepare for college. I can't slack off because I have to graduate. I'm pushed to do so many things, I have to be there for my boyfriend every second I love him so much. But school is one of my top priorities, they both fight for first place in my life and it drives me so crazy. Because sometimes he dosen't understand how much it means to me, how much it would make my mom proud of me. But I don't want him to think I'm ignoring him when I'm not. I just want to be educated, and spend the rest of my life with him.

He dosn't know why I dont tell him every little thing I'm doing, well maybe because it's my personal stuff. It's alttile clingy, but I like knowing that he cares that much. But I mostly wish he would just trust me already. I know I've done some things that probably would have ripped him apart inside. But I regret that shit that I've done. Everyday it drive me insane that I cant take back what I did.

I'm done writing here... I'm going to continue this in a blog.

[.Amanda.]

This break is going to kill me. I know it's not permanent but ughh. I mean of course it's a lot better than being broken up but it's still hard on me.

It's sort of like:
http://tn3-1.deviantart.com/fs6/300W/i/2005/093/4/1/Out_Of_Reach_by_Heather_Boicourt.jpg *found on deviantART

"Here, look at this, BUTTTT you can't have it. Nyah, nyah nyah nyah nyah :P "

It's hard. It's sort of like back before we got together all over again. He's there, he's a great friend, I have him, but I want ALL of him.

Ughhhh.

[Will]

My girlfriend and I went through something similar, Amanda. We both had our problems and decided to work on them (behind my back she told everyone that all the problems were mine and I had to work on them, which I confronted her about later), yet we'd still talk all the time and hang out with each other (usually other people were around though). All we'd do was pine for each other, and it was really hard. Eventually, though, we got back together after things were sorted out, and everything's OK now. So I'm sure things will be OK for you, too.

[...Lauren?]

I talked with my school counselor today and she told me to see a therapist and that I might need depression meds.

Ugggh, I really wish I didn't have to go through shit now, at the end of the year, when I won't have my friends there for support during the summer. Even though half my friends have already deserted me because they're so sick of my emotions.

This sucks. :sad:

[John]

I talked with my school counselor today and she told me to see a therapist and that I might need depression meds.

Ugggh, I really wish I didn't have to go through shit now, at the end of the year, when I won't have my friends there for support during the summer. Even though half my friends have already deserted me because they're so sick of my emotions.

This sucks. :sad:

don't worry u will be better taking the meds, and u can also make new friends trust me, some of your HS friends will vanished anyways.

[Louis]

I need to scream somewhere.

Can I scream in here?

[John]

I need to scream somewhere.

Can I scream in here?

si.

[Harlz]

God dammit. Its only been a week, I never expected to miss her this much.
Ah fuck, this is the downside to the holidays aye.

I don't even know why i'm posting this, theres no real purpose, I guess i just had to say something, somewhere.

So What If I Never Hold You?

[Daniel]

;636749']God dammit. Its only been a week, I never expected to miss her this much.
Ah fuck, this is the downside to the holidays aye.

I don't even know why i'm posting this, theres no real purpose, I guess i just had to say something, somewhere.

So What If I Never Hold You?

Hey man, I know the feeling, and it sucks. For instance, that metal-loving gal I told you about is in Queensland for the next two weeks.
>_<

[Dean]

I'd just like to say my uncle's a twat.

[...Lauren?]

don't worry u will be better taking the meds, and u can also make new friends trust me, some of your HS friends will vanished anyways.

Yeah I know I'll probably be better off on the meds, but I've always had this weird aversion to taking pills, and I'm not looking forward to that 1 week-1 month period I'll have to go through when I first go on them. I've heard people say that you're not really better, you're just emotionless (at first).

But I seriously only have 1 friend to talk to right now, because all of my friends are either crappy fair-weather friends that I don't tell about anything bad that happens in my life, or they're mad at me.

[.Amanda.]

As of 2AM this morning the break is overrrrrrrr. =D

And I'm going to Myrtle Beach at 1AM ad won't be back til Monday.

Bye!

[Tomi]

I failed math this term. Wow.

Way to go, you procrastinating dumbass.

[this is where reality should hit me, and send me flying backwards to actually getting around to finishing my homework and studying]

[...Lauren?]

I failed math this term. Wow.

Way to go, you procrastinating dumbass.

[this is where reality should hit me, and send me flying backwards to actually getting around to finishing my homework and studying]

Yeah, I've been that way too for the past couple of months. :whistling I didn't fail anything (yet) but I haven't done my math homework for the past week, and my Spanish grade has dropped 15 points.

[Louis]

si.

Okay.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

*sigh*

Thank you.

[Tomi]

Learn to fucking read writing, you morons.

