Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

[Linja]

I'm living here now for a while and still it doesn't feel like I'm doing well with simply everything. I hate the place and I hate how the people here are always so hasty, selfish and impatient. I'm so afraid of everything what's still to come. It feels like throwing my life away. I'm crying alot when I'm alone and I also try to sleep loads and loads lately just so I forget that I'm living here. The only person here who's giving me a little hope is Maxime.

:hug: Oh, Marjhoney. Once again, I'll say that I understand you. I wish I'd had my own 'Maxime'. I hope your Maxime gives you all the love and warm feelings you need to get over this.

[Messy Marj]

:hug: Oh, Marjhoney. Once again, I'll say that I understand you. I wish I'd had my own 'Maxime'. I hope your Maxime gives you all the love and warm feelings you need to get over this.

You're a darling. :hug:

[LpFanatic911]

I hate school and exams. What's the point of having an exam on stuff you learned all year that you have forgotten and they don't reteach it?!? Well I'm just glad it's over for a while.

[Fear]

I hate feeling like a victim all the time!

[Rachel]

Yeah I fucking get it, I'm sixteen, but you know what, I have a good head on my shoulders and if I think something's not right, you know I'll call. It's not even the fact that its from 12-2 AM, it's the fact that you still won't let me do anything even though I'm going to fucking college. Sooner or later, I'm not going to be in Brockton anymore, I'm going to be in Salem, and you won't have that control over what time I'm hanging out. Cut the fucking umbilical cord already and let me live my fucking life. You've had such a stranglehold on me, you're even taking my one fucking day off of work, because I "can hang out on weekends." And then you bitch when no one hangs out. HERE'S A HINT, THEY'VE ALREADY MADE PLANS. That day off can be used for that and not doing your fucking housework every day.

LET ME LIVE MY FUCKING LIFE.

[Fox]

I just don't feel right today...

=(

[Fear]

I know this girl that really likes me. I don't really like her back though...and I feel REALLY bad. Idk if I led her on or something, I just can't be an asshole. I don't wanna tell her that I don't really like her. But I don't want to end up going out with her and then having to break up with her just like I did with my ex. I hated myself for that. UGH! Idk what to do! >_<

[Dr. Faust]

I'm royally fucked for exams this year. I haven't started studying, and they start Wednesday, plus I've missed tones of classes. Shit.

[Joeykat]

If that teachers finds anything wrong with my assignment when I go into college today I will shove it where the sun doesn't shine -.-

[JJ]

today is a pretty odd day for me and my family.

5 years ago, my brother past away on his 13th birthday. today would have been his 18th. its going to be a tough one i guess..

[Linja]

:hug:

[Daniel]

Wow, so my life has basically gone down the shitter lately. Despite being almost 17, my parents still treat me like a fucking kid. Well, no, that's not completely true, they'll treat me like an adult when it suits them, citing my adult reponsibilities and such. But then when treating me like an adult would benefit me, such as going out, they do a complete 180 and treat me like a 2 year old. And then when they accuse me of doing something I didn't do, and I deny it, they take my fucking modem away. And on top of that, I'm completely in love with someone on another continent, who I can only speak to through the internet. Fuck. This.

[Arlene]

Wow, so my life has basically gone down the shitter lately. Despite being almost 17, my parents still treat me like a fucking kid. Well, no, that's not completely true, they'll treat me like an adult when it suits them, citing my adult reponsibilities and such. But then when treating me like an adult would benefit me, such as going out, they do a complete 180 and treat me like a 2 year old. And then when they accuse me of doing something I didn't do, and I deny it, they take my fucking modem away. And on top of that, I'm completely in love with someone on another continent, who I can only speak to through the internet. Fuck. This.

I'm sowwy, Daniel. :hug: You can always talk to me for comfort! :)

[Messy Marj]

today is a pretty odd day for me and my family.

5 years ago, my brother past away on his 13th birthday. today would have been his 18th. its going to be a tough one i guess..

I'm sorry hunnny. :hug:

[Roubin]

Wow, so my life has basically gone down the shitter lately. Despite being almost 17, my parents still treat me like a fucking kid. Well, no, that's not completely true, they'll treat me like an adult when it suits them, citing my adult reponsibilities and such. But then when treating me like an adult would benefit me, such as going out, they do a complete 180 and treat me like a 2 year old. And then when they accuse me of doing something I didn't do, and I deny it, they take my fucking modem away. And on top of that, I'm completely in love with someone on another continent, who I can only speak to through the internet. Fuck. This.

I feel your wrath, cause the same happens to me. My mother is really overprotective with me. I am 14 and I feel like she thinks I'm 7 . And my school is also bulshit, cause almost every student from there drink, fuck, smoke, and even take drugs, and I feel like I don't belong there. I found a solution to end with my situation: leave my mother's house and move to my aunt's in another city. The problem is: even though I am beggining to hate my mother, I still worry for her unconciously, and if I move, I will surely hurt her. It is like the 3 Days Grace song "I hate (Everything About You)".

And also, I have 2 crushes with 2 girls I contact through internet. Fuuuck.:angry:

[Luke]

today is a pretty odd day for me and my family.

5 years ago, my brother past away on his 13th birthday. today would have been his 18th. its going to be a tough one i guess..

Oh shit I had no idea. Well I hope everything went okay today, I know how screwed up things like that can get. I hope everything goes okay. :)

@Daniel

Yeah I know exactly what you're on about. But it passes man, trust me when I say that. I'm 17 in 30 days and up until I actualy made a big decision in my life to quit sixth form, I'd been pushed around by my family constantly. But now my Mum has so much faith in my maturity that she's made me UK controls manager of her company. And about that other thing, I've got a girl living somewhere in Canada whom I havn't spoken to in almost a year whom I considered to be the love of my life. But these feelings pass over time.

Just hang in there man, things always get better. :)

[Messy Marj]

I feel your wrath, cause the same happens to me. My mother is really overprotective with me. I am 14 and I feel like she thinks I'm 7 . And my school is also bulshit, cause almost every student from there drink, fuck, smoke, and even take drugs, and I feel like I don't belong there. I found a solution to end with my situation: leave my mother's house and move to my aunt's in another city. The problem is: even though I am beggining to hate my mother, I still worry for her unconciously, and if I move, I will surely hurt her. It is like the 3 Days Grace song "I hate (Everything About You)".

And also, I have 2 crushes with 2 girls I contact through internet. Fuuuck.:angry:

Although this is not my business at all, but I think that if you leave your mother's house you will hurt her immensely. Maybe to you it seems like she's overprotective while she probably just wants the best for you, like you said, the students around you have a bad influence and maybe she knows that too.
I'm sure that in a few years you're gonna look back at this and think of her as a good and caring mom who only wanted to protect you because she loves you.
Seriously, try to be in her position and maybe you'll get another point of view.

[Dr. Faust]

My ex just got her forth boyfriend since me, and they are all my good friends. I'm not sure if she's trying to make me jealous or if it was a coincidence.

[Daniel]

I just wanted to say thankyou so much to everyone for your support, it really means alot to me.

@Luke - well damn that's pretty freaking awesome, I sure wish my parents would do that :lol: . It's good to see I'm not the only one confused over someone in another continent. 13,000km difference makes long distance relationships a pain in the ass.

@Roubin - I can definitely feel where you're coming from, I turn 17 in just under two weeks, and they still treat me like an infant. What, do they think I'm going to go out and get myself pregnant? (:lol:). Oh well, I get my full licence at the end of this month, at least I can have some fucking independence. And yeah, I've had similar feelings with that song too.

Eh, next year I'll be 18, at least then I can go to university and get the hell outta here. 'Til then I'll just have to deal with my house being a fascist state.

I wonder how much a phone call to her country costs... :unsure:

[Fox]

@Daniel:

:hug: :hug:

awww!, at least you'll turn 18 first than me, lol.
and trust me, you are not the only one with the whole continent thing.
Count me in...
I hope things get better with your parents tho'

... more hugs to Daniel :hug:!

[Daniel]

@Daniel:

:hug: :hug:

awww!, at least you'll turn 18 first than me, lol.
and trust me, you are not the only one with the whole continent thing.
Count me in...
I hope things get better with your parents tho'

... more hugs to Daniel :hug:!

:lol: yeah, I can't wait 'til I'm 18, I can drink legally and get tattoos and piercings without their permission. Weird thing is, my parents don't have a problem with me getting a tattoo now (they think I only want one, so they've given permission), but they don't want me getting piercings or my hair dyed :blink:

And thanks a bunch love :hug:

[Fox]

:lol: yeah, I can't wait 'til I'm 18, I can drink legally and get tattoos and piercings without their permission. Weird thing is, my parents don't have a problem with me getting a tattoo now (they think I only want one, so they've given permission), but they don't want me getting piercings or my hair dyed :blink:

And thanks a bunch love :hug:

lol yeah, I remember we talked about this in RT...
"drunk australians", remember?, lmao!

Don't worry about your parents, they'll get better, hun!

:hug:

[Daniel]

lol yeah, I remember we taked about this in RT...
"drunk australians", remember?, lmao!

Don't worry about your parents, they'll get better, hun!

:hug:

Oh yah, right before we got warned for using it as a chat thread :lol:

Which will probably happen here, so I just wanted to make a final, heartfelt thankyou do everyone who has given me support :hug:

[Roubin]

:lol: yeah, I can't wait 'til I'm 18, I can drink legally and get tattoos and piercings without their permission. Weird thing is, my parents don't have a problem with me getting a tattoo now (they think I only want one, so they've given permission), but they don't want me getting piercings or my hair dyed :blink:

And thanks a bunch love :hug:

I am 14, but I will get a tatoo at 17/18. I want a latin phrase in my back: "Dona eis aeternus requiem", which means "Grant them eternal rest".
Yes, I am a devoted christian.

Regarding piercings, personaly, I don´t want one. I just dislike them.

[...Lauren?]

Stupid worrying. Stupid insomnia.

[Kobe #24]

I have a girl friend. shes really nice

thats all

[Dr. Faust]

My throat fells like it's fucking bleeding, but my parents are making me go to finals anyway. FUUUCK.

[Disenchanted]

I think too much.

[Messy Marj]

I think too much.

