Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

[Messy Marj]

I got your message, I hope she's alright :hug:
Thanks. I'll tell you on msn. :hug:

[Daniel]

My final school exams ever start on Monday.

*Streeeeeessss*

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:hug: to Marj-dear.

[Creep]

Okay, this is a somewhat lengthy story :P

My boyfriend's ex dumped him and now she really regrets it. They are on very good terms with one another, like really good friends. They have admitted that they still have some feelings for one another (her feelings for him are much stronger). I can understand that, there's always some feeling that you have towards people that you've been very emotionally close to in the past (unless it ended really badly). I also have 100% confidence in my boyfriend, I know that nothing is really going to happen between them. What I am not comfortable with is the way that they talk to each other. She's living in America at the moment though so their conversations are usually on MSN. They both use the L word very often with one another. Here is an excerpt:

Boyfriend: I love you.

her: i love you too, (his name)! =D

Boyfriend: Your (his name) loves you moar =D

her: i needs my (his name) ._.

her: <3 i love (his name), i love (his name) he makes me a happy (her name). <3

Boyfriend: <3 I love my (her name) <3

her: <3 i love my (his name) moooore :]] <3

Boyfriend: nah you don't <3

her: ahh, yeah i do =D



That was their comments to each other on Myspace. The L word comes up sometimes numerous times in a day whether it's on MSN, Myspace, Facebook, SMS messages. About a month ago he sent her an SMS saying "I love you with every bone in my body". MAN that made me uncomfortable :P I'm afraid if this L word talk continues as it is now that the feelings that they have for one another may develop. I know that if I was in my boyfriend's shoes I would feel rather weird about having feelings for my ex like that (even a little guilty) and would try to block those feelings out because my significant other is more important (I hope). I've talked to him about how I feel about the whole situation. He spoke to her about it and she said that she understands where I'm coming from with this but is also a little bit annoyed that I've been paranoid for quite some time now. They both agreed that cutting back on the L word is unnecessary. I think there's a slight lack of respect for my feelings here.

I would love to hear comments about this, whether I'm a dick for complaining, whether I ought to be :P Any comments would be very appreciated.

[Rahat]

hmm...you have every right to be worried i mean i'd be just as worried if something like this happened, if its really making you uncomfortable you should talk to your boyfriend about it

[Anya]

I think you have every right to complain about that. I would be so pissed if I were you, seriously. I mean, I understand he may have feelings still for his ex but you don't say you love them when you're dating someone already.

It's just plain wrong really.

[Harlz]

To ask her to the formal, or not to... That, is the question...

[Creep]

Thanks guys. The thing with the L word is that it's thrown around loosely with the people that I know. He tells a lot of his friends that he loves them regularly. But it's the frequency of the L word and other intimate comments that he says to her that bothers me. I was going to speak to him about it tonight but he went home :(

[Will]

I don't think I'd be able to handle the situation you're in.

I think you definitely need to sit down and have a talk with him. Try not to make it seem like you're mad, because it doesn't seem as though you are anyway, and just let him know how uncomfortable it makes you.

[Messy Marj]

I don't think I'd be able to handle the situation you're in.

I think you definitely need to sit down and have a talk with him. Try not to make it seem like you're mad, because it doesn't seem as though you are anyway, and just let him know how uncomfortable it makes you.
100% agreed.

This is just my opinion, but I think it's never good to start a new relationship if you still have feelings for your ex. When you start a new relationship you need to be 'blank', because that is the only way to grow and truly love someone. Corny, I know.

[Messy Marj]

My final school exams ever start on Monday.

*Streeeeeessss*

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:hug: to Marj-dear.
:hug:

And you'll do fiiiine, just keep on studying. :)

[Dean]

I probably could have stopped some bike thieves today but I didn't, probably for the sake of being able to make some smart remark. Now I almost know how Spider-Man felt... seriously though, I do feel bad about it the more I think.

[Bleed-It-Out]

I hate bike thieves. My bike was stolen when i was younger and it was my only means of transport cant stand those fuckwits.

[Bleed-It-Out]

I know if my wife was talking to an ex with the L word i would definetely feel disrespected. I dont like where your story is heading and i feel you need to offer your boyfriend an ultermatem like hes going to lose someone good like yourself if this sort of thing keeps happening.

[F-ck Casey]

I got arrested around midnight on the 30th. After it was all said and done, I was charged with marijuana possession (there was 15.50 grams in total in my car when it was searched and seized), a DUI (for marijuana), Sch. IV drugs (Flexeril, a muscle relaxer) and paraphernalia (a broken bong bowl, a grinder, papers and blunt shells).

I go to see my lawyer, "Snortin" Norton, on Monday. He's the best drug related lawyer in the county. I could be looking at 1 year probation and my license suspended for a year/6 months, unless my DUI is thrown out because I consented to a blood test. My bail was $3500, but I posted $390 bail thanks to a bondsman.

So, let's recap... lost my car, lost my license, might lose my job, the sheriff wants me to help find drug dealers, and I have to pay back all the money my parents are spending on my case (which, when it's all over, will probably be around $6000). Oh, and apparently this whole ordeal has drained my parents savings account.

Fuck drugs.

[Rachel]

I got arrested around midnight on the 30th. After it was all said and done, I was charged with marijuana possession (there was 15.50 grams in total in my car when it was searched and seized), a DUI (for marijuana), Sch. IV drugs (Flexeril, a muscle relaxer) and paraphernalia (a broken bong bowl, a grinder, papers and blunt shells).

I go to see my lawyer, "Snortin" Norton, on Monday. He's the best drug related lawyer in the county. I could be looking at 1 year probation and my license suspended for a year/6 months, unless my DUI is thrown out because I consented to a blood test. My bail was $3500, but I posted $390 bail thanks to a bondsman.

So, let's recap... lost my car, lost my license, might lose my job, the sheriff wants me to help find drug dealers, and I have to pay back all the money my parents are spending on my case (which, when it's all over, will probably be around $6000). Oh, and apparently this whole ordeal has drained my parents savings account.

Fuck drugs.

Ah shit dude. That shit is the reason why I quit, I didn't want to get that shit on me.

Well, hugs and kisses to you, and hopefully everything works out the best for you :]

[Radish]

;722836']To ask her to the formal, or not to... That, is the question...

Whoa! You guys are having a formal now? Mine happens in year 12, 2 years from now.

Far out that's a tough one! Depends on what you're gonna be doing. You guys gonna be having dinner?

[Harlz]

Whoa! You guys are having a formal now? Mine happens in year 12, 2 years from now.

Far out that's a tough one! Depends on what you're gonna be doing. You guys gonna be having dinner?

Yea we have a year 10 and a year 12 one. Kinda dumb I know.

Yea, it's like a formal dinner-dance kinda thing.
I'm pretty sure she'd say yes, but it might turn out pretty shit. We don't talk all that much these days.

[Bleed-It-Out]

Ask her!!!!

[Creep]

Thanks people. I have spoken to him since then in a calm manner, even though sometimes it does make me quite angry. The feelings that he has for her are stronger than I thought they were :( As you said Pooky, for him to love me as much as I love him he needs to let go of his feelings for her. He says that he's trying to now, although ideally I would have preferred him to have wanted to let go of those feelings by himself :P I've told him that he ought to speak to her about it and that I'll be there if he needs me. He'd prefer to speak to her on his own though.

Since they spoke to each other the first time I asked them to about cutting back on the L word, she's still showing a lack of respect for my feelings I think. Saying that it's ridiculous that she has to cut back, and she says "I like you" instead of "I love you" to my boyfriend. I think she has the attitude 'What he doesn't know won't hurt him' which I don't like.

[Harlz]

I just don't wanna wreck the night for both of us... We just can't seem to keep a real conversation going much these days.

I probably should ask her though...

[Radish]

;723596']Yea we have a year 10 and a year 12 one. Kinda dumb I know.

Yea, it's like a formal dinner-dance kinda thing.
I'm pretty sure she'd say yes, but it might turn out pretty shit. We don't talk all that much these days.

Dude, What Bleed-it-Out said!

This will be a great way to start talking again! It's gonna be exciting! And if she really appreciates you it'll go great! :)

[Harlz]

Hmmm, thanks guys.

i think I'll ask her, if I can work up the guts to do it :lol:

[Radish]

;723681']Hmmm, thanks guys.

i think I'll ask her, if I can work up the guts to do it :lol:

Good stuff man! Good Luck with it!! Happy for you ^_^

[Will]

She's such a fucking bitch. I can't fucking stand the thought of her anymore.

She claims she's "always busy." How the fuck can someone's business cause them to forget to do something so menial as bring a shirt to school to give it to you WHEN IT'S YOURS TO BEGIN WITH?

God fucking damn it. It made me so mad when she said she could've just "thrown it away." Fuck you, cunt.


I got arrested around midnight on the 30th. After it was all said and done, I was charged with marijuana possession (there was 15.50 grams in total in my car when it was searched and seized), a DUI (for marijuana), Sch. IV drugs (Flexeril, a muscle relaxer) and paraphernalia (a broken bong bowl, a grinder, papers and blunt shells).

I go to see my lawyer, "Snortin" Norton, on Monday. He's the best drug related lawyer in the county. I could be looking at 1 year probation and my license suspended for a year/6 months, unless my DUI is thrown out because I consented to a blood test. My bail was $3500, but I posted $390 bail thanks to a bondsman.

So, let's recap... lost my car, lost my license, might lose my job, the sheriff wants me to help find drug dealers, and I have to pay back all the money my parents are spending on my case (which, when it's all over, will probably be around $6000). Oh, and apparently this whole ordeal has drained my parents savings account.

Fuck drugs.

I hope all works out for you, Casey. You're a good guy.

[esaul17]

Okay, I met this girl in my first year of university. At the time she had a boyfriend and I had a girlfriend as well, and I was never particularly interesting in her. We talked a bit, but that was it. So fast forward about a year, and we hadn't talked for a while. She lost her original MSN and Facebook, we had lost any means to stay in touch over the summer. We met randomly on our way to class a couple days ago. She said she'd re-add me to her MSN and Facebook. We then planned on going out to get a coffee together and catch up. I originally said we could go to Tim Hortons but she wanted to go to Coffee Time as it was "nicer". We were originally going to meet at 1, but she asked to postpone it to nearer five at around 12:30 the day of our meeting. I said sure, and wasn't too concerned (I wasn't really even interested in her yet).

So we meet and it turns out that morning she found out that her boyfriend left her for one of her best friends. She already knew they broke up, but didn't know it was for her friend. He had already cheated on her once but they got together. She told me how she had broken up with her boyfriend *for good* this time. We take a bit of a detour for a walk there and she had laughed and shown me how these pillars in the ground lined up with the CN Tower (we live in Toronto).

We had coffee (I only order water as I don't drink caffeine) and she asked if I wanted to go for more of a walk after. I said sure. We walked by a church and she noted it was right beside a sanitarium with bars on the windows and everything (she's knows I'm a strong atheist and antitheist so she really won me over doing that :P). We walked around more and she wanted me to show her where I lived (not actually show her inside it, just where it was located). She then said she was going to go back to her residence and eat. I said I'd walk her back to her building (even though we were standing right outside mine) and she thanked me.

Walking home she said the leaves on the tree were so pretty and said she wanted one (she tried to reach one but was too short). For some reason it never occurred to me to reach one <i>for</i> her, and we just kept walking. I feel dumb on that now. When we get to her residence she said she's going to eat in the dining hall. I ask her if I could join her but she says she just wants to be alone for a bit (and assures me it isn't me or anything). We had been talking about movies earlier and she tells me how I have to see the original Star Wars movies (as I told her I'd only seen Episode 1). She invites me to see them with her next weekend, and I say sure. She hesitates for a moment before walking inside. I felt she might have wanted a hug, but it could just be general parting awkwardness. Either way I didn't take action.

I've tried talking to her a few times on MSN after but she has been quite non receptive, but she does have two midterms next week and is in a bad emotional spot so it is possible that she isn't just not interested in me.

So next week we are supposed to see the first (fourth?) Star Wars together. So I am looking for advice to not get myself into the friends zone here. I don't want to really come onto her or anything, as it would seem like I was just taking advantage of her after her boyfriend cheated on her. I want to show her I really care about her so she feels safe and that I won't betray her like he did (but don't want to be too much of a 'nice guy' or I might get friend zone'd). Also, I am not sure if I should keep trying to talk to her on MSN or if it will just make me look needy and I should wait until she messages me or just until we see each other in person again.
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[El Muerto]

Well I'd say go for it. Try right away, tell her you like her. The more you wait the more she'll be getting used to being just friends with you. And if she starts to look you like a friend and you fall in love with her it will hurt you much more than if she says no right away.
Just my two cents anyway :)

[Messy Marj]

Well, you might want to show her that you like her, alot. But I would wait, she just broke up so she needs some space right now. Just be there for her, but keep giving her signs that you like her more than just friends.

[Ander]

make sure she knows you do not give a damn if she just broke up with her boyfriend.

[Messy Marj]

make sure she knows you do not give a damn if she just broke up with her boyfriend.
Yeah that won't make you seem like a horny bastard. :rolleyes:

[Will]

I'm in more or less a similar situation, except the girl I like has a boyfriend. It's really hard to hear her talking about him all the time when I think she knows I like her.

