Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

[Arlene]

Okay, I don't believe in Horoscopes and stuff like that, but today, mine was right on. Weird. :lol:

I also made the most amazing, chocolate chocolate chip cookies with espresso and maple syrup in them. Mmmm

[Arashi]

I'm so sorry to hear about your kitten, Aisha. <3

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Today's weather was just amazing. I'm so glad I got to go out. It was awesome, I had a blast.

Thanks dear.

[Arlene]

Oh Aisha, I didn't see your post before. I'm so so sorry...that's just so sad. :hug: :(

[Arashi]

:hug:


I just can't get over it.

Also, I got really attached to him, cause he used to sleep in my bed every night and snuggle up to me.
And it's made me really depressed.

[Arlene]

I hear you on that...I become easily attached to anyone/anything, and it's really hard to lose them. :(

[Theazninvasion68]

Aisha!!! :hug: I'm so shocked about the news!!!

:(

[Friskey™]

:hug: for Aishadear. So sorry to hear that! :(

[Chris.]

Well, being alone on Valentine's Day for the first time in over 5 years wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Although, I still feel pretty pathetic.

[Arashi]

Thanks guys.



The thing is I usually don't get so worked up, but I'm losing my appetite. It's not like me.

[Friskey™]

It happens when stuff like that goes on, dear. Believe me, I know.

[Chris Tucker]

I'm sick of not being able to sleep like a normal human-being.

It's depressing.

[Harlz]

Bought an Epiphone Les Paul :D

[Will]

... Hahaha. :lol: Oh, man.

Edit —
That wasn't directed to any of the posts made in this thread, so don't think I'm laughing at you if something bad's happened to you. I'm not that kind of person.

[Jordan]

Though we can laugh at the guy who bought a les paul :P

I use fenders haha.


I'm sick of not being able to sleep like a normal human-being.

It's depressing.

Same, but i think I'm getting better. Probably due to staying up much later.

[Derek The Infamous]

So I'm not pursuing relationships anymore. I told my friend this last night, and after a let down I had this weekend I've made up my mind.

Girls around here are just thickheaded, and can't get it through their head when there is an amazing guy standing in front of them. Let them date pricks. I have zero time for them.

[Gloomy Mushroom]

I'm sick of not being able to sleep like a normal human-being.

It's depressing.

I know the exact feeling!
But I can't sleep too long because it contributes to my depression. In which, not enough sleep or too much sleep affects depression in general.

[Arashi]

>.< Ugh.

[Penny]

I think I'm done here.

[Chris.]

I think I'm done here.

How come? :hug:

[Penny]

How come? :hug:

:hug: I need a break. I don't feel very well.

[Chris.]

Okay...Feel better. For me, okay? :)

[Penny]

Okay...Feel better. For me, okay? :)

Okay. For you. :)

[Harlz]

Though we can laugh at the guy who bought a les paul :P

I use fenders haha.




Pffft. Lightweight.
literally :lol:

[Theazninvasion68]

I'm so glad that life moves on.

Yet,it depresses me right now.
whatev.

edit; I wish though; thinigs didn't turn so sour.
edit: and great, how the flip of luck struck;It just started raining.

[Andrea]

I'm lost, broken and confused. A Mest lyric, but it's how I feel.

[John]

I'm lost, broken and confused. A Mest lyric, but it's how I feel.

:hug:

[Andrea]

Thank you. <3

[Will]

I just had a falling-out with a friend, and I'm feeling oddly indifferent about it.

[Holiday]

I have been out of the social, music...everything scene since my brother committed suicide. Then for some reason I decided to watch the "Leave Out All the Rest" video.


These Lyrics!


I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are




It left me in a ball crying! I was fine! I was doing my assignments! but then I watch that damn thing!

I'm so fucking tired of crying about it! I don't want it to hurt anymore! I want to just live my life! But I don't want to forget my brother!! I could never do that! Not in a thousand years!!!




I just want my brother alive....I just want him alive.....
*the tears of unfathomable sadness*

[Luke]

Holly, I think I've said this before, but if you need to vent or talk or anything then just give me a quick PM. I can only imagine how messed up your situation is and I'm truly sorry about what happened to your brother. Keep your chin up though because I know it hurts like hell thinking about the whole thing but I'm sure he would want you to be happy and stop being upset about it. Just hang in there. :)

[Arlene]

Holiday: I'm so so sorry. :hug: Sometimes it just randomly hurts, even if you're feeling fine. I'm so sorry.

[John]

Holly, I think I've said this before, but if you need to vent or talk or anything then just give me a quick PM. I can only imagine how messed up your situation is and I'm truly sorry about what happened to your brother. Keep your chin up though because I know it hurts like hell thinking about the whole thing but I'm sure he would want you to be happy and stop being upset about it. Just hang in there. :)

This. If you need anything, just pm as well. don't hesitate.

[Holiday]

Thank you guys! I really appreciate the support!

[Arlene]

Ugh random, and not even close to the importance of what other people are posting but: have I been really flirty recently or something?! I have random guys that I'm friends telling me how much they really like me and want me to be happy but they wish they could be with me or how they "just wanna hang out" with me, but they wanna take me to a movie and dinner and pay for me. I mean, it's flattering, but, go away! They all know full well that I have a boyfriend of almost two years. And they somehow know how to play my heart strings like a fiddle, because I'm a softie. What are they playing at?

Am I like, giving off a vibe that says "HEY I'M SINGLE FLIRT WITH ME LAWL" because..that sucks. Because I'm not. :sleep:

[Daniel]

Holiday: :hug:

Arlene-dear: I don't know, maybe you could consider asking one of your girl friends if you've been giving off a "vibe"? I'd fathom they'd probably give you a better answer.

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It pales into insignificance next to a lot of what gets posted in here, but FML :lol:. I knew that as soon as I actually got a girlfriend, other oppurtunities would pop up, when they didn't while I was single. And hey, presto.

This all stems from the fact that Tarryn, probably one of my two best friends, who I also had (have?) strong feelings for but never said anything to on account of her being way out of my league, isn't too pleased I'm now taken. Something was said along the lines of "fuck juvies, he could do so much better". So I'm not too sure if she's just saying that generally, or trying to suggest "someone".

Couple that with the fact I've discovered Darcy is the clingiest girl I've ever met in my life, and I have no fucking idea what to do. Blah lol.

[Arashi]

I have been out of the social, music...everything scene since my brother committed suicide. Then for some reason I decided to watch the "Leave Out All the Rest" video.


These Lyrics!


I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are




It left me in a ball crying! I was fine! I was doing my assignments! but then I watch that damn thing!

I'm so fucking tired of crying about it! I don't want it to hurt anymore! I want to just live my life! But I don't want to forget my brother!! I could never do that! Not in a thousand years!!!




I just want my brother alive....I just want him alive.....
*the tears of unfathomable sadness*
<3 Honey.


:hug:

[Arlene]

Holiday: :hug:

Arlene-dear: I don't know, maybe you could consider asking one of your girl friends if you've been giving off a "vibe"? I'd fathom they'd probably give you a better answer.

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It pales into insignificance next to a lot of what gets posted in here, but FML :lol:. I knew that as soon as I actually got a girlfriend, other oppurtunities would pop up, when they didn't while I was single. And hey, presto.

This all stems from the fact that Tarryn, probably one of my two best friends, who I also had (have?) strong feelings for but never said anything to on account of her being way out of my league, isn't too pleased I'm now taken. Something was said along the lines of "fuck juvies, he could do so much better". So I'm not too sure if she's just saying that generally, or trying to suggest "someone".

Couple that with the fact I've discovered Darcy is the clingiest girl I've ever met in my life, and I have no fucking idea what to do. Blah lol.

I did ask my friend Rachel, and she didn't seem to think that I was, but she doesn't really see me when I'm around guys. Ugh. Plus, the one guy, I worked with over the summer and had a little side crush on, which obviously wasn't as strong or nearly as strong as my love for Josh, but we talked about it recently and it just made him like...WANT ME NOW. Not even sexually. Ugh. And we're like, best friends. And we hung out and it was awkward as all hell...like he kept wanting to flirt with me and touch me and I was like, conflicted because I did used to kinda like him and I really think he's a great guy, but I was just like, ack JOSH! Friggin' stupid. I have Josh. I'm happy. He loves me, and I love him. I don't need other random people to try to butt in and confuse the crap out of me.

As for you, well, I say that you should just kinda stick with Darcy and see how it goes. What if Tarryn is just saying that as a general thing? That maybe she just doesn't like you with Darcy because she's a little younger than you? And if you broke up with her thinking that Tarryn might get with you...what if she doesn't? You would lose that opportunity for a potentially great relationship. Ya never know, you might decide that you don't want to be with Darcy, but you guys are brand new...I think you should maybe try to explore your relationship more. *shrug* I dunno.

