Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

[Joeykat]

This is kinda funny in a way and also sad in a way:

Me and some friends were doing ridiculous 300 'THIS IS SPARTAAAA!!' poses all over town and back in Whitley Bay, and as we were finishing up, cause it was getting pretty dark, and ofcourse James wanted to do one last pose, so he ran in the middle of the road (it was clear at this time) and he got to shouting SPAR- WHACK hit by a motocycle, and now he's in hospital with a broken leg, and i feel kinda wierd cause i should have known better to let him stand in the middle of a road to take this photo.

:lol: but also :(

One word: Wups :blink:

[Messy Marj]

anyone will come down to that if you leave them. if i knew you where you stay and you left me...i'd be depressed for the rest of my life.
aw, so sweet of you. :hug:

[Fox]

This is kinda funny in a way and also sad in a way:

Me and some friends were doing ridiculous 300 'THIS IS SPARTAAAA!!' poses all over town and back in Whitley Bay, and as we were finishing up, cause it was getting pretty dark, and ofcourse James wanted to do one last pose, so he ran in the middle of the road (it was clear at this time) and he got to shouting SPAR- WHACK hit by a motocycle, and now he's in hospital with a broken leg, and i feel kinda wierd cause i should have known better to let him stand in the middle of a road to take this photo.

:lol: but also :(

:lol: ... Ahhh Tom!!

I hope your friend is better.. but yeah it was funny..

;)

[Friskey™]

This is kinda funny in a way and also sad in a way:

Me and some friends were doing ridiculous 300 'THIS IS SPARTAAAA!!' poses all over town and back in Whitley Bay, and as we were finishing up, cause it was getting pretty dark, and ofcourse James wanted to do one last pose, so he ran in the middle of the road (it was clear at this time) and he got to shouting SPAR- WHACK hit by a motocycle, and now he's in hospital with a broken leg, and i feel kinda wierd cause i should have known better to let him stand in the middle of a road to take this photo.

:lol: but also :(

I do hope your friend is ok...even though it was funny.

I can hear it now.

THIS

IS

SPART-WHACK!

:lol: No hard feelings though.

[Andrea]

My mom is freaking out because her mom is dying from pneumonia. This doesn't look good and I am worried. Ugh.

I'm not real close to my relatives so I don't know how to react. My mom is really just...sobbing uncontrollably. I feel so horrible seeing her like this.

[Linja]

My mom is freaking out because her mom is dying from pneumonia. This doesn't look good and I am worried. Ugh.

I'm not real close to my relatives so I don't know how to react. My mom is really just...sobbing uncontrollably. I feel so horrible seeing her like this.

:hug: for you and your folks. I get the feeling of not being close to most of the relatives and not knowing how to react when one of them is sick, but feeling terrible because it really affects the ones you are close to.

[Louis]

It seems to me like no matter what, I can't avoid her coming to mind.

It seems redundant, but it's been almost 8 months and I have continued to struggle with this. Over time I have grown weary and weak, it seems, both mentally and physically. Both a clear mind and an energized body are rare separately and nonexistent together. Time away from her seems slow-moving and dull, while time with her passes by almost too quick.

It's almost like an addiction, but it's not an addiction and there is no craving. There is only disappointment, sadness, and anger. What's to crave when what you could crave will simply not come to be? Why bother? I'm already putting myself through enough. It doesn't seem like there's anything I can do about it, though.

8 months and no sign of improvement. 8 months of this one girl on my mind almost constantly. And when she isn't on my mind, it seems that I catch myself not thinking about her and then proceed to think about her.

What is it about her that fascinates me? Why can I not just forget about these feelings and keep this friendship like it should be? Why do I have to be a victim? Why does she have to be a victim too? What have we done, what have we done?

I've never had such strong feelings for someone in my entire life. I've never found myself to be so fascinated by someone. I've never been in such a tough situation. I wanted to avoid dealing with something like this. I made a promise to in the beginning. I betrayed myself. I am paying for that betrayal, and I've been paying for it for almost the past 8 months.

It comes as a surprise to me how her unhappiness seems to irritate me more than this feeling of wanting someone I can't have. It comes as a surprise to me how a frown on her face irritates me more than the fact that her feelings are for someone who is like a brother to me. I don't know if it's because it's extremely irritating, or if I'm extremely irritable, or a combination of both. Whatever it is, I am irritated, upset, and in pain.

I wish that hug wasn't because of her being happy about seeing a band that she had been dying to see. I wish it was because she felt the same way about me that I do about her. I wish there was more to it than seeing a band she loves. I wish there was more to it.

There's so much more I could say, but it's all too much. I don't know what to do. I feel lost, sad, upset, disappointed, angry, everything.

I don't know what to do. I am lost.

[Chris(tmas)]

This is kinda funny in a way and also sad in a way:

Me and some friends were doing ridiculous 300 'THIS IS SPARTAAAA!!' poses all over town and back in Whitley Bay, and as we were finishing up, cause it was getting pretty dark, and ofcourse James wanted to do one last pose, so he ran in the middle of the road (it was clear at this time) and he got to shouting SPAR- WHACK hit by a motocycle, and now he's in hospital with a broken leg, and i feel kinda wierd cause i should have known better to let him stand in the middle of a road to take this photo.

:lol: but also :(
Is the bike still okay? :lol:

That was funny but also sad. Hope he's doing fine ^_^

[Luke]

Louis, dude, there are just some things in life we can't have. It's painful and uncomfortable when we know that there's something we want so bad that we'd be willing to do a lot of things to seize it. People have driven themselves to breaking points trying to disprove what is a simple fact...you need to make sure you don't go down that road. Seriously man, I know from first hand experience that things might hurt like hell on the inside now but everything will pass over time. It always does. Until it does the only advice I can give you is to remember that and keep telling yourself that whenever it feels like you're on the edge. You hang in there man, after all, there's a brightside to everything. :)

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Right now I'm very very upset about the fact that it seems the area that I grew up in and have lived in pretty much my whole damn life is becoming infested with a plague. A plague that thinks that just because people in the music they listen to and because they hear that their peers have done it before, they decide to go and rob someone. It's happening more and more and it's literally sickening to hear some of the stories around here; people getting jacked for their money, phones, ipods and pretty much anything these fuckers can get their hands on.

It's one thing for people around here to be getting jacked but when you involve my friends, people I consider another branchline to my family, then it's a whole new fucking level. There was a party yesterday, I didn't go because it was my uncle's brithday and the family went out for dinner. Apparently when two of my friends, Michael and Jim, left the house where most of the people were and went into the garden to have a chat two dudes built like brick walls, one carrying a knife, jumped over the garden wall from the street to try and jack them. Now both Mike and Jim can look after themselves but the fuckers took them by surprise and knocked Mike out leaving Jim to fend for himself. Jim ran into the house to get reinforcements but by the time he came back out the bastards had left, they'd helped themselves to my friend Elenor's ipod. All the lads went scouting the street looking for them but couldn't find them.

Mike is okay apparently but got a concussion, pretty fucked up considering it's his birthday tomorrow. That's not the point though, it could have been alot worse if the bastard decided to use his knife. The cowards also jacked a girl, who the fuck does that? What's even more irritating about all this is that round here you hear the stories about people being jacked on the streets or on public transport, you don't even begin to think that you could be jacked in someones fucking garden.

I just hope that London doesn't step it up a notch and chains and knives don't become guns. There's been alot of recent gun-related deaths in south London recently and one can only hope it doesn't find it's way up North.

This is London, not fucking south-central LA.