I try so fucking hard to write neat, and they STILL nitpick about the slightest unclarity. Yes, that's a 5. Note how the bottom doesn't fully connect, making it NOT a 6. And you know, added bonus that I don't know Kelowna that well, so of course I'll fuck up some street names, and those POS phones and pens of yours really aren't helping me out here when I ask customers to spell it out for me [90&#37; of the time, I do]. I even fucking repeat back to them what I wrote, and they say it's right, then when the driver takes the order I get a huge "WTF?" because apparently the street doesn't even exist, or whatever. This is why I was hesitant to take the phones in the first place. Next thing is they'll probably get me working at the oven too. I'll either burn myself, the pizza, or the store down. Murphy's law owns me, honestly. One day it'll click, and I'll stop doing the most stupid things ever, like forgetting the pineapple in a hawaiian pizza [ham/pineapple]. I swear I put it on! *groan*

Although, for the pay, and the people I work with, I almost think it could be worth it. I mean, I understand you can't read something that I agree is slightly a mess, but still, like I had borked up an order [again, damn pen] so I went to re-write it, but Denny [Danny? *shrug*] offered to re-write it. The driver couldn't read the bloody 5, and said it was a 6 [see rant above]. I mean, come on, she has nice writing, and that was clearly a fucking 5. *sigh* Whatever, like anyone will listen to me, my 'wtfs' fall on drivers' deaf ears as they claim innocence bullshit. I ask someone else to read what the driver asked about [without saying what was wrong, avoiding bias], they read it perfectly.

[Dr. Octogonapus]

Is it seriously that fucking hard for all the idiots to use their fucking turn signals?

[Tomi]

Is it seriously that fucking hard for all the idiots to use their fucking turn signals?
Probably. Considering their general IQ is probably smaller than Mark's shoe size...

[Arashi]

My mother's cousin saw a random car parked outside her apartment for sometime.





Turned out to have a dead boy in it :O!

[Dart]

Is it seriously that fucking hard for all the idiots to use their fucking turn signals?


my mom and I almost crashed yesterday because of that shit...idiots

[Arhaz]

My mother's cousin saw a random car parked outside her apartment for sometime.
Turned out to have a dead boy in it :O!

ya ya yaa! that's...bad.

[Kobe #24]

is it so hard for the lakers to play consistently? damn

ps - i hate raja

[Arashi]

ya ya yaa! that's...bad.

I swear. Apparently he had a heart failure.
It came in the news, he was about 40 years old.

[Rahat]

they found the guy who shot my friend angel but andels parents don't want him to get the death sentence, i can understand where they're coming from and that they don't want another person to die after what they've been through but i think that if anyone kills then they should not deserve to live...i belive he is getting the life sentence now but i'd rather have them kill him then just leave him in there...

[Louis]

is it so hard for the lakers to play consistently? damn

ps - i hate raja

Don't be bashing my Phoenix Suns, boy. :lol:

Blegh, what a day.

[John]

Don't be bashing my Phoenix Suns, boy. :lol:

Blegh, what a day.

lakers @ suns tomorrow

I HATE THE SUNS
i LOVE L.A

[Disenchanted]

I hate my school and the people in it.

[thefaceinside]

lately i've been absorbed in a sort of nostalgic attitude, and it sucks. i miss things the way they were 2 years ago, especially a boy i was like in love with back then. he was my BEST friend, and he moved. and 2 years later, after 2 other relationships, i stillll miss him. i got with 2 other lying hypocritical cheaters who i thought were amazing at first. ive seen the way most guys are- arrogant immature selfish jerks. now i realize he's perfect and knowing i'll never have that again kills me!

anyways things nowadays are horrible. school got so much harder and more complicated. i barely get along with anyone anymore. back then, i was cool with everyone. everything was happy and all just hangin around the neighborhood on weekends, nice and simple. no drama or crazy outings.

Bottom line-
don't u just wanna go back to the simple happy times sometimes?

hold on to the good times, don't take them for granted. because NOTHING lasts for ever. you never know what you have until it's gone.

[Friskey™]

The loneliness is getting to me...badly.

[Tom]

So i have feelings for her again do i!? >_<

[...Lauren?]

The loneliness is getting to me...badly.

I've felt that way a lot lately. Most of my friends are either moving away, mad at me, or I'm not allowed to hang out with them. >_<

:hug: Hope things aren't too bad for you.

[Friskey™]

I've felt that way a lot lately. Most of my friends are either moving away, mad at me, or I'm not allowed to hang out with them. >_<

:hug: Hope things aren't too bad for you.

It's not only on that side, but on the "love" side as well. I'm tired of feeling alone.

:hug: Thanks though.

[John]

It's not only on that side, but on the "love" side as well. I'm tired of feeling alone.

:hug: Thanks though.

i'm used to being alone so i dont even complain anymore.

[...Lauren?]

It's not only on that side, but on the "love" side as well. I'm tired of feeling alone.

:hug: Thanks though.

Yeah, I know how you feel.
My boyfriend broke up with a few months ago. He stopped talking to me Valentine's Day, and broke up with me the following week.
We decided we were friends, but now he's not talking to me for some reason. Actually, just a few minutes ago, he was on MySpace and not on AIM so I sent him a message to get on AIM and he immediately signed off MySpace. I have no clue why he's avoiding me, but he's been acting weird for the past week.
*sigh* I was actually in a good mood today (he was talking to me at school today), then he started with the e-avoidence, and now I feel like shit again.
I still don't get why he talks to me at school but then avoids me online and doesn't answer my IMs/messages...