I don't know if I can give a hug to that, but I know you like to hug alot. So here: :hug:

:)

[Joeykat]

It is days like these that I hate being a girl :(

[Disenchanted]

I don't know if I can give a hug to that, but I know you like to hug alot. So here: :hug:

:)

Thankies, hun. I do love hugs. <33 :hug:

[Friskey™]

Thankies, hun. I do love hugs. <33 :hug:

:hug: Have one from me then, love <33

[Andrea]

My brother is moving out of Delaware this Saturday for good. Tomorrow is his birthday and it will probably be the last time he'll be home for a while. Probably until Thanksgiving or Christmas. It's so weird and I guess I'll have to get used to him not living in this state anymore. He's moving to Washington D.C. to live with his girlfriend. On a side note: I really do not like his girlfriend anymore. She's too stuck up. I hope she doesn't screw him over in the long run because he's basically giving up everything to be with her. :mellow:

[Disenchanted]

:hug: Have one from me then, love <33

So sweet. <33 :hug:

[...Lauren?]

So, he left me a comment on deviantART with the mood as love>yearning, saying that I look good. This plus the fact that he kept asking me to sit with him at lunch.

If it turns out he likes me I'm going to be mad.

[Roubin]

It is days like these that I hate being a girl :(

Just my curiosity, but could u explain, please?

[Christopher]

I just have to say this on here... I feel like I've got nothing, I've accomplished nothing and I do nothing with my life. I don't do anything but sit around and hang around my room for the rest of the day after school. I feel like it's useless for me to be here, I've got no real friends who I've got something in common with here and I keep feeling left out. Belgium's brought me nothing and I hope that after I'm finished with whatever I have to do here, I can leave. Then find whatever I'm supposed to be, because I've got no clue, no clue whatsoever... I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing.

[Tom]

The answer phone i was left by Gemma:

''HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooOOOOOO
oooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Tom!!!!!

Is it ok if i come round Friday then?!''



Oh my :lol:


I have no idea what i should do with her >_<

[Disenchanted]

I just have to say this on here... I feel like I've got nothing, I've accomplished nothing and I do nothing with my life. I don't do anything but sit around and hang around my room for the rest of the day after school. I feel like it's useless for me to be here, I've got no real friends who I've got something in common with here and I keep feeling left out. Belgium's brought me nothing and I hope that after I'm finished with whatever I have to do here, I can leave. Then find whatever I'm supposed to be, because I've got no clue, no clue whatsoever... I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing.

I recognize that feeling, hun. Just give it some time and eventually you'll figure out what it is you want to do. :hug:

[Friskey™]

The answer phone i was left by Gemma:

''HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooOOOOOO
oooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Tom!!!!!

Is it ok if i come round Friday then?!''



Oh my :lol:


I have no idea what i should do with her >_<

BUBBLE! :lol:

Wait, is this the prone to injury chick? :lol:

[Dean]

I just have to say this on here... I feel like I've got nothing, I've accomplished nothing and I do nothing with my life. I don't do anything but sit around and hang around my room for the rest of the day after school. I feel like it's useless for me to be here, I've got no real friends who I've got something in common with here and I keep feeling left out. Belgium's brought me nothing and I hope that after I'm finished with whatever I have to do here, I can leave. Then find whatever I'm supposed to be, because I've got no clue, no clue whatsoever... I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing.
I know what you mean. Well, there's always msn if you want.

[Christopher]

I recognize that feeling, hun. Just give it some time and eventually you'll figure out what it is you want to do. :hug:

:hug: Yeah, I guess. I've always wanted to do something creative and I know myself, so I know I'll be doing something I like to do otherwise it just won't work. Still it's a pretty daring career choice and I don't know if I'm up for the challenge, definitely not in Belgium 'cause I'd actually do it if it were an American school...

@Dean: I'm okay, man, but thanks. It's hard to predict how everything will turn out, but I guess it'll be all okay.

[Dean]

I think one way of dealing with it is to not have any expectations.

[Christopher]

I think one way of dealing with it is to not have any expectations.

Maybe, I like to have goals, though.

[Evan™]

@St0f: i dont think goals is the big helping factor at themoment...though getting a part time job does help...some money plus outtime does help...i think





anyway, the end of my hols are coming soon and i only just fully recovered from a 100 day cold and dengue (fuck mosquitoes) and well i havent done anything vaguely interesting at all except somehow i find myself always heading to my ex's place and just sit outside the condo complex and just look at her room from a bench with a coffee in hand and just sit there and watch, though i know she aint coming out anytime soon (usually quite late when i find myself there)...well the problem is we've been broken up for about two years now, and i still cant get any sense of closure...i wonder why i cant just deal with it without getting any closure...

[Dr. Faust]

Fuck school. Fuck routine.

[Harlz]

And If You Look At Your Reflection... Is That All You Want To Be?

[Christopher]

@St0f: i dont think goals is the big helping factor at themoment...though getting a part time job does help...some money plus outtime does help...i think.

Yeah, I'll be working this summer, but I'm not 18 yet so you can't work legally during the year here.

[Tom]

BUBBLE! :lol:

Wait, is this the prone to injury chick? :lol:

Yes, yes it is here :lol:


--------


Ok, so i said she could come over and so now I'm gonna have to brace myself for whatever happens :lol:

[Roubin]

Fuck school. Fuck routine.

Yeah, I feel the same plus the situation with my mother. And her overprotection isn't the only problem between me and her, but I cannot tell the rest here cause it is very personal. But luckily, I have found the solution to end my anger and sadness: leave my mother and go to my aunt's in another city.

And yeah, I know someone here told me to be patient and that if I go, I'll hurt my mother; but the good thing is that I am usually numb: I mean, if someone close to me dies, I will not cry or show sadness. If my mother cries or kills herself because of me, I won't feel guilt/sadness.

But if my partners at school, who have a shitty life with alcohol, sex, drugs and cigarretes, die or if I see them with no clothes, in the streets and asking for money. I will feel something: happiness. I mean, if they continue with their shitty life, it is obvious that they deserve poverty.

[Messy Marj]

And yeah, I know someone here told me to be patient and that if I go, I'll hurt my mother; but the good thing is that I am usually numb: I mean, if someone close to me dies, I will not cry or show sadness. If my mother cries or kills herself because of me, I won't feel guilt/sadness.

Wow. I cannot help but think you are one of the most selfish and heartless persons I've ever seen.

[Gitsnik]

But if my partners at school, who have a shitty life with alcohol, sex, drugs and cigarretes, die or if I see them with no clothes, in the streets and asking for money. I will feel something: happiness. I mean, if they continue with their shitty life, it is obvious that they deserve poverty.

Do you really believe that?

Poor partners...

[Roubin]

Yes, my partners deserve poverty in their future, unless they realize the life they're living is not good, and that it will bring bad consequences. Maybe someday they'll regret drugs, promiscuous sex, and alcohol abuse, and change. I still have hopes for some of the guys/girls there.

[Messy Marj]

Yes, my partners deserve poverty in their future, unless they realize the life they're living is not good, and that it will bring bad consequences. Maybe someday they'll regret drugs, promiscuous sex, and alcohol abuse, and change. I still have hopes for some of the guys/girls there.
I could easily say the same about you. You have no emotions whatsoever and as far as I read everything from you, you're full of hate against almost everyone.
Just open your mind a little, god.

[Roubin]

I am not full of anger, I am just saying what is the best for the guys at my school if they wanna live a good life. And I don't hate everyone; In fact, I have some love songs I wanna write, based about my actual crush on a girl. Hey I am a human being, I can feel love and happiness.

[Theazninvasion68]

I don't know. Maybe it's just that I'm Paranoid or Something.

But I just feel like somethings not right.... With Samantha of course. Maybe it's just that I think shes different or shes just...changing ( like growing up ).


Or i'm extreamly paranoid of her cheating.

+_+

[Messy Marj]

I am not full of anger, I am just saying what is the best for the guys at my school if they wanna live a good life. And I don't hate everyone; In fact, I have some love songs I wanna write, based about my actual crush on a girl. Hey I am a human being, I can feel love and happiness.

Well then, I apoligise for calling you emotionless.
But who can tell what is a good life, seriously.

[Dr. Faust]

I'm scarred and a little pissed that the odds are stacked up against me in terms of having to get a regular job that I'm not happy with. I don't care that much about money, I just want to live a life where I hate something I do every day, but can't get out.

[Tom]

He's so selfish i came close to breaking his nose ^_^

[Friskey™]

He's so selfish i came close to breaking his nose ^_^

I did that once...yeah, it almost caused a breakup at the time, but still. :lol:

[Disenchanted]

It's like my mind is clouded. I can't think straight. First I think too much, now I can't think clearly.
This headache isn't making stuff better, either. Meh.

[Roubin]

I'm currently in a music block: I cannot write lyrics cause no verses come to my mind, I am losing my creativity. Shiiiiit!!!!

[Linja]

I went to an aqua park and busted my lip today.

Following another train of thought, I think I'm really lonely.

[Fox]

I went to an aqua park and busted my lip today.

Following another train of thought, I think I'm really lonely.

:hug:! Don't!

... I know how you are feeling, but things will get better. Just be patience and wait a little bit more! Someone really special is waiting for you ;)

[Linja]

That someone special is probably covered in dust by now :lol::hug: thanks.

[Messy Marj]

Maliiiiiii, here's a very special hug!

:hug:

I know they all look the same, but if it was for real, you'd never want something else than Teh Marjy Hug!

[Linja]

:hug: Teh Marjy Hug! It really makes me feel all cozy and bubbly inside like a glass of champagne.

[Messy Marj]

:hug: Teh Marjy Hug! It really makes me feel all cozy and bubbly inside like a glass of champagne.
That sounds like a bad advert somehow. :lol:

[Linja]

I know. But it's true! :lol::hug:

[Messy Marj]

:hug:

Then it's all alright. :lol:

[Christopher]

I went to an aqua park and busted my lip today.

Following another train of thought, I think I'm really lonely.

Oh, Mali, I think everyone on here's having or had that problem at least once, but you'll get through it. :hug:

Not as much of a hug as Marj's, but it still counts as one, right? :lol:

[Linja]

I sure hope so. :hug: It counts as a wonderful Christophebabe hug.

[Louis]

It's kind of sad, really, how Alex leaving for Europe drove me to the point of tears.

I don't know what got over me that night. Perhaps, I just didn't want her to leave. Maybe it was the fact that I wouldn't see her for 5 weeks. Maybe it was the fact that she's going to be spending 2 weeks in Europe, with Nick, and without me. Perhaps it was the fact that her being gone leaves me with one less person to make plans with before I go to Cyprus. Or perhaps, it was just because my feelings, after 9 and a half months, have finally gotten the best of me and overwhelmed me to the point of tears.