[John]

I don’t know where to begin, I don’t even know why I’m writing this but here it is:

What’s the point of living? And do we really enjoy living in a society like this one? I really don’t, I’m frustrated by everything. When I was a child I always thought everyone in this world were as honest and good people like my parents, but guess what? I was so wrong in fact there isn’t anyone like my parents in this world, there isn’t any good people left in this world anymore, everything is corrupt nowadays. And that isn’t what I was gonna say here anyways, the point is that I’m starting to hate life in general, nothing ever goes right anymore, things instead of improving they are just getting worse. I just can’t take this life anymore, people say that you just have to keep hanging on and things will get better for you, well I’m tired of waiting and I don’t really care anymore, why does life have to be like this!? Why did my father had to die when I was just a kid? And why does my mom has to be sick?!?! Things like these two makes me questioned my faith, if bad things happens to good people then I think I’m next, I’m gonna die soon then. Well I don’t really care if I die right now that means I would get to see my dad again I guess.

I never thought life would suck so much, I thought the world was an awesome place to live and it sucks that one day you realize that it isn’t a good place to live, people are always getting worse. I guess we can’t turn back time so we just have to keep living in this shitty place we called earth *sighs*.

I don’t know how I find the strength each day to wake up, go to school and study because I really don’t wanna do any of those things anymore. Life isn’t fair that just plain sucks, thank god for things like music and NBA, seriously those things are what keeps me alive, those things are the best in the world. They are 100 times better than friends or anything, I don’t believe in the term friendship anyways, there are strangers and people that you know but they aren’t any friends, who the hell invented that word anyways?

Well I don’t really wanna talk about what I just wrote, so stay away and don’t make any questions about it, because I don’t wanna answer, I just wanted to write how I was feeling at the very moment, thanks for reading this pathetic letter.

Later

[Will]

-edit-

Ugh... never mind.

[Anya]

Whoever you're talking about sounds like a bitch Will. =\ I hope she calls you, sorry. And even if she did, I'd be giving her the cold shoulder as well if I were you.

Yeah, don't even bother with it.

[Joeykat]

:hug: Poor Will. Common decency out the window :( Hate it when that happens..

As Anya says give her the cold shoulder and just ignore her for a while, she will then realise what she's missing :)

[Daniel]

Today, we had our dog, who we've had for over ten years, put down. She had a brain tumour or something. Fuck this.

[Arlene]

Today, we had our dog, who we've had for over ten years, put down. She had a brain tumour or something. Fuck this.

*hugs tight*

[Daniel]

*hugs tight*

Thanks hun :hug:

I guess at least I've got something to cheer me up at least, I'm going with Natalie to a party on Friday night, so I guess that takes away some of the absolute shittiness of today.

[Dylan]

I'm dating someone next saturday .. she has a boyfriend.. i think her boyfriend is gonna kill me .. :ermm:

[Joeykat]

Some people on my course need a serious reality check. We are on the final hurdle, 3 weeks til half term then 2 weeks after that left. We get set work to do (mainly working on assignments) and what are most of the class doing? Playing on games. That is what they are doing. And this one guy real aggrivates me, he has done since the beginning of the year, he has that arrogance that is really off putting. I told him to get his butt in gear the other day because he was playing on games when he should of been doing the assignment work, he told me to 'Butt out of his business, you can't tell me what to do cuz you aint the teacher so shut up'. Of course I say: 'Make me!' And he shuts up. The thing is, he still has 15 assignments over due.. Yes 15!! Whilst I get all mine in on time, tis a struggle sometimes but I manage it. But its just grrrr >.<

[Tomi]

Man, Mike is seriously a strange man. I know I was due to get fired soon, and I really should have quit myself. I mean, looking at my report card, it seriously killed me. I've been working way too much.

Although, I don't get why he hires two new people, one of which is an manager [replacement for Paul, who quit out of stress, I guess]. It's only his second shift, and Mike tells him to fire me. Where's Mike? Hell if I know. I don't understand why he got someone barely a day old to do his work for him.

I'm glad I'm finally free of that place. Now I can finally put my mind to where it should be, at school. I've been working nearly every day, with no time to spare for homework -- of course it's going to affect my marks, dimwit.

What I learned out of this? Firstly, stay well clear from the foods industry. Secondly, if the owner/manager is crazy, flee immediately. The only things keeping me there was the money [I could use a new computer...] and the people working there. Working there wasn't necessarily thrilling to me, hence why I was fired.

*shrug* Work/money is not important to me at the moment, I need to dig myself back up from the hole I made at school.

[Friskey™]

Louis, dude, there are just some things in life we can't have. It's painful and uncomfortable when we know that there's something we want so bad that we'd be willing to do a lot of things to seize it. People have driven themselves to breaking points trying to disprove what is a simple fact...you need to make sure you don't go down that road. Seriously man, I know from first hand experience that things might hurt like hell on the inside now but everything will pass over time. It always does. Until it does the only advice I can give you is to remember that and keep telling yourself that whenever it feels like you're on the edge. You hang in there man, after all, there's a brightside to everything. :)

Trust me, things like that don't pass overnight no matter how hard we try to forgive and forget. I've been going on almost 3 years now and there are days where I feel the same as what you said Louis. I've gotten better over time, but it always hurts deep inside. Whatever you said, was basically all of my things, feelings, whatnot for Angie. You try not to think, your mind catches you and makes you think, you have sporadic dreams about that person when you don't want to, and it just makes you sick when seeing her with a boy/girlfriend. Maybe if she wasn't the way she is now, maybe things would be better for me. I mean, i'm happy for her, but it sickens me knowing that my first true love is now swinging for the other team.

Just hang in there. I swear, being like this for 3 years is going to rear it's head and reward me in some way for coming this far. Maybe the same will happen for you too Louis.

[Louis]

Trust me, things like that don't pass overnight no matter how hard we try to forgive and forget. I've been going on almost 3 years now and there are days where I feel the same as what you said Louis. I've gotten better over time, but it always hurts deep inside. Whatever you said, was basically all of my things, feelings, whatnot for Angie. You try not to think, your mind catches you and makes you think, you have sporadic dreams about that person when you don't want to, and it just makes you sick when seeing her with a boy/girlfriend. Maybe if she wasn't the way she is now, maybe things would be better for me. I mean, i'm happy for her, but it sickens me knowing that my first true love is now swinging for the other team.

Just hang in there. I swear, being like this for 3 years is going to rear it's head and reward me in some way for coming this far. Maybe the same will happen for you too Louis.

Thanks, man. I appreciate that. I really do.

[Matt]

omgwtf Matt's back??????//

Yeah, I'm back once again, maybe to stay, maybe not. Anyway, I thought I'd give an update on how I've been.

Last time I was here, I was a miserable little bitch of a kid because of some girl who forgot I exist, and I made such a big deal of it, whining about how I'd loved her for years and couldn't do anything about it. Well, I'm almost embarrassed to say it, but I got over it in like, 2 days.

...actually, I'm so happy that I could never be embarassed about it. On the spring trip to Vancouver with the marching band, I fell for a girl in color guard, a sophomore (I'm a freshman). I hung around with her the entire week, and completely forgot about the girl I'd been so hung up about. Of course, on the fourth day or so, everyone tried to pressure me into asking her out, spawning the most awkward day of my life, but I got over it. I discovered she'd liked me since marching season (a lot) when we got back, and I asked her out the next day. So, now I've got a beautiful girlfriend who I'm very happy and lucky to be with (Bonus points because she's older, too. :lol: ). It felt great to overcome that awkard part of myself that's afraid to go for a girl.