[Daniel]

I did ask my friend Rachel, and she didn't seem to think that I was, but she doesn't really see me when I'm around guys. Ugh. Plus, the one guy, I worked with over the summer and had a little side crush on, which obviously wasn't as strong or nearly as strong as my love for Josh, but we talked about it recently and it just made him like...WANT ME NOW. Not even sexually. Ugh. And we're like, best friends. And we hung out and it was awkward as all hell...like he kept wanting to flirt with me and touch me and I was like, conflicted because I did used to kinda like him and I really think he's a great guy, but I was just like, ack JOSH! Friggin' stupid. I have Josh. I'm happy. He loves me, and I love him. I don't need other random people to try to butt in and confuse the crap out of me.

As for you, well, I say that you should just kinda stick with Darcy and see how it goes. What if Tarryn is just saying that as a general thing? That maybe she just doesn't like you with Darcy because she's a little younger than you? And if you broke up with her thinking that Tarryn might get with you...what if she doesn't? You would lose that opportunity for a potentially great relationship. Ya never know, you might decide that you don't want to be with Darcy, but you guys are brand new...I think you should maybe try to explore your relationship more. *shrug* I dunno.


No, that was exactly my thinking. I'm just going to see how things go.

:hug: . You don't need that shit.

[Friskey™]

Geez...looks like everybody in here right now needs a hug.

:hug:

Course, different hugs for different people.

[Messy Marj]

What the hell man, what's wrong with me? Lately I'm so...erotically charged, I could nail anyone. And it doesn't help that one of my friends who I work with is too nice for me.

[John]

What the hell man, what's wrong with me? Lately I'm so...erotically charged, I could nail anyone. And it doesn't help that one of my friends who I work with is too nice for me.

Hi Marj. :)

[TheRockChick]

LOL. Ah, Johnny. *shakes head*

I'm sorry, Marj! That must be tough. What about your boyfriend?

[Messy Marj]

Hi Marj. :)
Hush you. :lol:

I won't act on it ofcourse, though lots of people think I'm interested in them now because apparently, I've been flirting with them.

[John]

Hush you. :lol:

I won't act on it ofcourse, though lots of people think I'm interested in them now because apparently, I've been flirting with them.

haha, i had to try. :lol:

[Friskey™]

I'm so damn exhausted, yet I can't sleep. I need to, badly.

[Chris.]

People are getting on my fucking nerves lately. It's really beginning to test my patience.

[Will]

People are getting on my fucking nerves lately. It's really beginning to test my patience.

at least it's not quzzing your patience amirite





:lol: Sorry.

[Chris.]

Tests are worse! :lol:

[Arlene]

Tests are worse! :lol:

Yeah...he's right, Will. :P

[Will]

Yeah, but... you usually don't know when quizzes are coming, especially if they're pop quizzes.




Shut up. :lol:

[Arlene]

Yeah, but... you usually don't know when quizzes are coming, especially if they're pop quizzes.




Shut up. :lol:

You're adorable.

[Ryo Hazuki]

I hate being forced to buy cigarettes for my mom. I don't smoke and I don't want to buy cigarettes. -sigh- it may be the least of my problems but still I hate it.

[Arlene]

I wish I could make everyone happy.

[Arashi]

I wish I could make everyone happy.

me too :(

[Theazninvasion68]

I wish I could make everyone happy.

;) There's a way you could make me happy at least!


Hint: There's chocolate in it. :lol:


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I kinda want my school to start later in the day, but grr.

[TheRockChick]

So, I found this really awesome job today. It's everything I'd like in a job and I think I have a pretty good shot at getting it. The thing is, it's a full-time job which means if I was to take it, I must therefore stop taking classes. Now I know I should only be worrying about school at the moment, and that is all I really care about, but I mean it'd be nice to take a little break, and god knows I need a break. The money is pretty good, too. It's always nice to have some extra cash.

I really don't know what to do. I'm applying for it anyway, so I guess I'll just have to wait and see.

I kind of hope I won't get it, though. It'd make this whole situation a hell of a lot easier for me.

[[TDWP] Jacob]

i cant fucking do this
im actually sitting her crying
i just cant deal with this anymore

[Arlene]

So, I found this really awesome job today. It's everything I'd like in a job and I think I have a pretty good shot at getting it. The thing is, it's a full-time job which means if I was to take it, I must therefore stop taking classes. Now I know I should only be worrying about school at the moment, and that is all I really care about, but I mean it'd be nice to take a little break, and god knows I need a break. The money is pretty good, too. It's always nice to have some extra cash.

I really don't know what to do. I'm applying for it anyway, so I guess I'll just have to wait and see.

I kind of hope I won't get it, though. It'd make this whole situation a hell of a lot easier for me.

Well, school IS really important. But, sometimes everyone needs a break. If you get the job, maybe take a break, but not for too long. If you go away from it for too long and you probably won't want to go back... But, they might not want to hire you if you don't intend on working for them for long, so. *shrug* Good luck!


Theazninvasion68: :lol: Thanks. A box is on it's way to ya. And ugh, what's your name again?

Marj: OH I hear ya. I mean I have a reason for it, because I couldn't have sex for this reason or that, but I'm just SO wired. Ugh. It's so frustrating.

[Arashi]

Well, school IS really important. But, sometimes everyone needs a break. If you get the job, maybe take a break, but not for too long. If you go away from it for too long and you probably won't want to go back... But, they might not want to hire you if you don't intend on working for them for long, so. *shrug* Good luck!


Theazninvasion68: :lol: Thanks. A box is on it's way to ya. And ugh, what's your name again?

Marj: OH I hear ya. I mean I have a reason for it, because I couldn't have sex for this reason or that, but I'm just SO wired. Ugh. It's so frustrating.

Robert.

[Messy Marj]

Marj: OH I hear ya. I mean I have a reason for it, because I couldn't have sex for this reason or that, but I'm just SO wired. Ugh. It's so frustrating.
Yes. O.O


Damnit, I'll be alone for 3 days and 2 nights because Max is at his dad for the weekend. I miss him already.

[TheRockChick]

Well, school IS really important. But, sometimes everyone needs a break. If you get the job, maybe take a break, but not for too long. If you go away from it for too long and you probably won't want to go back... But, they might not want to hire you if you don't intend on working for them for long, so. *shrug* Good luck!

Thank you, Arlene.

[Arlene]

Marj: UGH that really sucks. I'm sorry. :(

TRC: You're welcome.

[11:54]

I pulled a muscle in my back. Fucking ouch.

[Arlene]

I pulled a muscle in my back. Fucking ouch.

Yeah, I did something to my shoulder. It's driving me CRAZY. Last night I put some IcyHot on it, and it made it feel better, but it smells really strong and I couldn't stand the smell so I slept really awfully and I'm trying to be NOT sick. :lol: FML

I'm sorry about your back dahling. <3

[Timothy]

I'm disappointed in myself for letting that that feeble piece of shit make my life miserable.

[Agent O]

UGH! They know that we don't even have room for one extra person to spend the night at our place, yet they want to sleep over! What the fuck! How people can act so shamelessly is beyond me! And at the end of the day nobody has to give up their room but me! Because according to my parents, since I'm the youngest member of the family, privacy should be a like a luxury to me!

[11:54]

Yeah, I did something to my shoulder. It's driving me CRAZY. Last night I put some IcyHot on it, and it made it feel better, but it smells really strong and I couldn't stand the smell so I slept really awfully and I'm trying to be NOT sick. :lol: FML

I'm sorry about your back dahling. <3

It's right below my left shoulder blade. It happened while I was at work and it just feels different then a pull. I've pulled muscles before and this feels much worse, feels like a tear or something. When it happened, that's all I felt was RIIIIP!

[Derek The Infamous]

Wow what the fuck. Two of my closest friends lose family members in the same week, and now my other good friend Emily witnessed someone die from a hit and run last night, and actually saw the man die in front of her.

Ugh :(. What did my friends do to deserve this horrible luck. I feel terrible.

[Arlene]

Wow what the fuck. Two of my closest friends lose family members in the same week, and now my other good friend Emily witnessed someone die from a hit and run last night, and actually saw the man die in front of her.

Ugh :(. What did my friends do to deserve this horrible luck. I feel terrible.

I'm sorry I wasnt around my computer earlier when you IM'd me...
Derek, I'm really sorry for yours friends and for you. That's just so horrible...death is an awful cycle of life, that is just a terrible thing to experience... About the hit and run...wow. One, that's just so wrong, and two, I wonder how she could possibly handle that. That must be so traumatizing.

I might be around tomorrow to chat, if not, then Monday for sure. :hug:

[Penny]

I feel like shit right now.

[Theazninvasion68]

I feel like shit right now.

:hug:

[Penny]

Thanks Robbie... :(

[Ryo Hazuki]

I feel like shit right now.

:hug: whats wrong?

[Penny]

:hug: whats wrong?