[John]

Yeah, I know how you feel.
My boyfriend broke up with a few months ago. He stopped talking to me Valentine's Day, and broke up with me the following week.
We decided we were friends, but now he's not talking to me for some reason. Actually, just a few minutes ago, he was on MySpace and not on AIM so I sent him a message to get on AIM and he immediately signed off MySpace. I have no clue why he's avoiding me, but he's been acting weird for the past week.
*sigh* I was actually in a good mood today (he was talking to me at school today), then he started with the e-avoidence, and now I feel like shit again.
I still don't get why he talks to me at school but then avoids me online and doesn't answer my IMs/messages...

maybe he still have feelings for you or something but he tries to avoid you as much as possible so he can't get his hopes back or something idk haha.

[...Lauren?]

maybe he still have feelings for you or something but he tries to avoid you as much as possible so he can't get his hopes back or something idk haha.

I seriously doubt that...

I'm pretty sure he hates me now.

[Luke]

God, my imune system must be, like, negative. :lol:

I'm surprised I can even joke about this, I'm actualy in agony right now...damn ear infections. :(

[Louis]

God, my imune system must be, like, negative. :lol:

I'm surprised I can even joke about this, I'm actualy in agony right now...damn ear infections. :(

Ear infections suck.

I'm sorry bro. Hopefully you'll feel better soon. :)

[John]

and to make my life worse, my fav team (the lakers) might not make the playoffs!!! yay for life being so awesome.



*dies*

[Linja]

:hug: to everybody.

Me? I keep getting grounded. Not so big a deal, I guess.

I dislike when people attempt to MAKE me take action.

What else?

Bad, bitchy Mali.

[edit!update] Da's being an ass. It's really very upsetting.

[Louis]

and to make my life worse, my fav team (the lakers) might not make the playoffs!!! yay for life being so awesome.



*dies*

I was actually kind of surprised with how the Lakers played the Suns yesterday. Kobe just didn't have a good night.

Yeah, I'm a Suns fan, but that was surprising of the Lakers. Sorry to say, but it was entertaining to see Phil Jackson get mad at the team.

Well, same with any coach. :lol:

[John]

I was actually kind of surprised with how the Lakers played the Suns yesterday. Kobe just didn't have a good night.

Yeah, I'm a Suns fan, but that was surprising of the Lakers. Sorry to say, but it was entertaining to see Phil Jackson get mad at the team.

Well, same with any coach. :lol:

I was surprise the lakers didn't lose by 40 points.

god i hate smush parker and lamar odom.

[Bryan]

So, we all have our reasons for listening to Linkin Park :)

[John]

So, we all have our reasons for listening to Linkin Park :)

they are the best

[...Lauren?]

Well, I didn't break down crying yesterday or today.
At least it's a start.

[John]

Well, I didn't break down crying yesterday or today.
At least it's a start.

yup, see? is not that bad!

[Tomi]

Man, you know, whether you want to believe it or not, Linkin Park's "In the End" lyrics are basically spot on... *shakes head*

I try so fucking hard not to screw up at work, yet in the end, I'll still make the slightest mistake and get bitched at. I haven't haven't even been working for a whole month, and they seem to expect me to be perfect? Alright, sure. Just as soon as you quit bitching and let me fucking THINK of what I'm doing, instead of having "don't fuck up, or you're dead" running through my head at all times, then I'll miss the slightest little thing as I'm going through the order.

Perhaps pizza isn't my line of work. Perhaps I'm just ranting over something extremely stupid. Perhaps...

[Arashi]

Thanks to the fucking reason of me breaking up with my boyfriend, I'm going with Akbar.



And I'm making Dark green and pink worked on shalwar kameez.

[Arhaz]

And I'm making Dark green and pink worked on shalwar kameez.

you know what? how about sort of making a japanese design on the kameez and stitching it sort of like a kimono?

@penor: ...perhaps you should stop thinking so much. i know it's easy to say. but don't let them get to you. and little things in life, make it a big deal and want from your heart to obtain it. then all these fickle people and their fickle thoughts will disappear. don't listen to them. they're just wasting your time. instead listen to something that's more precious... how about, yourself?

[John]

Man, you know, whether you want to believe it or not, Linkin Park's "In the End" lyrics are basically spot on... *shakes head*

I try so fucking hard not to screw up at work, yet in the end, I'll still make the slightest mistake and get bitched at. I haven't haven't even been working for a whole month, and they seem to expect me to be perfect? Alright, sure. Just as soon as you quit bitching and let me fucking THINK of what I'm doing, instead of having "don't fuck up, or you're dead" running through my head at all times, then I'll miss the slightest little thing as I'm going through the order.

Perhaps pizza isn't my line of work. Perhaps I'm just ranting over something extremely stupid. Perhaps...

don't worry tomi, shit happens all the time if it doesn't work there then try and get another job.

[...Lauren?]

yup, see? is not that bad!

And today makes three days without crying... ^_^

Doesn't mean I don't want too, but still, I've definitly felt worse.

@Tomi: Just don't let them get too you (thinking 'don't fuck up or your dead' will probably make you mroe likely to fuck up anyways). And try looking for another job if it's that bad.

[Arashi]

I was going to wear a kimono but I can't "deviate from school rules".

[...Lauren?]

Great, now my friend Marci moved away and I don't even know why and she's not answering her phone.