All I can say is to play it cool and drop subtle hints that you like her, but don't come right out and say "OMG I WANNA BANG U RITE NOW" because that just won't fly. Just play it cool.

[Ander]

Yeah that won't make you seem like a horny bastard. :rolleyes:
confiding in her as a friend would, "oh i'm so sorry you broke up," will totally make him out to be a simp, dude.

tell me the first thing you thought when you found out they broke up wasn't "yes! finally!"
if it was, be honest with her.

[Messy Marj]

confiding in her as a friend would, "oh i'm so sorry you broke up," will totally make him out to be a simp, dude.
I'm not a 'dude'.

Well if I was the girl and I just broke up and someone else starts hitting on me I'd only be disgusted from his lack of respect for my feelings.

[JJ]

go for it man, just play it cool though, you dont want it to look like your driving right in there. just see what happens :)

[Dean]

On the way to my great aunt's funeral some drunk-driving twat hit one of the cars and turned it 270 degrees, almost killing my other paternal great aunt and her husband. Fucking atrocious.

[Messy Marj]

On the way to my great aunt's funeral some drunk twat hit one of the cars and turned it 270 degrees, almost killing my other paternal great aunt and her husband. Fucking atrocious.
Sorry to hear about that. :hug:

[Christopher]

On the way to my great aunt's funeral some drunk-driving twat hit one of the cars and turned it 270 degrees, almost killing my other paternal great aunt and her husband. Fucking atrocious.

Ahh, man, that's terrible. Hope they're ok.

[Timothy]

On the way to my great aunt's funeral some drunk-driving twat hit one of the cars and turned it 270 degrees, almost killing my other paternal great aunt and her husband. Fucking atrocious.

That's horrible man. I hope everyone is alright.

[Bryan]

On the way to my great aunt's funeral some drunk-driving twat hit one of the cars and turned it 270 degrees, almost killing my other paternal great aunt and her husband. Fucking atrocious.
That sucks man...best of luck.

[Will]

I'm not a 'dude'.

Well if I was the girl and I just broke up and someone else starts hitting on me I'd only be disgusted from his lack of respect for my feelings.

Yeah. I don't think I'd ever be able to do that to a girl. I'd never want her to think the only reason I was talking to her was because she broke up with her boyfriend. Even if it was, I wouldn't tell her. I'd feel horrible, like I was just playing with her emotions.

[esaul17]

confiding in her as a friend would, "oh i'm so sorry you broke up," will totally make him out to be a simp, dude.

tell me the first thing you thought when you found out they broke up wasn't "yes! finally!"
if it was, be honest with her.

First, that was not the first thing. If you read my post, I didn't like her until after she told me and we met up, so when I found out I wasn't interested in her.

Second, I don't just want to bang her, I am against casual sex.

Third, I have enough respect for her feelings not to do that. She already got betrayed by her boyfriend and close friend, she isn't looking for someone to come across as a heartless horny jerk.

[Arlene]

Hmm, what I think, is that you need to, as some people have already said, drop some subtle hints, maybe catch her eye a few times and smile sweetly and really look at her. I can't stand it when guys feel that they can't make eye contact with girls, :lol:.

Make sure you let her know that you're really sorry about everything that happened, although this sounds like it's a few weeks old, so don't bring it up randomly if she's happy and smiling. If she brings it up about how he's a jerk or something, virogously agree and let her know that you're there for her, for anything, because you care about her. *[insert eye contact/dashing smile here]*

If you did something like that, I know that I would realize that you had something more than friendship in mind, and not being an ass hole about it. Just what I think.

The best of luck, dear.

[Arlene]

On the way to my great aunt's funeral some drunk-driving twat hit one of the cars and turned it 270 degrees, almost killing my other paternal great aunt and her husband. Fucking atrocious.

Aw man, I'm so sorry dear. I hope they're okay. :hug:


...damn drunk drivers...

[Todd]

Hit it and forget it :lol:







Disclaimer: Any relationship advice provided by me should not be taken seriously, as proved by the fact that I am currently single

[Dean]

Thanks everyone. She's okay physically but he injured his neck somewhat, although apparently it isn't serious.

[esaul17]

For some reason I just got some horrible feeling that she was going to get back together with her boyfriend.

I swear as time passes, my confidence just plummets. If things go as planned I still have almost a week to wait (and if she did get back with her bf then I might not see her again at all).

I hate this.

[Daniel]

One finals exam down, three to go.

At least history was easy, can't say the same for Calculus tomorrow though. >_<

[Bleed-It-Out]

Car broke down what a piece of shit it is.

[Bleed-It-Out]

Go for it :)

[esaul17]

I get this feeling she is ignoring me....she had this phrase in her status on Facebook so I messaged her asking if she was doing okay and she signed out without replying...

It is possible that she doesn't want to let people see her when she is in a bit of a mess (I mean, even if she liked me that would just give her more incentive to not talk a lot about her ex to me I would think...) but it still leaves me pretty worried.


I don't know, I just remembered my ex leaving me last year and being alone in my room at residence falling apart and wishing I was dead and it just terrifies me to think she might feel the same now...




Like I said, when I first finished seeing her on Friday I almost felt I had a chance...and now for some reason it all seems hopeless. Maybe I think about thinks too much or something...but my confidence can't seem to handle time alone with me.

[Harlz]

One finals exam down, three to go.

At least history was easy, can't say the same for Calculus tomorrow though. >_<

You only have four???

I'll have 9 when I'm doing my HSC.

Fuck our system!

[Harlz]

Flirt a little, but be there for her for now.

Thats my advice in a nutshell.

[esaul17]

;724032']Flirt a little, but be there for her for now.

Thats my advice in a nutshell.

Yeah....I just wish I could see her more :(. This Saturday I think will really make or break things.

[Daniel]

;724030']You only have four???

I'll have 9 when I'm doing my HSC.

Fuck our system!

Farrrr out, I only have History, Calculus, Physics and English.

What the hell subjects are you doing? :lol:

[Mark]

*murrrrrj*

[Theazninvasion68]

LPA!

:hug:

[esaul17]

Wow...apparently I am so transparent she could shoot me down before I even asked her out.

This kind of sucks.

And man, I was telling all my friends how I liked her and stuff. Now I look like even more of an idiot.

Fuck.


This is just terrible. I've had to close my MSN so I don't go whining to everyone on my contacts list and look like even more pathetic.


All I can think of are my ex's words "You're just fucking pathetic".


I barely knew this girl and I'm being a melodramatic fool over her shooting me down when I should have known I didn't have a chance to begin with.

And no one has to read this but this is the "Got Something to Let Out?" thread so I am just going to rant mindlessly.

I can't believe I managed to actually be a burden to her by making her feel bad for shooting me down. Anytime I want to help someone I just become a fucking burden. It is pathetic. I feel like I'm going to be sick.

I can't even imagine trying to meet any other girls now. Once you find what you want looking anymore seems so pointless.

I still can't believe I barely bet her and I am feeling like that. I just don't know what to say about it.

[Harlz]

Farrrr out, I only have History, Calculus, Physics and English.

What the hell subjects are you doing? :lol:

English has two exams I think, Physics, Chemistry, PDHPE, Maths is in two parts, History, I might be forgetting something...

So yea, sucks to be me! And everyone else in NSW! :lol:

[Messy Marj]

OH OOOH!!

Just heard that I'll be in Disneyland this weekend! I'm so fucking excited!! It will be all Christmasy and stuff!! (w00t)

[Will]

I think I'm in a safe position. I'm not so far in to the point where I wouldn't be considered a candidate because I'm "too good of a friend" but I'm also not so far away to the point where she wouldn't give me a chance because I'm barely a friend. I'm sort of in the middle. If anything were to happen, I think it's safe to say I'd be the only guy she'd really vent to, besides her brother-in-law. Here's hoping things work out between them, though. They're an amazing couple, and I love that.

[esaul17]

I think I'm in a safe position. I'm not so far in to the point where I wouldn't be considered a candidate because I'm "too good of a friend" but I'm also not so far away to the point where she wouldn't give me a chance because I'm barely a friend. I'm sort of in the middle. If anything were to happen, I think it's safe to say I'd be the only guy she'd really vent to, besides her brother-in-law. Here's hoping things work out between them, though. They're an amazing couple, and I love that.

Hope you have better luck that I did, to say the least!

[Misfit Jay]

I fucking hate people.

[Arlene]

I think I'm in a safe position. I'm not so far in to the point where I wouldn't be considered a candidate because I'm "too good of a friend" but I'm also not so far away to the point where she wouldn't give me a chance because I'm barely a friend. I'm sort of in the middle. If anything were to happen, I think it's safe to say I'd be the only guy she'd really vent to, besides her brother-in-law. Here's hoping things work out between them, though. They're an amazing couple, and I love that.

I say, the best of luck to you, Will. You're a great guy and deserve to be happy. ^_^

[Will]

Thanks, Arlene and esaul17.

I think I scored some points with her today. I noticed she was wearing really bright colors so I nonchalantly told her she reminded me of Skittles, so I told her I was going to start calling her "Skittles." She said it was really cute and laughed and smiled. :lol:

[Chris(tmas)]

So I barely see my girlfriend, maybe once a week. She works 4 days in a restaurant and has to baby-sit 1/2 days a week.

She says we dont see eachother enough and she said that it should be better if we should break up then stay together. The problem is, she chooses to work 4 days a week, and to babysit 1/2 days a week while she only have to work 3 days a week and doesnt need to babysit at all, she likes the kid. Anyway, I asked her if she could change it from 4 to 3 days, and not babysit at all so we can see each other more often. She wouldnt do it.

what the fuck?

[Friskey™]

So I barely see my girlfriend, maybe once a week. She works 4 days in a restaurant and has to baby-sit 1/2 days a week.

She says we dont see eachother enough and she said that it should be better if we should break up then stay together. The problem is, she chooses to work 4 days a week, and to babysit 1/2 days a week while she only have to work 3 days a week and doesnt need to babysit at all, she likes the kid. Anyway, I asked her if she could change it from 4 to 3 days, and not babysit at all so we can see each other more often. She wouldnt do it.

what the fuck?

Then apparently I think you should SWERVE!~! and break up with her. Apparently she wants to spend more time babysitting instead of being with you. The hell with her. There's better people out there for you, man.

[Ryo Hazuki]

I live with a suicidal sister that sometimes puts a knife up to me, and other family members. It's very stressful, currently she is in a mental fasility but I fear once she gets out I will just be stressed to my limits. Living with parents that take out everything on you because they can not deal with how someone else reacts is not a fun thing to go though. But owell.

[Chris(tmas)]

Then apparently I think you should SWERVE!~! and break up with her. Apparently she wants to spend more time babysitting instead of being with you. The hell with her. There's better people out there for you, man.
Yeah but ive been with her for over 5 months, and to break up with her about babysitting.. :lol: Sounds pretty lame :P

I'll give it a week or 2. She has exams right now.

[Will]

Then apparently I think you should SWERVE!~! and break up with her. Apparently she wants to spend more time babysitting instead of being with you. The hell with her. There's better people out there for you, man.

I agree. If she's not willing to compromise so the two of you can see each other, she's not worth it.

[Friskey™]

Yeah but ive been with her for over 5 months, and to break up with her about babysitting.. :lol: Sounds pretty lame :P

I'll give it a week or 2. She has exams right now.

Didn't mean by that, you ass. :lol: I meant by the fact that she would rather spend more time doing other things instead of spending time with you. But I understand your choice. But remember...SWERVE!~!

God I love saying that. :lol:

[Chris(tmas)]

Didn't mean by that, you ass. :lol: I meant by the fact that she would rather spend more time doing other things instead of spending time with you. But I understand your choice. But remember...SWERVE!~!

God I love saying that. :lol:
I have no idea what the hell SWERVE!~! is, but okay :lol:

[Friskey™]

I have no idea what the hell SWERVE!~! is, but okay :lol:

A twist no one sees coming...or does see coming. It's a wrestling thing. :lol:

[Ryo Hazuki]

I don't care what it is. It's fun to say. Here is my song

SWERVE!
SWERVE!
SWERVE!
SWERVE!(x9)

[Chris(tmas)]

A twist no one sees coming...or does see coming. It's a wrestling thing. :lol:
:lol:!

Im going to talk with her in a week, a good conversation I hope. And we'll see it from there.

Thanks Will and.. Friskey I think :lol: Im bad with names.

[Friskey™]

:lol:!

Im going to talk with her in a week, a good conversation I hope. And we'll see it from there.

Thanks Will and.. Friskey I think :lol: Im bad with names.

Kevin...but meh, call me Friskey :lol:

[Chris(tmas)]

Kevin...but meh, call me Friskey :lol:
Okay.. Kevin.

Ahh it feels like im already part of the gang! High five? :D

[esaul17]

*sigh*

I hate feeling like this.