:hug: I am. I hate myself.

[Ryo Hazuki]

:hug: I am. I hate myself.

How. Don't hate yourself

[Theazninvasion68]

Thanks Robbie... :(

No problem, whats up though? Just a bad day or something?

:) feel free to pm or msn.

[Penny]

How. Don't hate yourself

Okay...


No problem, whats up though? Just a bad day or something?

:) feel free to pm or msn.

I don't want to talk about it. Thanks, though. :)

[Theazninvasion68]

Okay...



I don't want to talk about it. Thanks, though. :)

:) alright, no problem.

If you do decide to, however, you've got lots of friends to discuss to!

[Nick]

My mom is...
Un-Educated
Annoying
Irrational
Impulsive

She drives me nuts, and she believes EVERY LITTLE thing she hears. She also makes up things in her mind and assumes I was thinking about something that I could care less about. She will randomly burst in and just assume I am doing something because of an entirely different reason than the truth, and what drives me insane is that she always thinks I purposely do things because in my mind "I want to annoy her and make her irritated" Fuck, if I didn't know any better I would say that is how SHE thinks.

[Ryo Hazuki]

My mom is...
Un-Educated
Annoying
Irrational
Impulsive

She drives me nuts, and she believes EVERY LITTLE thing she hears. She also makes up things in her mind and assumes I was thinking about something that I could care less about. She will randomly burst in and just assume I am doing something because of an entirely different reason than the truth, and what drives me insane is that she always thinks I purposely do things because in my mind "I want to annoy her and make her irritated" Fuck, if I didn't know any better I would say that is how SHE thinks.

Your and my mother must be twins. I can't explain how fucking scary it is.

[Theazninvasion68]

Imo.

My life would've been quite abit calmer as well if She never came.


Quite some bit. Ugh.

[Ryo Hazuki]

I think my emotions are being played like a fiddle.

[Arlene]

I think my emotions are being played like a fiddle.

I know the feeling. It's frustrating. :hug:

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I'm happy. I was able to smooth things over with my best friend, Puppy, so that's good. And he doesn't hate me, haha. I feel much better.
And Josh randomly texted me yesterday morning, just to say "I love you." He hasn't done that in a while. ^_^

[devilsnight2003]

ok so i have this friend ive know from school so its makes about 6/7 years now that ive known him, fair enough he lives in Sydney but he came over in January so i went to meet him and he stayed at my place last week for a few days. When he stayed he told me and my flatmates that he was gay which was like an unbelieveable shock to me cause there really was no sign, i spent the next 30 minutes waiting for him to say he was joking. So besides wearing a look as if id just been slapped in the face with a wet fish, it all feels a little weird. I'm not a homofobe or anything like, ive known gay people before and they tend to be pretty cool people but just never had a close friend come out as gay. I mean i know that he was still gay before he told me and its just me being an idiot but i dunno it just feels weird

[Gloomy Mushroom]

ok so i have this friend ive know from school so its makes about 6/7 years now that ive known him, fair enough he lives in Sydney but he came over in January so i went to meet him and he stayed at my place last week for a few days. When he stayed he told me and my flatmates that he was gay which was like an unbelieveable shock to me cause there really was no sign, i spent the next 30 minutes waiting for him to say he was joking. So besides wearing a look as if id just been slapped in the face with a wet fish, it all feels a little weird. I'm not a homofobe or anything like, ive known gay people before and they tend to be pretty cool people but just never had a close friend come out as gay. I mean i know that he was still gay before he told me and its just me being an idiot but i dunno it just feels weird

You get used to it. My best friend is homosexual.

[Luke]

ok so i have this friend ive know from school so its makes about 6/7 years now that ive known him, fair enough he lives in Sydney but he came over in January so i went to meet him and he stayed at my place last week for a few days. When he stayed he told me and my flatmates that he was gay which was like an unbelieveable shock to me cause there really was no sign, i spent the next 30 minutes waiting for him to say he was joking. So besides wearing a look as if id just been slapped in the face with a wet fish, it all feels a little weird. I'm not a homofobe or anything like, ive known gay people before and they tend to be pretty cool people but just never had a close friend come out as gay. I mean i know that he was still gay before he told me and its just me being an idiot but i dunno it just feels weird

I give credit for your friend for actually coming out...I'm 99% sure one of my best friends is in the closet.

[[TDWP] Jacob]

Im happy..i think me and her have gotten more serious then i have with anygirl
and i know im the most serious she has gotten with any guy...this is uncharted territory for me
im a little scared

[Theazninvasion68]

College interview

Is scarey?

[Ryo Hazuki]

I know the feeling. It's frustrating. :hug:


You're right. It's very annoying also. :hug:

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So now she wants to talk to me again now that she broke up with him. What the hell either she wants to or she doesn't. Isn't making much since to me.

[Arlene]

You're right. It's very annoying also. :hug:

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So now she wants to talk to me again now that she broke up with him. What the hell either she wants to or she doesn't. Isn't making much since to me.

Kinda sounds like you might be a sorta rebound...:ermm:

:hug:

[Gloomy Mushroom]

So that's it, we're not friends because of my boyfriend, just cos he has a crush on me. Really shows how much we were friends.

[Dean]

While things continue to look up for me personally my family members continue to edge gradually towards being the living incarnates of the Tenenbaums. Such idiots.

[Will]

My dad was transported to University Hospital in Cleveland last night. It's one of the best hospitals in the world, so now I'm not too worried about him. It's still scary.

[TheRockChick]

My dad was transported to University Hospital in Cleveland last night. It's one of the best hospitals in the world, so now I'm not too worried about him. It's still scary.

What does your dad need a hospital for?

[Will]

What does your dad need a hospital for?

He's got some kind of spinal infection. It's not life-threatening, but it's causing him a lot of problems.

[Ryo Hazuki]

Kinda sounds like you might be a sorta rebound...:ermm:

:hug:

Probably... I'm contemplating about just ignoring her.

Which is hard for me. :lol:

[TheRockChick]

He's got some kind of spinal infection. It's not life-threatening, but it's causing him a lot of problems.

Oh, I'm so sorry. I hope he gets well soon.

[Will]

Oh, I'm so sorry. I hope he gets well soon.

Thanks, Mar. :)

[Chris.]

I swear "God" puts so many stupid people around me to try and test my patience. I don't even care anymore, it's so ridiculous how clueless some people can be and just continue being such an annoyance.

[Will]

Well, they just took my pops in for surgery, so we're going up to see him now. Ugh.

[Chris.]

Good luck, Will :)

[Arlene]

Best of luck to your father, Will. :hug:

[Friskey™]

Best of luck to your Pops, Will. :)

[Jen]

Good luck, Will.

[TheRockChick]

Yeah, good luck to your dad, Will. :)

[Andrea]

I'm going to Atlantic City tomorrow with my dad. My mom was hinting that she might want to come. I can't read minds and she wouldn't give me a definite answer. Since she doesn't like gambling and has a food allergy, I told her that maybe she should stay home because it would just be boring for her if she came. Of course she then twists that around and makes it seem like I don't want her to come. I do but she would have nothing to do. I was only looking out for her best interests that she would probably feel better by staying home. I hate this. I try to make things easy and it all just goes to shit. If I was in my mom's situation, I would stay home but nooooo...she has to make things difficult by acting stubborn. Whatever.

My grandfather recently passed away and that's been difficult in more ways than one. I've been away from the LPA for a week because of this. I'm the one who has been there for my mom when things get tough but I usually get in return is stubbornness and attitude. I can't take it anymore and I don't need this. I never win. Never.

and off topic, @Will: My sympathy for your father. I wish him well. <3

[TheRockChick]

I'm going to Atlantic City tomorrow with my dad. My mom was hinting that she might want to come. I can't read minds and she wouldn't give me a definite answer. Since she doesn't like gambling and has a food allergy, I told her that maybe she should stay home because it would just be boring for her if she came. Of course she then twists that around and makes it seem like I don't want her to come. I do but she would have nothing to do. I was only looking out for her best interests that she would probably feel better by staying home. I hate this. I try to make things easy and it all just goes to shit. If I was in my mom's situation, I would stay home but nooooo...she has to make things difficult by acting stubborn. Whatever.

My grandfather recently passed away and that's been difficult in more ways than one. I've been away from the LPA for a week because of this. I'm the one who has been there for my mom when things get tough but I usually get in return is stubbornness and attitude. I can't take it anymore and I don't need this. I never win. Never.

and off topic, @Will: My sympathy for your father. I wish him well. <3

:hug:

[Chris.]

That's pretty tough Andrea. I know how you feel with your mom though. If I said that to my mom she would take it the wrong way as well. Hopefully everything looks up for you! :)

[Theazninvasion68]

Best of wishes to you're dad, will.

[Will]

Thanks, guys. He's okay for now.