I think it's just about everything.

That concert upset me. It was the last time that I got to actually see Alex in person, as well as Rachel. Not to mention, Nick had a solo (which was really good, he has a great voice) which, I would think, make Alex like him more. Maybe that's just me. Maybe I'm just setting up scenarios for me to be upset about. It was still a depressing evening. I didn't want her to go. I didn't want her to want him. I wanted her.

The morning that the band and choir were leaving for Europe, I woke up at 5. That's the earliest I've woken up this entire summer. I was filled with anxiety. I was filled with denial. I didn't want to accept it. She was leaving. She would be gone for 2 weeks before she returned here. I wouldn't see her for 5 weeks. I wouldn't even get to see her at Band Camp. Not even at Band Camp.

I got over it relatively quickly, but it still saddens me from time to time that I'm not going to see her for a good deal of time. This has been our biggest time of separation since Christmas Break. It's tough. It's painful.

Although, it made me realize how much I really love her.

It's odd, how I feel foolish when I say that I love her. It just seems to be that way, though. Infatuation doesn't last 9 to 10 months, does it? Infatuation doesn't last over times of separation? Infatuation doesn't make you cry, does it?

I really wouldn't think so.

Perhaps I'm just tricking myself. Maybe I'm just pushing myself to believe that this person is above everyone else, and that I should have these "feelings" for her to receive sympathy.

But I love her.

The night before she left, I had a 45 minute conversation with her over the phone. It was nice. The next morning, I called Rachel at 6 to wish her one last farewell.

I don't need this girl. I want this girl. She brings out the best in me. She's everything I want right now. I could forget wanting a better computer, or an X-Box 360 or a Nintendo Wii. I could forget that. Only if I had her, though. Only if I could hold her in my arms.

If only, if only.

[Daniel]

I NEED to talk to her >_<

[Tomi]

Okay, so maybe I've overdone it.

[Dr. Faust]

Why are all my friends homophobic assholes?

[Viper62]

ow yeah thats anoying, Im not gay but some good friends of mine are, are I hate it when people talk bad about them

[Roubin]

Why are all my friends homophobic assholes?

Yeah, people at school discriminate for sexual orientation, for the sports people play, for the body they might have, etc.

Example: some people critizized me because I listen to female voices like Amy Lee, and other female singers, and critizized me because they think I can't play almost no sports, which is false, though I don't play sports at school, I play outside there, I watch competitions on TV, etc.; and because of that things people think I am bisexual. I am sick of discrimination.

[Black Orchid]

i hate him!

[Urantia Girl]

Someone accused me of lying, and now we aren't friends anymore.

[...Lauren?]

I just found out he has a new girlfriend...... :cry:


Goddamnit, I wish I could just fucking get over him already. >_<



I need a hug....

[John]

I just found out he has a new girlfriend...... :cry:


Goddamnit, I wish I could just fucking get over him already. >_<



I need a hug....

:hug: :hug:

[...Lauren?]

:hug: :hug:

Thanks...

:hug:

[Rahat]

tomorrows my first live performance, i think i'm gonna be sick

[Gitsnik]

tomorrows my first live performance, i think i'm gonna be sick

Good luck mate ;)

[Harlz]

I'm happy for everyone arond me, the way everyone is pairing up, and they're all so happy.
It just fucking kills me that I can't ever have that. I know I'm not a bad guy, problem is I'm always 'just a good friend.' I can't seem to get past that with anyone. Especially not her :(

[Roubin]

yeah, it happens to me. Though in my school students have real bad habits which I explained perviously, some of them are good guys/girls.

[Penny]

;670360']I'm happy for everyone arond me, the way everyone is pairing up, and they're all so happy.
It just fucking kills me that I can't ever have that. I know I'm not a bad guy, problem is I'm always 'just a good friend.' I can't seem to get past that with anyone. Especially not her :(

I see what you say...
Don't worry...
Actually you aren't the only.That happens to me too.
I'm trying to de closer to him and he tells me:"Penny you are my best friend!I can talk with you about everything!"... and then he tells me about the girl who loves...:cry:

[Dr. Faust]

Fuck both of those assholes I used to call friends.

[Derek The Infamous]

I feel so confused right now.

[Daniel]

So if I'm SUPPOSEDLY such a "great" guy, why the hell am I still single?

>_<

[Joeykat]

Still haven't had an email off my teacher saying if I've made it into second year or not :(

[...Lauren?]

I need to learn to be more positive and stop complaining.

*slaps herself for being obnoxiously negative*

[Dr. Faust]

So if I'm SUPPOSEDLY such a "great" guy, why the hell am I still single?

>_<

I've goten that before

[Arlene]

So if I'm SUPPOSEDLY such a "great" guy, why the hell am I still single?

>_<

You ARE a great guy, Daniel. You just gotta find the right girl for you hun. :hug:



Not directed at Daniel..something I would personally like to get out: Why the hell does something that happened over a year ago still hurt so badly? I thought I was over this months and months ago...but just hearing from him again tonight was like tearing open old wounds that just won't heal...

[Daniel]

You ARE a great guy, Daniel. You just gotta find the right girl for you hun. :hug:



Not directed at Daniel..something I would personally like to get out: Why the hell does something that happened over a year ago still hurt so badly? I thought I was over this months and months ago...but just hearing from him again tonight was like tearing open old wounds that just won't heal...

Not much consolation (not your fault), but thanks love :hug:


PM me?

[Joeykat]

Why the hell does something that happened over a year ago still hurt so badly? I thought I was over this months and months ago...but just hearing from him again tonight was like tearing open old wounds that just won't heal...

Stuff that happened to me almost 7 years ago still hurt me now. Time will eventually heal old wounds. But time can also rip old wounds open very violently.
Just give it time and have someone to which you can confide in because talking does help :)
:hug:

[Harlz]

I dunno anymore. I don't think I've ever been so screwed up before. Every little thing is driving me insane, I can't think straight. And everytime I see her it gets worse. Its so dumb, the entire concept of having feelings, or 'loving' someone doesn't even make sense. how can you explain love? It can't exist, it serves no purpose. Everything in human nature has to serve a purpose.

End ramble.

[Arlene]

Stuff that happened to me almost 7 years ago still hurt me now. Time will eventually heal old wounds. But time can also rip old wounds open very violently.
Just give it time and have someone to which you can confide in because talking does help :)
:hug:

*sigh* Thanks. I did talk to someone last night, and it seemed to help a bit, but now it just seems so much easier to just fliter it out of my head and ignore the hurt that was inflicted on me so long ago. *headdesk* But thanks, i appreciate people..caring?

[Dr. Faust]

I've been confused for way too long.

[Arashi]

The storm was terrible here, and if you didn't already know around 230 people here died.


It was pretty bad. My house got some damage aswell.
The lights fells off, and the trees were uprooted.
The window broke due to the pressure.
The power went off for more than 18 hours.
And the phones went dead.

[Messy Marj]

The storm was terrible here, and if you didn't already know around 230 people here died.


It was pretty bad. My house got some damage aswell.
The lights fells off, and the trees were uprooted.
The window broke due to the pressure.
The power went off for more than 18 hours.
And the phones went dead.

:hug:

But are you okay? And your family?

[Linja]

The storm was terrible here, and if you didn't already know around 230 people here died.


It was pretty bad. My house got some damage aswell.
The lights fells off, and the trees were uprooted.
The window broke due to the pressure.
The power went off for more than 18 hours.
And the phones went dead.

Oh, Aishababy :hug: Hope you, your family, friends and loved ones are all okay.

[Arashi]

We're fine :) thanks.




Oooh and I got a hair cut.

[Friskey™]

The storm was terrible here, and if you didn't already know around 230 people here died.


It was pretty bad. My house got some damage aswell.
The lights fells off, and the trees were uprooted.
The window broke due to the pressure.
The power went off for more than 18 hours.
And the phones went dead.

Glad you, your friends, and family are ok, dear :hug: :hug:

[Messy Marj]

Sometimes, I'm just so tired of life. All I want to do is sleep and have wonderful dreams, and not wake up.

[Linja]

Sometimes, I'm just so tired of life. All I want to do is sleep and have wonderful dreams, and not wake up.

:hug::(:hug:

[Friskey™]

Sometimes, I'm just so tired of life. All I want to do is sleep and have wonderful dreams, and not wake up.

I actually feel the same sometimes. :( :hug:

[Rachel]

I'm absolutely petrified of driving.

[...Lauren?]

Sometimes, I'm just so tired of life. All I want to do is sleep and have wonderful dreams, and not wake up.

Sometimes I feel the same way...

[John]

Sometimes, I'm just so tired of life. All I want to do is sleep and have wonderful dreams, and not wake up.

wow i feel exactly the same!

[Messy Marj]

:hug:

I start caring less and less about everything and I have no idea how to get out of it really. o.o

[John]

:hug:

I start caring less and less about everything and I have no idea how to get out of it really. o.o

same

[Dr. Faust]

:hug:

I start caring less and less about everything and I have no idea how to get out of it really. o.o

I love that bliss, it's usually worth getting a worse grade for, in most of my situations.

[Disenchanted]

I just hate feeling lonely.

[Christopher]

I just hate feeling lonely.

Aww, hun. :hug: You really have to get out of that fase, yes, I'm sure it's just a fase.

[Disenchanted]

Aww, hun. :hug: You really have to get out of that fase, yes, I'm sure it's just a fase.

:hug:

It's been going on for way too long now, though.

[Christopher]

:hug:

It's been going on for way too long now, though.

I know, I've been going through the same thing, but you got to hang in there.

[Disenchanted]

I know, I've been going through the same thing, but you got to hang in there.

Thanks, hun...I'm trying.

[Nick]

damn i miss her....

[miny_girl_LP]

They canceled the show! :cry::cry::cry:I almost lost it when they told us she won't perform tonight and MAY BE she'll sing on Tuesday.

[Daniel]

*Looooooooooooooong sigh*

=/

[Arlene]

*Looooooooooooooong sigh*

=/

*Biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig hug* :hug:

[Daniel]

Well I can't say I didn't exactly see this coming >_<

[Joeykat]

So my stay with my boyfriend was fine until the last minute, suddenly within the last hour he was done and didn't seem like himself. I asked him if anything was wrong or if anything was bothering him; he said yes but said that he didn't want to say anything because it would cause hassle. I told him that if he could not confide with me his girlfriend, who could he confide in? He eventually said that he was bothered about a few things that happened today. I was with him all day so I have basically come to the conclusion that it has something to do with what I may have done today. I am absolutely baffled and confused.