All my mother told me was that her family was having problems and that she was moving away to live with her sister and that she promised she wouldn't talk about why she moved.

Goddamnit.>_<

[John]

I was going to wear a kimono but I can't "deviate from school rules".

school fucking sucks

@Lauren 3 days wooooooooooot wooooooooooot!

[...Lauren?]

school fucking sucks

Yeah, it does.

I kind of can't wait until school is out for summer so I don't have to deal with teachers or homework or waking up early or anything, but once school is out for summer I won't be able to see any of my friends for 3 months.

[John]

Yeah, it does.

I kind of can't wait until school is out for summer so I don't have to deal with teachers or homework or waking up early or anything, but once school is out for summer I won't be able to see any of my friends for 3 months.

yeah but you can always call them or talk to them online, isn not the same but it;s something.

[...Lauren?]

yeah but you can always call them or talk to them online, isn not the same but it;s something.

That is true.

But only one of my friends even ever gets online.

[John]

call them or try to be busy and those 3 months will happen very quickly

[...Lauren?]

call them or try to be busy and those 3 months will happen very quickly

That's true. I know this school year seemed to go by very fast...

[Arhaz]

I was going to wear a kimono but I can't "deviate from school rules".

wtf?! a kimono can so be a kameez. like i wear jeans instead of a salwar.. c'mon, man!

[John]

That's true. I know this school year seemed to go by very fast...

summer is gonna pass just as fast

[Tomi]

How amusing. Apparently Mike's always like that to the new people [my guess would be the whole trust circle thing; see: meet the fockers]. Although, I liked something he told me today. "Those who start good, will end up finishing bad. But those who start bad, finish good." [or something like that, but you should get the idea]. Although, it seems that somehow I'm leaving the impression that I think I know better than him [he was saying that to me, comparing me with someone who just quit (and the kid was somewhat of a general ass...)] but although I was denying that, he kept going. Meh. I'll just let that slide, but I do actively listen and do what he says, and change to how he wants, if that's how it has to be.

I mean, the man's slightly a lunatic, but considering how he's a businessman, and it's an extremely busy business and there's not much room to screw up, I understand his position. But still, there's always my daily odd slip up [this morning I made an everything pizza -- perfectly -- and then the guy calls back and says he wanted just all the meats. I misheard him, thinking all toppings. *sigh*]. And then there's the drivers...

*shrug* Of course I'll keep working, they need me, even if I screw up at least once a day, like they'll do much about it but bitch. :lol:

[Louis]

*sigh*

Why do I still feel this way about her?

[John]

*sigh*

Why do I still feel this way about her?

girls *sighs*

[Messy Marj]

I miss Holland.

[Arhaz]

I miss Holland.

but you have him..tell me it's worth it.

[Tomi]

I miss Holland.
Yeah, we all miss our homes. Go for a visit, if you haven't already, hun.

I was feeling like you a few months back, missing Winnipeg. Visited during spring break. Maan, I have it soo much better here. :lol:

[Messy Marj]

Thank yous :hug:

He is definitely worth it, I would give up everything for him.
But Leonie phoned last saturday morning, and said she just noticed she's having a week off from school...so now she is here, behind me on the couch and it feels a little bit like Holland again. I'm going to Holland in 6 weeks! ^_^

[John]

haven't see her in a month, even though i don't have the guts to talk to her it's was at least something to see her 2 times a week, now i dont have anything,

where the fuck has this girl been!??!?! *cries*

[Agent O]

This might sound completely stupid but a rumour has spread nationwide that an unknown caller calls people up in their cell phones and ones they receive the call they die or become mad. I don't believe in this bullcrap but still I have my cell phone switched off.

[John]

This might sound completely stupid but a rumour has spread nationwide that an unknown caller calls people up in their cell phones and ones they receive the call they die or become mad. I don't believe in this bullcrap but still I have my cell phone switched off.

lmao! wtf, how can they die because of a phone call?

[Agent O]

lmao! wtf, how can they die because of a phone call?

I have no idea. But as far as I know the "rumour" or whatever you call it made it's way to a local newspaper.

[John]

can anyone explain me, why do i feel so sad sometimes and then 3 hours later i'm not that sad anymore? stupid mood change

[Chris(tmas)]

I finally sent the email to my ex :lol: After 5 months of waiting.

[Friskey™]

I finally sent the email to my ex :lol: After 5 months of waiting.

2 questions.

1.) What was the e-mail again? :lol:

2.) Did you tell her those classic 3 words? :lol:

[Minus]

Alright, at this point it's getting kind of annoying.

Apparently it seems that I have a bit in common with the shooter from Virginia Tech. People seem to like pointing it out and frankly it's rude.

When I found out that the shooter was asian, I figured I'd get SOME flack for it. It is, after all, the human way to lump everybody into one group and assume that we all act the same way. That's what they did with the Japanese when they were interned during World War II.

To clear the air up... I'M NOT, IN ANY WAY OR FORM, IN A MENTAL STATE SIMILAR TO THIS GUY.

Yes, I'm asian. So is a lot of the population. Yes, I'm in college. Doesn't mean a thing. Yes, I've written a few things in my past that could be deemed 'disturbing,' and yes, I have a speeding ticket (that is yet unpaid for) similar to that of the shooter.