[Gloomy Mushroom]

Dad's gonna pick and up leave this joint for a week on Sunday and hasn't given me an explanation to why he's going and where's going...the last person who did that to me wound up in a car accident :(



Good luck as well, Will.

[Theazninvasion68]

Dad's gonna pick and up leave this joint for a week on Sunday and hasn't given me an explanation to why he's going and where's going...the last person who did that to me wound up in a car accident :(



Good luck as well, Will.

:hug: I'm sure he'll be okay and come back :)

[Agent O]

My thoughts go out to all the people who lost their lives during the mutiny.

May they all rest in peace.

[Ryo Hazuki]

Good luck to your father will,
---

So what is it about me that makes me unable to ignore. I hate it. Stupid me. Always the idiot.
also my dads headaches keep getting worse and the doctor keeps canceling the damn appointments.
it's so ridiculous.

[Louis]

I don't know how much I want to be here anymore.

[Andrea]

I don't know how much I want to be here anymore.

On LPA? or...? Don't leave, if it's regarding LPA. We love you! <3

[devilsnight2003]

Im not sure about anything anymore, i feel like im in a tail spin. Nothing is making sense to me, i think i might have just reached my limit. I feel like leaving everything behind, just walking away from uni and my life here in Bristol. My so called friends, my name, my family everything. My uncle took the easy way out, i used to think that was the cowards way out, im not so sure anymore. I'm just very confused and i dont think i have anyone to turn to anymore, i feel completely cut off emotionally and physically from anyone. I just dont know anymore

[Chris(tmas)]

Page 356 is officially the saddest page in the history of LPA.

Edit: I thought this was Random Thoughts. Damn.

[Chris.]

I am so damn depressed lately.

[Gloomy Mushroom]

Im not sure about anything anymore, i feel like im in a tail spin. Nothing is making sense to me, i think i might have just reached my limit. I feel like leaving everything behind, just walking away from uni and my life here in Bristol. My so called friends, my name, my family everything. My uncle took the easy way out, i used to think that was the cowards way out, im not so sure anymore. I'm just very confused and i dont think i have anyone to turn to anymore, i feel completely cut off emotionally and physically from anyone. I just dont know anymore

Aww hunny :hug: everything will be ok. Everyone has an identity crisis at some point of their life. I've already have one that wsa triggered by my past with Daniel (my ex...not the LPA member, just to clarify it). You might not think that it's natural, but it is and you'll wake up some time in the future in forgot all about it.

Me? Well I'm okay I guess, Not brilliant and not utterly depressed. The doctors have taken me off my medication because it's causing other effects.

[Arlene]

Page 356 is officially the saddest page in the history of LPA.

Edit: I thought this was Random Thoughts. Damn.

:lol: Fail.

Devilsnight: :hug: Everyone feels that way at one point or another in their life. You just gotta think ahead...is what you're doing worth it for your future? If you ever wanna talk, I'm here! :)

Chris: I'm sorry to hear that. :( I hate that feeling of just being...lost and so sad. Hopefully once it starts to get warmer and sunnier you might cheer up a little. :hug:

Andrea: Yeah, I hear ya. My mom does stuff like that. I always wanna say something like you did...but I kinda learned not to..because she's just so pigheaded. And about your grandfather...I'm so so sorry. :hug:

[Chris.]

Thanks Arlene :hug: I hope so too

[devilsnight2003]

Arlene: :hug: Thanks for the words of wisdom, appreciate the offer to talk

Sarah: Thanks for the reasurance its most welcome at the minute :hug:

[Harlz]

Why him?
How is it that he can just pop back into my life after 2 years, and as a result get into contact with her.
Next thing I know they're dating.
My old best mate.
And the girl I haven't been able to get out of my head for over 3 years.

It doesn't seem fair...

[+ / –]

Damn I had a whole post written up and my computer fucked up.

Okay so here's what happened (anyone who is actually named is a friend of mine for future reference):

My friends Molly and Monalisa had an 18th birthday party today. Party was going well, but there were too many people there. Many of which couldn't hold their alcohol. It all started when people started throwing up in Molly's room. Me and my friends started regulating, getting people out and into restrooms or sinks and cleaning up since their friends are too stupid to do anything about it. Things started getting worse when people started showing up that even M&M didn't know. One stupid ass starts trying to start fighting with a girl. Really now.

So I start trying to get them out of the house. You know, crowd control, regulating. If you're gonna disrespect my friend Peter's house with this shit, you're going to have to leave. No drama. Get this guy and all his friends out the house. My friends all come by and back me up, start getting them out the door. They get offended and start fighting with us. Thai smacks a guy in the face with brass knuckles. He's bleeding horribly. I deck a guy in the face with a lighter in my fist. He starts coming at me and gets hit in the back of the head. The fight breaks into the hallway and Molly's bedroom door gets kicked down by the guy who was brass knuckle'd. One guy pulls out a knife and we all start trying to fight him back out the door. Innocent people start trying to interfere, so I pull back to get them all out of the way of the fight. Beer bottles get thrown. Peter snaps (you NEVER see him mad, and if he gets mad, things are fucked for anyone who is in the offending party) and goes to his room to get his wrench. He comes back and gets everyone out. We get word that cops are on the way. I'm underage to drink so I'm about to head out the door to drive away when I see cop lights pulling up.

Tad and I run to the back, jump the fence and hit the dirt. It's 38 degrees outside. We basically hide out while stealth running through the neighborhood. A few times we checked the coast on the street and at most there were 4 cop cars and one constable. So we wait it out some more, check and see 2 cop cars and the constable. Long story short we had to call a friend who wasn't at the party to scoop me up to take me to my car with an alibi. By this point we had been outside for 2 hours. Get back to the street and the cops had all left. I get my car, drop Tad off, and just to be on the safe side, drive back home. Got here around 40 minutes ago, typed this, computer fucked up, typed it again. All my friends are safe and either at their houses or cleaning up the mess at Peter's house.

Moral of the story: Don't party with immature 17-18 year old Asians. They think they're the shit and can post up at MY friend's house and disrespect us and get away with it? We were just trying to keep the party light, under control and fun and you guys have to go and try to start shit. Well when you're in the house of one of my friends and you fuck up like that, you better be expecting us to fight back. YOU. DO. NOT. FUCK. WITH. US.

Now a few of us are checking the guest list for the event on facebook and getting names. You're not getting away with this kind of bullshit. Consider yourself blacklisted. Better watch your asses.

Apologies, but I'm very pissed off right now and well, I guess that's it.

[Gloomy Mushroom]

Kayce: You are right they are immature and I hope they wake up to themselves for what they did. You were trying to do the right thing by yourself and your friend, which is somewhat very pleasing to hear that somebody in the world is doing something right by their friend.

Harlz: Everything will be okay, I have a good feeling that it will be. It doesn't seem fair at the moment but one day, it'll take a major shift in the opposite direction and hopefully, things will work your way.

Me? I'm still very upset and pissed off. A friend who I've been best friends since kindy has defriended me over just because I didn't tell him about me and my Matt, and he has the guts to cause a fight with me on facebook, through his sister's account and doesn't have the guts to talk to me let alone face me. I was right by standing by the fact that I shouldn't answer to his every demand and the only reason why I said I wouldn't go out with him, because, at that time, I wasn't seeing anyone to start with, and I didn't like him in that way. So he goes and blows it out of proportion by blaming my rejection of him on a guy who I wasn't even seeing at that time of rejection. I wish he would grow the fuck up. On top of that, he's sending all my friends txt messages saying that they shouldn't be hanging out with me. It really hurts me to say that I hate him because I've known him and been best friends with him for over 10 years.

[Friskey™]

Well, I hate myself now.

[Penny]

Well, I hate myself now.

Don't. :hug:

[Ryo Hazuki]

What. Since I didn't go to chruch with them I can't go out and celebrate my sisters birthday with them today? What kind of fucked shit is this?

[John]

why do i keep going? i don't have a purpose and clearly nobody gives a shit. fuck it all.

[Luke]

Well, I hate myself now.

Don't though dude. You're a really sound guy and you should have a little more self confidence because we all see that you're a good guy so so should you. :)

____________________

I'm beginning to realise I don't need people as much as I thought I did. Half my friends are at Uni now so I hardly see them and I'm getting along ok. It's funny because whenever I talk to my friend over in Ireland (who happens to be the girl I adore) I feel a hell of alot closer to her than many of my other friends. I didn't go out on friday night because she said she needed to talk to me and we spent 2 and a half hours on msn about a few things she was going through. It's like when I talk to her it actually means something.

She depends on people alot and she knows I'm always there for her but I'll never get the image of what happened last summer out of my head and I'm worried that it's fucking with my mind because it just replays over and over. I tell myself every so often that I'm over it all and that I've moved on but I'm lying to myself.