She said she didn't want to see me in person anymore for a while.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I mean...she pretty much asked if I liked her...it wasn't wrong to be honest...was it? :(

[Nick]

I hate being the Over Jealous Friend....she broke up with her boyfriend a couple weeks back and has said she Doesn't want to go back because he is so Flirtatious with other girls and other reasons..but yet Everytime i see her shes with him and i know because they were together for 2 years she says It'll Take time to get over him completely but...my god thats not helping being with him so much..even if she says he comes up to her. I still see Her laughing along with him at things.

i just spent the weekend with her which was great but now i feel like she doesn't feel the way about me that she tells me she does...gah oh well only time will tell

[Daniel]

So she ended up in hospital. It was her fucking fault for taking whatever the hell they were, but I still can't help but feel sorry for her. *Sigh* as much as she lied to me and whatnot, she is still an awesome friend.

[Kate]

A rebel is you
And I want to say me too
But it's hard to rebel
When all I think about is you
I want you so bad
I feel it so deep
I can't stop thinking about you
And it's making me lose sleep

I broke up with my boyfriend when he started making threats against my friend (who happened to write the above lyrics about me), demanding that I break my lease to move in with him, and demanding that I stop talking to said friend. Since then, I've been getting threatening messages...most of which are too obscene to be posted here. Nate's been there for me the whole time, never once pressing his case--in other words, he's being the perfect gentleman.

It's been a couple of weeks. I think it's time I made my move. Watch out Nate, this is going to knock your socks off.

[Will]

There's a good chance I will be disappearing for a while. Unless I can get 3 B's in my last three classes, I'm going to be expelled from college for two years.

[Messy Marj]

I have a problem. It's basically Maxime's problem, but I'm so worried. I know he doesn't like his job, but now it's so worse that every night when we go to sleep he starts to think about the next day and he gets belly cramps and needs to go to the toilet several times, every night. His contract will be finished in 2009, which is still far away. But the moment your work starts to affect your health something needs to happen, right? But he's acting like it'll be alright, and that worries me because a few months ago it wasn't this bad, so how will it go in a few months from now? =/

[Will]

I have a problem. It's basically Maxime's problem, but I'm so worried. I know he doesn't like his job, but now it's so worse that every night when we go to sleep he starts to think about the next day and he gets belly cramps and needs to go to the toilet several times, every night. His contract will be finished in 2009, which is still far away. But the moment your work starts to affect your health something needs to happen, right? But he's acting like it'll be alright, and that worries me because a few months ago it wasn't this bad, so how will it go in a few months from now? =/

I ended up having to quit my job over the summer because I was getting sick. You should probably talk to him about it and tell him if it keeps happening he's going to have to quit because you don't wanna risk it getting any worse.

[Messy Marj]

I ended up having to quit my job over the summer because I was getting sick. You should probably talk to him about it and tell him if it keeps happening he's going to have to quit because you don't wanna risk it getting any worse.
Yeah I already told him he should talk about it with his floorboss. You see, he doesn't just work for a company, it's part of the state or something so he has the garanty that he'll have a job for the rest of his life, but if he quits his job, he'll lose that garanty. I know that's kind of a big step, but health goes first.



And you better get those 3 B's. I'm sure you can do that. :)

[Harlz]

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost, it's empty and cold without you here...

[Misfit Jay]

Jesus...Why do I still regret it? I wish she listened to me in the first place and left him. Why do I still have these feelings of rage whenever I think of him? I told her he would be the death of her. I just wish I didn't mean literally.

[Friskey™]

What i'm about to say may risk my reputation here as a friend to some of you people. But I thought it through and I just need to get this off my chest, like really bad. I've only told a few people this and it's helped me and I think it's time that you all knew something I've held deep inside for awhile.

I really have no self-esteem to do the things I want to do anymore or things that I need to do. It just feels like I go through the same routine every day. I try and go out into the world, but it feels like I can't. I know the consequences and the dangers and the world out there, but I just can't get up and do it. I want to do the things that I love for a living, the things that would make me feel happy, make me feel proud of myself. I look myself in the mirror every morning and I just feel ugly and unattractive. I hate it. I'm so glad i'm alone most of the day, cause it's paradise for me.

When i'm alone some days, I end up dressing in women's clothing. Yes, I said it right. I'm alone so I can just go upstairs in peace and quiet, put on some lingerie (I know), or a dress or a skirt and blouse and feel happy or attractive, you know. I don't know why I do it. I don't do it for a sexual fetish. I just do it as a stress reliever, as a way to make myself feel wanted and not feeling like a fucking pussy half of the time.

For those of you that have read this far, note something. I AM NOT GAY! I still have a thing for the ladies. I still think Kristen Bell is my future wife, yadda yadda yadda. It's just a stress and anxiety reliever for whenever I feel down somedays or whatnot.

I can't believe i'm telling all of you this, but trust me...it makes me feel proud letting you all know, and hopefully you'll think that I'm good enough to be trusted. I know some people may freak out over this. (I may possibly think a couple names). Listen, if you are freaked out, or you want to blast me with anger, or you just have a question about it, you can PM me or IM me. Cause this will be the only time i'll talk about it here.

So...I hope you all understand that it's not really a problem, just a little help in my books.

-Kevin

P.S. I can't stress this enough...THIS DOESN'T GET OUT OF THE LPA! I don't want something bad happening and having my family or someone even closer know about this.

[Derek The Infamous]

I appreciate your honesty Friskey, and I am glad you could trust us enough to let this secret out that you've been hiding for so long. What you do when you are alone is your own prerogative, and nobody here should judge you for being different because its what makes you who you are. I for one will not point a finger in disapproval, and instead I will simply make an attempt to understand you the best I can. What I would like to know is just simply...why do you feel more attractive when you dress as a woman, rather than when you dress as a guy? I believe in our quest to understand you better, we need to dive into the way you think and see things, and the only way to do that is to ask.

[Timothy]

What i'm about to say may risk my reputation here as a friend to some of you people. But I thought it through and I just need to get this off my chest, like really bad. I've only told a few people this and it's helped me and I think it's time that you all knew something I've held deep inside for awhile.

I really have no self-esteem to do the things I want to do anymore or things that I need to do. It just feels like I go through the same routine every day. I try and go out into the world, but it feels like I can't. I know the consequences and the dangers and the world out there, but I just can't get up and do it. I want to do the things that I love for a living, the things that would make me feel happy, make me feel proud of myself. I look myself in the mirror every morning and I just feel ugly and unattractive. I hate it. I'm so glad i'm alone most of the day, cause it's paradise for me.

When i'm alone some days, I end up dressing in women's clothing. Yes, I said it right. I'm alone so I can just go upstairs in peace and quiet, put on some lingerie (I know), or a dress or a skirt and blouse and feel happy or attractive, you know. I don't know why I do it. I don't do it for a sexual fetish. I just do it as a stress reliever, as a way to make myself feel wanted and not feeling like a fucking pussy half of the time.

For those of you that have read this far, note something. I AM NOT GAY! I still have a thing for the ladies. I still think Kristen Bell is my future wife, yadda yadda yadda. It's just a stress and anxiety reliever for whenever I feel down somedays or whatnot.

I can't believe i'm telling all of you this, but trust me...it makes me feel proud letting you all know, and hopefully you'll think that I'm good enough to be trusted. I know some people may freak out over this. (I may possibly think a couple names). Listen, if you are freaked out, or you want to blast me with anger, or you just have a question about it, you can PM me or IM me. Cause this will be the only time i'll talk about it here.

So...I hope you all understand that it's not really a problem, just a little help in my books.

-Kevin

P.S. I can't stress this enough...THIS DOESN'T GET OUT OF THE LPA! I don't want something bad happening and having my family or someone even closer know about this.

You get my respect for putting yourself out there, man. I don't think I'd ever have the guts to tell somebody something like that. :)

The important thing is you do what makes you happy. If others judge you for that, that's their loss. We all love you here. Nothing will change that. ^_^

[User Name]

Well, as far as it not leaving the LPA; this is the internet and chances are, someone who feels particularly like being an ass will probably come along, read this, and probably mention it somewhere else.

As far as wearing women's clothes, whatever. I won't (or at least, try my hardest not to) judge you for that. In reality, what you look like on the outside should have no bearing in what people think of you as a person.

[Andrea]

You're a good guy, Friskey. When you said something about risking your reputation on here in RT, I was worried and didn't know what to think so I didn't say anything. Now that I know what you meant, I am shocked but at least it wasn't something like you have 16 toes and 1 extra nipple, lol. How long has this been going on? I am thinking this might just be a phase and you will soon snap out of that. It's just what I think but I honestly think you need to look in the mirror and take a good look at yourself. If there is something you don't like, perhaps make yourself look better. There are plenty of ways out there to do that. There are things on my body that I don't like and I am taking one step at a time to make my appearance better to feel comfortable in my own skin. It's not easy being a girl, lol. Anyway, I think you just need a good self-esteem booster and what better way to do that then to strive for a better appearance? It's not easy and you may not want to do it but it does pay off, trust me. Most importantly, do not give up on yourself. You are a great person who has been stuck in a rut for sometime. It's time to get out of that rut and start to better yourself! Hop to it! ^_^

Also, I'd like to add that admitting this does not change how I view you as a person. That took guts to let out. <3

[Derek The Infamous]

If you want a tip on how to feel better about yourself Friskey, branching off of what Andrea said....buy some really nice clothes for yourself.

For example, as shown in some of my pics lately I have been spending more on what I wear. For work I've started dressing in really nice dress shirts while my current winter coat is a peacoat I spent about 94 dollars on. There is seriously nothing wrong with being what they call a 'metrosexual', if dressing up and doing things to your appearance (new hairdo etc.) makes you feel good about yourself.

For me, dressing up classier and doing my hair in spikes makes me feel sexy. Maybe changing the way you dress (no pun intended with all of this) will do the same for you.

Hang in there bro! You'll find your confidence in due time.

[Arlene]

So she ended up in hospital. It was her fucking fault for taking whatever the hell they were, but I still can't help but feel sorry for her. *Sigh* as much as she lied to me and whatnot, she is still an awesome friend.

Wait, what? Who?

You gotta come online m'dear..
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Kevin, you are such an amazing person, in my opinion. You're there for me when I need someone, and you're just an all around great guy. I'm sorry that you feel the way you do about yourself, and I hope that you'll pass over this phase. But it really shows that you have guts to just say all of that, I know I wouldn't be able to. I'll admit I'm a bit shocked, but the fact that you were just able to say it shows that you have balls and I can respect you for that. You know I care about you, hun. :hug:

[Rachel]

Aww Kevin :hug:

Don't feel bad hun, everyone has their quirks. I am proud of you for admitting your hobby and I am not shocked by anything anymore. To be honest hun, I feel more comfortable in men's clothing, I just act overtly girlish (corsets, etc) to balance it out as well.

I don't think this makes you gay, nor do I think you'd have a fetish for it. It's something you like to do. I like to write poetry about cutting my exboyfriend's head off and keeping it on a shelf (dead honest, I'll email it to you, it's good). Everyone has their odd habit, just not a lot of people admit to it.

Like I said, I'm proud of you and feel a bit closer to you since we have many things in common, and I still love you and think you are one of the greatest people alive right now. Lacy panties or not :lol:

:hug:

[Luke]

Kevin, mate, it took balls for you to come out and say that here. Anyone with enough courage to do that is a winner in my books.

I have a theory that the Human Condition itself binds people to actually wanting to be alone. The fact is that we can all be happy when we're out with friends or with our partners etc. but it's essential that we need some time to be completely isolated from anyone and anything. During this time, people let off some steam and unwind in their own ways. The fact is that we all do stuff behind closed doors that certain people might take as wrong or offensive, but the fact of the matter is that it's essential to living itself to have some privacy and what people do in their own privacy is completely and utterly up to them.

[Daniel]

Kevin, you have my utmost respect for being able to come out and admt that here. You're a great guy, and you've got some real courage man.

I've never really had much self esteem to tell you the truth, so I know what that feels like.

[Misfit Jay]

Kev, I'm proud of you. You have all my respect to come out and admit that. My judgment of you has changed, but not in a hateful way, cuz that would be wrong. It changed because I see that you're man enough to admit something so personal like that. :)

[Anya]

I think I realized today that I'm still in love with my ex-boyfriend (now very close friend). I kinda tried to ignore it, but it's getting harder to do that now. Everyone I've dated I found to be very uninteresting and the relationship didn't last long.

I have always loved him I guess. Yet he's been dating this girl named Kelsey for like two years now.

It'll never work out but.. I don't know why I can't get over him since like.. my freshman year of high school. So I've been in love with him still for almost four years now, and he doesn't know. I try to avoid hanging out with him actually, but now he's asking me why we never hang out anymore and that he wants to see me.

Yeeahh, this sucks. I know no one can probably help me on this, I just wanted to say it somewhere is all.

[Harlz]

Respect to you Kevin for admitting that.
What you might lack in self esteem you sure make up for in guts.

[Friskey™]

Guys...wow. Like, i'm fucking speechless over the support that you guys have. Still a little skeptical, but I know that there will possibly be a sour apple in the batch. For one, my family. Living in a house with two brothers who basically are frat buddies in college when it comes to doing things compared to a computer nerd who likes to be alone. Telling my family that would not only disown me but I believe that the jokes will never stop.

I'll be nice and answer some of your questions though.