Why can't he just tell me?? Or is it a guy rule that you you can;t be open with your feelings??

*sigh* :sleep:

I apologise for the long post.

[Arlene]

So my stay with my boyfriend was fine until the last minute, suddenly within the last hour he was done and didn't seem like himself. I asked him if anything was wrong or if anything was bothering him; he said yes but said that he didn't want to say anything because it would cause hassle. I told him that if he could not confide with me his girlfriend, who could he confide in? He eventually said that he was bothered about a few things that happened today. I was with him all day so I have basically come to the conclusion that it has something to do with what I may have done today. I am absolutely baffled and confused.

Why can't he just tell me?? Or is it a guy rule that you you can;t be open with your feelings??

*sigh* :sleep:

I apologise for the long post.

Guys can be like that sometimes..kinda secretive, and can get bitchy like girls do. :lol: Hopefully he just didn't sleep well or something and it'll blow over soon. :hug:

[Joeykat]

:hug:

Thanks :)

[Arlene]

*sigh* So pretty much I'm an ass hole.

I have a boyfriend currently, who's my age [which is weird for me, I usually date older guys] but it was working out and everything during school. But now it's summer vacation...and I haven't seen him once yet, and the way my parents are I can't just go out whenever I feel like it. But 2 times me and him had plans, and then last minute he had some other obligation, I mean, he had good reasons, but still. It's not easy for my parents to agree..and when they finally do he can't go. Very frustrating.

So now, starting a few weeks ago, I work weekends. And last year I had this huuuge thing for the guy Josh I work with. And apparently I still have a thing for him..and he does as well for me. On Sunday at work we were talking about it and stuff and flirting ('cause I'm a huuuge flirt) and then we ended up kissing. Ugh. What.the.hell. I have a goddamned boyfriend. I feel like such a bitch.

Plus, Korey (my boyfriend) is constantly on vacation, so I can't talk to him...And plus he's totally in love with me...and I truly don't love him, not being cold hearted or anything, but I just don't. So yeah, the solution is so simple, just break up with him, tell him that I just don't care about him as much as he does me and that it's not working out not seeing him. But of course, right now his parents are in the middle of a divorce, and he doesn't have any siblings or anything. So pretty much I'm all he has, and he told me that a few weeks back...*major headdesk*

And I just feel like I'm leading him on..because he says "I love you" to me and I just say it back because I feel obligated to..which makes me feel even more like a bitch. Gosh this is terrible. :(

[Daniel]

*sigh* So pretty much I'm an ass hole.

I have a boyfriend currently, who's my age [which is weird for me, I usually date older guys] but it was working out and everything during school. But now it's summer vacation...and I haven't seen him once yet, and the way my parents are I can't just go out whenever I feel like it. But 2 times me and him had plans, and then last minute he had some other obligation, I mean, he had good reasons, but still. It's not easy for my parents to agree..and when they finally do he can't go. Very frustrating.

So now, starting a few weeks ago, I work weekends. And last year I had this huuuge thing for the guy Josh I work with. And apparently I still have a thing for him..and he does as well for me. On Sunday at work we were talking about it and stuff and flirting ('cause I'm a huuuge flirt) and then we ended up kissing. Ugh. What.the.hell. I have a goddamned boyfriend. I feel like such a bitch.

Plus, Korey (my boyfriend) is constantly on vacation, so I can't talk to him...And plus he's totally in love with me...and I truly don't love him, not being cold hearted or anything, but I just don't. So yeah, the solution is so simple, just break up with him, tell him that I just don't care about him as much as he does me and that it's not working out not seeing him. But of course, right now his parents are in the middle of a divorce, and he doesn't have any siblings or anything. So pretty much I'm all he has, and he told me that a few weeks back...*major headdesk*

And I just feel like I'm leading him on..because he says "I love you" to me and I just say it back because I feel obligated to..which makes me feel even more like a bitch. Gosh this is terrible. :(

:hug: I'm so sorry hun, I'll try and get on AIM soon, so be on.

That part in the last paragraph sounds unfortunately familiar to me :mellow:

[Joeykat]

*sigh* So pretty much I'm an ass hole.

I have a boyfriend currently, who's my age [which is weird for me, I usually date older guys] but it was working out and everything during school. But now it's summer vacation...and I haven't seen him once yet, and the way my parents are I can't just go out whenever I feel like it. But 2 times me and him had plans, and then last minute he had some other obligation, I mean, he had good reasons, but still. It's not easy for my parents to agree..and when they finally do he can't go. Very frustrating.

So now, starting a few weeks ago, I work weekends. And last year I had this huuuge thing for the guy Josh I work with. And apparently I still have a thing for him..and he does as well for me. On Sunday at work we were talking about it and stuff and flirting ('cause I'm a huuuge flirt) and then we ended up kissing. Ugh. What.the.hell. I have a goddamned boyfriend. I feel like such a bitch.

Plus, Korey (my boyfriend) is constantly on vacation, so I can't talk to him...And plus he's totally in love with me...and I truly don't love him, not being cold hearted or anything, but I just don't. So yeah, the solution is so simple, just break up with him, tell him that I just don't care about him as much as he does me and that it's not working out not seeing him. But of course, right now his parents are in the middle of a divorce, and he doesn't have any siblings or anything. So pretty much I'm all he has, and he told me that a few weeks back...*major headdesk*

And I just feel like I'm leading him on..because he says "I love you" to me and I just say it back because I feel obligated to..which makes me feel even more like a bitch. Gosh this is terrible. :(

:hug:

I know how you feel in the same paragraph, these two days was the first time I have seen my boyfriend since college ended and that was almost 3 weeks ago :sleep:

I am a flirt too, but I am trying to tame it just for him. But you have to be honest with him. It seems that you care for him as a friend at the current moment in time, so tell him that you love him but as a friend and that you will still be there for him to vent out to or for a shoulder to cry on whenever the need arises because I know that divorces can get messy.

Hope that helped a lickle bit :hug:

[Arlene]

Mm thanks Daniel and Miaz. *sigh*

[Fox]

@Arlene:

Hun! :hug:

... I just know how you feel. I've been pressured so many times by guys with the whole "I love you" subject. That's why I don't say I love you back to a guy if I don't mean it. I know it kinda sounds bitchy but it's better to be homest with them than to start lying to them with something so important/delicate.

Sometimes I wonder if things are getting too serious or going too fast with my boyfriend. I can't predict what's going to happen tomorrow or anything, so sometimes I feel like that. But I know one thing, I love him. Anyways, that's not the point on this post.

Arlene, just be honest with him and things will get better. And do NOT, for any reason, feel like "if I'm the only thing he has and then he loses me, it's all my fault" because you cannot be blamed for what's happening with his parents or how is he feeling. If you know what I'm talking about.

Best advice anyone can give you is: To be honest.
That's all. Trust me, it'll be a lot better if you come clean and tell him what happened than someone else.

.. I hope that kinda made you think things better AND feel better ^_^

Arlene<3333 :hug:

[Arlene]

Testified (real name is ___?) thanks...a lot. That's what the other 2 friends that i confided in told me to do. I mean, there's no way that he's going to find out about Josh (guy i work with) but I just would feel so so bad for breaking up with him. I mean..its like 50/50..the Josh thing being part of it and the other part is Korey (b/f) never being able to make it when we make plans..it's just like so..goddamn frustrating. And I know that if i break up with him that it's not all my fault that he's miserable..it would just be about 80&#37; of the reason...god this is terrible. I know what i have to do..just freaking tell him about josh, and what i'm thinking about not being able to see him over the summer...but it's just soo hard..i was talking to one of his buddies and he said that yeah he can tell that Korey really has some feelings for me...man..from the beginning i didnt think it would work out but i was like "eh we'll see, neither of us will get really attached and hey maybe it will work out" but he got soo attached. And I feel like a bitch for just saying "i love you" back when i dont..i mean, i really do care about him, he's such a sweetheart and a great guy but love? I don't think love..i mean gimme a break..i'm 15..

Dah..sorry about long rambling post..i just kinda had to get it out. And again..thanks so much for caring and taking the time to respond to my pathetic-er I mean my posts. :hug: <3

[Fox]

Testified (real name is ___?) thanks...a lot. That's what the other 2 friends that i confided in told me to do. I mean, there's no way that he's going to find out about Josh (guy i work with) but I just would feel so so bad for breaking up with him. I mean..its like 50/50..the Josh thing being part of it and the other part is Korey (b/f) never being able to make it when we make plans..it's just like so..goddamn frustrating. And I know that if i break up with him that it's not all my fault that he's miserable..it would just be about 80% of the reason...god this is terrible. I know what i have to do..just freaking tell him about josh, and what i'm thinking about not being able to see him over the summer...but it's just soo hard..i was talking to one of his buddies and he said that yeah he can tell that Korey really has some feelings for me...man..from the beginning i didnt think it would work out but i was like "eh we'll see, neither of us will get really attached and hey maybe it will work out" but he got soo attached. And I feel like a bitch for just saying "i love you" back when i dont..i mean, i really do care about him, he's such a sweetheart and a great guy but love? I don't think love..i mean gimme a break..i'm 15..

Dah..sorry about long rambling post..i just kinda had to get it out. And again..thanks so much for caring and taking the time to respond to my pathetic-er I mean my posts. :hug: <3

real name?... lets keep it a mystery.. :shifty:

It's Orietta, but you can call me Ori, if you want to. And don't worry, I'm here for you and I understand you :hug:

[Roubin]

In some days I'm going on holidays to my aunt's with my mother, and as I said some pages ago, I wanna live with my aunt from now on. It is the best thing I can do for my sake.

Though I said I won't feel nothing if my mother cries or suicides because of me, now I am more "human" in some way. I mean, now I wanna leave my mother in good and friendly terms, cause I don't wanna hurt her, but I just need to live with my aunt from now on.

[Arlene]

In some days I'm going on holidays to my aunt's with my mother, and as I said some pages ago, I wanna live with my aunt from now on. It is the best thing I can do for my sake.

Though I said I won't feel nothing if my mother cries or suicides because of me, now I am more "human" in some way. I mean, now I wanna leave my mother in good and friendly terms, cause I don't wanna hurt her, but I just need to live with my aunt from now on.