I don't know if I'm going crazy or what but it's like everything reminds me of her or of what happened last summer and the weird thing is that I don't even feel anywhere near as strongly as I used to for her. Sometimes when I'm alone in my room I just speak out loud things I wanna say to her and to everyone else who was involved with what happened and I say it with such conviction that in my head it becomes real and for a few moments I leave reality...but then I come crashing back to what's real and know that it's all in my head and that makes me depressed as hell.

I do actually feel as if I'm losing my sanity over this whole thing because there's nothing at all I can do about it. She's in love with some other guy...some other guy who just so happens isn't my former friend who got with her last summer and fucked everything up. That guy is living a pretty sound life up north at Uni with his new girlfriend. What those two had involved a week of going out, getting drunk and fucking and because of that I feel like I'm going insane because I'm constantly slipping into some kind of sub-reality where I play out a different scenario in my head over and over and wish it was real so god damn much that I don't want to snap out of it. It's like the old cliche - don't wake me up, I don't want this dream to end.

I don't think it's even depression because life, while it could be going better, is okay at the moment. My bands are steadily progressing, my social life is pretty active and I don't feel like there's much going wrong. It's just that there's this big horrible stain on it all and it will not come clean.

Of course, it doesn't help that on wednesday I've gotta go and see my doctor about some pains I've been getting at the back of my head. That would be the cherry on the cake if somehow it's all linked because to tell you the truth I really wouldn't be surprised. Just gotta live in hope that maybe one day things will all be okay.

[Friskey™]

*sigh* Just wish she could be alright for a change.

[Will]

My dad's doing really well now. They've been doing precautionary tests every couple days to make sure his vital organs are working properly and weren't affected by the infection. But other than that, he's been complaining that he's bored and needs more pillows. :lol:

[Jen]

My dad's doing really well now. They've been doing precautionary tests every couple days to make sure his vital organs are working properly and weren't affected by the infection. But other than that, he's been complaining that he's bored and needs more pillows. :lol:

That's great Will. Hope that he gets to come home soon. =)

[Friskey™]

My dad's doing really well now. They've been doing precautionary tests every couple days to make sure his vital organs are working properly and weren't affected by the infection. But other than that, he's been complaining that he's bored and needs more pillows. :lol:

Nothing wrong with needing more pillows. :lol:

But glad to hear that he's fine. :)

[Jen]

I wish I could figure out how to not destroy almost everything I have that means anything. I miss having friends.

[Friskey™]

'Cause I've got friends in low places
Where the whiskey drowns
And the beer chases my blues away
And I'll be okay
I'm not big on social graces
Think I'll slip on down to the oasis
Oh I've got friends in low places

I meant to post that here.

[Jen]

'Cause I've got friends in low places
Where the whiskey drowns
And the beer chases my blues away
And I'll be okay
I'm not big on social graces
Think I'll slip on down to the oasis
Oh I've got friends in low places

I meant to post that here.

Tequila and Limes too? That sounds so good currently.

[Dedicated]

This'll sound really weird; at the moment I'm having so much fun and enjoying myself a ridiculous amount, but I've never felt so sad. It's strange, like there's something missing.

[Ryo Hazuki]

I wish there were metal core songs with country lyrics. I mean, it's just that country music doesn't really appeal to me but sometimes I like the lyrics. Also the music depresses me and metal energizes me.

:lol:

[Jen]

Its amazing how I can be fairly intelligent and still feel completely incompetent when it comes to dealing with other people and my relationships with them.

I hate being socially stupid.

[Chris.]

I'm getting sick of being alone.

[Jen]

I'm getting sick of being alone.

Seconded.

[Arlene]

This'll sound really weird; at the moment I'm having so much fun and enjoying myself a ridiculous amount, but I've never felt so sad. It's strange, like there's something missing.

I know the feeling.
For example, this summer when me and my boyfriend were fighting/on the verge of breaking up in the same week as our one year anniversary, I was so depressed but I hung out with a couple of my friends to feel better and it was really one of the best nights of my life. *shrug*

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. :hug:


--
*passes hugs and/or beers to everyone* <3

[Derek The Infamous]

So I met a girl recentely and we seem to be hitting it off better than I could have imagined. Its had me walking on air, and lately I've been so happy from it and I guess people at work are starting to notice.

I hope things work out :).

[Theazninvasion68]

So I met a girl recentely and we seem to be hitting it off better than I could have imagined. Its had me walking on air, and lately I've been so happy from it and I guess people at work are starting to notice.

I hope things work out :).

Best of luck and hopes that it works out! =D make us proud!

[Derek The Infamous]

Best of luck and hopes that it works out! =D make us proud!

Thank you. I'm taking this very slowly and approaching everything with a cautious mind. I can tell she is too so I will just be myself, and see what happens. Even if I do not become her bf, I'll at least have a great friend :).

[Nick595]

So I met a girl recentely and we seem to be hitting it off better than I could have imagined. Its had me walking on air, and lately I've been so happy from it and I guess people at work are starting to notice.

I hope things work out :).

Well I had the same thing, only it got all screwed up for me on Valentines day at my school. We had this rose thing where you could send someone you love a rose, so I thought I should do that. And I got one back from her. So I asked her out, but then she suddenly came with the whole 'I only like you as a friend' stuff.

I couldn't feel more depressed that moment.

[Andrea]

My mom pushed me to the edge and I had such a breakdown today. I still have the migraine from it. No matter what I said or did today, I will not apologize for it. I'm done apologizing and taking her crap. Done. DONE.

[Will]

My dad's coming home tomorrow!

[Friskey™]

My mom pushed me to the edge and I had such a breakdown today. I still have the migraine from it. No matter what I said or did today, I will not apologize for it. I'm done apologizing and taking her crap. Done. DONE.

:hug: Good for you.

[Chris Tucker]

My mom pushed me to the edge and I had such a breakdown today. I still have the migraine from it. No matter what I said or did today, I will not apologize for it. I'm done apologizing and taking her crap. Done. DONE.

This.

:blink: Are we, the same person? :lol:

EDIT: Will, glad to see your dad's doing better!

[Bryan]

Seconded.
Thirded.

[Messy Marj]

My dad's coming home tomorrow!
Yaay! :flowers:


Ehm, I got something to let out of but I'm guessing it's better to scream into a pillow than to slip it out right here. I'm so irritated and annoyed, some people know what I'm talking about so it's nice that I'm not the only one. It's something that will never change because I'm sure the wolf will never step out of it's sheepclothes, apologise and leave.

[Friskey™]

Well, you can add me to that list of lonely people.

[Arlene]

I feel so bad for my friend Alex. He's just so depressed and I don't know what to tell him anymore. He's had this huge thing for me for a long time, and we both know it, and like...I can't make him happy. I wish I could because I really care about him, and I hate to see him sad. So on top of basically my rejection, his dog that he's had most of his life is dying, about a year ago his best friend died in a car accident, he's failing math even though he's staying for help and trying so hard, and his parents give him grief about everything. Plus, his health teacher said that there's a connection to ADHD and being more prone to being depressed...and he has ADHD. I mean, I know he has reason to be depressed it just seems very drastic and kinda sudden (but not quite bi-polar like). If he's happy about one thing, he's like, flying, he's happy about everything. If one sad thing gets him down, then he dwells on all the bad things he's done in his life and just hates himself and everything and I don't know what to tell him anymore. It's so sad to see.

I just wish I could make him happy.

--

Will: That's fantastic news! I'm glad he's doing good. :)

Derek: Yayyy, what happened to what's-her-face? :lol: But congrats! I hope it works out for you, hon.

Everyone else...:hug: I hate when people are sad. :(

[Dean]

I feel so bad for my friend Alex. He's just so depressed and I don't know what to tell him anymore. He's had this huge thing for me for a long time, and we both know it, and like...I can't make him happy. I wish I could because I really care about him, and I hate to see him sad. So on top of basically my rejection, his dog that he's had most of his life is dying, about a year ago his best friend died in a car accident, he's failing math even though he's staying for help and trying so hard, and his parents give him grief about everything. Plus, his health teacher said that there's a connection to ADHD and being more prone to being depressed...and he has ADHD. I mean, I know he has reason to be depressed it just seems very drastic and kinda sudden (but not quite bi-polar like). If he's happy about one thing, he's like, flying, he's happy about everything. If one sad thing gets him down, then he dwells on all the bad things he's done in his life and just hates himself and everything and I don't know what to tell him anymore. It's so sad to see.

I just wish I could make him happy.
I understand, as someone with first and second hand experience of that sort of thing. I'm not sure how exactly you get over it completely. You just have to be there for him and do as much as you can to make him feel happy as often as possible... there is the complication of him liking you in that way though, I guess. You shouldn't feel like you are to blame because of that, though. If that comes up again between you two you should try and emphasise the fact that, as it is, you are good friends and you care about him a lot, and that at the very least he has that.
I do hope he can improve his condition soon, both for your sake and his. You know you can talk to me whenever you want if you need to.