Derek: I don't know why I feel attractive when I do it. Maybe because there are times where I hate who I am and the world I live in. Maybe looking different causes me to act different, you know? Don't know about the "metrosexual" thing. (Just saying it makes me feel all weird, lol) Although I do need to change my look at least a little...maybe its that time.
Andrea: It's not really a phase, per say. I've been doing this for a couple years now. I stopped for awhile because of school and Angie and...you know, actually felt happy during that time frame. When that ended, yeah...went right back into it. I just wish I could stop being such a pessimist instead of an optimist.
Daniel: If you mean the whole thing with "you-know-who", I know everything. I'm pissed, yeah...but I actually learned that I was better off.

I love you all though. Seriously, this may sound wrong, disturbing, corny, god knows what. :lol: But you guys are some of the best friends I have ever had. Thank you all for your support. :hug: <3333

[Chris.]

People need to do things to make themselves feel good and you shouldn't have to worry about what other people will think of you. Honestly, you're a great guy and just because you do that, it doesn't change anything about you and I, personally, do not feel any differently towards you than before. You're still the hilarious Heroes-loving, Kristen Bell Obsesser that we've all grown to love :lol:

[Will]

I'm a little late, but I think you're one of the best people I've ever met, and I surely won't judge you for what you do in your spare time, as it's none of my business. I will say, however, I've got the utmost respect for you for telling everyone something you didn't have to tell anyone. It takes a lot of courage to come out and admit something like that — and I'll admit, I thought you were going to admit you were gay, but that's me being presumptuous.

It's no secret not everyone has the sexy sauce Derek has, but it's okay to feel that way, really. I mean, I never get compliments in real life on how I look — I rarely ever got comments about it from either of my two girlfriends, which is why I post so many pictures here. It makes me feel good to read comments like the ones I get. It should make you feel good when you get similar comments, as well — and I know you do. I've seen the comments your pictures get.

Anyways, as Derek said, maybe it's time you received a makeover. Now, obviously, I'm not talking about a bikini wax and facial reconstructive surgery. New clothes help a lot, and dressing confidently will definitely help even more. I won't lie: wearing "expensive" (as in, not from, say, Walmart) clothing makes you feel good about yourself, to the point where you're not going to care what other people think about you. All that's going to matter is you feel you look good.

As far as I'm concerned, you're Time's Person of the Year for admitting what you did. Not many people admit to something like you did unless they're caught off-guard by someone they didn't know was home. To admit it without any prior conviction or being forced to admit it makes you that much better, whether you think it does or not. Your family life might be rough, but you'll be a better person for it, I know it. The struggles of life are what make us all who we are when we're older.

If it makes you happy and makes you feel good about yourself, I say keep doing it, until you find other things which make you happy and make you feel good about yourself. I'm not saying you should use it as a crutch to make yourself happy, but if it helps and keeps you from doing something stupid, by all means, keep doing it. Gradually "ween" yourself from doing it, though. Next time you find yourself doing it, smack yourself in the face and say, "No, I've got to find something else." It won't work every time, but eventually, you'll finally get it right.

That's my two cents. You're a great guy, a great friend, and you've got more respect from me than I give some of my own friends. We don't know each other well, but that doesn't matter. I feel like we're a lot closer now.

After all, how could someone think you're gay when you've proclaimed Kristen Bell your future wife? :lol:

[Bleed-It-Out]

Im so sick of the rain!!!!!!!

[Harlz]

Im so sick of the rain!!!!!!!

You in Sydney by any chance?



One of my mates told me today he's considering asking her to the formal...

[Bleed-It-Out]

Newcastle :)

[Harlz]

Same thing, Sydney is gonna swallow Newcastle soon enough :P

[Radish]

;724889']One of my mates told me today he's considering asking her to the formal...

:o!!!

YOU HAVE TO ASK HER FIRST!

You can do it, Man! She's important to you!

[Messy Marj]

Kevin!! I'm so proud of you that you've finally got that off your chest! :hug:

[Debus]

Kevin, hun, i'm happy that you could get that off your chest :hug: I'm proud of you for doing that, I never could have confessed something like that. I told you people would accept it. You're too awesome for people to shun you over something like that <333

[Linja]

Kevhon, I'm very proud of you for letting that out. You're an amazing person, nothing could change that. :hug:. I'm proud to call you my friend.

[Ryo Hazuki]

It's weird. My grandma died yesterday and it was jjust weird how it happend.
My sister calls from the mental hospital at like 6 am and ask my mom whats wrong. nothing was wrong then.. then i was reading IT by stephen king and like 3 seconds after i read the line "And Eddie thought about taht as he died" my mom gets a phone call, from my dads sister saying my dads mom is dying. Then when i finish the book like 20 mins later my dads sister calls back and says my grandma is dead.. and then on the begining of NCIS at night GIBS appears to be dead.. so yeah that was a weird day.

[Derek The Infamous]

It's no secret not everyone has the sexy sauce Derek has, but it's okay to feel that way, really.

I don't know how to take that really. If everyone seriously thinks I'm that attractive then they do a good job hiding it. I realized that nobody comments on my pics anymore, but it's likely because they're scared Andrea will hunt them down and gut them like a pig if they go too far. :lol:

As for Kevin, being metro sexual doesn't necessarily mean plucking your eyebrows, having very clear skin and doing your hair up as there's different levels to it. A metrosexual by definition is the following:

metrosexual (met.roh.SEK.shoo.ul) n. An urban male with a strong aesthetic sense who spends a great deal of time and money on his appearance and lifestyle.

In laymens terms it's a guy who cares about his appearance and therefore purchases things to help him achieve his goal of 'looking good'. This can mean anything from just wearing nice clothes, to doing your hair up, making sure your eyebrows don't become one (LOL) and putting skin products on your face to have a clear complexion. I will admit that I am guilty of all of the above, but until I become like this guy:

http://wwwimage.cbs.com/primetime/bigbrother7/images/guests/bio_will.jpg
(Will from Big Brother 2).

...I don't believe I have anything to worry about.

Simply put, you have a job right Kevin? Go to King Of Prussia Mall (since you live in PA) and spend some cash on yourself. Buy some nice shit and pimp it out in some pictures for the ladies!

[Chris.]

I love making $7.15 an hour at a job I've been working for three years. I make minimum wage still and I've been at this place loyally for three years. I have missed maybe 5 days of work in that three years and do I get any kind of reward for that? Of course not. I work Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday and end up having to clean up an entire bowling alley everytime I work. What doesn't help is that the general public doesn't realize that I have 40 lanes to clean and It's not my job to make sure you walk the 5 ft. behind you to throw your goddamn garbage away. I work until at least 11:00 PM every night I work and on Thursdays I work til 1:00 AM and on Fridays I work until 2:00 AM. I only make 100$ a week, sometimes 120$ if I'm lucky.

I guess what really bothers me is the fact that I'm getting paid less than other people and doing twice the work. One of my managers, Kim, doesn't do jack shit and in the 3 years I've been there, I have never once seen her clean a single table though she loves ordering everyone else around to do everything. I know she's a manager and isn't required to do cleanup but it'd be nice to help because I'm only one fucking person and you can't expect me to clean an entire bowling alley by myself and have it look good without it taking hours. Not to mention on Thursdays, I have to stock the bar for the bartender, while working the front counter and then I have to fill the ice for the waitress halfway through the night, refill the paper towel in the restrooms, make sure the lanes are running right, and then clean up (which includes cleaning tables and monitors, sweeping the tile, vacuuming, cleaning the bathrooms, and cleaning the bar)

Granted I don't have a very hard job on the surface, because no one realizes what goes with the job. I work the front counter handing out lanes, handling leagues, calling mystery, cleaning the bowling alley, stocking the bar, etc... but if you were to stop by and see me during open bowling, I'm usually not doing anything because my job doesn't REALLY start until after you leave. What I really love is when customers (especially league bowlers) yell at me because their lane broke down and it's not fixed instantly. A lot of people don't realize that the mechanics in the back have 40 fucking lanes to deal with and if another call was ahead of yours, you don't get first priority.

Oh and as a side note: If you get pissed when you're bowling, do NOT hit the monitor because some asshole did that on one of the leagues I work and broke the monitor. They cost at least 500$ to replace.

[Will]

I don't know how to take that really. If everyone seriously thinks I'm that attractive then they do a good job hiding it. I realized that nobody comments on my pics anymore, but it's likely because they're scared Andrea will hunt them down and gut them like a pig if they go too far. :lol:

I was more commenting on how confident you are about your looks. That's what it takes, confidence. You could be the grossest dude on two feet, but if you're confident, no one cares. That's what makes someone sexy.

Not saying anyone here's the grossest dude on two feet or anything. Just a metaphor.

[Friskey™]

I was more commenting on how confident you are about your looks. That's what it takes, confidence. You could be the grossest dude on two feet, but if you're confident, no one cares. That's what makes someone sexy.

Not saying anyone here's the grossest dude on two feet or anything. Just a metaphor.

Yeah, I wish I could have your confidence when I dress in regular clothes there, Derek. That's one of the reasons why I "dress up", cause it makes me feel like something.

[Joe]

It takes some balls to come out & say something like you did Kevin, and I think you're one hell of a guy for doing so. Who gives a shit what you do in your own life? You're still the same person you've always been and there's a reason you're voted favorite member year in, year out. Hell, we all do shit we probably keep secret & don't tell people, I mean I didn't want to do this again, but you've made me do it! Look at this shit! (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v190/uncle_raj/Drunken_Joe.jpg) Now that's some fucked up shit from 3/4 years ago & I guaran-damn-tee I'll wear my best friends mothers underwear again if I got the chance because I'm just that fucked up! lol

Seriously mate, don't worry about it. You're one of the best people on these boards and we're always here for you. :thumbsup:

[Messy Marj]

It takes some balls to come out & say something like you did Kevin, and I think you're one hell of a guy for doing so. Who gives a shit what you do in your own life? You're still the same person you've always been and there's a reason you're voted favorite member year in, year out. Hell, we all do shit we probably keep secret & don't tell people, I mean I didn't want to do this again, but you've made me do it! Look at this shit! (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v190/uncle_raj/Drunken_Joe.jpg) Now that's some fucked up shit from 3/4 years ago & I guaran-damn-tee I'll wear my best friends mothers underwear again if I got the chance because I'm just that fucked up! lol

Seriously mate, don't worry about it. You're one of the best people on these boards and we're always here for you. :thumbsup:
Hahahaha I remember that picture, you send it to me one time and I think it's still on my computer in Holland actually. :lol:

[Friskey™]

It takes some balls to come out & say something like you did Kevin, and I think you're one hell of a guy for doing so. Who gives a shit what you do in your own life? You're still the same person you've always been and there's a reason you're voted favorite member year in, year out. Hell, we all do shit we probably keep secret & don't tell people, I mean I didn't want to do this again, but you've made me do it! Look at this shit! (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v190/uncle_raj/Drunken_Joe.jpg) Now that's some fucked up shit from 3/4 years ago & I guaran-damn-tee I'll wear my best friends mothers underwear again if I got the chance because I'm just that fucked up! lol

Seriously mate, don't worry about it. You're one of the best people on these boards and we're always here for you. :thumbsup:

:lol:!

Thanks, man.

[Luke]

I mean I didn't want to do this again, but you've made me do it! Look at this shit! (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v190/uncle_raj/Drunken_Joe.jpg) Now that's some fucked up shit from 3/4 years ago & I guaran-damn-tee I'll wear my best friends mothers underwear again if I got the chance because I'm just that fucked up! lol

LMFAO! :lol:!!!!!!!

Joe you fucking nutter. :lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

Yeah, I wish I could have your confidence when I dress in regular clothes there, Derek. That's one of the reasons why I "dress up", cause it makes me feel like something.

Actually here's a confession for all of you: Before I started dating Andrea I wasn't that confident at all. Dating her has made me strive to look better and dress more attractively because she makes me feel better about myself.

Just like with you Kevin. When you had that girl you stopped doing the other thing because it brought you that confidence. Maybe that's just what you need, a new love in your life =).

[Chris(tmas)]

Kevin is Man of the Year :lol: Im voting for you in every single category at the next LPA Awards.

Anyway, like everyone said. Get some new clothes. It doesnt have to be expensive, i got my some shirts for 10€ each which isnt much but they look pretty neat and people say it. It doesnt have to be expensive, as long as it looks 'unique' and cool. Yknow, how the fuck do I explain something :lol: Something that wouldnt fit in your closet but looks cool enough to wear.

[a bunch of confidence words that everyone said already but I cant say it in my own words.]

But you're a great guy. You make me laugh everytime and you'll be fine :) Someone is out there and she'll make you happy. Maybe its not the time right now to go out and change your life in one day, but do it slowly. Get used to it.

[Luke]

Kevin's courage has actually inspired me to confess something myself.

I wasn't sure if I should ever admit this on LPA, but because I can see that the majority of people on this forum are truly outstanding people, I've decided to go for it.