4 random coincidences. Don't fucking pigeon-hole me with THAT guy just because of a few similarities.

Thank you.

[Tomi]

Alright, at this point it's getting kind of annoying.

Apparently it seems that I have a bit in common with the shooter from Virginia Tech. People seem to like pointing it out and frankly it's rude.

When I found out that the shooter was asian, I figured I'd get SOME flack for it. It is, after all, the human way to lump everybody into one group and assume that we all act the same way. That's what they did with the Japanese when they were interned during World War II.

To clear the air up... I'M NOT, IN ANY WAY OR FORM, IN A MENTAL STATE SIMILAR TO THIS GUY.

Yes, I'm asian. So is a lot of the population. Yes, I'm in college. Doesn't mean a thing. Yes, I've written a few things in my past that could be deemed 'disturbing,' and yes, I have a speeding ticket (that is yet unpaid for) similar to that of the shooter.

4 random coincidences. Don't fucking pigeon-hole me with THAT guy just because of a few similarities.

Thank you.
I thought he was South Korean? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cho_Seung-hui


Marj - Aww, that's awesome! Say hi to Leonie for me! ^_^

[Minus]

I thought he was South Korean? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cho_Seung-hui


Marj - Aww, that's awesome! Say hi to Leonie for me! ^_^

People at my University just seem to clump 'asians' into one group.

I'm Cambodian... but apparently it doesn't matter.

[Luke]

I know what you mean Kayce. I'm a quarter Indian and I carry a strong Indian gene meaning I have brown skin and strong Indian features and you wouldn't believe some of the crap you get over here. I mean this one time a few years ago I got on a bus coming home from school and I sat down next to this women and she said along the lines of ''excuse me don't sit here, you stink, just like all them other asylam seekers''...I felt the need to slap the ignorant bitch. You also wouldn't believe how many people eye me up when I go upstairs on a bus. After the 7/7 bombings some people think that any person with brown skin must be a terrorist and must be planning to blow themselves up.

Just shows how ignorant some people are, after all:

1) I was born in England, I'm an English citezen and three quarters british (1/4 English, 1/2 Scottish), my parents were born in Britain and my biological grandfather was born here as was his entire family and my biological grandmother spent her entire life in England (I say Biological because my Mum was adopted when she was 3 so she knows little about her parents). And to be honest I'm proud of who I am, everyone should be proud of their herritage. If a few ignorant bastards wanna make something of it then all you can do is pity them.

2) India is in no way associated with terrorism.

[Agent O]

Oh My God! It is true! It's a cell phone virus that has been attacking people nationwide! Call me a nut, but I don't care. This is FOR REAL!!!

[Harlz]

Oh My God! It is true! It's a cell phone virus that has been attacking people nationwide! Call me a nut, but I don't care. This is FOR REAL!!!

Dude, your joking right? :ermm:

[Agent O]

;639717']Dude, your joking right? :ermm:

As far as I know two people have already died and one bled/still bleeding from the ear.

[Harlz]

You realise its totally illogical that something like that could happen right?
These people have seen The Ring way too many times.
:cloud:

[Agent O]

My friends and I were jokingly comparing it with The Ring yesterday :P. Well, to be honest I really don't know. It's just that a lot of people are talking about it.

[Chris(tmas)]

2 questions.

1.) What was the e-mail again? :lol:

2.) Did you tell her those classic 3 words? :lol:
1. About how I felt and stuff :lol:

2. I love you, or THIS IS SPARTAAAA? :lol:

[Friskey™]

1. About how I felt and stuff :lol:

2. I love you, or THIS IS SPARTAAAA? :lol:

1.) I see.

2.) She's your ex....WHAT DO YOU THINK, MAN? :lol:

[Chris(tmas)]

1.) I see.

2.) She's your ex....WHAT DO YOU THINK, MAN? :lol:
Sparta? :lol:

"im not sure i love you"

love?


THIS IS SPARTAAAAA!!

[Misfit Jay]

Sparta? :lol:

"im not sure i love you"

love?


THIS IS SPARTAAAAA!!

Are you going to kick her down a hole? jk :lol:

[Chris(tmas)]

Are you going to kick her down a hole? jk :lol:
That would be funny though if we're on the beach and i dug a hole :lol:

[Dedicated]

Eurgh. I think the last time I felt like this about a girl I got fucked over.

Hopefully it won't be a reoccurance

[John]

why do i like that girl so much, fuck!

[Harlz]

Fuck, way to pretend I wasn't even there.

james, me and scott "Hi!"

Her "Hi James, Hi Scott!" *hugs*

Fuck off, anyone would think I'd done something to her, which for once isn't the case, I've never been so considerate, caring, blah blah blah before in my life.

So sick of getting screwed over like this.

[Linja]

Kind of depressing that some of my bestest friends find me sad.

[Joeykat]

There is too much stereotyping and xenophobia in this world :(

I miss my daddy, he is in South Africa for 2 weeks with work. 5 days home alone and I already have a mild bout of cabin fever :(

[abajaj2280]

im worried about this generation and our next generation. if so many fucked up things are happening, how are we supposed to survive?