[Arashi]

So. I gave a nice performance on stage today but my morale is really low.

[John]

So. I gave a nice performance on stage today but my morale is really low.

why?

[Will]

Yay! We get to go get my dad in about an hour. :D

[Arashi]

Yay! We get to go get my dad in about an hour. :D

That is incredible news <3 :hug:

[Arlene]

Thanks, Dean. Yeah, that's basically what I'm doing. I told him that I'll be there for him as much as I possibly can, and that I'm offering him as much as I can, even though he still wants more. It doesn't help that I had a side crush on him during the summer, obviously not nearly as strong as my feelings for Josh, and those feelings do still linger a bit and that makes it doubly confusing. I mean obviously I'm not going to give up Josh for this kid, it just makes him...kinda hard to resist, especially when he's so willing to be mine, y'know? Ah well. It is what it is. Thanks, hon. :hug:

[Will]

I got home with my dad about an hour ago. :D

We get to learn how to give him his meds tomorrow. :lol:

[Arashi]

why?

Well right before the performance someone changed my tuning completely. My body started shaking (I don't know why) but no one was really bothered (this girl came up to me and said "Why are you shaking?" and walked off). Then I walked out and cried.


But I fixed the tuning later.

Also, my parents didn't come to see my performance.

[Linja]

Well right before the performance someone changed my tuning completely. My body started shaking (I don't know why) but no one was really bothered (this girl came up to me and said "Why are you shaking?" and walked off). Then I walked out and cried.


But I fixed the tuning later.

Also, my parents didn't come to see my performance.
Baby :hug:

Will: yay!

[Arashi]

Baby :hug:

Will: yay!

<3 :hug:

[Friskey™]

*sigh*

[Theazninvasion68]

:( *sigh*

-------------

Looks like everyone on LPA needs a hug :)


:hug:

[Dean]

This is what I get when I tell someone I love them and it's as sincere as anything I've ever said. Wow.

[_cam_]

i hate having no money! Shite!

[11:54]

Aye...so sore. :(

[_cam_]

the feeling that you like someone & you can't really tell him you like him is like talking in the air ..Haha..what an analogy.. :lol:

[Theazninvasion68]

My day has been crummy.

And my bestfriend is mad at me.

:( ag-hABVOjhrejnNB dsbn edardEWnj *headdesk*

[Friskey™]

Man, today has sucked something fierce.

Fun with bullet points.

Woke up early, wanted to go back to sleep but I had to take my brother to work.

Wanted to take a shower but I had no clean pants.


Go downstairs to see that my dad has written a note for me to do laundry and the dishes. (including pots and pans...a fucking chore in itself)


See that my brother has downloaded garbage to satisfy his damn blood lust. (garbage wrestling for those of you)


Almost thought the car had a flat tire, but my dad told me that he put air in it and wanted me to check it out.


Had to go outside in the freakin' wind for no reason at all pretty much.

Did laundry to find out I had to fold a "sock pile"


Pots and pans sucked of course


Parents come home and tell me I have to pick up my brother tonight during "24". FAIL!


Firefox starts to act like a butt on me.


My damn download won't finish because people can't learn how to fucking seed.


Do laundry to get a pair of pants, but the dryer took forever so I had to miss "Chuck"


The pair of pants were a little damp, but didn't care. But I go upstairs to shower to find out that...I had a clean pair of pants all along.


Take a shower but the hot water is gone due to my mom using it for her own bath.


And now here we are...FML

[Twizted]

So we ended up putting down our oldest cat today. We found out he had a tumor growing on/around his kidney back in November, so it's been expected for a while.. but it still hurts like hell. Especially when we have another dark tabby and every time he walks by I think it's him..

I love you, Toby. I hope we did the right thing, and I hope that you are eating all the tuna and chasing all the paper balls you could ever want. :cry:

[F-ck Casey]

god, this is so fucking wrong, but i like her so damn. the fucked up part is, she likes me back. like.. alot.

[Messy Marj]

So we ended up putting down our oldest cat today. We found out he had a tumor growing on/around his kidney back in November, so it's been expected for a while.. but it still hurts like hell. Especially when we have another dark tabby and every time he walks by I think it's him..

I love you, Toby. I hope we did the right thing, and I hope that you are eating all the tuna and chasing all the paper balls you could ever want. :cry:
Aww man I know what you mean, my guinea pig died about 6 months ago and it still hurts to think about it. There's nothing much to say that will help so I'll just give you a hug. :hug:

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I want to make a transfer at work. I don't even feel like I'm working for Disney, I feel like I'm working for some kind of hotel/factory. I hate the walk overs, I hate the walk off sites. You don't see the guests being happy, you see the stress in their eyes when they arrive, you see the fatigue in their eyes when they come back. The work is so stressful and on top of that you always need to smile. Last week during lunch I noticed how unhappy I was, my teamleader was sitting opposite of me, she told me they picked out 5 people in January to observe, I was one of them and I scored a 95%, "you lost 5% because your smile is a bit shy". Wtf, go away, I'm on break, I don't want to think about work. I already smile my ass off everyday, and now they're telling me it's a pity of those 5%. I don't care about those 5%!! All I want is to work IN Disney, to actually enjoy the guests' presence, I don't want guests situations, walk overs, walk off sites. Being a hotel receptionist in the busiest hotel of Disney is THE shittiest job there you can have.

[Will]

I feel like I don't know my best friend anymore.

On an unrelated subject, when my friend Liz and I were forced to stop talking (because she's an idiot and lets her boyfriend control her), I told her I was worried we'd drift apart. Well, here we are, a month later (about), and I'm not worried about drifting apart anymore. In fact, I kind of welcome it, it'd give me one less thing to worry about. Does that make me a bad person? Ugh.

[_cam_]

So we ended up putting down our oldest cat today. We found out he had a tumor growing on/around his kidney back in November, so it's been expected for a while.. but it still hurts like hell. Especially when we have another dark tabby and every time he walks by I think it's him..I love you, Toby. I hope we did the right thing, and I hope that you are eating all the tuna and chasing all the paper balls you could ever want. :cry:
i feel for you coz im a cat lover :(. I remeber before when Baba died because of some stupid dog killed her like totally ate his head and I really freak out to the point that I went to the dog owner's house and complained while crying. It hurts. Zax wants to say that it's ok...it will just pass. http://photos-p.friendster.com/photos/45/26/8476254/1_878489060l.jpg


I really have to forget bout this guy coz its very nonsense. His happy with his girl so its time for me to move on...duh!:ermm:

[Timothy]

I want to make a transfer at work. I don't even feel like I'm working for Disney, I feel like I'm working for some kind of hotel/factory. I hate the walk overs, I hate the walk off sites. You don't see the guests being happy, you see the stress in their eyes when they arrive, you see the fatigue in their eyes when they come back. The work is so stressful and on top of that you always need to smile. Last week during lunch I noticed how unhappy I was, my teamleader was sitting opposite of me, she told me they picked out 5 people in January to observe, I was one of them and I scored a 95%, "you lost 5% because your smile is a bit shy". Wtf, go away, I'm on break, I don't want to think about work. I already smile my ass off everyday, and now they're telling me it's a pity of those 5%. I don't care about those 5%!! All I want is to work IN Disney, to actually enjoy the guests' presence, I don't want guests situations, walk overs, walk off sites. Being a hotel receptionist in the busiest hotel of Disney is THE shittiest job there you can have.

Well I hope you get a transfer, because that sounds shittastic. :hug:

________


It's starting to look like I won't be going this summer either. I feel like such a loser now; nothing going on in my life.

[Messy Marj]

Well I hope you get a transfer, because that sounds shittastic. :hug:

________


It's starting to look like I won't be going this summer either. I feel like such a loser now; nothing going on in my life.
Thank you. :hug:

and WHY? you're talking about school right?

[Timothy]

Thank you. :hug:

and WHY? you're talking about school right?

Yeah, that's what I'm talking about. They're just so fucking slow. Apparently, I just have to wait for some simple confirmation letter before I can resubmit this application (for a third time) and then I'll be set. The trouble is they said this letter would arrive in less than a month -- they said that in December. -_-

[Messy Marj]

Yeah, that's what I'm talking about. They're just so fucking slow. Apparently, I just have to wait for some simple confirmation letter before I can resubmit this application (for a third time) and then I'll be set. The trouble is they said this letter would arrive in less than a month -- they said that in December. -_-
What a crap. I'm sorry. :( :hug:

[Timothy]

What a crap. I'm sorry. :( :hug:

Thanks. <3 :hug:

[Twizted]

Marj and Cam.. <3 We've went through this a few times with other family pets passing on, but it just never gets any easier in the beginning. Especially since my Mom had gotten him when both of us were just a few weeks old, and we shared the same exact birthday. I don't know if it's actually good news, but now that he's gone and there is no more constantly thinking about what we can do to help him, I realize just how much he needed it, and I'm almost positive we did the right thing now.