When I was younger, say between 12-14 I was a hugely insecure person when it came to popularity and appearance. See I've never liked the way I look, I've always been a fairly big person and even though I've had some great experiences with certain ladies, I've never been one of those people who could really go and put myself out there for the girls (how the hell Dave does it I'll never know. :lol:). Anyhoo in this time period I was going through some rough shit which I wont go in to because it's besides the point. I guess I kinda acted out by lying about certain things to make myself feel big and get some attention whether good or bad.

I signed up to LPA around a month short of my 14th birthday and I feel ashamed to admit that during my first year on the boards, I lied about alot of stuff. I figured that no one would care if I told a few mistruths here and there to big myself up a little bit. This included a story of a girl named Sarah as some of you might remember.

I said that at 14 years of age we were a tight, in love couple and that we gave our virginities to each other which resulted in her being pregnant. I also said that she ended up having an abortion and becoming seriously ill as a result. I even spoke to certain people outside of LPA about it including Dave and a few others and even wrote fucking pieces of writing to express how I was supposedly feeling. The fact is that that was all a lie. In reality Sarah was just a made up person based on a girl who at the time I was madly in love with. The stories I told on LPA were just certain senarios I'd imagined in my mind. I know it's fucking pathetic and wrong at that, but I guess I was just young and confused at the time.

I quit all that bullshit my second year into LPA so no one really has to worry about similar things happening again. Since then the girl who 'Sarah' was based on has moved away from London and although I have had feelings for other girls since then, I've never done anything extreme as to lie about things involving them and myself so everything is fine. I've grown up alot in the past 3 years during which I have had sexual experiences with girls - It first happened just shy of my 16th birthday as apposed to when I was 14 like I told people here. None of that really matters to me anymore though. I'm no longer some snivelling little punk who felt it was cool to take advantage of a great community and lie to them about certain things to make myself feel important.

I'd like to take this oppertunity to apologise to everyone I misled with any of the bollocks I said in my first year in LPA. I feel utterly ashamed of myself for lying to you. The majority of people here are really cool people and although I don't know you personally, the fact is that I log in to LPA at least once a day so in some weird way, you're all like my online friends. I know that sounds kinda sad but oh well, I mean it. :)

I just hope people wont take me as a lying punk or anything like that. I was young and stupid and although that's a seriously overused cliche, I would never wanna do anything to loose you guys' respect. Particularly those who I talk to outside of LPA (considering I think mine and Dave's bands will be big and will tour one day lol).

[Friskey™]

Shit, I made a domino effect haven't I? :lol:

But I don't think you're a lying punk at all. We're reckless at that age, we can do anything and almost get away with it. What you may have said or done, I have no idea what exactly since I really don't remember 2004 with the exception of the shit with Angie and everything.

But in all honesty to you Luke, and to everybody...I actually did the same damn thing. It didn't take place here but it took place elsewhere with a friend I knew very well. So bad that I faked my own death, faked friends, faked family problems and problems at school. Like with Luke, I was also young, around the same age, so...for the same reasons he said, I was stupid and young as well and everything I have said or told all of you in the 2 years I have been here have been the honest to god truth.

You're a good person now, and you're also a good friend to me as well. You're my Team Rampage and Chain Gang brother. And I hope to keep it that way. ^_^

[Derek The Infamous]

Everyone is confessing things about themselves now. Amazing how in a way Friskey you have indirectly brought the forums together. You are the forum glue so to speak, and now everyone is coming out of the woodwork to admit things they never would have before. I can't necessarily think of anything about myself that I haven't admitted in some way or another, but I found an old self-biography of mine. It should give you all a glimpse into how messed up I used to be.

http://www.broken-silence.net/silenthope/aboutme.html

I'd like to warn you all that it contains some very foul language and is a little hard to read at spots. But for anyone who wants an idea of my past and what I went through, please...by all means go ahead and have a read.

[Luke]

@Kevin: Thanks for that dude. You're an awesome person and anyone who says otherwise deserves to rot. Chain Gang and Team Rampage ftw. Btw I just realised Team Rampage bares similarities to that of Team Rocket. Perhaps we should affiliate with them. :lol:

@Derek: I had no idea that you went through that shit man. I'd never have guessed you had such a troubled past because you seem like a pretty happy person, even more so now that you're with Andrea (but then again, anyone who can't see you're happy because you're with Andrea is either blind or has a shoesize IQ :lol:).

I've had problems with bullys in my time too actually. I look back on it now and I just think that it puts things into perspective when you go from being called weak or whatever and suffering through some emtional problems to eventually having a pretty awesome life. I think I speak for both of us Derek when I say that life is pretty peachy right now and any negative memory of the past is just a memory in the distance that wont happen again.

[Derek The Infamous]

I think I speak for both of us Derek when I say that life is pretty peachy right now and any negative memory of the past is just a memory in the distance that wont happen again.

Amen to that. Life is good now, and that bullshit I wrote about is in the past. I am now doing better and probably making more money then any of those assholes.

I happen to know for a fact that the guy I wrote about in that blog, eventually got into drugs and lost all his money through internet gambling..eventually getting in trouble with the police.

Sounds like he had a good life, no? :P

[User Name]

Okay guys. Group hug. Now. :lol:

[Friskey™]

Wow, Derek...I didn't really know that. But you know, I also completely know what you went through as well. Throughout my childhood and school, people were always picking on me (for some reason, my parents put me in a after school daycare/support program with half of the kids there people who didn't like me). For a kid that was in the Emotional Support program, that's heartache horrible for you. Good news being is that most of the kids who picked on me or gave me shit or either in trouble, or have a shit load on their plate, so i'm not crying here. :lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

Yeah isn't in funny how the people who call you losers end up getting in trouble with the law, and in turn end up being the real losers? Amazing how that works out. :lol:

[Friskey™]

Yeah isn't in funny how the people who call you losers end up getting in trouble with the law, and in turn end up being the real losers? Amazing how that works out. :lol:

Karma is such a awesome tool in life. :lol:

[User Name]

Yeah isn't in funny how the people who call you losers end up getting in trouble with the law, and in turn end up being the real losers? Amazing how that works out. :lol:

You reap what you sow.

[Derek The Infamous]

You reap what you sow.

Forfeit the game/stop the talk show product of what you're taught to know/forfeit the game, cause tomorrow/when it's all done you reap what you sow.


....sorry. :lol:

[Luke]

I think in some weird unexplainable way, it's lifes own take of what goes around comes around. It's the same with me because I know that those bastards who put me through shit all that time ago have gone on to live a pretty shitty life.


Forfeit the game/stop the talk show product of what you're taught to know/forfeit the game, cause tomorrow/when it's all done you reap what you sow.


....sorry.:lol:
:lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

I think in some weird unexplainable way, it's lifes own take of what goes around comes around. It's the same with me because I know that those bastards who put me through shit all that time ago have gone on to live a pretty shitty life.

Because they take drugs or do whatever they think is necessary to 'fit in' and 'be cool', and by the time they realize those people they talked to in school are not really their friends, they have already hurt themselves so much through drugs, that there is no point in going back to what they used to be.

And it serves them right. You dish it out, you get it back in return.

[Luke]

Maybe things really do happen for a reason. We've all been put through shit in our lives on some level, it's those who come out of it stronger that shows charecter.

[Derek The Infamous]

Well here's an update for you. I just found out the kid who punched me in the shoulder?

Get ready for this one.

.........he's a Scientologist. :lol:

[Luke]

Well here's an update for you. I just found out the kid who punched me in the shoulder?

Get ready for this one.

.........he's a Scientologist. :lol:

Now you know someones not doing well when they resort to scientology. :lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

Now you know someones not doing well when they resort to scientology. :lol:

Yeah that's like a dead giveaway. :lol:

[Luke]

Just look what happened to Tom Cruise, he ended up marrying someone who makes him look like a dwarf. :lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

Just look what happened to Tom Cruise, he ended up marrying someone who makes him look like a dwarf. :lol:

True but Katie Holmes can be fucking hot. Case in point:

http://img.perezhilton.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/11/wenn5049943__oPt.jpg

This is from perezhilton.com.

She makes him look terrible. :lol:

[Luke]

Underline the word can. :lol:

Percides, look at her eyes. She looks like she could boil your Rabbit if you piss her off. :lol:

[User Name]

I find Tom's lack of sideburns disturbing.

[Todd]

I'll jump on the "I was a fucked up little kid and want to tell the LPA about it" bandwagon too :lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

I'll jump on the "I was a fucked up little kid and want to tell the LPA about it" bandwagon too :lol:

Then do it, lmfao. *pulls a chair up and sits down*. Fucked up storytime!

[Anya]

What i'm about to say may risk my reputation here as a friend to some of you people. But I thought it through and I just need to get this off my chest, like really bad. I've only told a few people this and it's helped me and I think it's time that you all knew something I've held deep inside for awhile.

I really have no self-esteem to do the things I want to do anymore or things that I need to do. It just feels like I go through the same routine every day. I try and go out into the world, but it feels like I can't. I know the consequences and the dangers and the world out there, but I just can't get up and do it. I want to do the things that I love for a living, the things that would make me feel happy, make me feel proud of myself. I look myself in the mirror every morning and I just feel ugly and unattractive. I hate it. I'm so glad i'm alone most of the day, cause it's paradise for me.

When i'm alone some days, I end up dressing in women's clothing. Yes, I said it right. I'm alone so I can just go upstairs in peace and quiet, put on some lingerie (I know), or a dress or a skirt and blouse and feel happy or attractive, you know. I don't know why I do it. I don't do it for a sexual fetish. I just do it as a stress reliever, as a way to make myself feel wanted and not feeling like a fucking pussy half of the time.

For those of you that have read this far, note something. I AM NOT GAY! I still have a thing for the ladies. I still think Kristen Bell is my future wife, yadda yadda yadda. It's just a stress and anxiety reliever for whenever I feel down somedays or whatnot.

I can't believe i'm telling all of you this, but trust me...it makes me feel proud letting you all know, and hopefully you'll think that I'm good enough to be trusted. I know some people may freak out over this. (I may possibly think a couple names). Listen, if you are freaked out, or you want to blast me with anger, or you just have a question about it, you can PM me or IM me. Cause this will be the only time i'll talk about it here.

So...I hope you all understand that it's not really a problem, just a little help in my books.

-Kevin

P.S. I can't stress this enough...THIS DOESN'T GET OUT OF THE LPA! I don't want something bad happening and having my family or someone even closer know about this.

I was just reading a couple of posts back and I finally read this, I'm glad I didn't miss it.

I just wanted to say that I don't find what you do strange in the least. I think it's awesome that you had such strength to admit such a thing, and I really am proud of you. <3 I think that even though you think down on yourself, that this proves how great and strong a person you truly are. Everyone gets to a rough point in their lives, and whatever makes you happy, makes you happy and I would never think of you any differently. I think that goes the same for mostly everyone on LPA as well. I hope you realize sooner or later that you are an attractive person, inside and out. But that's for you to find out yourself I guess.

So until then, If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you if you need anything. :) I know alot of people must've said that already, but ah well. I mean it, seriously. I'm done blabbing now though I guess, haha.

[Todd]

Eh....same crap as everyone else. Wasn't the most popular kid back in elementary school (never beaten up or anything though....more of the verbal shit). My 4th grade teacher thought I had no social skills and told my parents I should see a social worker (nice term for a psychiatrist....) and they obliged, and it didn't help, because I did have social skills. I guess I was just late to the game. Now my parents and I just look back and laugh at that. I think the tipping point for me was in 5th grade. We were coming back inside from recess (fuck I miss recess, I want that in college...oh wait, that's called stopping at the bar between class :lol:) and the door was a giant metal door, one of those heavy steel fireproof ones. So some kid was holding the door open for everyone, and as I started walking through, he started trying to close it shut on me and knock me over with the door. He was a scrawny little kid, I've always been a pretty big guy, so rather than take that crap from him, I used all my strength, shoved the door back in the other direction and got his arm caught between a giant steel door and brick wall. Broke the fucker's arm, and got away with it too, because it was self defense (ahhh.....the days before zero tolerance). That's when the "Let's all fuck with Todd" started to go away. Middle school wasn't nearly as rough, and by high school, I was just as "normal" as anyone else.

But yeah, some of the bullies who moved away before middle and high school, one of these days I'd like to meet them face to face and show them how much further this "loser" has gone in life. 6 months stand between me and a college degree from a very good university, 4 weeks until I get (or at least take the test for) a Cisco certification that no idiot can get, and to top if off, 6 weeks until I get a brand new, really nice car. I'd like to see how far flipping burgers at McDonalds has gotten them :lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

LOVE the story about you breaking his arm Todd. I gave some shit head a bloody nose back in elementary school cause he jumped me and I turned around and gave him three very well landed punches to the nose.

He cried like a bitch and went to the principal, and I was nearly suspended till I explained it was self defense. Fun. :lol:

[moniku]

@Todd: Your story gave me laugh, but in a good way. :lol:

Actually, I was bullied alot in elementary school because of my shyness. Plus, there were the many common factors such as getting glasses in Kindergarden, my short height, and voice. I'm also not agressive, so despite my parents telling me to take some kind of action to fight back, I'd just sit back and won't do anything. So, it was really easy for anybody to take advantage of me.