[John]

There is too much stereotyping and xenophobia in this world :(

I miss my daddy, he is in South Africa for 2 weeks with work. 5 days home alone and I already have a mild bout of cabin fever :(

yeah i miss my daddy too, he died when i was 8.

[Joeykat]

yeah i miss my daddy too, he died when i was 8.

I'm sorry to hear that :(

[John]

I'm sorry to hear that :(

don't worry, it's been 12 years and somedays it's just hard as **** but life goes on.

This world fucking sucks.

[Seinfeld]

I know what you mean Kayce. I'm a quarter Indian and I carry a strong Indian gene meaning I have brown skin and strong Indian features and you wouldn't believe some of the crap you get over here. I mean this one time a few years ago I got on a bus coming home from school and I sat down next to this women and she said along the lines of ''excuse me don't sit here, you stink, just like all them other asylam seekers''...I felt the need to slap the ignorant bitch. You also wouldn't believe how many people eye me up when I go upstairs on a bus. After the 7/7 bombings some people think that any person with brown skin must be a terrorist and must be planning to blow themselves up.

Just shows how ignorant some people are, after all:

1) I was born in England, I'm an English citezen and three quarters british (1/4 English, 1/2 Scottish), my parents were born in Britain and my biological grandfather was born here as was his entire family and my biological grandmother spent her entire life in England (I say Biological because my Mum was adopted when she was 3 so she knows little about her parents). And to be honest I'm proud of who I am, everyone should be proud of their herritage. If a few ignorant bastards wanna make something of it then all you can do is pity them.

2) India is in no way associated with terrorism.

Ouch...

People here in germany are bad about stuff like that too I had to take shit for 3 years in school for being american...I mean...like...the fuck?...I never knew why...they just hated me for being american...and the funniest thing is...they all wear all their 'modern' 'bling-bling' shit...and...where do they think most of that comes from?...or the music they listen to?...sometimes really I hate the germans...even if I'm half german myself...

[Joeykat]

My mum has just been diagnosed with epilepsy :(

[Anthony.]

My mum has just been diagnosed with epilepsy :(

Sorry for you. At least, epilepsy ain't really dangerous; however, if she goes into a fit, your job is to ensure she doesn't hit anything that could hurt her.

[F-ck Casey]

i have a drug problem.

[John]

i have a drug problem.

good first step, admiting that u have a problem.

[androidkaita]

I know what you mean Kayce. I'm a quarter Indian and I carry a strong Indian gene meaning I have brown skin and strong Indian features and you wouldn't believe some of the crap you get over here. I mean this one time a few years ago I got on a bus coming home from school and I sat down next to this women and she said along the lines of ''excuse me don't sit here, you stink, just like all them other asylam seekers''...I felt the need to slap the ignorant bitch. You also wouldn't believe how many people eye me up when I go upstairs on a bus. After the 7/7 bombings some people think that any person with brown skin must be a terrorist and must be planning to blow themselves up.

Just shows how ignorant some people are, after all:

1) I was born in England, I'm an English citezen and three quarters british (1/4 English, 1/2 Scottish), my parents were born in Britain and my biological grandfather was born here as was his entire family and my biological grandmother spent her entire life in England (I say Biological because my Mum was adopted when she was 3 so she knows little about her parents). And to be honest I'm proud of who I am, everyone should be proud of their herritage. If a few ignorant bastards wanna make something of it then all you can do is pity them.

2) India is in no way associated with terrorism.

None of my friends have had this problem as far as I know, ( a lot of my friends are indian).

Also, im 1/2 indian, but I look so white that nobody ever knows because im so white unless I tell them lol.

[Tomi]

Man, the trio were so fucking amazing. I can't believe how well their bassist can play, she was just ripping away [walking bass line; her left hand was flying, and her right hand was just insane] at that last song, and they got a standing ovation from the judges in their first performance. Their pianist is a fucking crazy genius. I honestly want to know what goes on in his mind and where he gets his ideas from. *sigh*

Hello inspirations, take me somewhere I've never been before, but always dreamed of...

[Seinfeld]

Hello inspirations, take me somewhere I've never been before, but always dreamed of...

I know that feeling...been following me everywhere for the past 3 years...

[Messy Marj]

i have a drug problem.
Show some spine baby and try to quit, I'm confident you can do it. :hug:

[Joeykat]

Sorry for you. At least, epilepsy ain't really dangerous; however, if she goes into a fit, your job is to ensure she doesn't hit anything that could hurt her.

I would do that if I lived with her. I live in Gloucester and she lives in Lancashire, I haven't seen her since Xmas 2004... I was just a bit lastnight, but I have calmed down since then :)

[Disenchanted]

My dad's been cheating on my mom again, I think. <_<

[Linja]

My dad's been cheating on my mom again, I think. <_<

I, um, have nothing to say to that, so I'll just give you an uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber big and squishy and tight (wow, what an oxymoron, tightly squishy) hug, love :hug:

[Disenchanted]

I, um, have nothing to say to that, so I'll just give you an uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber big and squishy and tight (wow, what an oxymoron, tightly squishy) hug, love :hug:

Bestest hug ever. <3 :hug:

[Christopher]

My dad's been cheating on my mom again, I think. <_<

:hug:

That's nothing compared to the one Mali gave you but...