And Marj, I remember some pictures you posted of him quite a while back, but I didn't know about your piggie.. It's a little late, but :hug:


i feel for you coz im a cat lover :(. I remeber before when Baba died because of some stupid dog killed her like totally ate his head and I really freak out to the point that I went to the dog owner's house and complained while crying. It hurts. Zax wants to say that it's ok...it will just pass. http://photos-p.friendster.com/photos/45/26/8476254/1_878489060l.jpg



Wow, Cam.. that is terrible what happened to your cat. :sad: But I gotta say, that picture made me definitely made me smile. I didn't expect such big eyes to be starting back at me. :lol: He's adorable.

[F-ck Casey]

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I just ended a marriage.

[Theazninvasion68]

Well damn me.

Weather or not this works, I fucking hope it does.

If not, it'll be the end of one of the best friendships i've ever had.

Ever

[Dean]

Well damn me.

Weather or not this works, I fucking hope it does.

If not, it'll be the end of one of the best friendships i've ever had.

Ever
I'm in a similar-ish position with one or two people. I think.

I'm going to put myself first now, though. If people want to suddenly decide they don't like me then fuck them. I finally seem to be getting over my depression and I'm not going to throw that away for their sake. I'm still going to do everything for my real friends, but them? Well, they have a pretty big job on to convince me they deserve that. No more trying to help them when not only do I get nothing out of it myself but it's actually to the detriment of my condition.

This might sound cold but I've realised that sometimes you should just do whatever is best for you... and failing that you should keep as much of a limit on the damage as possible. Don't be reluctant to leave people behind if they aren't doing you any good. Of course, before it gets to that I hope that whatever you plan to do does work and that everything comes up roses between you two.

[Linja]

Ugh. Someone shove a pencil through my ears and damage my memory, please.

[Dean]

Ugh. Someone shove a pencil through my ears and damage my memory, please.
...why?

[Linja]

...why?
Some of my actions in the past either embarrass or sicken me, or do both.

[Christopher]

Life depresses me, something needs to change.

[devilsnight2003]

I nearly did something stupid for no better reason than i was curious, my mind had escaped me for a moment and i had the scissors in my hand, what an idiot...

[Ryo Hazuki]

Well I think I've decided that even if it seems Cold and that like I don't care that it's best for me to go my own way and not worry about it and to not feel any guilt over it. Now I just need a job so I can get an Apartment and live my life how I need to.

[Derek The Infamous]

I just don't get it. She seemed so willing to hang out with me, so interested in me and used to text me constantly. We met eachother and had (in my opinion) an utter blast and a good time together. I really opened myself up around her, and it seems like she did the same. We left eachother on a good note that night, I told her we should hang out again...she agreed we should, and then she drove away. She sends me a text saying "thank you for everything" and when I ask what "everything" is she goes "the company, hanging out with me today, being such a good guy".

She texts me the next morning to say good morning. I write her back, but ever since that day things are different. This girl doesn't seem so excited by me anymore. She has not made a big push to hang out with me again (it's been over a week surprisingly enough) and I wanna ask her what changed, but I don't want to come off as a weirdo.

It just doesn't make any sense. I only have known her for 2 1/2 weeks so I shouldn't have expected anything for it, or even allowed myself to become interested so fast...but I really had a feeling something good could come out of this.

Now I'm reminded why I shouldn't be so quick to hope for the best. This is a new record. 2 1/2 weeks for me to prove I'm an idiot and don't have any fucking clue on how to read a woman.

God.

[Luke]

@Derek:

It seems to me like you want things to work with this girl a little too much therefor you want things to move quickly. People need space though dude. If you've only known her for 2 1/2 weeks then just wanting and expecting something to come out of it isn't really wise because, regardless of how much you've been hanging out with her, you can't put all your eggs in one basket. If things don't work out then it just makes it that much dissapointing.

My advice is not to panic and just go with the flow of things. There's no harm on asking if she wants to hang out some time, she's only human and isn't gonna bite your head off lol. Just play it casually and don't stress about it and most importantly don't expect anything more than friendship until you're confident that she wants to take things further. You've got alot of time to get to know each other, after all it's only been 2 1/2 weeks and that's certainly not enough time to start worrying about things. :)

[Joe]

Yeah, what Luke said is true. Plus, at least you didn't have to wait 2 and half years to find out she doesn't want to be with you, haha. You don't know that anyway. Just be yourself and take things casually.

[Andrea]

Don't be so hard on yourself Derek. You always are. Listen to what Luke and Joe said. It's pretty much the advice I would have given.

[Derek The Infamous]

All of you are right, and you all have good points. And I know I shouldn't be so desperate for something to work out so soon after I meet her, but it's just so weird to see her sudden attitude change you know? Going from very enthusiastic to sort of..blah, it's just weird you know?

And of course I'm hard on myself. I keep on getting disappointed with girls, and it's wreaked havoc on my self esteem. I pursued one girl for over a year and finally just recentely gave up on her. So I think, being scorned from that I've become more desperate and hungry for love as a result. It's clear I just gotta chill but I suppose I just haven't realized that yet.

[Joe]

Yeah, seeing a person change attitudes can be slightly odd to deal with, if it's that noticeable bring it up casually in a text or whatever and ask her if she's okay as she seems different, but remember, don't ask the questions if you fear the answer.

[Friskey™]

This sucks. All this time, i'm looking for someone that I can really care for and love and yet once that person finally comes around, I don't want it.

[Will]

Goodness gracious...

[John]

I'm over her and everything, but sometimes i want to see her but at the same time i hate when i see her. ack! meh

[devilsnight2003]

Things have changed.... alot!

[Arashi]

This sucks. All this time, i'm looking for someone that I can really care for and love and yet once that person finally comes around, I don't want it.

:hug:

[Friskey™]

:hug:

:hug: Thanks love.

[Dean]

On the 606 board someone said that the person who John Woodgate was guilty of affray against probably deserved it because, in his words, all Muslims are liars.

The first time I criticise his post my post gets removed. His is still there.

Apparently all of the benefit sponges in this country are Pakistani Muslims.

What the fuck.

[[TDWP] Jacob]

Things have changed.... alot!

i thought you left with Sarah?

[Arashi]

On the 606 board someone said that the person who John Woodgate was guilty of affray against probably deserved it because, in his words, all Muslims are liars.

The first time I criticise his post my post gets removed. His is still there.

Apparently all of the benefit sponges in this country are Pakistani Muslims.

What the fuck.

Tch. That's NASTY.

:hug:

[Theazninvasion68]

:( I woke up to a door slaming, my dad and stepmom argueing.

Over somethings, and somehow I get put on the blame-for-pain talk.

It's my fault that I want a ride to school.
It's my fault that I want to go to school on time.

What? When is it that I'm to be punished for GOING TO FUCKING SCHOOL?!
No it's not my fault for those two.
It's just that I sleep late right? And it ticks you off because you want control of this house right?
Well, hah!
Fuck you.

[Penny]

:( I woke up to a door slaming, my dad and stepmom argueing.

Over somethings, and somehow I get put on the blame-for-pain talk.

It's my fault that I want a ride to school.
It's my fault that I want to go to school on time.

What? When is it that I'm to be punished for GOING TO FUCKING SCHOOL?!
No it's not my fault for those two.
It's just that I sleep late right? And it ticks you off because you want control of this house right?
Well, hah!
Fuck you.

:hug:

[devilsnight2003]

i thought you left with Sarah?

I've been here longer than Sarah has, i never said anything about leaving. She put that part in her own leaving message. I just only post here when i actually have something worth saying now

[[TDWP] Jacob]

well i was just going off wha she said
sorry

[Chris Tucker]

well i was just going off wha she said
sorry

I don't think he was trying to be as rude as it seems, so don't worry about it.
6 out of his last 10 posts are from the "what song are you listening to" thread so idk what he means when he says "I just only post here when i actually have something worth saying now" though...

[devilsnight2003]

I don't think he was trying to be as rude as it seems, so don't worry about it.
6 out of his last 10 posts are from the "what song are you listening to" thread so idk what he means when he says "I just only post here when i actually have something worth saying now" though...

Since i wasnt trying to be rude at all but im not going to get dragged into an argument with any of you on here, you can take the meaning of that post as you like. Its the beauty of free speech and opinion.

[Arlene]

Wait, Sarah left? My bad. :lol:

[Friskey™]

Wait, Sarah left? My bad. :lol:

Yeah, can't you tell? It's more quiet here. :lol:

[Chris Tucker]

Yeah, can't you tell? It's more quiet here. :lol:

That, and I'm less of a doucher :lol:

Yeah, I said it :P

[Jen]

She wasn't that bad.....

[Chris.]

She wasn't that bad.....