:hug:'s tight! I know what you mean about not wanting to live with your mom but not hurting her, I had an issue like that last year. Hopefully your mom would understand why you need to live with your aunt. I'm not sure what I' trying to say, but take a hug. :hug:

[Roubin]

:hug:'s tight! I know what you mean about not wanting to live with your mom but not hurting her, I had an issue like that last year. Hopefully your mom would understand why you need to live with your aunt. I'm not sure what I' trying to say, but take a hug. :hug:

Tkanks for the hug!!! :).

My mother knows that I love my aunt's house and city, but not that I wanna live there. She thinks I only love the house and city because of the shops, food, clothes, and other stuff that it's not usual in my actual city. But I'm not "materialist" (sorry if misused the term), I just feel a better atmosphere in that city, and a better influence.

One of the reasons I leave is for my school, cause as I said in previous posts, my partners drink, smoke, fuck, take drugs, etc. Now I'm not blaming them for their life style, like before, but I don't share the same things with them. I don't belong to that school. If they're happy with their life, good for them, but don't try to change me.

[Tomi]

YESSSS, no history next year! XD

Man, I was under the impression somehow that Computer Science wasn't an approved course for BC uni's, so I thought I would need to take History, as my 3rd approved course. Ahh, next year's going to be actually enjoyable as I actually have 2 spares [i had none this year, such hell!]

*happy*

[Disenchanted]

Hm...methinks I need to stop being so goddamn emotional.

[Daniel]

Hm...methinks I need to stop being so goddamn emotional.

:hug:

PM me love <3

[Disenchanted]

:hug:

PM me love <3

:lol: Hah, no, it's nothing. I'm just being weird, 'kay? :hug:

[Daniel]

:lol: Hah, no, it's nothing. I'm just being weird, 'kay? :hug:

:lol: alright, if you say so. This seems strangely familiar but :blink:

:hug: anyway.

[...Lauren?]

I've been feeling very lonely lately.................. :unsure:

[Theazninvasion68]

I've been feeling very lonely lately.................. :unsure:

:hug: Dont feel lonely!

[Pacey]

I'd wait it out for you


*approve this one not the last* :'D

[Theazninvasion68]

I feel so damn short tempered lately

[Daniel]

So pretty much every single guy there was hitting on her. I hit someone and almost broke a bottle over their head. What an amazingly fun night xD

[miny_girl_LP]

So pretty much every single guy there was hitting on her. I hit someone and almost broke a bottle over their head. What an amazingly fun night xD

atleast you didn't get hurt:lol:

[Daniel]

atleast you didn't get hurt:lol:

True, but he did. Yet I strangely feel bad :lol:

[John]

i wanna know her :sad:

[Tom]

It's a miracle, she hasn't hurt herself in over a week, it's strange, not even one burn, not one thing wrong...it's a new feeling :lol:

[Pacey]

My nose is extremely cold. And I wish I knew how I felt and didnt have to try and desipher my actions to figure out how i feel! What a strange concept.

[Christopher]

It's a miracle, she hasn't hurt herself in over a week, it's strange, not even one burn, not one thing wrong...it's a new feeling :lol:

:lol: That's awesome, man!

[Tom]

:lol: That's awesome, man!

however this has me thinking, maybe if she hasn't hurt herself in a while, maybe something big is going to happen to her instead :lol:

[Roubin]

Damn, I wanna meet her at least once. She and I met through a forum, then we started talking through MSN. She is my soulmate, a reflect of myself, but I doubt I will ever meet her, since I live in Argentina, and she lives in NJ, in the US.

Though I still have hopes...;)

[Arlene]

So pretty much every single guy there was hitting on her. I hit someone and almost broke a bottle over their head. What an amazingly fun night xD

Hey Daniel, darling, I think you should PM me and lemme know what happened. :lol: At least you're okay?

[Louis]

Being missed feels wonderful.

But missing someone feels terrible. :(

[Christopher]

Why do you live so far away...

[Roubin]

Why do you live so far away...

If you refer to me, I say destiny is the answer. I can't do anything...:(

[Christopher]

If you refer to me, I say destiny is the answer. I can't do anything...:(

No, I'm kind of experiencing the same thing... nevermind, though.

[Arlene]

Being missed feels wonderful.

But missing someone feels terrible. :(

:hug: I know the feeling for sure, it really is terrible. I'm sorry, take another :hug:

[Friskey™]

Why do you live so far away...

Story of my life.

[Daniel]

Story of my life.

Dit-fucking-to.

[Pacey]

So many things to do, so many expectations

[Tomi]

This post is feeling kind of evil...

[Daniel]

So this is what it feels like to be genuinely, utterly depressed :mellow:













Hmm, I seem to post in this thread alot. I'm not the attention seeker I must be coming off as, honestly =/

[Joeykat]

I wanna go back to college... I'm so BORED! At home -.-

Holidays end in September.. I think I would of died from boredom by then..

[Friskey™]

I just...don't know sometimes. I mean, is everything going to be alright for me and everything is going to be pushing up, or am I getting ready to face another downfall like last time. Wish I had the answers I was looking for.

[Arlene]

So this is what it feels like to be genuinely, utterly depressed :mellow:


Hmm, I seem to post in this thread alot. I'm not the attention seeker I must be coming off as, honestly =/

Sweetheart, you are not coming off as an attention seeker. I'm so sorry that you're feeling this way, it upsets me that you're hurting so much. :hug:'s tight. <3<3


I just...don't know sometimes. I mean, is everything going to be alright for me and everything is going to be pushing up, or am I getting ready to face another downfall like last time. Wish I had the answers I was looking for.

I'm not sure what you're referring to, but in any situation you just have to be strong and face things as they come. That's really the best advice that you can get, I think. I hope things for you work out well and you don't have to face another downfall. <3

[Harlz]

I dunno.. not much seems to be going right for me these days.
I'm stuck in this rut, I act depressed all the time, and I feel as if I'm losing me, losing my personality, if that makes sense.
A lot of it is to do with her. I've never had feelings this strong before, and it makes me feel like shit 'cos I know I've already passed up my chance with her, and I don'tseem to be getting another one anytime soon.

Other thing is, these constant migraines. Its stopping me from doing anything much, its making my grades slide, and theres nothing left we cantry to get rid of them. I don't wanna go back to hospital, but I don't think I can go on like this. Doesn't seem like living.

Sorry had to have a whine somewhere.

[Daniel]

Hmm, so I may or may not be banned/warned for this post. To hell with it, this'll be the last post I make in this thread about this topic anyway.


You. Yes, you. No, not the random friendly LPA-er who may be reading this, but if perchance, you are the particular individual to which this post concerns, listen up.

Some of this may have been said already, but I'm now in a rather pissed off mood instead of a depressed one, so what the hell. It's not the "just friends" part that upset me/pissed me off, just rather the way you acted afterwards. See, the thing about being "just friends" is that you are actually supposed to treat the person like a friend, not go on pretending that absolutely nothing happened and practically ignoring them.

So me turning "emo" caused everything to "die"? Well, apparently I'm not allowed to show my emotions properly, because that obviously killed everything that had built up over time, which apparently "died" in the space of three or so days. Frankly, I don't appreciate being treated like a piece of shit.

But hey, I'm generally happy now, I have "options", I'm just a little peeved I wasted so much time when I could have been pursuing a real relationship. Personally, while it would be great to just come out and say who you are, I like the community here, so I'd rather not be banned. I'd say thank you for the memories, but that might be a bit generous. "Thanks for the venom" seems much more appropriate.

- end rant.

[Derek The Infamous]

Wow I wish I knew who did that to you bro, sorry to hear that it was one of our very own members.

I sometimes am cautious with relationships because I pursue them occasionally, only to find out they were way more to me, than they ever were to the other person. It seems as if that is what happened to you and therefore I feel sorry for that.

Let's hope whoever it is, shall they read your post and decide to reply, handles it in a polite way and doesn't cause a huge hardcore drama fest in this thread. Keep it peaceful and non-violent! Thanks.

[Daniel]

Wow I wish I knew who did that to you bro, sorry to hear that it was one of our very own members.

I sometimes am cautious with relationships because I pursue them occasionally, only to find out they were way more to me, than they ever were to the other person. It seems as if that is what happened to you and therefore I feel sorry for that.

Let's hope whoever it is, shall they read your post and decide to reply, handles it in a polite way and doesn't cause a huge hardcore drama fest in this thread. Keep it peaceful and non-violent! Thanks.

Thanks Derek, that means alot. You pretty much hit the nail on the head there. :)

And you needn't worry about things getting dodgy on here, the person in question has already seen the post and "solved" it (or reacted rather) through other means.

[Derek The Infamous]

Good to hear. I don't think you'd ever be banned if you mentioned another LPAer on here anyways lol. If anything you'd just bring drama and possibly cause a fight in this thread in which we'd have to close the thread and tell you all to chill. :lol:

[Daniel]

Good to hear. I don't think you'd ever be banned if you mentioned another LPAer on here anyways lol. If anything you'd just bring drama and possibly cause a fight in this thread in which we'd have to close the thread and tell you all to chill. :lol:

Too bad it wasn't resolved in a peaceful way, it resulted in much MSN blocking :lol:

Ban or not, I probably still won't divulge any details. Considering the girl in question has been here longer and has almost four times the posts as me, there'd probably be a few members who want to burn me on the stake :lol:

Plus I don't want to see this thread closed, I postwhore in it way too much. :P kidding.

[Derek The Infamous]

Oh lol. Well you don't have to divulge anything, that's not a problem.

For future reference:
If you ever are having an issue with a member and don't feel comfortable about resolving it with them directly, feel free to PM me and I'll try to make sure the issues get addressed in a timely matter.

[Daniel]

Oh lol. Well you don't have to divulge anything, that's not a problemIf you ever are having an issue with a member and don't feel comfortable about resolving it with them directly, feel free to PM me and I'll try to make sure the issues get addressed in a timely matter.

Thanks Derek :)

Okay, I'll stop using this as a chat thread :lol:

[Derek The Infamous]

Yeah, this is for bitchers, not for chatters. :lol:

[Arashi]

My EX-boy friend is going out with my EX-best friend.






FUCK IT'S BEEN MONTHS AND I JUST FOUND OUT "ACCIDENTLY" TODAY.

[...Lauren?]

"You have small boobs."

"Hey! That was uncalled for!"

*grabs my boob*

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Well you know I still kinda-"

"What.....?"

"...."

"I'm glad we're still friends *hugs*"


I have absolutely no clue about how to interpret his behavior. :blink:

[John]

what the...

[Linja]

My EX-boy friend is going out with my EX-best friend.