So, that's the main reason I'm so much happier of a person now. Also, in band, I've adopted a spot on the drumline playing snare, which is what I always wanted, and I'm playing tenors (That cool-looking set of 5 or so drums that everyone freaks out over) next year.

There's more to it all, but I'll save it for later.

Point: I love where I am now, and it's good to be back. :D

[Louis]

omgwtf Matt's back??????//

Yeah, I'm back once again, maybe to stay, maybe not. Anyway, I thought I'd give an update on how I've been.

Last time I was here, I was a miserable little bitch of a kid because of some girl who forgot I exist, and I made such a big deal of it, whining about how I'd loved her for years and couldn't do anything about it. Well, I'm almost embarrassed to say it, but I got over it in like, 2 days.

...actually, I'm so happy that I could never be embarassed about it. On the spring trip to Vancouver with the marching band, I fell for a girl in color guard, a sophomore (I'm a freshman). I hung around with her the entire week, and completely forgot about the girl I'd been so hung up about. Of course, on the fourth day or so, everyone tried to pressure me into asking her out, spawning the most awkward day of my life, but I got over it. I discovered she'd liked me since marching season (a lot) when we got back, and I asked her out the next day. So, now I've got a beautiful girlfriend who I'm very happy and lucky to be with (Bonus points because she's older, too. :lol: ). It felt great to overcome that awkard part of myself that's afraid to go for a girl.

So, that's the main reason I'm so much happier of a person now. Also, in band, I've adopted a spot on the drumline playing snare, which is what I always wanted, and I'm playing tenors (That cool-looking set of 5 or so drums that everyone freaks out over) next year.

There's more to it all, but I'll save it for later.

Point: I love where I am now, and it's good to be back. :D

I'm glad to hear you're doing better, Matt. I really am.

Tenors are fucking awesome. I'm in Marching Band too, but I play the clarinet.

[Matt]

Thanks, man. I've seen that you've been having some problems, so I'll try and help like you all did for me.

It seems like your problem is nearly identical to my old one. Though, I'm not going to tell you to forget her and move on, because I know how hard that was, and I wasn't even trying to when it happened to me. So, my advice is to focus on something else. It won't help to do nothing, because inevitably, you'll think of her. It really does feel like an addiction, I know, but for your own sake, just try not to think about it so much. I used to think about that girl day and night, wondering if I'd ever have a chance with her, and it drove me insane. However, when I told myself to just relax and take it all as it comes, I felt better. This really is a tough kind of problem to deal with because when you have that instinct to keep it inside, there's not much to do. I was that way, and it sucked. Still, it is a good thing you're talking about it with us, much better than driving yourself crazy alone. That helped me a lot.

I'm not completely sure that will make sense to you, but it's the best I can do with my knowledge of your situation.

And clarinets, I really don't have anything to say, but that's just because the clarinets in my band are all elitist bastards, giving me a rather biased view of them. But, I'm sure you're not like them, so I say it's cool.

Note to self: Revive marching band thread later.

[Dr. Octogonapus]

Why the hell do the good die young? Blah...

[Tomi]

omgwtf Matt's back??????//

Yeah, I'm back once again, maybe to stay, maybe not. Anyway, I thought I'd give an update on how I've been.

Last time I was here, I was a miserable little bitch of a kid because of some girl who forgot I exist, and I made such a big deal of it, whining about how I'd loved her for years and couldn't do anything about it. Well, I'm almost embarrassed to say it, but I got over it in like, 2 days.

...actually, I'm so happy that I could never be embarassed about it. On the spring trip to Vancouver with the marching band, I fell for a girl in color guard, a sophomore (I'm a freshman). I hung around with her the entire week, and completely forgot about the girl I'd been so hung up about. Of course, on the fourth day or so, everyone tried to pressure me into asking her out, spawning the most awkward day of my life, but I got over it. I discovered she'd liked me since marching season (a lot) when we got back, and I asked her out the next day. So, now I've got a beautiful girlfriend who I'm very happy and lucky to be with (Bonus points because she's older, too. :lol: ). It felt great to overcome that awkard part of myself that's afraid to go for a girl.

So, that's the main reason I'm so much happier of a person now. Also, in band, I've adopted a spot on the drumline playing snare, which is what I always wanted, and I'm playing tenors (That cool-looking set of 5 or so drums that everyone freaks out over) next year.

There's more to it all, but I'll save it for later.

Point: I love where I am now, and it's good to be back. :D
Aren't band trips amazing? ;)

[brokenLP]

I thought I would just write on here for the heck of it. My boyfriend and I are going on 4 months soon. The sad thing is he is moving in at the end of June like 18 hours away from here for about 4 years he said he might come back but doesn’t know and I’m going to college for 2 years so after I am done I could just move out there with him. We both know we want to get married some day. To keep in touch we’ll both having our cell phones so we can call and text we’ll have the internet and he wants to write letters also. But there are a few people who are telling us to break up and end everything we have. I can see why they are saying it; they don’t want us to get hurt. But I also have people saying if we really love each other we will stay together even though we’ll be far apart for awhile. Plus in this there will be a huge trust issue. I’m just kind of confused on what to do if we should stay together or go on break. But I’m scared if we go on a break he will find someone else while he’s away. I don’t know.

[Messy Marj]

MY SISTER IS PREGNANT MY SISTER IS PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM GONNA BE AN AUNT FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!! (w00t)

[Joeykat]

MY SISTER IS PREGNANT MY SISTER IS PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM GONNA BE AN AUNT FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!! (w00t)

:lol: YAY!!!

I'm a twice around the bush aunty ;)

[Anya]

MY SISTER IS PREGNANT MY SISTER IS PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM GONNA BE AN AUNT FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!! (w00t)

Leones? :o Oh my goodness, tell her I said congrats!

[Messy Marj]

Leones? :o Oh my goodness, tell her I said congrats!

:lol: ohno no no, it's Cindy, she's my oldest sister! My favorite one! lol

[Anya]

:lol: ohno no no, it's Cindy, she's my oldest sister! My favorite one! lol

Awww, I didn't know you had another sister sorry. :lol: Good, cause I was wondering since Leones is pretty young. Congrats on being an aunt though still! ^_^

[Messy Marj]

Thank youuuuu, yes I have 3 sisters and 1 brother hehe, quite a big family.

[Holiday]

I've been off my meds for 3 days.

I felt super awful, creepy/crawly, anxious, shaky, angry, tense, hurt, emotional.

Boyfriend's been off for 3 days too.

He's easily angred and has a short temper.

He wants to stay off, but said I should go back on mine.













I'm trying to make myself better..... I don't know if I want to go back to it. I don't even know how I ever got to the point I needed any.

[Dedicated]

Well. I like this girl I barely know and last night me and a few others stayed in her house. Apparently she was saying my name when she was asleep, which I can only guess is a good thing. Problem is that she's got a boyfriend.

[Matt]

Ouch. Alex might as well have shot me in the face, because that caught me way off guard.

So, we're sitting in third period, talking about something having to do with my girlfriend, and all of the sudden it gets to the point where I'm trying to get him to tell me something. So, he goes right out and says it: "I like Olivia."

Now, I really can't be mad at him because I was pretty sure he'd liked my girlfriend before I asked her out, but now I have no explanation as to why I'm mad. He told me something a bit stupid, but it bothered me. He said that he saw her over the weekend, and just for fun, they had someone do some fortune and horoscope stuff for them.

Alex's said he'd lose a friend, but it would be for the better.