:lol:

[Chris Tucker]

Jen, you would find something nice to say about anyone, even me :lol:

[Jen]

:lol:


Jen, you would find something nice to say about anyone, even me :lol:

I personally liked Sarah.

Life is too damn short to be mean.

[Chris.]

Life's too short period but I tend to be a very vindictive person. She got on my bad side and annoyed the hell out of me and to be honest, I like this place a lot more without her.

[Jen]

Life's too short period but I tend to be a very vindictive person. She got on my bad side and annoyed the hell out of me and to be honest, I like this place a lot more without her.

That's fine, you have a right to your opinion, just as I have a right to mine

[Andrea]

Lets all stop talking about her before something happens that doesn't need to happen. She's gone. The end. Move on.

Sorry to put it so bluntly, lol.

[Chris.]

High Five. :lol:

Back on topic...

I'm so drained lately, it almost feels like I have no energy for anything but I still manage to work and function as a normal human being. I have a lot of trouble sleeping at a normal time and my whole body aches at any point of the day. I tore a tendon in my wrist which doesn't help when the only thing making me happy right now is my bowling. I don't want to be alone but going back to my energy issue, I don't feel like I have the energy to try and go out with someone right now. I'm so fearful of not being good enough for anyone that I don't try to get to know them because I see nothing in myself. I feel like I'm just a nobody destined to do nothing of importance and mean nothing to anyone. :sleep:

[Penny]

She wasn't that bad.....

I'm sorry, but sometimes she was...



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Life sucks. :(

[Gloomy Mushroom]

Life's too short period but I tend to be a very vindictive person. She got on my bad side and annoyed the hell out of me and to be honest, I like this place a lot more without her.


Becareful what you say it might come bite you in the backside. I never liked you from the first account I had and I knew who not to be friends with.

[Will]

... :lol:

[11:54]

I knew we had a lurker!

Anyway. So my trip in NY was great. I wrestled like an idiot, blew out my knee and got a slight concussion. It's alright though. It forced me to go out and buy a mouth guard, which is one of the best ideas I've had in a long time. We left Saturday morning and came back Sunday night. While it was 70+ and sunny here, and was like 40 and rainy all weekend up in NY. There was 3 inches of mud everywhere and by the time I got done wrestling I looked like fucking Swamp Thing.

I went up with my frined, his fiance', and another dood. 10 minutes into the trip my friends fiance' got on my nerves and the entire trip she reminded me of why I didn't like her when I first met her 2 years ago. I gave her the cold shoulder the entire weekend because I wanted to try to enjoy myself as much as possible without her annoying me. Some events happened where we argued and I had to put her in her place and tell it like it is, because that's the kind of guy that I am so that's what I do. My friend didn't like this. He said I should stop disrespecting her but when in my opinion she should respect me first after I got their car stuck out of a ditch in the pouring rain and in the pitch black without even a Thank You.

When we got home I deleted her off my Facebook, MySpace, AIM, and out of my phone. I just didn't wanna talk to her. After all, she isn't MY girlfriend. I didn't even wanna be her friend but I kind of had to if I wanted to stay friends with my friend because he forces her upon everyone by bringing her to all these wrestling shows hours and hours away from home when she has a 5 year old daughter. Ridiculous. You don't go to New York or Florida for 2-4 days when you have a responsibility like a daughter like that. My girlfrriend has a 3 year old and I wouldn't let her come to my shows because of this. Anyway, so my friend decided to send me a long message basically saying that he's done with me, try to learn about family life, and work on my anger issues.

The best part of the weekend was the hotel. Holiday Inn Express motha' fukka! I went to the spa, chilled in the hot tub and got a free breakfast Sunday morning. I felt like man. Me and a few friends are planning a trip to Ocean City, MD this summer and were so gonna hit up a really good hotel.

Arlen, dear. No offense, but New York can suck a fat one. :lol:

[Gloomy Mushroom]

^ Actually I came back on here for a second and decided to check out everything else.

[Arashi]

She wasn't that bad.....

I agree.


Ah well. :P
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I'm sick randomly. By randomly I mean one day I'm vomiting the next day I have a cold, then I get a cough. :S

My body is weird. :lol:

Oh and I half started my exam revisions. Well not really. Kthnxbye :D

[[TDWP] Jacob]

man i hate when me and her fight over stupid reasons =[

[Chris.]

Becareful what you say it might come bite you in the backside. I never liked you from the first account I had and I knew who not to be friends with.

:lol: Good.

[Theazninvasion68]

:ermm: It's sometimes rough for me to understand why people dislike others. Hmm.




T_T my day's plan on how to get to work is ruined. Darn.

[Will]

...and he's slowly becoming a douche bag again. Ugh.

Edit —
This isn't directed toward anyone here, by the way.

[[TDWP] Jacob]

im so done with her
i cant believe it

[Penny]

im so done with her
i cant believe it

:hug: I'm sorry :/

[[TDWP] Jacob]

:hug: I'm sorry :/

:hug: its like she wanted me to catch her
pisses me off

[Jen]

I suck at maintaining friendships, I finally met someone who really made me happy, and what do I do? Be my usual fucked up, overbearing, manic self, and they couldn't handle it.

I don't see the point in caring about anyone at all when I just end up driving them away in the end.

[[TDWP] Jacob]

I think im going to take a leave from LPA for a little while
i need to sort things out in my life and try to fix them
life has dealt me a shitty hand over the last couple of days and i really need time to think
i probably will be back soon..even tho you guys probably dont care because none of you really know me all that well...i really hope i can fix these things and things can get better for me..i dont know but i hope to be back here as soon as possible...so for now
Goodbye LPA =(

[Penny]

I think im going to take a leave from LPA for a little while
i need to sort things out in my life and try to fix them
life has dealt me a shitty hand over the last couple of days and i really need time to think
i probably will be back soon..even tho you guys probably dont care because none of you really know me all that well...i really hope i can fix these things and things can get better for me..i dont know but i hope to be back here as soon as possible...so for now
Goodbye LPA =(


:hug: Good luck Jake. :)

[Arashi]

I think im going to take a leave from LPA for a little while
i need to sort things out in my life and try to fix them
life has dealt me a shitty hand over the last couple of days and i really need time to think
i probably will be back soon..even tho you guys probably dont care because none of you really know me all that well...i really hope i can fix these things and things can get better for me..i dont know but i hope to be back here as soon as possible...so for now
Goodbye LPA =(

It was nice having you around, and if you want we are all here for you (PM if you'd like :)).

[Theazninvasion68]

I think im going to take a leave from LPA for a little while
i need to sort things out in my life and try to fix them
life has dealt me a shitty hand over the last couple of days and i really need time to think
i probably will be back soon..even tho you guys probably dont care because none of you really know me all that well...i really hope i can fix these things and things can get better for me..i dont know but i hope to be back here as soon as possible...so for now
Goodbye LPA =(


Hey take care alright? :) Try to make the best of things for yourself, Take a new perspective.

[Linja]

Good luck, Jake. Hope everything works out for you.

[Friskey™]

Peace out Jake. Hope you find what you're looking for.

===

And I want to apologize for the way I am on here sometimes. You know, all the times I say "Yeah, i'm leaving here" but come back the very next day, all the times i've been a douchebag, all the times that i've been completely uncontrollable and unstable. I have no freakin' clue how everybody can handle me around here when my head is usually upside down and off it's axis most of the time. But for the ones who can deal with me, thank you.

[Dean]

Fuck racists. Seriously. I've only realised over the past couple of days how much I really hate that stuff. This country is going to shit alright, but it's not who they think that's at fault. It's them among others.

[Linja]

Fuck racists. Seriously. I've only realised over the past couple of days how much I really hate that stuff. This country is going to shit alright, but it's not who they think that's at fault. It's them among others.
Racists, nationalists, and people that are far too intolerant terrify me.

[Dean]

One day I'd like to meet a British nationalist that actually has more than a little knowledge of their own country's history.

[Ryo Hazuki]

I think im going to take a leave from LPA for a little while
i need to sort things out in my life and try to fix them
life has dealt me a shitty hand over the last couple of days and i really need time to think
i probably will be back soon..even tho you guys probably dont care because none of you really know me all that well...i really hope i can fix these things and things can get better for me..i dont know but i hope to be back here as soon as possible...so for now
Goodbye LPA =(

Well, good luck. I hope you figure things out and things do get better for you.


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I think of leaving LPA a lot, almost every day. But in the end I don't even though I need to. It's not because of anyone here annoys me or anything but it's because I feel I spend way too many hours online and on a forum but on the other hand when I'm here I can just pretend that my life isn't all shit most of the time. I get very depressed and very stressed out, I have insomnia, I try to get a job but I don't have any luck, and when I do get lucky something comes up allowing me to not be able to work, trying to get settled into a college is frustrating. I know I need to spend less time online but I've made some good friends, and it's an outlet for me just let myself relax a bit.