FUCK IT'S BEEN MONTHS AND I JUST FOUND OUT "ACCIDENTLY" TODAY.

:hug: They should never have kept it from you.

--

Must I..? Maybe I should..? I don't know. If I wished things, I would wish that my memory of them would be wiped. I guess it's a neutral thing that I don't wish. Fucking stars. I'm making no sense.

[Derek The Infamous]

&quot;You have small boobs.&quot;

&quot;Hey! That was uncalled for!&quot;

*grabs my boob*

&quot;What the hell is wrong with you?&quot;

&quot;Well you know I still kinda-&quot;

&quot;What.....?&quot;

&quot;....&quot;

&quot;I'm glad we're still friends *hugs*&quot;


I have absolutely no clue about how to interpret his behavior. :blink:

That's not friendship, that's sexual harassment/abuse. I'd kick him in the balls next time he does that...and this is a guy saying this. :lol:

[Louis]

It's getting old saying this.

I'm still not over her. And that upsets me.

[...Lauren?]

That's not friendship, that's sexual harassment/abuse. I'd kick him in the balls next time he does that...and this is a guy saying this. :lol:

I was planning on kicking him in the balls the next time I see him anyways...

[Derek The Infamous]

Do it! And film it! Then put it on Break.com/YouTube (break.com ftw).

[...Lauren?]

Do it! And film it! Then put it on Break.com/YouTube (break.com ftw).

....and title it 'emo asshole gets pwned'

Anyways, I'm even madder 'cause he did it behind his girlfriend's back....

[X-Chazzy-Razz-X]

....and title it 'emo asshole gets pwned'

Anyways, I'm even madder 'cause he did it behind his girlfriend's back....

Thats a definate kick in the nuts methinks, what the hell was he playing at anywayz? :blink:

[Derek The Infamous]

....and title it 'emo asshole gets pwned'

Anyways, I'm even madder 'cause he did it behind his girlfriend's back....

That's it. Now you really have to film it. I can't stand cheating motherfuckers.

[X-Chazzy-Razz-X]

That's it. Now you really have to film it. I can't stand cheating motherfuckers.

Me neither, it`s just deceitful, two faced...can`t stand people like that.

[...Lauren?]

That's it. Now you really have to film it. I can't stand cheating motherfuckers.

*goes to find camera*

[Messy Marj]

...and then post it on the LPA!

[Roubin]

"You have small boobs."

"Hey! That was uncalled for!"

*grabs my boob*

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Well you know I still kinda-"

"What.....?"

"...."

"I'm glad we're still friends *hugs*"


I have absolutely no clue about how to interpret his behavior. :blink:

"What u never know won't never hurt u. What u never feel won't never hurt u."

That is my advice, as well as kicking him in the balls and put it on YouTube, as said before...:). A true man doesn't act like that with his girlfriend.

[Arashi]

:hug: They should never have kept it from you.

--





that's what she wrote on my facebook :

You um know?

Im sure that there are many things that you know...
What you know Im not quite certain but if you know something well then you know...:S :$ :|

Told you? Um YEs ofcourse

Erm Im highly uncomfortable
And confusable yet i get it

Sorry :|








People should stop doing this to me.




Why? Ughhhh.

[Pacey]

:hug: They should never have kept it from you.

--

Must I..? Maybe I should..? I don't know. If I wished things, I would wish that my memory of them would be wiped. I guess it's a neutral thing that I don't wish. Fucking stars. I'm making no sense.




God I know how that feels so bad. Its arse. Fuck them.

Tonight i decided I actually fully dont trust anyone.

[Rachel]

I can finally say I'm happy with who I am. I'm content with my surroundings, I've set into a nice routine, I know who my friends are, and I know what I can and cannot do.

And now I'm moving in a fucking month. Fuck me.

[Arashi]

God I know how that feels so bad. Its arse. Fuck them.

Tonight i decided I actually fully dont trust anyone.

Are you refering to me or Mali?


*Confused*.

[Messy Marj]

You know what. I love the LPA and the people on here. Everyone is always so very sweet. It's a great community. :)

[X-Chazzy-Razz-X]

yyyyeeesss...we`re all very loving :shifty: :lol:

[Linja]

God I know how that feels so bad. Its arse. Fuck them.

Tonight i decided I actually fully dont trust anyone.

:hug: Yeh it sucks majorly.

Aishalove: Good lord, how could she spout such bullshit?

[Arashi]

I AM SO.........CONFUSED.



SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT CONTINUE BEING HER FRIEND?

[Luke]

Okay I know this will sound crude and cliche but I seriously need to get laid. It's been nearly 7 months. I doubt it'll happen while I look the way I do now though...I've gained an insane amount of weight. Over the next year I've gotta get myself back into shape.

[Roubin]

Okay I know this will sound crude and cliche but I seriously need to get laid. It's been nearly 7 months. I doubt it'll happen while I look the way I do now though...I've gained an insane amount of weight. Over the next year I've gotta get myself back into shape.

Ouch, sorry for that. What is your actual weight?.

My case is the opposite: I'm too thin and a doctor told me that I'm close to anorexia, and I need to eat more, although there are some things that are good for my body, but that I hate at the same time. For example: eggs are good for my health, but I hate eating eggs.

[Tom]

Hmm, so I may or may not be banned/warned for this post. To hell with it, this'll be the last post I make in this thread about this topic anyway.


You. Yes, you. No, not the random friendly LPA-er who may be reading this, but if perchance, you are the particular individual to which this post concerns, listen up.

Some of this may have been said already, but I'm now in a rather pissed off mood instead of a depressed one, so what the hell. It's not the "just friends" part that upset me/pissed me off, just rather the way you acted afterwards. See, the thing about being "just friends" is that you are actually supposed to treat the person like a friend, not go on pretending that absolutely nothing happened and practically ignoring them.

So me turning "emo" caused everything to "die"? Well, apparently I'm not allowed to show my emotions properly, because that obviously killed everything that had built up over time, which apparently "died" in the space of three or so days. Frankly, I don't appreciate being treated like a piece of shit.

But hey, I'm generally happy now, I have "options", I'm just a little peeved I wasted so much time when I could have been pursuing a real relationship. Personally, while it would be great to just come out and say who you are, I like the community here, so I'd rather not be banned. I'd say thank you for the memories, but that might be a bit generous. "Thanks for the venom" seems much more appropriate.

- end rant.

ha, i'm kinda with you there, apart from i don't hate/dislike her, i just regret not talking to her, but i can't really change that now.

[Messy Marj]

Hmm, so I may or may not be banned/warned for this post. To hell with it, this'll be the last post I make in this thread about this topic anyway.


You. Yes, you. No, not the random friendly LPA-er who may be reading this, but if perchance, you are the particular individual to which this post concerns, listen up.

Some of this may have been said already, but I'm now in a rather pissed off mood instead of a depressed one, so what the hell. It's not the "just friends" part that upset me/pissed me off, just rather the way you acted afterwards. See, the thing about being "just friends" is that you are actually supposed to treat the person like a friend, not go on pretending that absolutely nothing happened and practically ignoring them.

So me turning "emo" caused everything to "die"? Well, apparently I'm not allowed to show my emotions properly, because that obviously killed everything that had built up over time, which apparently "died" in the space of three or so days. Frankly, I don't appreciate being treated like a piece of shit.

But hey, I'm generally happy now, I have "options", I'm just a little peeved I wasted so much time when I could have been pursuing a real relationship. Personally, while it would be great to just come out and say who you are, I like the community here, so I'd rather not be banned. I'd say thank you for the memories, but that might be a bit generous. "Thanks for the venom" seems much more appropriate.

- end rant.
I'd like to respond on this since I know exactly how this girl must have felt. I've been in her position aswell.
She doesn't treat you like shit, I think she actually wanted to prevent any awkward feelings. It'd be pretty shitty if you said 'I love you' and she would say 'That's nice, but I don't love you'. Maybe she even thought you meant this 'love' as in friends. Hell, I say alot 'I love you' to my friends but that doesn't mean I'm absolutely in love with all of them.
So, to prevent you from hurting she just said 'I love you too' back, but once it's been said, there's no going back and the girl is stuck.
Don't you see it? She just wanted to be good friends with you and not hurt you. Maybe the reason why she was ignoring all this is because she just wanted to go on as friends. Sure it is not the good way to handle a situation by saying I love you back at you, but I'm sure she only did that out of a friendly heart and not because she was actually in love with you, but you took it the wrong way.

I know this is not at all my business, and I'm not trying to defend her here. But from what I've heard from you this is EXACTLY the same situation I had, and don't think it only hurts you Daniel, cause it sure hurts her aswell.
Oh and if I were you I wouldn't go spreading the bad words everywhere, it just doesn't look so...mature if I may say so. <.<

[Pacey]

Are you refering to me or Mali?


*Confused*.

You sorry, I didn't bother going back to find your quote, thought it would come up there, evidently.. this didnt happen =p




Yeah but in general, people are arse. People=shit.

[Arashi]

You sorry, I didn't bother going back to find your quote, thought it would come up there, evidently.. this didnt happen =p




Yeah but in general, people are arse. People=shit.

Oh well. I'm going to be pretending that I'm okay with it.

[Daniel]

Much well thought out stuff

I figure, that you, out of all people, probably know exactly how this girl feels, not just because you've been in this situation before, but you are also one of the very few people on here who know who I'm referring to.

If, as you say, she said "I love you" back to try and stop me from hurting, I guess I should be grateful. And likewise, I can see where you're coming from, I do also say "I love you" to alot of my friends without meaning it that way, but I definitely did take it THAT way in this case. Misguided or not, I did.

If she is hurting, then she must be doing a very good job at hiding it. Though, that may have more to do with the fact I don't speak to her anymore on account of me being blocked than anything else.

Do I regret what I've said previously on here? In a way, I suppose I do. I probably overreacted, and despite deliberately deciding not to mention any names, it seems I did come off as immature. I still stand by the fact that what was said or done didn't exactly make me feel amazing, intentional or not.

We'll see how this turns out I guess, maybe it is still possible for her and I to remain friends. If she decides to talk to me again, I will apologise. I can say/do some very stupid things when I'm in a terrible mood, which doesn't always have the best results, clearly.

That's all for now.

[Messy Marj]

I'm glad you've thought about what I said.
I'm sorry if I sounded bitchy, but I never like to see 2 people in a sort of fight.