Olivia's said she'd push someone close to her away.

I'm not that much of a believer in fortunes and stuff, but I've never ruled them out. Losing a friend? Pushing someone away? That's not it. They both got something about having joy in the future, and when Alex asked about it, the fortune person hinted at them being together.

Eerie coincidence? I sure as hell hope so. Of course, it doesn't help that he sees Olivia more than I do, and it really doesn't help that he always just gets defensive when I bring that up. It bugs me, too, that she wasn't going to tell me any of this. I've been irritated with Alex a lot lately, just because he's so immature sometimes, but he's really pushing me over the edge now.

God, what the fuck is wrong with this picture?

[Rachel]

I'm so sorry you never got to see your birthdays, or meet your new cousins Rileigh, Lucas, or Kobe. I'm sorry you never got to be dressed up for Halloween, or get to open presents for Christmas and Chanuka. I'm so sorry you never got to ride a bike or learn to swim or play soccer or softball or football or whatever you wanted. I'm sorry you never got to meet your ginormous family, including Nana, Grampa, Gramma, Grampy, and Poppa. I'm sorry you never got to get your first kiss or anything...

I'm sorry, because even though I has the chance to save you, I didn't.

And I hate myself every day for it.

Mommy misses you.

[Dr. Faust]

Great. I've got a year and a half left with my best friends who I hate, at which point I will ditch them, because we won't have every fucking class together. They are arrogant, ignorant pricks who think that they are better then everyone else. I need to get some more accepting friends.

[Harlz]

In a way, this has been a good week. Alana actually talks to me, actually smiles at me when she see's me, and I love it.
Only thing is, she still won't start a conversation with me, still won't say hi unless I say it first.

Me and her may be getting closer again, slowly, but in a way, all it does is make it worse, because I can't hope for anything more than a moderate friendship. 6 months ago I messed up my chance with her, and I know I won't ever get another one. She moved on, I didn't, and I don't know why.

I'm happy, i think, but I just can't shake this hopeless feeling.
I'd love to go out with another girl, try and get my mind off Alana, but I can't even contemplate that, it wouldn't be fair on whoever that other girl may be.

*sigh*

[Daniel]

I swear to God, I'm going to knock this kid at my work's fucking block off for what he said about her.

[Messy Marj]

I finally got a job ^_^
Hopefully now I can get used to all of this new stuff.

[Joeykat]

You cannot TELL people to be creative, it is just not right >.<

This assignment is doing my nut in :(

[.Amanda.]

I'm so sorry you never got to see your birthdays, or meet your new cousins Rileigh, Lucas, or Kobe. I'm sorry you never got to be dressed up for Halloween, or get to open presents for Christmas and Chanuka. I'm so sorry you never got to ride a bike or learn to swim or play soccer or softball or football or whatever you wanted. I'm sorry you never got to meet your ginormous family, including Nana, Grampa, Gramma, Grampy, and Poppa. I'm sorry you never got to get your first kiss or anything...

I'm sorry, because even though I has the chance to save you, I didn't.

And I hate myself every day for it.

Mommy misses you.
This made me cry terribly.

[Ryo Hazuki]

... I want a girl friend but i don't... i dont want to get hurt again.. as i've been hurt alot haha

[Rachel]

This made me cry terribly.

I cry about it every night.

[Theazninvasion68]

I forked up 75 bucks for a school project.

Im such a lazy ass =(.

[Friskey™]

What the hell? My old friends can't have the nerve and decency to say hi, or comment me on MySpace, or whatever? I understand completely if you have school, or work, or whatever. But it doesn't hurt that when you have free time, that you can swing me a line, see how you're doing.

I apologize if this makes me sound like a complete prick, but note that these are my best friends, and now, they seem nothing. I hate it. I hate having nothing.

[Harlz]

Holy Fucking shit, Silverchair last night were amazing!!! Bash on Young Modern all you want, but that was the single best performance I have ever seen, Daniel Johns is amazing.
The way everyone jumped up on their seat and sang along when the band played Freak, that was really something. Thats one night I'm never going to forget, ever.

:cloud:

[Joeykat]

I don't have a bad memory, it's just selective about what it remembers. If lectures were anything like music my brain would be quite happy to sit there and memorise everything that came out of the lecturers mouth. But until then, it is perfectly happy to memorise fun things ta :P

[.Amanda.]

I cry about it every night.
:hug:Oh, Rach.

[Rachel]

:hug:Oh, Rach.

I don't know who feels worse about it, Jay or me.

Jay didn't want it. I could have said "too bad."

But I did it, just to get him to come back to me.

And instead I had lost the both of them for a while. True, I got Jay back...

but I'll never get my baby boy back.

[Misfit Jay]

I don't know who feels worse about it, Jay or me.

Jay didn't want it. I could have said "too bad."

But I did it, just to get him to come back to me.

And instead I had lost the both of them for a while. True, I got Jay back...

but I'll never get my baby boy back.

And I'm so sorry about it. I was scared as hell, I wasn't ready to be a dad and I know you weren't ready either. But when you told me what happened my I felt my heart shatter. I wish I could go back and change all of that. I wish I could go back, beat the living hell out of me and tell myself not to be scared, and not to be stupid. Everyday I wish I could bring him back...Believe me. I miss him just as much. It'll never happen again.

[Rachel]

And I'm so sorry about it. I was scared as hell, I wasn't ready to be a dad and I know you weren't ready either. But when you told me what happened my I felt my heart shatter. I wish I could go back and change all of that. I wish I could go back, beat the living hell out of me and tell myself not to be scared, and not to be stupid. Everyday I wish I could bring him back...Believe me. I miss him just as much. It'll never happen again.

:hug: i know hun. i know.

[Misfit Jay]

:hug: i know hun. i know.

:hug:

[.Amanda.]

Rachel, Jay...

I never knew. I'm so sorry.

I can't even begin to imagine how hard that must be.

[Derek The Infamous]

I've got something to let out, sure.

I love this website and I am so proud of it and everything it's accomplished. I have met more amazing people and friends here than in any other place I've ever had the honor of being a member of. This website has done more for my confidence and self esteem than any of you will ever know.

To my dedicated staff, the friends I speak to online daily, and most importantly Linkin Park, thank you. I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for you. You've changed my life for the greater and no words can express how thankful I am.

[Anya]

*hugs Rach and Jay*

I'm really sorry you guys.. This breaks my heart to hear this. I can't imagine the pain you're both feeling.

[Voltage]

I LOVE JESUS............ (if he's real)

[Anthony.]

*hugs Rach and Jay*

I'm really sorry you guys.. This breaks my heart to hear this. I can't imagine the pain you're both feeling.

So do I. :hug: Don't regret your decision; never forget that, even though you can be loving parents, there are always things like your income and time that you cannot control, and that it takes a lot of these 2 things to raise a child. Never forget that you will be given another chance, when the time is right, to have one. When you'll be ready, the kid will grow up in a context favorable to his/her development.

Stay strong.

[Theazninvasion68]

*hugs Rach and jay too*

Stay strong, Dont give up. Makes me sad to hear this =(. Never knew.

[Friskey™]

*hugs Rach and Jay too*

Stay strong, Dont give up. Makes me sad to hear this =(. Never knew.

.

[Messy Marj]

I'm so sorry to hear that... :hug:

[Harlz]

Rachel, Jay, I don't know either of you well, but I truly am sorry to hear that.
You two seem to really, honestly care about each other though, and thats certainly something for both of you to hold on to.
And you'll both make amazing parents one day I'm sure.