Well...it particuarly started with a girl who was supposedly my "friend" from Kindergarden to 2nd grade. Plus she was my "only" friend because I didn't have the courage to speak to anybody else. At first, it started with simply playing around at snack time. However, I noticed she would always throw blocks at me and hit my hand with this wooden truck. Then she started to make me do favors and would always tell on me for things she did. Around 1st grade, it started to get worse. She would always steal my snack, lunch, or ice cream money everyday, while threatening me to beat me up or not be my friend anymore if I didn't. I sort of became her personal lackey or slave in a sense too. My parents would constantly confront her, but it didn't do anything. (I dunno why they didn't tell the principal)

Oh gosh, I think it was the worse in 2nd grade. That's when she started to actually beat me up. There was just this one certain way in the morning though, it went like:

1. Take off my school shoes and throw them to the fence
2. Swing me around by the arm
3. Throw me onto the ground
4. Repeat steps 2-3

Now, consider that this was all on a concrete playground in the winter.
I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THE FUCK I ALLOWED HER TO DO THAT TO ME.
Sorry....anyways, she actually did leave my school by 3rd grade, to my luck. However, that doesn't mean this would all leave me easily. Around 6th grade, some 7th grade girls started to tease me (indrectly) about my low voice. Another issue was a girl on my bus who would verbally harrass me every day. For both, I acutally stood up for myself and went straight to the principal, since...I wasn't going to take this kind of bullshit anymore. I felt quite proud of myself, because those people now respect me for who I am.

Rest assured, this kind of stuff isn't happening to me in high school now. I've learned from my past and will be very thoughtful of my surroundings. (although I am still a soft spoken person, but not as much as before) Apparently I have a very good reputation and am well known, but I haven't realized it up until now. Plus, it's with both teachers and students despite me not being the smartest or most academically recognized student out there. Word also got out among my teachers that I'm good at art, so now they actually wait on me to see what I do in Color and Design class. It sucks because I'm not that great in that certain class and it gives me pressure. (wtf I'm in a class mixed in with AP Art/Art History and girls who had prior art lessons at Art colleges, there's no competition there XD)

[Mark]

Friskey, it takes a lot of courage to divulge something so personal to a bunch of people you've never met before in real life. I admire that.

Everyone has their own ways of dealing with their issues, and if it works for them, all the power to them.

However, and this is not a slight in any way, eventually you will have to find something else that works for you and builds your self-esteem in a public setting. I'm positive you've got a lot of great qualities (you're by far the funniest person on the forums) and when the day comes where you feel completely satisfied and confident in yourself (that day will come) without having to do something out-of-ordinary to accomplish that feeling, you'd have won the battle and felt the best you ever have.

Oh, and Derek? -100 Cool Points for going to PerezHilton.com

[esaul17]

Okay, turn of events, I don't want her anymore. It is odd how you can feel someone is so amazing and they turn out to be...not at all.

[Derek The Infamous]

Friskey, it takes a lot of courage to divulge something so personal to a bunch of people you've never met before in real life. I admire that.

Everyone has their own ways of dealing with their issues, and if it works for them, all the power to them.

However, and this is not a slight in any way, eventually you will have to find something else that works for you and builds your self-esteem in a public setting. I'm positive you've got a lot of great qualities (you're by far the funniest person on the forums) and when the day comes where you feel completely satisfied and confident in yourself (that day will come) without having to do something out-of-ordinary to accomplish that feeling, you'd have won the battle and felt the best you ever have.

Oh, and Derek? -100 Cool Points for going to PerezHilton.com

I used to hate Perez for all of the bashing he does...but by god it's just too fun to read his site in anticipation of what fucked up shit Britney Spears will do next.

That bitch needs her own reality show. Her new music ain't bad, but she as a person is just crazy. :lol:

[Mark]

I used to hate Perez for all of the bashing he does...but by god it's just too fun to read his site in anticipation of what fucked up shit Britney Spears will do next.

That bitch needs her own reality show. Her new music ain't bad, but she as a person is just crazy. :lol:

If you want to do that and read comments by someone who is actually hilarious: WWTDD.com is the place to go. No stupidly captioned pictures, either. :lol:

It's much more NSFW, though.

[Kate]

Friskey, you have my absolute and utmost respect for saying what you said. I think that boosting your confidence can only be a good thing, and you're doing it in a perfectly healthy way. *hugs* Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

[Harlz]

My best mates dad died today.

Shit...

[Daniel]

Fuck, I so regret any hard feelings I held towards her.

I'm really worried about her now. :unsure:


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Damn HARLZ, that's terrible. I feel for you mate, I do.

[Messy Marj]

;725375']My best mates dad died today.

Shit...
I'm very sorry to hear that. :hug:

[Arashi]

I like him. I think I like him ALOT.

And he likes me too.


BUT IT"S TOO COMPLICATED.
HE WENT OUT WITH MY BESTFRIEND. HE KISSED HER. MANY TIMES.

I hate him, but I love him.


It's killing my brain.

[Joeykat]

;725375']My best mates dad died today.

Shit...

:hug: I hope you guys are ok and that you can help eachother through this terrible time :hug:

[Arashi]

:hug: I hope you guys are ok and that you can help eachother through this terrible time :hug:

I have the same sentiments.

I understand, my friend's father was shot dead a few months ago.


:/

[Chris(tmas)]

I'd like to confess something aswel..

Im actually extremely hot :lol:

Nah, I used to be a shy guy with the ladies and stuff but since I had a girlfriend, the one I used to be madly in love with, brought me alot of confidence and made me feel good and stuff. So now I have a girlfriend again sometimes I just really dont care what happens around me :lol: That sounds REALLY rude and cruel, but I dont care if I get bad grades and if I do I just think "Ahwell, atleast I have a girlfriend" and thats just bad :lol:

At first when I got this new girlfriend I liked her, but not as a girlfriend. Just as a friend yknow. But thank god I really like her right now. Im also in a class with 20 girls, and 2 guys, and in our whole section there are 130 girls and 7 guys :lol: So its hard to keep my mind focused on the fact that I have a girlfriend. Watching is okay and talking is fine, but Im not going to do anything with them. Cheating is a big no no.

This is just more like a big random thought than a confess, and its not really a confess anymore :lol: Just some random talking, hey random thoughts. Well, I DID won the Most Random Member award.

Im now coming off as a really smooth dude like Dave, but no one beats Dave. Fact. Im still a tiny little shy but its not as bad as it used to be. Im not afraid to make fun of myself and thats always a plus. Im actually always the one who makes sarcastic comments to everyone about how they look, or what they are. Racial jokes, and you cant tell me you've never done that. In fact, I hate racists people and I have no problem with people who have a different color (yeah, way to put that Chris) but.. sometimes the jokes are funneh :(

So to talk about my girlfriend right now, her name is Marissa, 18 years old and we're together for 5 months and 12 months. "Why the hell would he remmeber that?" you will ask, well, its because its in my MSN name so I wont forget it :lol: Im really happy with her, but like I said before in a couple pages back before Kevin had to confess so bad (jk man, jk :P) things arent going so well. We arent seeing each other as much as we would like to because she has to work so damn hard. She's babysitter for 1/2 days, works in a restaurant for 4 days and has to study for her exams.. A couple months back she didnt babysit worked 3 days a week, so I was fine with that. But now I hardly see her, maybe once a week. So a couple weeks, maybe 2 weeks, she called me (or I called her, i dont know) and we talked a bit about us and she said that we should better break up and be really good friends. I said to hell with that, just because we dont see eachother that often doesnt mean that we should break up. I said that we'll be fine and I'll try to see you as much as I can. The idiot that I am, I was looking for a solution for the problem, she is the one who needs to find a solution. Its not my fault she works 5/6 days a week. I dont need to suffer under her work situation. Thats just bullshit.

A couple days ago we had a little argument about my other ex, the one I slept with and then I never saw her again. Yes, big time player lol. Nah, I still talk to her and we're still friends. But anywho, she got a little mad about it because I didnt have safe sex with her. It was pretty stupid of me and I totally regret everything about what I did back then. So then I said to her that Im going to stop by next week, when she has time for me, so that we could everything out. About my ex, about us, about everything thats bothering is and we'll see what happens. Im looking forward to it, with a happy and sad face. Maybe things will be alright and she'll cut down the work, or nothing happens and it stays the way it is. And I dont think I'll have the balls at that moment to tell her that she could shove her work up her ass because Im not dealing with that shit. It'll probably end up the way it is now and we'll still have a relationship. I dont wanna lose her, because she's just really great and I love her to death.

So I think thats about it.. :lol: Hope it makes sense lol.

[esaul17]

I can't believe she walked up to my friend, said Hi, then saw me and walked away without saying another word.

I didn't do anything wrong, she has no right to treat me like that.

[Will]

The thing I want to let out is that HOLY CRAP THIS THREAD EXPLODED.

[Daniel]

The thing I want to let out is that HOLY CRAP THIS THREAD EXPLODED.

I know, it's like......POOF! :lol:

At least it's being used for what it was designed for.

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On a serious note, fuck, she told me she cut herself the other night. Normally I'd regard this kind of shit as attention seeking, but she's really scaring me. After she downed almost a whole pack of Panadol, and now this, I'm worried. Plus her boyfriend's being an unsupportive fuck, as per usual. I really hope she doesn't take things further....I mean, she's told me (repeatedy) how much she appreciates me always being there for her, but I don't know if that's going to be enough.

[Derek The Infamous]

There's really no way to describe how I'm feeling right now except that I hope the next 2-3 weeks work out in my favor and that I have a new job by the end of November. For those of you who don't know, I fired off an email to the Senior Vice President of Rental at my work, telling him that I am looking to advance within the company and would be interested in speaking to him about possible job opportunities at his earliest possible convenience. This was last Friday, or a week ago.

The following Monday (or this past Monday if you will), I bumped into him while walking back to my desk and he told me that he had received my email, and would try his hardest to get to responding to it by the end of this week.

...I can't even express right now how much I hope his response will be positive and open to the idea of meeting with me to discuss a possible position somewhere other than Central Reservations. In all honesty, I need to get out of there because there is more at stake then just my sanity and me needing to make more money for myself.

As much as the new job, spike in pay and better hours would all do me great, the real benefit from this would be that I could see Andrea a lot more, and in turn would be able to have an even closer relationship with her as a result of all of that. Having weekends off would mean that we could plan to see each other much more often than just 'here and there', and instead just find a weekend where we both don't have plans and stick to it. Having weekends off would also mean that I wouldn't have to worry about me taking off of work and getting fired because I failed to come in when I was supposed to. This would be huge. Me having Mon-Friday 8-5 is exactly what this relationship needs, and thus I hope it can all work out for me.

For anyone who wants to know...things are going phenomenal right now between me and her and I really couldn't ask for it to work out any better than it's been over the past few weeks. Being completely honest and real with you all, I don't think that I've ever loved a girl as much as I love her. Call me naive, call me pussy whipped, but what me and her have is something truly special and that's why I need weekends off so I can see her more.

When we say the same thing at the same time, and finish each other's sentences on a daily basis without making it deliberate, you know there is true connection and chemistry there that you cannot find anywhere else. To me that's a sign of something truly special and I'm happy to say that I have that in my life.

Now...here's to hoping Art lands me a new job. It would make everything in my life even more perfect than it is now.

[Will]

She's been giving me a lot of signs she's attracted to me. She's consistently been calling things I've done or said "cute," and she's given me free hot chocolates from her shop for helping her with her math studies, which she invited me up to help her with, when she could've gotten in trouble for doing so. She claimed we were "really good friends," too, and told me she hopes I fail all my classes so I have to stay at my local campus, even though she was joking. Then she texted me, telling me she felt like she didn't have any friends and no one liked her, and I told her everyone liked her, including "some dude named [omitted]," which is her boyfriend. She shrugged off my comment about her boyfriend liking her (who she's been with for over a year, I think) and we ended up having a long conversation about different things. It's so weird. Either she's just that open, or she's a little attracted to me, but can't really do anything about it.

[Rachel]

Why am I flirting with a taken man when I am taken?

Fuck.

[Harlz]

I might be able to get out of my School Certificate exam for English to go to the funeral...

My parents aren't keen on the idea, but I really do wanna be there for my mate.

I'm not sure what to do...

[Will]

You should probably go to your friend's funeral. That's the route I'd take, anyway. You can always take the exam another time; you can't go to your friend's funeral another time.

[Harlz]

It's the school certificate though, it's not just any exam.

Not that it makes much difference to me, but to the school and to my parents it makes a big difference.

[Joeykat]

But still they should respect the fact that the funeral is your last chance to say goodbye to your friend :)

[Harlz]

It's not my friend, sorry for wording that badly.

It's actually my best mates father who's just passed away.
I knew his father really well, I liked him and I've known him for years, so I do want to say goodbye to him as well.

[Radish]

Damn it that is a tough one.. >_<

So what does the school certificate do for you?

Can you postpone it in any way?

[Harlz]

I think it's the same as your VCD or something? I forget what yours is called.

I have to wait until tomorrow to get a call back and find out what the school has to say.

I'm gonna go if they say it's ok.

[Radish]

Yeah mines called VCE. You almost got it.

Good on ya! :)
Wishing you luck, man!