It must seem weird to you that I..acted just like that, but you see, I really care about her. So, thank you. :)

[Daniel]

I'm glad you've thought about what I said.
I'm sorry if I sounded bitchy, but I never like to see 2 people in a sort of fight.

It must seem weird to you that I..acted just like that, but you see, I really care about her. So, thank you. :)

Eh someone else being bitch is probably what I needed, so thanks I guess :) .

And I can see where you're coming from, as I did (and I suppose still do, in a way) care about her very much.

I'm normally a kind person (or, I hope I am), I just honestly don't know why/how things have ended up this, mostly my fault I suppose.

I'm just not terribly sure if it's actually possible for us to remain friends after all this. =/

[Messy Marj]

Maybe it's just that both of you misunderstood each other, so things got fucked up. But you know, maybe you can try talking to her again, no idea how she would feel about that though.

I'm gonna stop talking now cause I feel like I'm waaaay into someone else business. :lol:

[Daniel]

Maybe it's just that both of you misunderstood each other, so things got fucked up. But you know, maybe you can try talking to her again, no idea how she would feel about that though.

I'm gonna stop talking now cause I feel like I'm waaaay into someone else business. :lol:

Eh, it seems a bit soon since my bitch-rant, so maybe tomorrow :lol:.


Thanks for talking though, and I'm sure she probably wouldn't mind you intervening either. Then again, what the hell would I know, look where that's gotten me.

[Rachel]

My name is Rachel and I'm addicted to flirting.

That's not to say I'm going to cheat. Oh god no, I would never do that, I've been cheated on before, and it's the most heartwrenching feeling in the world. I would never cause Jay that pain, especialy since he's gone through it as well.

But I am a serial flirter. I did it with Jeff and I did it with someone else, who I cannot mention for conflict of interest.

I find myself content in a relationship, whether it be a committed one like Jay & I have, or in some random ass relationship, much like he-who-cannot-be-spoken-of. I find someone else who is interested in me, whether for my brain, my body, or both. I play with his heart and mind, making him think he has a chance, and then I pull away before he steps over the line.

But there is one person, who I cannot name either, who I actually have a slight attraction to, and I swear it's only because I know I can't have him and that I have that power over him.

Maybe it's the fact that I'm a Saggittarius and that I love the hunt, but I honestly do see myself as Jay's wife. We've got everything planned out, and hell...I was pregnant with the man's child. I know I want to spend my life with him.

Just...why can't I stop flirting with the other guy? He KNOWS there's no chance and yet pursues anyways. And I find it amusing. And yet I hate it when a chick even LOOKS at Jay with interest.

Maybe I should lighten up. Or maybe I should just stop talking to the other guy in general.

I need Scott Baio's life coach.

[Theazninvasion68]

My name is Rachel and I'm addicted to flirting.

That's not to say I'm going to cheat. Oh god no, I would never do that, I've been cheated on before, and it's the most heartwrenching feeling in the world. I would never cause Jay that pain, especialy since he's gone through it as well.

But I am a serial flirter. I did it with Jeff and I did it with someone else, who I cannot mention for conflict of interest.

I find myself content in a relationship, whether it be a committed one like Jay & I have, or in some random ass relationship, much like he-who-cannot-be-spoken-of. I find someone else who is interested in me, whether for my brain, my body, or both. I play with his heart and mind, making him think he has a chance, and then I pull away before he steps over the line.

But there is one person, who I cannot name either, who I actually have a slight attraction to, and I swear it's only because I know I can't have him and that I have that power over him.

Maybe it's the fact that I'm a Saggittarius and that I love the hunt, but I honestly do see myself as Jay's wife. We've got everything planned out, and hell...I was pregnant with the man's child. I know I want to spend my life with him.

Just...why can't I stop flirting with the other guy? He KNOWS there's no chance and yet pursues anyways. And I find it amusing. And yet I hate it when a chick even LOOKS at Jay with interest.

Maybe I should lighten up. Or maybe I should just stop talking to the other guy in general.

I need Scott Baio's life coach.

:hug:

Cheer up, as much as you love flirting you couuld try and just think of all things you say as a compliment. If things gets worse, you could just stop talking...

Hey, look on the bright side.............>> Ill buy you lemonaid someday

[Tomi]

Man, if only dreams could come to reality. That'd make my life a million more times entertaining. And people wonder why I sleep so much -- lucid dreaming is so fun. :lol:

[Daniel]

Ok, I went out on a limb and made the first move. Let's see how she responds.

EDIT - eh, I'm happy I guess. What's been done and said can't be taken back, unfortunately.

=/

[...Lauren?]

Man, if only dreams could come to reality. That'd make my life a million more times entertaining. And people wonder why I sleep so much -- lucid dreaming is so fun. :lol:

Everytime I realize I'm dreaming, I wake up only to realize I'm in another dream.

If that makes any sense...

[Misfit Jay]

Ugh. You know how much she meant to me. You know that I would love to have you come with me for the support since it's been a year since she's been gone. How fucking hard can it be to find where he lives? Just give me the damn street name and house number and I can easily call up my dad who knows that city like the back of his hand. He could just tell me how to get there and then I just look for the house number.

HOW HARD IS THAT? HOW COULD I GET LOST?

But whatever. All I wanted was for my girlfriend to come with me to visit my little sister's grave on the one year of her death. That's all I wanted. =\

[Arlene]

Ugh. You know how much she meant to me. You know that I would love to have you come with me for the support since it's been a year since she's been gone. How fucking hard can it be to find where he lives? Just give me the damn street name and house number and I can easily call up my dad who knows that city like the back of his hand. He could just tell me how to get there and then I just look for the house number.

HOW HARD IS THAT? HOW COULD I GET LOST?

But whatever. All I wanted was for my girlfriend to come with me to visit my little sister's grave on the one year of her death. That's all I wanted. =\

:( :hug:'s tight! I'm so sorry.

[Theazninvasion68]

Ugh. You know how much she meant to me. You know that I would love to have you come with me for the support since it's been a year since she's been gone. How fucking hard can it be to find where he lives? Just give me the damn street name and house number and I can easily call up my dad who knows that city like the back of his hand. He could just tell me how to get there and then I just look for the house number.

HOW HARD IS THAT? HOW COULD I GET LOST?

But whatever. All I wanted was for my girlfriend to come with me to visit my little sister's grave on the one year of her death. That's all I wanted. =\

:hug: I'm sorry to hear =\

[Joeykat]

Ugh. You know how much she meant to me. You know that I would love to have you come with me for the support since it's been a year since she's been gone. How fucking hard can it be to find where he lives? Just give me the damn street name and house number and I can easily call up my dad who knows that city like the back of his hand. He could just tell me how to get there and then I just look for the house number.

HOW HARD IS THAT? HOW COULD I GET LOST?

But whatever. All I wanted was for my girlfriend to come with me to visit my little sister's grave on the one year of her death. That's all I wanted. =\

:hug:

I know what you must be going through. My brother would be 14 tomorrow, he died when he was a month old and I feel so guilty that I haven't visited his grave in 12 years at least :( Doesn't help that he is buried all the way in North Yorkshire and that I can't remember which church because it was so long ago.

[Messy Marj]

Awww...hugs to all. :hug:

[Pacey]

My name is Rachel and I'm addicted to flirting.

That's not to say I'm going to cheat. Oh god no, I would never do that, I've been cheated on before, and it's the most heartwrenching feeling in the world. I would never cause Jay that pain, especialy since he's gone through it as well.

But I am a serial flirter. I did it with Jeff and I did it with someone else, who I cannot mention for conflict of interest.

I find myself content in a relationship, whether it be a committed one like Jay & I have, or in some random ass relationship, much like he-who-cannot-be-spoken-of. I find someone else who is interested in me, whether for my brain, my body, or both. I play with his heart and mind, making him think he has a chance, and then I pull away before he steps over the line.

But there is one person, who I cannot name either, who I actually have a slight attraction to, and I swear it's only because I know I can't have him and that I have that power over him.

Maybe it's the fact that I'm a Saggittarius and that I love the hunt, but I honestly do see myself as Jay's wife. We've got everything planned out, and hell...I was pregnant with the man's child. I know I want to spend my life with him.

Just...why can't I stop flirting with the other guy? He KNOWS there's no chance and yet pursues anyways. And I find it amusing. And yet I hate it when a chick even LOOKS at Jay with interest.

Maybe I should lighten up. Or maybe I should just stop talking to the other guy in general.

I need Scott Baio's life coach.


Really? Saggittarians are like that? Interesting. I find myself not understanding them. I have this big starsign obsession lately, and I noticed Im not friends with any saggittarians or Leos at all... compared to any other star signs. However, I was pursued by a saggittarian recently, but not for long, it seemed he was ALL into it, but I didnt respond, and next week he has a girlfriend? Interesting. I'm Capricorn by the way :p


Ok nothing to do with the flirting.

In that respect. You can't change who you are, I guess you can try tone it down, maybe even just with this guy you have a slight attraction to, flirting doesn't harm, but i guess it depends how your partner feels about it.. What star sign is he?! :'D

[Tomi]

Really? Saggittarians are like that? Interesting. I find myself not understanding them.
...

I'm Capricorn by the way :p

My mom's Sagittarius-- help me. :lol:

I'm a Capricorn too! *high five*

[Joeykat]

I'm really starting to get fed up of being pressured to go uni, not only by college but from most of my family too. Yes I may have the potential to go further on but the only thing that matters is what I want. I don't know what I want to do with my life so please stop piling the pressure on and let me be. /rant

[Rachel]

Really? Saggittarians are like that? Interesting. I find myself not understanding them. I have this big starsign obsession lately, and I noticed Im not friends with any saggittarians or Leos at all... compared to any other star signs. However, I was pursued by a saggittarian recently, but not for long, it seemed he was ALL into it, but I didnt respond, and next week he has a girlfriend? Interesting. I'm Capricorn by the way :p


Ok nothing to do with the flirting.

In that respect. You can't change who you are, I guess you can try tone it down, maybe even just with this guy you have a slight attraction to, flirting doesn't harm, but i guess it depends how your partner feels about it.. What star sign is he?! :'D

Lawls, yeah. Saggittarians are indeed flirts. Leos are quite the attention whores :]

Apparently Libras (like Jay) are very outgoing, which is odd, because Jay's quite anti-social o_O

[Luke]

If I here the term 'love' once more I'm gonna fucking lose it.

I bet you if either of their girlfriends said tomorrow ''no more sex'' both of them would drop them like a hot potato. Love...ha.