[Daniel]

Rachel, Jay, I don't profess to know you, but you have my deepest condolences and support.

:hug:

[Misfit Jay]

I think I speak for both Rach and I when I say:

Thank you everyone for your condolences and support. It's greatly appreciated. It's a long painful road but I know we'll make it through if we keep looking forward, and be there for each other. When the time comes when we'll be able to afford having a kid, we're going to give him/her all the love we can give and be the best parents we can.

Once again: Thank you.

[Rachel]

I think I speak for both Rach and I when I say:

Thank you everyone for your condolences and support. It's greatly appreciated. It's a long painful road but I know we'll make it through if we keep looking forward, and be there for each other. When the time comes when we'll be able to afford having a kid, we're going to give him/her all the love we can give and be the best parents we can.

Once again: Thank you.

Wow...thanks everyone for your nice words of encouragement, and I have to agree with Jay on everything he has said.

Your support for the both of us through this time [he would have been 1 this august, so since its approaching, im getting emotional] only proves Derek's point a few posts earlier: that this forum has truly made me find amazing friendly people, and I honestly don't think I'd be where I am today without this community to come to, I love you guys, all of you, thank you so much.

[Matt]

Well, I feel much better. I just talked to Olivia for at least an hour or so over the phone. It's great, considering I never know what to say to her on the phone. It just makes me feel better to talk to her, but I know I bore her sometimes. I feel so much better, though. I think I love her, and I don't want to lose her. Gah, I dunno. I do love her.


And Jay, Rachel, I have to say I'm so sorry about what happened, and I'm sorry about going off and bitching about my friend being stupid when you had something probably infinitely worse happening to you. I can't say I know what it's like, because I obviously don't, but I'm so sorry you have to go through this, although I'm glad everyone else has been able to comfort you so far.

[Rachel]

Thanks Matt, and don't worry. This is the place to bitch. Bitch away, if it'll make you feel better :]

[Luke]

So I just got back from a Talentbot board meeting which was held at some fucking creepy location up in Highgate. Why we had to have this meeting at 9pm is quite beyond me and why in the sake of christ we had to have the meeting in the back room of a town hall is very strange.

I found out there are gonna be complete and utter fucking morons working in this company. I was speaking to this guy Matthew for about a half an hour beforehand in the lounge area. Matthew is one of those people who is so high on themselves that he probably baught himself a mirror for christmas. He obviously didn't have a damn clue who he was talking to because he was like ''have you heard Jess [my mum] has hired her 16 year-old son as the UK promoter, that's playing favourites wouldn't you say?"...what an idiot, it's fucking obvious probably to a blind person that I'm related to my Mum, let alone her son for fuck sake. I just laughed and said ''well I think I'll do a good job'' and he had a look that would serve any kodak moment well because he knew instantly who he was talking to. :lol:

There was also this guy Jacob who basicly said to hell with all my ideas because of my age. He said something along the lines of ''Luke, mate, I've been promoting and advertising for 5 years, you didn't complete college, so maybe it's best if we just lay the ideas to you and you can promote them''...What a total fucktard.

I tell you what yeah, I might be 16 and have fuck all experience in any work but I know I'll do a good job because I know that this is gonna be a company that is gonna help millions. And I fucking mean millions. It's also gonna make me millions. I look at it as I'm promoting something to help people with talent get noticed and I'm also making some money as well. My Mum has put her trust in me to do a good job and I wont let her down. If anyone wants to doubt me, I say bring it on because it's just more fuel to an already raging fire. Those fucktards working in the company with me can go to hell because I'll get them fired in a fucking heartbeat if push comes to shove. I mean business with this company and I'm out to make a statement as one of the youngest successful promoters not only in the UK but in the world and if anyone has a problem with that they can piss off.

[Arashi]

I just saw a horrible accident.




Lordi.

[Harlz]

God I love her.
And I don't even believe in love.

Make sense?

[Christopher]

Why can't she just make her own damn homework... >_< I did it myself when I was her age.

Gets me so pissed off with all her whining because I'm not doing it right... explain what I'm supposed to do, please. Fuck.

[Daniel]

Goddammit. I seriously can't tell if this is a real relationship or just a friendship.

What the fuck am I supposed to do? >_<

[Arlene]

I hate stupid shit.>_< :unsure:

[Black Orchid]

school's out for summer: 38 days away!
woooooohooooooo
*jumps up and down*

[Arlene]

I shouldn't let myself fall for anyone anymore.
Ugh :unsure:

[Daniel]

I shouldn't let myself fall for anyone anymore.
Ugh :unsure:

Please check your email hun. :hug:

[Joeykat]

My MTM is screwed >.<

The track titles are wrong on the cd when I play it in my PC >.<

DVD is awesome though :lol:

[...Lauren?]

I. Fucking. Hate. That. Emo. BITCH.

1) She cuts herself and runs around showing people pictures of bloody razors and her scars (FYI, I hate people like this.) Cut yourself because you're depressed, whatever. Just don't be a jackass and do it for attention.
2) She starts fights with people and if they say shit back she turns around and tells the principle like a motherfucking 5th grader and gets them in trouble (and half the time she lies about what the other person says)
3) She says one thing and does another and she never says shit to peoples' faces
4) She just told one of my best friends that her boyfriend was flirting with Amber (It's not true, I have the same class with her boyfriend, the emo bitch, and amber). She only said that because she's mad at Amber, she doesn't even care what it does to my friend's relationship!
5) Pretty much everyone in the school hates her (including me), except for MY friends who think she's the coolest person ever.

Fuck.

[androidkaita]

I. Fucking. Hate. That. Emo. BITCH.

1) She cuts herself and runs around showing people pictures of bloody razors and her scars (FYI, I hate people like this.) Cut yourself because you're depressed, whatever. Just don't be a jackass and do it for attention.
2) She starts fights with people and if they say shit back she turns around and tells the principle like a motherfucking 5th grader and gets them in trouble (and half the time she lies about what the other person says)
3) She says one thing and does another and she never says shit to peoples' faces
4) She just told one of my best friends that her boyfriend was flirting with Amber (It's not true, I have the same class with her boyfriend, the emo bitch, and amber). She only said that because she's mad at Amber, she doesn't even care what it does to my friend's relationship!
5) Pretty much everyone in the school hates her (including me), except for MY friends who think she's the coolest person ever.

Fuck.
wow.

Theres this emo girl at my school, and she has slits all up her wrists, and a book filled of drawings of like Teddybears getting there heads ripped of or killing stuff and etc. It creeps me out alot. Especially when she explains how she cuts herself or how she like found a rat, killed it and then did something with its blood. and she wrote a whole poem about death in hr own blood. I seriously almost threw up the day I found out about all that shit

[+ / –]

I'm pissed...

I just bought 20$ worth of shrooms, it's been an hour and I haven't felt shit except some weird tingly feelings.

[Agent O]

I've got something to let out, sure.

I love this website and I am so proud of it and everything it's accomplished. I have met more amazing people and friends here than in any other place I've ever had the honor of being a member of. This website has done more for my confidence and self esteem than any of you will ever know.

To my dedicated staff, the friends I speak to online daily, and most importantly Linkin Park, thank you. I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for you. You've changed my life for the greater and no words can express how thankful I am.

Derek, that was very touching :).

[Harlz]

Fucking flu! Aargh!

[Dean]

I'm having a blood test tomorrow but I know I know my problem isn't fucking anemia. I wish I'd just talk for once.