[Disenchanted]

:hug:

That's nothing compared to the one Mali gave you but...

It means just as much to me. Bestest hug ever. :hug:

[Louis]

Gah. I'm worried.

[Arhaz]

is it sadistic to say that i somehow feel sorry for the VT gunman?

[Louis]

is it sadistic to say that i somehow feel sorry for the VT gunman?

I kind of feel the same, actually. It's odd.

[The Doctor]

I'm pretty sure it's safe to say that........I ABSOLUTELY 100&#37; FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS GREAT AND VERDANT ON THIS EARTH CAN NOT STAND MY EX-GIRLFRIEND!

[Friskey™]

I, um, have nothing to say to that, so I'll just give you an uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber uber big and squishy and tight (wow, what an oxymoron, tightly squishy) hug, love :hug:

Yeah, she stole my hug, so i'm going to do the same as what she said, love. :hug:

[Harlz]

:( in general.
Eargh, :censored: females

[Tomi]

Hmm, I really need to shift my time off the computers and put more time into school and music. Hell, I don't even know what I do on the computers all day. I should keep log of what I do on the computer, it'd likely be rather boring. :lol:

[Fox]

Hmm, I really need to shift my time off the computers and put more time into school and music. Hell, I don't even know what I do on the computers all day. I should keep log of what I do on the computer, it'd likely be rather boring. :lol:

:lol: ....

I think we all have the computer illness in here, Tommy..

^_^

Today, it's officially 3 years since I moved from Venezuela, wow...

[Messy Marj]

I hate it that my dad misses me so much. There were alot of times he just told me that he wished me and my sisters never came into his life, and now all he talks about on the phone is how much he misses me and that he wants to hug me. The asshole should've done that when I was younger instead of constant hitting and kicking everyone.

[Arhaz]

I hate it that my dad misses me so much. There were alot of times he just told me that he wished me and my sisters never came into his life, and now all he talks about on the phone is how much he misses me and that he wants to hug me. The asshole should've done that when I was younger instead of constant hitting and kicking everyone.

you don't really know what you've got till it's gone. during our childhood, parents beat us up to mould us, and when we grow up and move out, they realize that it's time we got some love. it's really typical sweetheart.

[Messy Marj]

Yeah I know...It's just, I only now realise how bad it was. He used to throw chairs at me when he was angry or stressed. Once I had this really cool big lamp, he broke it and used it to beat Leonie with it. And I vaguely remember, I think I was something like 5, my other sister Christa sitting on the floor against the kitchendoor trying to make herself small while my dad was kicking her. I have alot of those examples. I mean, that's really not normal right?

[Linja]

It's unfortunately common in the world today, but definitely not normal. :hug: Marjlovehoneysweetheart, you can't help but resent him, he should have realised what he had before and controlled himself, instead of taking it out on the people he should love more than life itself.

[Disenchanted]

Yeah, she stole my hug, so i'm going to do the same as what she said, love. :hug:

Thank you :hug: Means a lot to me <3

At least things are calming down know...I'm just really wishing that he isn't doing what I think he is...and that he won't do it again. <_<

[Misfit Jay]

So I just read this, and I fucking hate Bush even more now...


Twelve years ago, the U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service reintroduced 66 wolves into the wildlands of central Idaho and Yellowstone National Park. More than a thousand wolves now live in the wild, playing an important role in area ecosystems and local economies.

Yellowstone’s wolves attract more than 150,000 tourists each year -- visitors that spend an estimated $35 million annually in the area.

But now this success story is at risk of becoming a horror story. Wolf-opponents in the Bush/Cheney Administration, Idaho and Wyoming are teaming up to kill the vast majority of these wolves. Even the wolves of Yellowstone Park could be shot on sight if they leave the safety of the park.

The Bush/Cheney Administration is pushing for the removal of vital protections for the region's wolves, even as officials in Idaho and Wyoming prepare plans to kill hundreds of wolves.

At a rally earlier this year at the Idaho Capitol, hundreds of wolf opponents showed up to hear Governor C.L. “Butch” Otter promise that the state would kill more than 500 wolves after delisting and say, “I’m going to bid for the first ticket to shoot a wolf.” The Idaho legislature then voted to allow permits to kill wolves for only $9.75.

The federal comment period on the Bush/Cheney Administration’s wolf delisting proposal ends May 9th.


All I have to say is this...

Fuck you Bush. Fuck you Cheney. And fuck you too Otter.

[Messy Marj]

It's unfortunately common in the world today, but definitely not normal. :hug: Marjlovehoneysweetheart, you can't help but resent him, he should have realised what he had before and controlled himself, instead of taking it out on the people he should love more than life itself.

:hug: thank you.

[Joeykat]

Argh! 18 college days until half term.. And then panic mood begins because all assignments are due 2 weeks after!! Holy Muffin >.<

[NofxPants]

My mom hates me because i'm going to college to become a teacher, rather than a nurse. It's stupid because she refrains from talking to me, and when she does she ridicules me. I know it's not that big of a problem, but when she keeps pressing me to be more like my other siblings and doesn't understand that i'd rather live my own life, it's rough.

She also told me i'd fail as a teacher. Hooray for parental support!