[Derek The Infamous]

Well, I did not get that email I was expecting today. FUCK.

I keep telling myself, there's still all of today for him to reply. He DID tell me he would try to get to it sometime this week, and I understand he's a busy guy so I suppose I just have to wait.

[Dedicated]

This girl is the hardest girl I've ever had to read body language from. I'm so sure she doesn't know what she wants... That or she wants attention off as many guys as possible.

[Fear]

I was driving home from my girlfriend's around 12 and her street is very dark. So I almost hit this guy, he looked like a hobo, it was actually pretty scary. Then the rest of the way home I kept thinking someone was in my car since I never locked it while I was in her house, and I heard this noise. It turns out I was just scaring myself, but still, that was kind of creepy. Lol.

[esaul17]

Wow, when I was out that one girl sent me a messaging saying "hi, how's it going".

What kind of person won't even look at you and walked away from a conversation mid sentence because you are there, then casually says "hi, how's it going" after?

[F-ck Casey]

I'm sorry, but I have to get this off my chest. It will surely be passed up for the next confession, but at least I will have gotten this out of my mind.

I've given almost 5 years of my (admittedly online) life to this forum, trying to help with whatever I can and trying to help other people with their problems and introducing them to things above and beyond Linkin Park. I'll admit to being a huge asshole in the beginning of my tenure here, but I like to think since my banning a few years ago and the debacle surrounding that I've grown and matured into a well-liked, respectful, intelligent and contributing member to this forum. I like to think that I had a part in the doing away of the word filter in 2003/2004, but perhaps that's me and my ego. Regardless...

Sometimes, especially right now, I feel that I don't get the attention I deserve. I'm not talking about being promoted to a moderator or something incredibly stupid like that, but just the general well-wishes of people I like to think are my friends on here. I consider this website to be my 2nd home on the internet, and I've come to accept certain people on this forum as members of my family (if that sounds dumb, I'm sorry, but that's how it is).

Anyone that knows me knows that I've struggled and battled with drugs for... what seems like an eternity. I was a huge stoner, and developing an unhealthy habit with cocaine. I was arrested on October 30th for possession of a Sch. VI drug, among other things. I spent the wee hours of the morning in jail until my parents bonded me out. I've had an epiphany of sorts since then, and I've decided to be drug free for the remainder of my life (hopefully).

Now, what bothers me (and sue me if i sound like a prick), but I feel as if no one cares. Will & Rachel were the only ones that replied with well wishes (which means more to me than you two will ever know). I'm just at a loss of words. Often times it seems as if you have to be a popular member to get any sort of feedback in this thread.

Here's what I'm trying to get at: I feel like I've contributed my fair share of things to this website, and all I ask for is consolance in my time of my need. I've come to think of most of you as my family, but yet... I feel like no one cares about me.

There it is, for better or worse.

EDIT: I just thought I should clarify that I'm not begging for sympathy on my situation, and I'm not looking for a flood of members to express their sadness at my whole being arrested thing.

[Dean]

I genuinely hope it works out for you Casey, and I'm sorry for not posting anything the last time.

[Radish]

I hope everything turns out alright for you Casey, and good on you for quitting drugs.

I think that we all care, I mean, I cared, but it was just so shocking for me to read your situation the first time that I couldn't think of anything to say that would cheer you up, or do anything at all. :( So I apologize for that.

Be praying for you, man :)

[Will]

I'd said it before, I'll say it again: I truly hope everything works out for you, Casey. I genuinely think you're a good person, and I also believe everyone deserves their second chance. For all you've gone through, and the fact you're taking the steps to make everything right again, makes me believe you deserve your own second chance. Not everyone is mature enough to realize when they're getting a second chance; I think you are.

I'll admit I'm rather shallow when it comes to responding to certain things in this thread. Generally, I don't expect anyone to respond to anything I post, which is why I've been posting so frequently. But if I find something to be of an exceeding importance, like your situation, or Kevin's situation, I'll respond to it. That's not to say I find anything else less important; it's to say there are, sometimes, more important things, which people may or may not truly need help with.

[Theazninvasion68]

Personal advancement or loyalty with friends.




:(

[Derek The Infamous]

I can't stand the fact that my co-worker has the worst breath in the existence of the human race. While it may seem like I am over reacting in describing it, believe me when I say it is rancid and turns my stomach everytime she gets in vicinity of me to ask a question. It's just fucking unacceptable and I don't know if I should piss her off and tell her or just let it go and bear it because I cannot believe she is unable to tell that her breath offends people. I mean for fucks sake, if she is in a room and I am on the other side of it, if I am within at least 5-10 feet of her it lingers around her like a cloud (no lie) and I can smell it as strong as if I was 5 inches away from her. It's just wrong.

As funny as this may sound, it pisses me off and I'm thinking of putting a few tins of altoids in her work drawer, to try and let her know. Just yuck.


Andrea, even though you never had an issue in this department and practice good hygeine, please by all means make sure you keep brushing your teeth and have mints so you never turn into this lady. As much as I love you, I think if you ever had this lady's breath I'd start running for the hills. Thank god you don't. :lol:

My god somebody save me!

[Will]

My sister was diagnosed as "autistic" but I think they were just being polite and they didn't want to call her a "raging bitch."

[Arashi]

I'm just at a loss of words. Often times it seems as if you have to be a popular member to get any sort of feedback in this thread.
.

This is something I really do agree with.


But Casey love I really do wish the best for you all the time. I just hope that you know that.

And I'm sorry for not coming online >.<

[Linja]

Casey. :hug:. Fuck, I didn't see your post. I really, really hope everything turns out well, no, not well, absolutely great! for you. I'm happy you had that epiphany =]. I sincerely hope it sticks.

[Messy Marj]

I'm so fucking pissed right now, I could actually cry my eyes out. I was so happy earlier because I finally got the chance to get a new pants cause I only have 2 good ones. I've been in atleast 15 shops and they're all expecting girls to be as thin and as tall as fucking lightpoles. I'm so fucking sick of this, every pants is atleast 20 centimetres too long for me. I already feel so fucking bad all the time when I'm out and everyone sees how stupid I look like, and now I just wanted to have a nice pants but hey, I'm not tall so no nice pants for Marj. They can all go fuck themselves.

[Linja]

:hug: Can you not get them altered? Yeah, that sucks when pants are too long. <3. Don't let it get you down, babe.

--

Fuck. This sucks. This is ruining my plans. I just got told that the presentation I made [late, but I seriously hadn't the time] isn't a presentation, but a summary, and I have to do it all over again, and that [and this is the worst part] I have to start attending the normal TOK lessons, where I used to have windows. I arranged all my extra lessons to be in those windows. This is screwing everything up. I could cry.

[Messy Marj]

:hug: Can you not get them altered? Yeah, that sucks when pants are too long. <3. Don't let it get you down, babe.

--

Fuck. This sucks. This is ruining my plans. I just got told that the presentation I made [late, but I seriously hadn't the time] isn't a presentation, but a summary, and I have to do it all over again, and that [and this is the worst part] I have to start attending the normal TOK lessons, where I used to have windows. I arranged all my extra lessons to be in those windows. This is screwing everything up. I could cry.
:hug: I hope everything will work out for you babe, don't cry.


And yes, I know it's stupid to get down on a freakin pants, but I just wanna look nice and that's sort of impossible for me. To get them altered is an option, but they always put a load of extra money on that, and the reason why I was so happy to get a pants was because we finally have a little spare money, I guess I can try altering myself, I know a little of that but well. I so need that job at Disneyland. >.<

[Linja]

At Disneyland? That sounds pretty damn wow. :hug: Marjoleintje.

[Messy Marj]

At Disneyland? That sounds pretty damn wow. :hug: Marjoleintje.
Yeah I know lol :hug:

You cheered me up! <3

[Linja]

Yay! I'm pleased to have cheered you up! Although I don't see how.

[Dean]

Fuck. This sucks. This is ruining my plans. I just got told that the presentation I made [late, but I seriously hadn't the time] isn't a presentation, but a summary, and I have to do it all over again, and that [and this is the worst part] I have to start attending the normal TOK lessons, where I used to have windows. I arranged all my extra lessons to be in those windows. This is screwing everything up. I could cry.
:hug: times a googolplex

[Linja]

:hug: times a googolplex
A gogol bordello plex? :hug: thanks, anyway hon.

[Timothy]

A gogol bordello plex? :hug: thanks, anyway hon.

Yeah, I was gonna say, googolplex is quite the obscure reference. :lol:

To Marj and Mali: :hug:

[Dean]

A gogol bordello plex? :hug: thanks, anyway hon.
No, a googolplex is ten to the power of ten to the power of ten. ;)

[Harlz]

and all that could have been

I need to stop having this on repeat.

[Will]

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

How the FUCK could you do that to him? You're a God damn whore. We should have warned him when we had the chance. God DAMN it.

FUCK YOU

[Daniel]

Hm, I get to see her again tomorrow. I hope she's doing okay =/

====

Will - Whoaaaaaaaa.

[Will]

Will - Whoaaaaaaaa.

That's pretty much what my reaction was at first. Then it was resentment.

Basically my best friend has been dating this girl who's really flirty and outgoing. Like she's so flirty she even flirted with his best friends right in front of him.

One night she was drunk and kissed three of us on or near our mouths. It was awkward as all hell. A couple weekends ago she kissed another one of our friends on the mouth and claimed it was because he was slapped. Total bullshit.

So anyways. He goes to one college and she goes to another. She stayed home this weekend (home as in college) and got drunk and almost did shit with some other guy. He asked her if he even knew him but she said no. SHE hadn't even met him before.

So then she claimed the only reason things didn't "go farther" was because one of her friends walked in and she's afraid of how far things might have gone if she wouldn't have been walked-in on.

I can't fucking believe it. After all her bullshit about not wanting to hurt him and then this. The worst part is she consistently told him HE was going to be the one who cheated on her. Well I know for a damn fact he hasn't done any of that shit.

Oh my God. Fuck her. FUCK HER.

[Daniel]

That's pretty much what my reaction was at first. Then it was resentment.

Basically my best friend has been dating this girl who's really flirty and outgoing. Like she's so flirty she even flirted with his best friends right in front of him.

One night she was drunk and kissed three of us on or near our mouths. It was awkward as all hell. A couple weekends ago she kissed another one of our friends on the mouth and claimed it was because he was slapped. Total bullshit.

So anyways. He goes to one college and she goes to another. She stayed home this weekend (home as in college) and got drunk and almost did shit with some other guy. He asked her if he even knew him but she said no. SHE hadn't even met him before.

So then she claimed the only reason things didn't "go farther" was because one of her friends walked in and she's afraid of how far things might have gone if she wouldn't have been walked-in on.

I can't fucking believe it. After all her bullshit about not wanting to hurt him and then this. The worst part is she consistently told him HE was going to be the one who cheated on her. Well I know for a damn fact he hasn't done any of that shit.

Oh my God. Fuck her. FUCK HER.

Fuck me, that's a joke. There are some people who just really don't deserve to be in a relationship. I mean, if you can't stay committed, don't hurt the other person by pretending you are. Times like this I actually don't miss being in a relationship.

======

So she's not sitting her end of year exams because she's "not in a fit mental state". Oh shiiiiiit.

[Arashi]

Hey Marjy which Disneyland? That's awesome!

[Daniel]

For fucks sake, I hate parents.

[...Lauren?]

I'm sad I won't get to see you after this year because you're going off to college...

Yeah you will, I'll track you down.

But we probably won't still want to date or anything.

I will.

Even after, like, 3 years?

Well in two years you can go off to college. You can live in the dorm with me.

They're not going to let me live in the dorm with you.

They will if we're married.

Did you just propose to me?!?

Well we could..!




HOLY SHIT.

I've known this guy for over a year, and he is the sweetest guy I've ever met, and we share a lot of the same ideas (every time we talk on the phone we stay on for hours, which I've never been able to do with anyone else) and we're both about as smart as each other, and I REALLY don't want to lose him, and I want things to work out with him... but still... holy shit... I'm way to young to be thinking of marriage.

[User Name]

That's pretty much what my reaction was at first. Then it was resentment.

Basically my best friend has been dating this girl who's really flirty and outgoing. Like she's so flirty she even flirted with his best friends right in front of him.

One night she was drunk and kissed three of us on or near our mouths. It was awkward as all hell. A couple weekends ago she kissed another one of our friends on the mouth and claimed it was because he was slapped. Total bullshit.

So anyways. He goes to one college and she goes to another. She stayed home this weekend (home as in college) and got drunk and almost did shit with some other guy. He asked her if he even knew him but she said no. SHE hadn't even met him before.

So then she claimed the only reason things didn't "go farther" was because one of her friends walked in and she's afraid of how far things might have gone if she wouldn't have been walked-in on.

I can't fucking believe it. After all her bullshit about not wanting to hurt him and then this. The worst part is she consistently told him HE was going to be the one who cheated on her. Well I know for a damn fact he hasn't done any of that shit.

Oh my God. Fuck her. FUCK HER.

If they stay together, it's only going to get worse. He needs to dump her now.

[Anya]

I'm sad I won't get to see you after this year because you're going off to college...

Yeah you will, I'll track you down.