[Christopher]

It sucks to see I can never get close enough, while everyone around me is finding someone... >_<

[Friskey™]

It sucks to see I can never get close enough, while everyone around me is finding someone... >_<

Welcome to my world >_<

[Christopher]

Welcome to my world >_<

Well, I need to get out of this world as quickly as possible... <_<

[Friskey™]

Well, I need to get out of this world as quickly as possible... <_<

That's why i'm in my little world as much as possible.

[Misfit Jay]

You crack me up. You really do. You tell me that it wasn't his fault. IT WAS. I was there to split the two dogs up, for the millionth time, to save my little corgi from your damn muscular bulldog, cuz he was getting wrecked. I was there when your dog looked straight at me with that look, and I was there when he jumped at me, and got my thumb.

Where were you? Oh yeah. Mom, you were sitting on your chair watching tv. And dad, you were going somewhere. So don't tell me you saw something completely different from what I experienced. You just want to keep that damn mutt of yours. The one who attacked me. And then you say if we get rid of him, we get rid of mine. Yeah, like that's fair, guys. It's bull. You have no right telling me to calm down after every time he runs towards me, or when he growls at me or my dog, and I yell at him to stop. You weren't the one bitten. You weren't the one who's suffering from minor trauma thanks to that dog. How many times am I going to hear you telling people something completely different, about what happened to me? I don't know how many times I can tell you that I don't feel safe around that dog. All I know is that no matter what, you're always going to tell me that what happened to me, didn't happen the way I experienced it. How much does my life have to be a lie?

[Dr. Faust]

Ignorance can be bliss, but it can also make you in to a fucking prick, so watch out.

[Harlz]

Bloody flu.
Bloody parents.
Bloody flu.
Blood assignments.
Bloody flu.
Bloody emotions.

Eargh *breaks stuff*

[Joeykat]

;653540']Bloody flu.
Bloody parents.
Bloody flu.
Blood assignments.
Bloody flu.
Bloody emotions.

Eargh *breaks stuff*

:hug:


I know how you feel with emotions and assignments :sleep:

[Harlz]

:hug:

Yea, its a horrible combination isn't it?

[Joeykat]

;653552']:hug:

Yea, its a horrible combination isn't it?

*nods*

I only have 2 and a half assignments left >_<

But a huge project to finish by next wednesday :sleep:

[...Lauren?]

wow.

Theres this emo girl at my school, and she has slits all up her wrists, and a book filled of drawings of like Teddybears getting there heads ripped of or killing stuff and etc. It creeps me out alot. Especially when she explains how she cuts herself or how she like found a rat, killed it and then did something with its blood. and she wrote a whole poem about death in hr own blood. I seriously almost threw up the day I found out about all that shit

If she's that messed up then shes probably not doing it for attention, she's actually fucked up and not just trying to fit in with the millions of emos that popped up around 2 years ago.

But this girl I know is the kind that slaps on some eyeliner and makes some tiny little scratches and calls it 'emo' just so she can fit in with a clique.

But that's not what pisses me off about this girl, what pisses me off is that I hate her (as most of the people in my school do) for cutting for attention and being immature and starting fights and not finishing them, instead getting her parents or the principal involved. I'm not scared of her or what she would do to me (I'm at least 4 inches taller than her and a great deal more mature and probably a lot smarter) but I can't talk shit to her because she'll go and tell her mommy or a teacher. AND even though me and about 3/4 of the people in the school hate her, MY friends think she's the coolest person ever.

I try to take the high road and not talk shit to her or about her but it's so fucking hard.

[Joeykat]

I want a breast reduction :sleep:

I'm fed up of being noticed for my chest and not my personality, when I walk into a room everyones first impression is my chest and not me. I hate male attention, especially in the street; when I get wolf whistled or chatted up (mainly it is because of my chest) I just want to crawl into a hole and get away as quickly as possible.

I hate my breasts. I really do :sleep: I do not have the confidence to carry them off. I was happy being a C but ever since I've been on the contraceptive pill (and I've only been on it for a year) I've shot up 5 cup sizes to a FF :sleep:

[Agent O]

I just want to crawl into a hole and get away as quickly as possible. I do not have the confidence to carry them off.

Don't give a rat's ass about what other people think. Don't give a crap about the whistles. Be proud of your breasts. Work on boosting your self-esteem. There's no point of going thru a painstaking surgery for nothing :hug:

[Messy Marj]

My boyfriend doesn't get that it's really hard fitting into another country where you don't understand a fucking thing, and all he thinks is that I am pissed at him. It's not always about you. Gah.

[Christopher]

My boyfriend doesn't get that it's really hard fitting into another country where you don't understand a fucking thing, and all he thinks is that I am pissed at him. It's not always about you. Gah.

I can imagine what you're going through, fitting in in France or even talking to people would be so hard for me.
But it'll all get better, you are after all a spontaneous Dutch girl. ;)

[Joeykat]

Don't give a rat's ass about what other people think. Don't give a crap about the whistles. Be proud of your breasts. Work on boosting your self-esteem. There's no point of going thru a painstaking surgery for nothing :hug:

:hug:

Thanks :)

[Messy Marj]

I can imagine what you're going through, fitting in in France or even talking to people would be so hard for me.
But it'll all get better, you are after all a spontaneous Dutch girl. ;)
You're sweet :hug:

Yeah, after an hour of silence he looked at me and I looked back, I said 'dork' and he smiled and we talked a little, so now it's alright. :)

[Christopher]

You're sweet :hug:

Yeah, after an hour of silence he looked at me and I looked back, I said 'dork' and he smiled and we talked a little, so now it's alright. :)

:hug: That's good to hear, everything will be fine now.

[Tom]

My pc actually died.

Windows would not even load.

so i wiped my Hard drive. (the only way i could get my pc back)

and lost nearly 300GB of files.

I had thousands of photos, estimated around 8000, and they are all gone, forever, past family members, a past friend no longer with me, plenty of both happy and sad moments more than i could remember...all gone.

I know this sounds weird, but loosing all of that was one of the most sad moment for me, because i had literally photod my entire life from the age of 8 to this very morning.

:(

[John]

i'm sure, she's the girl of my dreams. I need to have a class with her, please god make it happen!!!!

[androidkaita]

If she's that messed up then shes probably not doing it for attention, she's actually fucked up and not just trying to fit in with the millions of emos that popped up around 2 years ago.

But this girl I know is the kind that slaps on some eyeliner and makes some tiny little scratches and calls it 'emo' just so she can fit in with a clique.

But that's not what pisses me off about this girl, what pisses me off is that I hate her (as most of the people in my school do) for cutting for attention and being immature and starting fights and not finishing them, instead getting her parents or the principal involved. I'm not scared of her or what she would do to me (I'm at least 4 inches taller than her and a great deal more mature and probably a lot smarter) but I can't talk shit to her because she'll go and tell her mommy or a teacher. AND even though me and about 3/4 of the people in the school hate her, MY friends think she's the coolest person ever.

I try to take the high road and not talk shit to her or about her but it's so fucking hard.

Yeah I know shes not doing it for attention, thats what scares me. My friends reported her to the counceller, I dont know if shes gotten better or anything, I dont usually talk to her (my friends who reported her are her friends too). It makes me feel sick thinking about it. Like, how can you do that to yourself? Seriously! And another weird hting is that she dosnt look emo at all, no makeup, no nothing (well I got to a school with uniforms and stuff, but still). It seems like the ones who dont look "emo" and actually are, are the really messed up ones.

[Daniel]

I'm going to fucking kill him.

[Arlene]

I'm going to fucking kill him.

:hug:

[Messy Marj]

My pc actually died.