[Louis]

My mom hates me because i'm going to college to become a teacher, rather than a nurse. It's stupid because she refrains from talking to me, and when she does she ridicules me. I know it's not that big of a problem, but when she keeps pressing me to be more like my other siblings and doesn't understand that i'd rather live my own life, it's rough.

She also told me i'd fail as a teacher. Hooray for parental support!

Don't let your mother discourage you. You can be whatever you want to be, and I'm sure you'd kick ass as it. ;)

[Friskey™]

I'm in another lonely funk again. I just believe that there's no one out there for me. I mean, what is seen in me? I just want "love" back in my heart, that's all.

[Louis]

I'm in another lonely funk again. I just believe that there's no one out there for me. I mean, what is seen in me? I just want "love" back in my heart, that's all.

:hug:

If I weren't a guy, I'd go out with you like that. *snaps*
Feel better man. You're a good guy. :)

[Joeykat]

Why do I have to a be a woman... It sucks sometimes :(

[Harlz]

Dammit, went and saw 300 today (awesome movie by the way).

Problem is, more than half my mates who went had their girlfriends with them or whatever. Except me... Of course.
And all i could think about was how if I hadn't screwed up, I could've had her there with me. But oh well, thats pretty much what I do, screw up.
And to make matters worse, I am now officially the only guy on my footy team who doesn't have a girlfriend, so thats just another thing for them to rip into me about.
fucking emotions, what a stupid invention.

[Joeykat]

The shouldn't rip into you just because you don't have a girlfriend anymore, that is just pure mean and shallowness IMO. But meh, I do not know what guys do in their spare time or what goes on inside their heads..... What does go on inside guys heads??

[Harlz]

Do you really wanna know? :P

Nah, to tell the truth, I think, when it comes down to it, guys and girls are thinking the same way, the only difference being which sex they think about of course :lol:

[Arhaz]

Yeah I know...It's just, I only now realise how bad it was. He used to throw chairs at me when he was angry or stressed. Once I had this really cool big lamp, he broke it and used it to beat Leonie with it. And I vaguely remember, I think I was something like 5, my other sister Christa sitting on the floor against the kitchendoor trying to make herself small while my dad was kicking her. I have alot of those examples. I mean, that's really not normal right?

no sweetheart, that's just not normal... i'm sorry you had to face that sort of a childhood. :hug:

[Joeykat]

Some people have hellish childhoods. *Hugs all round but a biig one for Pooky*

[Messy Marj]

You guys are too sweet :)
It's alright now though, it's just sometimes I feel down and start to think about bad things, and when I posted that post I felt bad about what my dad used to do.
Not anymore though, now he looks more like a broken man which is way better than before lol.

[Arhaz]

You guys are too sweet :)
It's alright now though, it's just sometimes I feel down and start to think about bad things, and when I posted that post I felt bad about what my dad used to do.
Not anymore though, now he looks more like a broken man which is way better than before lol.

support him. firstly because he's your dad, and secondly because he'll realize what beautiful daughters he has and what he's done to you guys in the past. not to make him feel guilty... only for him to realize, and love you because you deserve it cookie..

[Messy Marj]

Myeah, but it's too late, now I already moved to France. Plus he can't get helped by me or my other sisters, cause he's not so good in the head, mentally ill blah blah, he got help for that but it'll never go away, it's pretty sad if you look at him really.

[Arhaz]

Myeah, but it's too late, now I already moved to France. Plus he can't get helped by me or my other sisters, cause he's not so good in the head, mentally ill blah blah, he got help for that but it'll never go away, it's pretty sad if you look at him really.

anyone will come down to that if you leave them. if i knew you where you stay and you left me...i'd be depressed for the rest of my life.

[Joeykat]

My mum did some terrible things in the past, but I still love her because she is my mum. Even though I haven't seen her for almost 3 years I still miss her. Yes I may bitch about her left right and centre when I'm in a mood, but she is my mum and nothing can replace one of your parents because you are their flesh and blood and there is a bond between children and parents that can never go away. No matter how hard you try it will always be there pulling at your heart strings.

[Tom]

This is kinda funny in a way and also sad in a way:

Me and some friends were doing ridiculous 300 'THIS IS SPARTAAAA!!' poses all over town and back in Whitley Bay, and as we were finishing up, cause it was getting pretty dark, and ofcourse James wanted to do one last pose, so he ran in the middle of the road (it was clear at this time) and he got to shouting SPAR- WHACK hit by a motocycle, and now he's in hospital with a broken leg, and i feel kinda wierd cause i should have known better to let him stand in the middle of a road to take this photo.

:lol: but also :(

[The Doctor]

This is kinda funny in a way and also sad in a way:

Me and some friends were doing ridiculous 300 'THIS IS SPARTAAAA!!' poses all over town and back in Whitley Bay, and as we were finishing up, cause it was getting pretty dark, and ofcourse James wanted to do one last pose, so he ran in the middle of the road (it was clear at this time) and he got to shouting SPAR- WHACK hit by a motocycle, and now he's in hospital with a broken leg, and i feel kinda wierd cause i should have known better to let him stand in the middle of a road to take this photo.

:lol: but also :(

That was the best story ever. Seriously.