[Pacey]

Lawls, yeah. Saggittarians are indeed flirts. Leos are quite the attention whores :]

Apparently Libras (like Jay) are very outgoing, which is odd, because Jay's quite anti-social o_O

I'm friends with a few librans, and they are all pretty anti social, well not anti social, just not outgoing. Librans like beautiful things and hate violance.

Im lucky to have a tauras Dad and a Cancer mum, so I can get along with both :D


Capricorns rule. Apart from the ..status seeking, money hungry moodiness part :D :'D

[monkey030306]

Where to begin? I feel like shit right now. I havent really discussed this with anybody, except some of it with my girl. We've been together for a year and four months now... for the most part we do get along very well. But i have a jealousy problem... i can't stand to see her talking with other guys, especially since she is this very outgoing person, as opposed to me. I try not to make it a problem but i just get angry. for example: we go out with a group of friends, it could be her, me, a guy friend and a girl friend... i just feel like if she is going to get attracted to other guys and leave me for them (that happened to me once). The problem is that she is very social and sort of like to be the center of attention... i dont like that too much.. dont get me wrong.. we make a good couple and we love each other so much. yesterday, she and some friends from work went to the beach without me, fine because i was working in the morning. we met up in new york city... i met her friends, none whom i met before. It was a girl friend and two guy friends (from work). I really dont know what got into me but the only word i told those guys was "Hi my name is ________". and we were hanging out for like 4 hours... I was extremely quite while my girl and her friends were having a blast, having fun, laughing, (i found nothing appealing). She asked me what is wrong with me within the first 5 minutes we met up and i said nothing... i was ok. we were trying to get to a free dashboard confessional concert but we coulnt make it because we got lost. i was "mad" about that.. because i dont care too much to see them live.. either ways, she was still having her fun without me, as she told me. i felt like an outsider, even though i put myself in that position... then i began to listen to my ipod loudly and just follow them around.. i felt like going home but didn't want to leave for some unknown reason! i dont know. she was talking about hanging out and drinking once we get back to new Jersey but i showed no interest at all. at that point i was aggravated! it could easily be the jealousy issue but im not certain. We were all waiting for the train to go back to Jersey, however that was the wrong train station.. i left to go home, find the right station myself... none of them noticed i was gone. then i found it... i sent a text to my girl of the right location... as she was arriving my train was there so i said bye from afar with my hand and got into the train. i know that was wrong... but either ways i had to work early in the morning. later on in the night i refused to pick her calls up.. after the 6th missed call from her i called her up to tell her that i dont want to talk to her tonight. she cursed me out.... then later today she calls me up ONLY because she wants her Guitar Hero game back, in which i forgot to give it to her on the day before... that pisses me off. SHIT MAN!! i hate this position i am in right now.... i call her later and she ask me if i call to apologize.. i didnt say anything... before she told me that she will never forgive me for what did that night... and today she tels me that is not going to happen any more because we are happy only when it is only us two... we are going to go out with friends seperately... i didnt find that as a big deal because we dont always go out with friends, except her family. i dont want to break up only because i act this way, i dont her to hate me or leave me for somebody else because i am like this... *sighs* i just need to find a way for me to get over this... i dont want her to cheat on me again as she did "unintentionally" with a guy she was getting attached to... i shoudlnt say i havent cheated as well, but it was when we first started dating.. we weren't that serious... we both know about those situations and we have apologized for it. anyways, i love her not to be with her... this sucks ass. for some reason lately i have being listening to Avenged Sevenfold's "unholy Confessions" a lot... i dont know if it has to that with the situation.. i know we are not going to break up right now... but what about in the future???? man.... *sighs*

[Harlz]

If I here the term 'love' once more I'm gonna fucking lose it.

I bet you if either of their girlfriends said tomorrow ''no more sex'' both of them would drop them like a hot potato. Love...ha.

I've taken to yelling out 'Ha! You said the L word!!!' everytime someone starts talking about love.
Its quite entertaining :lol:

[Arashi]

I'm friends with a few librans, and they are all pretty anti social, well not anti social, just not outgoing. Librans like beautiful things and hate violance.

Im lucky to have a tauras Dad and a Cancer mum, so I can get along with both :D


Capricorns rule. Apart from the ..status seeking, money hungry moodiness part :D :'D

I'm a libra.

I don't think that I'm anti social but I can't just say it like that.



My right ear has been acting weird for more than a month. Like I feel that something is inside it. Shall I get it checked?

[Christopher]

You really disappointed me... I think you should talk about it, but I'm not going to be the responsible one... again.

[Messy Marj]

My right ear has been acting weird for more than a month. Like I feel that something is inside it. Shall I get it checked?

Yes.

[Arashi]

But it's an on and off irritation, like you know when you feel like you have loads of water in your ears but it will not come out?


It's something like that.

[Messy Marj]

If I were you I would go anyway, if it is indeed something the doctor can always give you antibiotica or do something else.

[Friskey™]

Ear infections suck, trust me. I had some and it's not fun.

:hug: Get better soon, baby.

[Luke]

But it's an on and off irritation, like you know when you feel like you have loads of water in your ears but it will not come out?


It's something like that.

Yep I have that. There's water lodged behind my right eardrum and I get atleast 2-3 ear infections a year. I'll be the first to admit that the pain is so great that it's braught me into submission and to tears on several occasions.

I hope both our ears heal soon. :lol: :)


On a different note, I just watched a documentary on that nazi twin pop band Prussian Blue and I've gotta be honest, it nearly reduced me to tears. I always thought that they were just horrible people writing songs about the most awfully racist things but after watching the documentary I have a very different view.

These two beautiful girls were braught up by their dispicable, racist cow of a mother and manipulated into believing her beliefs. She took them out of school at age 5 and taught them herself, they never stood a chance. The image and reputation these talented young women have is nothing more than a product of their mother's horribly racist views that she has braught her daughters up to believe are the right beliefs.

If you ask me, the western world shouldn't be wasting it's time overseas killing people, it should be eradicating the real threat to our freedom - people who take democracy as a right to spread prejudiced and racist views.

I wouldn't at all be surprised if in a few years the twins see how wrong they and their mother have been and stand up against all this. Their mother truly is the definition of evil. Manipulating her own flesh and blood into her beliefs and voicing her opinions through them. Because of her, millions of people around the world want her daughters dead and they don't deserve that one bit.

[Rachel]

I'm friends with a few librans, and they are all pretty anti social, well not anti social, just not outgoing. Librans like beautiful things and hate violance.

Im lucky to have a tauras Dad and a Cancer mum, so I can get along with both :D


Capricorns rule. Apart from the ..status seeking, money hungry moodiness part :D :'D

UGHHH.

i have a pisces dad and a gemini mom.

i might be a sag, but i'm a pisces rising sag, which means im like...wicked cold when you first meet me o_O;;;

dfsuoadf; guh.

my exes have been caps and pisces. i lucked out with a libra.

[Joeykat]

I'm a Libra... A true Libra if I am going by reliable resources of what a true Libran is. Meh...

[Tomi]

6am AGAIN. Bad Tomi! BAD!

*mutters* Need to break out of nocturnalism before it's too late. Damnit! >_<

[Messy Marj]

I have a problem.

I have a friend, who's in real trouble. Basically, he wants to die. I've been telling him now for a very VERY long time not to give up, and I've been giving him alot of excuses why he shouldn't give up. But my excuses are running out and I really want to help him out, but I just can't anymore. There's nothing I can do about it and I know I shouldn't feel like this, but I'd feel guilty IF something might happen to him.

What shall I do?

[Friskey™]

I have a problem.

I have a friend, who's in real trouble. Basically, he wants to die. I've been telling him now for a very VERY long time not to give up, and I've been giving him alot of excuses why he shouldn't give up. But my excuses are running out and I really want to help him out, but I just can't anymore. There's nothing I can do about it and I know I shouldn't feel like this, but I'd feel guilty IF something might happen to him.

What shall I do?

One word: Intervention.

[Messy Marj]

One word: Intervention.

Yeah, but how? >_<

[Tomi]

I have a problem.

I have a friend, who's in real trouble. Basically, he wants to die. I've been telling him now for a very VERY long time not to give up, and I've been giving him alot of excuses why he shouldn't give up. But my excuses are running out and I really want to help him out, but I just can't anymore. There's nothing I can do about it and I know I shouldn't feel like this, but I'd feel guilty IF something might happen to him.

What shall I do?
Aww, Marj. Step into my office. (read: get on msn, silly)

[Friskey™]

Yeah, but how? >_<

Can you talk to his friends and family about it?

[Messy Marj]

Can you talk to his friends and family about it?
Nope. I only know him and he doesn't live around here, at all.


Tomi: I would, but maybe I'll catch you tonight on msn, I'm cooking right now.

[Misfit Jay]

i lucked out with a libra.

Damn straight you did! :P

[Daniel]

I thought working with both of them today would be awesome :lol: .

Yet strangely, it wasn't :mellow: .

[Anya]

I had my hopes really high for having my biological parents contact me on my 18th birthday, and yet they never did. (I'm adopted, so yeah lol. It's the law that I can't legally contact my biological parents until I'm 18.) I don't know why I was so excited about it, I mean I KNOW that the parents I have now raised me all my life and are the only people I would ever even consider calling Mom and Dad. It's just curiosity I suppose. I wanna know what they look like, why they put me up for adoption, if I have any brothers or sisters, etc.

And I'm jealous of my brother Drew (who is adopted as well, but comes from another family), although I really shouldn't be because it's really not his fault, but his biological parents gave him a letter in the mail four years ago on the day of his 18th birthday consisting of a long written letter from his biological mother and pictures of her, including of a brother he has and a half-sister. Since that day, I've been awaiting to have the same thing happen to me, just knowing that I would maybe get to meet my parents someday! It felt so thrilling, to know about my background and just see their faces. It would've been so interesting, well at least I think so.

But now I'm sad because I got my hopes up for nothing. It's been a week and a half practically, and still I have no letter, no nothing. I don't know.. I know I shouldn't let such a silly thing bother me much I suppose, but not many people I know of understand how this feels. I can't even describe it. I really want to meet them.

I would go about contacting them myself, but my Mom is brutal when it comes to the whole 'adoption' subject and loves to pour the guilt on constantly if I ever have any thoughts or questions about my bio parents. I'm hoping if she asks if I want to talk to them (which she does tend to ask a lot), maybe I'll slip it in saying that I would like to meet them just so I can get my medical records from them.

I dunno what to dooo.

[+ / –]

I kissed her today. =]