Windows would not even load.

so i wiped my Hard drive. (the only way i could get my pc back)

and lost nearly 300GB of files.

I had thousands of photos, estimated around 8000, and they are all gone, forever, past family members, a past friend no longer with me, plenty of both happy and sad moments more than i could remember...all gone.

I know this sounds weird, but loosing all of that was one of the most sad moment for me, because i had literally photod my entire life from the age of 8 to this very morning.

:(
:hug:

I maybe know a little of what you mean. Back in Holland I have alot of pictures on my computer too, but since I live here I can't go and just randomly look at them. I could send them all to myself, but it would be way too much.

[Tomi]

So, my dad was doing delivery's for Pizzaway last night, and he got in a car crash -- in a fucking smart car. Apparently it was at an intersection and a woman didn't stop. Some ribs are broken, I heard, and he won't be able to walk for a while.

I don't know what to say now.

[Christopher]

So, my dad was doing delivery's for Pizzaway last night, and he got in a car crash -- in a fucking smart car. Apparently it was at an intersection and a woman didn't stop. Some ribs are broken, I heard, and he won't be able to walk for a while.

I don't know what to say now.

That sucks to hear, man. I hope he'll be okay very soon.

[Rachel]

i get out of high school in four and a half days [three if you dont count monday, where i will be coming from] and i'm only 16. i don't have my license, i barely use my permit, and i don't know shit about shit.

i'm moving to salem and im bloody petrified.

i don't think i'm ready to grow up yet.

[Harlz]

Aaargh! damn this flu to hell! I hate being sick, my footy teams out playing our biggest rivals and I'm stuck at home! Faaark!

[Louis]

I always considered something like this happening, but I always shrugged the thought off. It seems like after a couple of years of doing so, this thought may come to be.

My father yelled at my mother last night about how it's her fault that my brother and I became involved in music. He told her that my brother didn't get into an Ivy League college because of her, and that just about everything that went wrong with that was her fault. He said that he would leave to go to Cyprus in 10 years. It made my mom cry and she was still crying today. She's worried that they may get a divorce and that if he leaves she won't be able to hold her own and support for us.

Our dad is our main support for money. He makes more money than my mother does with his job, and the trips he takes for his job earn him more money. If he decides to retire soon and go to Cyprus, this isn't good news for my mother.

It's not my mother's fault that John and I got involved in music. We wanted to get involved and we enjoy it very much so. It's not her fault that John didn't get into the Ivy League schools. If he didn't want us to get involved in music, he should have intervened when we were getting into it. Fucking bastard.

I hate my dad for this. I'm sick of him. We had such a nice breakfast this morning, he and I, and he fucking ruined my day because of this. I'm sick of him. I'm sick of the bullshit he says. I'm sick of the yelling, the frustration, the crying, the hypocrisy. I can't deal with this anymore. I don't want my parents to divorce. I don't want this to happen to me.

And on top all of this, my feelings for this girl still hurt me. Seeing my friends in relationships makes me jealous. I hate feeling this way. I hate it. I don't want to deal with this anymore.

I can't hold my own anymore. I can't. I'm struggling and I keep coming up short. And my parents' situation is not helping.

I can't do this anymore.

[John]

I always considered something like this happening, but I always shrugged the thought off. It seems like after a couple of years of doing so, this thought may come to be.

My father yelled at my mother last night about how it's her fault that my brother and I became involved in music. He told her that my brother didn't get into an Ivy League college because of her, and that just about everything that went wrong with that was her fault. He said that he would leave to go to Cyprus in 10 years. It made my mom cry and she was still crying today. She's worried that they may get a divorce and that if he leaves she won't be able to hold her own and support for us.

Our dad is our main support for money. He makes more money than my mother does with his job, and the trips he takes for his job earn him more money. If he decides to retire soon and go to Cyprus, this isn't good news for my mother.

It's not my mother's fault that John and I got involved in music. We wanted to get involved and we enjoy it very much so. It's not her fault that John didn't get into the Ivy League schools. If he didn't want us to get involved in music, he should have intervened when we were getting into it. Fucking bastard.

I hate my dad for this. I'm sick of him. We had such a nice breakfast this morning, he and I, and he fucking ruined my day because of this. I'm sick of him. I'm sick of the bullshit he says. I'm sick of the yelling, the frustration, the crying, the hypocrisy. I can't deal with this anymore. I don't want my parents to divorce. I don't want this to happen to me.

And on top all of this, my feelings for this girl still hurt me. Seeing my friends in relationships makes me jealous. I hate feeling this way. I hate it. I don't want to deal with this anymore.

I can't hold my own anymore. I can't. I'm struggling and I keep coming up short. And my parents' situation is not helping.

I can't do this anymore.

Hang in there man, things will get better just have faith
do whatever u want in life don't let anyone deciide for you because it's your future and not theirs, and about the divorce it must be tough but remember that there are people in worse situations than u, my father is fucking dead and i won't see him again ever, divorced or not at least u will still have him.

[Louis]

Hang in there man, things will get better just have faith
do whatever u want in life don't let anyone deciide for you because it's your future and not theirs, and about the divorce it must be tough but remember that there are people in worse situations like u, my father is fucking dead and i won't see him again ever, divorced or not at least u will still have him.

Thanks, man. And I want to apologize about the whole argument thing in the NBA Playoffs thread. I'm just really pissed that the Suns lost and I've had a bad past couple of weeks. Forgive me for my bitterness.

[John]

Thanks, man. And I want to apologize about the whole argument thing in the NBA Playoffs thread. I'm just really pissed that the Suns lost and I've had a bad past couple of weeks. Forgive me for my bitterness.

it's ok
that's what i thought, i also got pissed when my team got eliminated.

[Harlz]

*sighs*

[Linja]

Fucking bastard.

I hate my dad for this. I'm sick of him. We had such a nice breakfast this morning, he and I, and he fucking ruined my day because of this. I'm sick of him. I'm sick of the bullshit he says. I'm sick of the yelling, the frustration, the crying, the hypocrisy. I can't deal with this anymore. I don't want my parents to divorce. I don't want this to happen to me.

:cry:

I have my own rant on that very topic today.

I hate no one. I dislike things, but people: that's a whole different ball game. I like to remain neutral, but sometimes I want to hate him, so bad. Days start out well, and end up terrible, because of him. I actually said I hate him today. I feel bad about it. The way they talk when they're not fighting is a facade, and I hate how he's so negative. I made myself feel better by thinking that he'd get what he deserves, but I don't want anything bad to happen, he is, after all, family, so it got me all upset again. Damn this.

[Christopher]

:cry:

I have my own rant on that very topic today.

I hate no one. I dislike things, but people: that's a whole different ball game. I like to remain neutral, but sometimes I want to hate him, so bad. Days start out well, and end up terrible, because of him. I actually said I hate him today. I feel bad about it. The way they talk when they're not fighting is a facade, and I hate how he's so negative. I made myself feel better by thinking that he'd get what he deserves, but I don't want anything bad to happen, he is, after all, family, so it got me all upset again. Damn this.

Ooh, Mali. :hug: I can't say I know what you're going through because I don't, but it'll all work out in the end, I know that much.

[Messy Marj]

I think everyone on here needs a hug :)

:hug:

[John]

I think everyone on here needs a hug :)

:hug:

yeah we do.

[Snail]

*insert endless mutterings of profanity etc.

[Joeykat]

I need a hug :(

I thought I had one more assignment off my shoulders but oh no stupid picky teachers >.< we had to do a test plan, so i did one as to how we were taught at the beginning of the course (loads of detail etc) but oh no sally (teacher) tells me that it is all wrong -.- Needless to say I was in a bit of a hissy with her.