But we probably won't still want to date or anything.

I will.

Even after, like, 3 years?

Well in two years you can go off to college. You can live in the dorm with me.

They're not going to let me live in the dorm with you.

They will if we're married.

Did you just propose to me?!?

Well we could..!




HOLY SHIT.

I've known this guy for over a year, and he is the sweetest guy I've ever met, and we share a lot of the same ideas (every time we talk on the phone we stay on for hours, which I've never been able to do with anyone else) and we're both about as smart as each other, and I REALLY don't want to lose him, and I want things to work out with him... but still... holy shit... I'm way to young to be thinking of marriage.

I think you should just tell him what you just said on here. :P That you're too young to even be thinking about such a thing, and you guys have only known eachother for a year.

I don't think he would take it the wrong way, at least he shouldn't. It's kinda strange he would ask you that though if he's only known you for a year, but that's just me. *shrugs*

[Harlz]

That funeral was, I dunno.

Dan was amazing, the poor kids' dad has just died, yet he played Blackbird perfectly as a tribute to him, in front of the whole church.
His dad would've been damn proud of him, that's for sure.

[Arashi]

Things are a bit too complicated. And I'm not feeling happy about it. At all.

[Chris(tmas)]

That was a really nice talk with my family. My dad stops drinking and smoking, my mom stops smoking, and me and brother stop biting nails. That way we support each other in our own way.

[Rachel]

i am a parasite. i am egocentric. i am a hypocritical misanthrope. sure, i hate people, but i hate being alone a lot more. i fuck to feel alive. i am addictive and i am addicted. i feel like the world is crashing down around me and i am too afraid of looking up and seeing what the hell is going on. i am cynical. i am desensitized. i am a pessimist. i am a malcontent.

i am fragile like any other human being, but i have the most cracks, and one of these days, i'm going to fall the wrong way and finally shatter.

i have the midas touch of despair. if i touch you, you will weep. if i hold you, you will grow cold. if i claim you, you will leave.

and most importantly, i destroy anything and everything i love.

hunny, you feel like a tattered bunny rabbit toy.

i am the one pulling out your stitches.

[moniku]

Right now, I am fearing that my bowling coach is starting to see me more than just a "student" just because he might think I'm naive. (Since I look younger than my age and pretty innocent looking...plus, I've actually heard he has a fetish for Asian women)

At least after this school year started, he's been starting to constantly acknowledge my presence whenever I'm near him (which I would think is quite hard in an all-girls high school) or confront me whenever I'm sitting/standing alone somewhere and start a conversation. Yet, I'm starting to think he's doing it a bit too much, especially since I try to pretend that I don't see him in most cases. Considering today...

1. Apparently, he was waiting for me to walk into the hallway going to my locker before lunch to speak to me. (literally looking out at the direction that I'd take in order to go to my locker from class...because the only other way would be straight to the cafeteria anyways)
2. No one could even consider one bit that he just "bumped into me" or was "coincidentally there" standing where he was.
3. I did wave to him, no response, then attempted to walk completely pass him, but was then stopped. His stare was so weird though.
4. After talking, he then said that I was really supposed to meet him later with some of my other teamates about it anyways, so why the sudden urge?
5. He wasn't even supposed to be there, but already in the cafeteria on lunch duty! (seeing as I was late from Geometry and lunch was already halway finished)
6. How the heck did he know I would go through there or even where my locker was anyways? I mean, I could have gone another way to the cafeteria.

I'm known to seem paranoid, but it's kind of sketchy to me at the same time...:<

[Harlz]

@ moniku: It's probably nothing, but try to have a friend around when you see this guy...

[Amy]

i fell like crap. and i miss him a lot. it's so hard not to talk to him but i was the one that made that decision.

me and my boyfriend broke up the other day. i have been with him for 17 months. i love him, and still want to be with him so bad. but the whole time our relationship has been fucked. he cheated on me twice, but i forgave him both times. cause i'm an idiot. and then he may as well have cheated on me again on friday night but i stopped it before he did. i want to forgive him and get back with him, but i know i shouldn't. i know it has to end sometime and he's really bad, but i don't want to be alone. i just want to cry. he has always treated me pretty bad, but it's a huge comfort thing. i'm such a dick. i need him. he moved out yesterday, that sucked. we were still talking but i said we have to stop, cause or else i'm never going to accept that we arent together and move on and more then likely i will take him back. i need him but, he was my only support and the only person who knew what was wrong, and now i'm alone. and i've still got some fucked up thing wrong with me. sigh. i'll shut up now.

[Radish]

i fell like crap. and i miss him a lot. it's so hard not to talk to him but i was the one that made that decision.

me and my boyfriend broke up the other day. i have been with him for 17 months. i love him, and still want to be with him so bad. but the whole time our relationship has been fucked. he cheated on me twice, but i forgave him both times. cause i'm an idiot. and then he may as well have cheated on me again on friday night but i stopped it before he did. i want to forgive him and get back with him, but i know i shouldn't. i know it has to end sometime and he's really bad, but i don't want to be alone. i just want to cry. he has always treated me pretty bad, but it's a huge comfort thing. i'm such a dick. i need him. he moved out yesterday, that sucked. we were still talking but i said we have to stop, cause or else i'm never going to accept that we arent together and move on and more then likely i will take him back. i need him but, he was my only support and the only person who knew what was wrong, and now i'm alone. and i've still got some fucked up thing wrong with me. sigh. i'll shut up now.

I really don't know how to help much, but you did what you thought was right the whole time, like with forgiving him when he cheated on you. You love him, and that matters, and you did the right thing to keep the relationship going, so don't hate yourself. You always did the right thing.

I hope it turns out alright. You're in my prayers. :)

[Linja]

You all need a big, big hug =[ :hug:

[Dean]

Right now, I am fearing that my bowling coach is starting to see me more than just a "student" just because he might think I'm naive. (Since I look younger than my age and pretty innocent looking...plus, I've actually heard he has a fetish for Asian women)

At least after this school year started, he's been starting to constantly acknowledge my presence whenever I'm near him (which I would think is quite hard in an all-girls high school) or confront me whenever I'm sitting/standing alone somewhere and start a conversation. Yet, I'm starting to think he's doing it a bit too much, especially since I try to pretend that I don't see him in most cases. Considering today...

1. Apparently, he was waiting for me to walk into the hallway going to my locker before lunch to speak to me. (literally looking out at the direction that I'd take in order to go to my locker from class...because the only other way would be straight to the cafeteria anyways)
2. No one could even consider one bit that he just "bumped into me" or was "coincidentally there" standing where he was.
3. I did wave to him, no response, then attempted to walk completely pass him, but was then stopped. His stare was so weird though.
4. After talking, he then said that I was really supposed to meet him later with some of my other teamates about it anyways, so why the sudden urge?
5. He wasn't even supposed to be there, but already in the cafeteria on lunch duty! (seeing as I was late from Geometry and lunch was already halway finished)
6. How the heck did he know I would go through there or even where my locker was anyways? I mean, I could have gone another way to the cafeteria.

I'm known to seem paranoid, but it's kind of sketchy to me at the same time...:<
You should probably tell an adult if you haven't already, and see what they suggest.

[John]

still lonely.


fuck, things won't change.

[Andrea]

Being a girl really sucks sometimes. This is one of those times.

[Will]

God damn she's gorgeous.

[Will]

Maybe you just need a good whack. ;) :lol:

[Messy Marj]

*looks at posts* Will, do you have a split personality..? :lol:

[Will]

Derek deleted his post. :lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

Yeah I was basically saying how I realize I get too high strung sometimes and panic over shit that isn't what I think it is (thinking someone is mad at me when they arent) and it just needs to stop. There's no need for me to worry the way I do about shit and it's just a problem I've had for years that I need to begin to work on getting rid of. I've been jumpy to my friends, my girl (sorry Andrea) and even my family. I need to take two breaths and look at the better picture for once. I have a great girlfriend, a nice job and a loving family...to stress over everything when I have all that just doesn't make much sense does it?

[Will]

Fuck, those are huge Indians.

I just broke a the dorsal metacarpal vein in my right hand.

If you don't know what that is, it's the huge vein on the right side of your hand, running along your pinky finger (but not actually in the finger) and you can usually see it under your skin.

God DAMN it hurts.

[Paul]

I hate college.

I mean, remember when high school was a fucking joke? It was more of a daycare for me.

[Daniel]

God, today was awesome. :D

[Andrea]

Goddamnit! The State changed the requirements on applications and now I have to make myself seem dumb instead of smart. I have to check "Applied Work Experience" instead of "Thorough" and "Expert". I am not "Applied" at all but yet there is no way around that. There is no way I'm gonna make the top 15 on the certification list. Goddamnit! I hate this shit.

[...Lauren?]

Okay, so this girl at my school just dumped her fiance for some guy on myspace who lives in anothere state. Her ex-fiance is thinking about suicide and she's trying to catch a train to where the guy from myspace lives. WTF?
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Fuck. My mother is threatening to pull me out of school and make me homeschool again. I'm not fucking homeschooling, at least last time I had a computer and phone, but this time she's going to lock me up in the house with no contact to anyone besides fucking Jehovah's Witnesses. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
I CANNOT STAND HER.
SHE IS FUCKING INSANE.

[Derek The Infamous]

Goddamnit! The State changed the requirements on applications and now I have to make myself seem dumb instead of smart. I have to check "Applied Work Experience" instead of "Thorough" and "Expert". I am not "Applied" at all but yet there is no way around that. There is no way I'm gonna make the top 15 on the certification list. Goddamnit! I hate this shit.

Honestly sweetheart, why don't you see if the Dover AFB is looking for civilian work? You are much closer to there than you are to your current job, and I'm sure you'd be a lot happier.

You are an expert at what you do but they will only allow you to look like a newbie. It's like they're finding ways to screw you left and right (even though this one wasn't done intentionally for you). When are you going to say enough is enough and just leave that place? I have a feeling they are 90&#37; of why you feel so messed up lately.

[Rachel]

i have three research papers due simultaneously, and i cannot get enough information.

fuck, i hate college.

[Will]

Tell the folks at Dover AFB you know a guy named Jim Maltby. They'll give you a job. :lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

Tell the folks at Dover AFB you know a guy named Jim Maltby. They'll give you a job. :lol:

Wtf your relative works there? :lol:

[Will]

My uncle was stationed there for like 10 years. lol.

[Derek The Infamous]

My uncle was stationed there for like 10 years. lol.

Hmmm take note Andrea. :lol:

[Andrea]

My uncle was stationed there for like 10 years. lol.

Oh my God, lol. I live about 1 mile or so from there. Small world, lol. Maybe I'll take that into consideration! :lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

Oh my God, lol. I live about 1 mile or so from there. Small world, lol. Maybe I'll take that into consideration! :lol:

I just, really want you to get into a job that makes you happier. You deserve to feel happy sweetheart, just like anybody else *cuddle*.

[Nick]

Not talking to her is actually working out..

[Will]

Oh my God, lol. I live about 1 mile or so from there. Small world, lol. Maybe I'll take that into consideration! :lol:

You might not wanna mention him. :lol:

[Andrea]

I'm confused, lol.

[Will]

Well I was just trying to be funny when I said you should mention him. :lol:

[Fear]

I'm so fucking addicted to caffeine it's not even funny...

[Jennster]

It's my second day staring at him like a doofus. :lol: i can't help it.

[Chris(tmas)]

Well... we broke up. She didnt feel the same way as we started out.

It sucks yeah.

[Messy Marj]

Well... we broke up. She didnt feel the same way as we started out.

It sucks yeah.
Awww. :hug:

You'll get better in a while! Eat alot of chocolate, it's an antidepressant and it's nice.

[Friskey™]

Well... we broke up. She didnt feel the same way as we started out.

It sucks yeah.

There are better people out there for you, man. Way it looked, you deserved better.

Just know that we're here for you and if you ever need a laugh, hit me up, im sure you can kick me down the black hole. :lol:

[Chris(tmas)]

Awww. :hug:

You'll get better in a while! Eat alot of chocolate, it's an antidepressant and it's nice.
Im a guy :lol:

She came over a couple hours ago and we talked about it. She still wants to be friends and i'll try, but i dont know if its going to work. I still have feelings for her, but she doesnt. I still havent really told her what I feel for her, so i'll probably try to talk to her somehow.

[Messy Marj]

Im a guy :lol:

She came over a couple hours ago and we talked about it. She still wants to be friends and i'll try, but i dont know if its going to work. I still have feelings for her, but she doesnt. I still havent really told her what I feel for her, so i'll probably try to talk to her somehow.
...Chocolate still is an antidepressant and it still is nice..:P

[Chris(tmas)]

There are better people out there for you, man. Way it looked, you deserved better.

Just know that we're here for you and if you ever need a laugh, hit me up, im sure you can kick me down the black hole. :lol:
Depends :lol: She worked so hard because she didnt had feelings for me. If we can block out the work-part, she was great :lol: She told me that I was her best friend in her life and that she had a great time with me, so that makes me sort of happy. Maybe in a year lol.

[Rachel]

I am actually happy for Christmas this year.

[John]

my sister is such a bitch!!!! i hate her