[...Lauren?]

I always considered something like this happening, but I always shrugged the thought off. It seems like after a couple of years of doing so, this thought may come to be.

My father yelled at my mother last night about how it's her fault that my brother and I became involved in music. He told her that my brother didn't get into an Ivy League college because of her, and that just about everything that went wrong with that was her fault. He said that he would leave to go to Cyprus in 10 years. It made my mom cry and she was still crying today. She's worried that they may get a divorce and that if he leaves she won't be able to hold her own and support for us.

Our dad is our main support for money. He makes more money than my mother does with his job, and the trips he takes for his job earn him more money. If he decides to retire soon and go to Cyprus, this isn't good news for my mother.

It's not my mother's fault that John and I got involved in music. We wanted to get involved and we enjoy it very much so. It's not her fault that John didn't get into the Ivy League schools. If he didn't want us to get involved in music, he should have intervened when we were getting into it. Fucking bastard.

I hate my dad for this. I'm sick of him. We had such a nice breakfast this morning, he and I, and he fucking ruined my day because of this. I'm sick of him. I'm sick of the bullshit he says. I'm sick of the yelling, the frustration, the crying, the hypocrisy. I can't deal with this anymore. I don't want my parents to divorce. I don't want this to happen to me.

And on top all of this, my feelings for this girl still hurt me. Seeing my friends in relationships makes me jealous. I hate feeling this way. I hate it. I don't want to deal with this anymore.

I can't hold my own anymore. I can't. I'm struggling and I keep coming up short. And my parents' situation is not helping.

I can't do this anymore.

:hug:

Oh, I know exactly what you are going through.

My parents fought a lot (my dad was extremely violent) and they were at the point where they probably would've gotten a divorce but then my dad died of a heart attack.

And my mother has been psycho now since he died, except now it's me and my sisters she's arguing with constantly.

And I know how you feel about the girl (except about a guy of course). I hate it when I see people I know in relationships, or I see people at the movies or whatever together. I mean, I'm happy for them, but I wish I could have what they have.

[Joeykat]

I went to bed at 10.30ish lastnight, don't know what time I actually fell asleep but I'm guessing it was around 2ish, I have to wake up at 6ish for college and all because I had the sensaton that I was going to be sick. I still have the feeling and it's irriataing, I may throw up on the bus journey to college because the drivers drive like loonies -.-

[John]

I went to bed at 10.30ish lastnight, don't know what time I actually fell asleep but I'm guessing it was around 2ish, I have to wake up at 6ish for college and all because I had the sensaton that I was going to be sick. I still have the feeling and it's irriataing, I may throw up on the bus journey to college because the drivers drive like loonies -.-

i wish u could sleep more.

[Joeykat]

I wish I could get more sleep too -.-

[John]

I wish I could get more sleep too -.-

do i have to keep sending u nudges!??! hahaha

[Joeykat]

If you want to, don't mind :)

[Harlz]

I hate it when I see people I know in relationships, or I see people at the movies or whatever together. I mean, I'm happy for them, but I wish I could have what they have.

And I find it creepy when I see someone else feeling exactly the same way as me. And so many people I know are in relationships right now.

Odd thing is, I'm the opposite to everyone else with the whole divorce thing, I think my parents should get divorced, they're both miserable and its obvious theres no love between them.

[+ / –]

Who I am.

I fuck up. I'm stupid.

I don't know who I am.

But I plan to learn.

What I wrote was wrong. I realized that.

I wrote it because I was mad.

It's natural to me.

But it hurts those around me.

So I'm going to stop it.

I apologize to those who were affected.

They say that holes in your personality will fuck you up.

Guess they do.

Anyways, who I am.

I'm analyzing myself and seeing what's inside. See what's wrong with me and try to improve on it.

And here's what I got so far. It isn't biased, it's just what I feel inside.:

I have low self-esteem. I try to compensate by being what my friends want me to be.

But that's not who I am.

I don't talk. It's not me. I look inside and I'm quiet. Reserved. I'm socially inept.

I try to be funny but it's only to see my friends laugh. It's not who I am. It's what I do to get the result I desire.

I like my friends being happy. I wish the best for everyone.

I don't think about myself that much.

That's unhealthy. I know it is. It manifests itself into bulletins like the last one I posted.

I'm not balanced.

I enjoy what I can't do and I hate what I can.

I have needs to be accepted. I don't listen to criticism well. That needs to change. I should know that I'm already accepted and not worry about it.

Criticism is my downfall. In my sense of self-loathing I usually accept what's said as true. This works in some senses but when it's trash-talk I take it as true as well. I stopped eating vegetables as a kid because I was made fun of it. I still have problems with it.

I need to learn to brush it all off. I also need to learn to take it right. I have messages that are waiting to be read and I won't do it. That's wrong.

In my mind I'm an idealist. I always know the right option to take. In reality it's a different story. I have pride. Too much of it. I need to accept that while I may think I have everything under control, I don't. I need help but I won't take it.

I'm a socially deprived creature. I'm a child in a sense. I'm very obsessive.

I tell myself I don't think about myself that much but I always do. I'm selfish at heart. I lie a lot. I don't know why. Maybe it ties into my need to be accepted.

I'm a pessimist at heart.

I have a tendency to not tell others my problems for fear of them worrying. I also have a fear of confrontation.

I don't look at the positive side of life very often.

I'm clingy.

I yearn for validity of the things I'm good at.

I need to think about things I'm good at.

I enjoy art. I like writing poetry. That stems from my pessimistic side. I guess it's cathartic in that I can transfer my inner rage into words. Oh I get angry easily. I have anger problems.

I like taking pictures. I like photoshop.

I'm a nerd at heart who tries to be cool. Again it's all in trying to be accepted.

I enjoy music. There's always something new and exciting to discover.

I'm a hopelessly idealistic person. I know the movies don't accurately reflect real life but I wish every day that it does.

I believe in God but I don't know how to express it.

I'm hopelessly lazy. I'm problematic. I'm a procrastinator.

I love kids.

I unconsciously and consciously emulate others.

I eat because I feel inadequate.

I follow the crowd. I'm not a leader.

I express myself better in writing.

I don't exactly know myself. I don't think I ever have.

I would act one way with one person and another way with another.

When I hate, I HATE. I'm an angry person. I think bad things when I'm mad. I get sadistic satisfaction in thinking about ways I could hurt others. I get sadistic satisfaction when I'm fucked.

I run away a lot. I don't have a way of coping with problems.

I like singing even though I'm not good at it.

That's all I have so far.

I need more introspective time.

[Dr. Faust]

That sounds a lot like me.

[Christopher]

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the things I'm going to type here next and it may seem selfish to others or maybe sad, but it's just a problem I have and I just want to get it out of me...

Everyone around is me finding someone (girlfriends, boyfriends everywhere) and I've been wondering why I don't. I said this before in this topic, but I've got something I have to add to it.
I think it's rather sad of myself to be jealous of other people's love and imagine what it be like...

I've never had someone like they have, and I'm seriously doubting I ever will if I don't change.
I've gotten close a couple of times, but they always seem to back of when you do get close.

So here's what my problem is:

I want to find someone, but I don't want to force it and just hook up with someone random to have someone... that would never work out.
I need to find someone I can connect with, someone who gets me and obviously no one does over here.
I think the main problem is that I don't like the lame Dutch bullshit you seem to have to say to a girl (over here) so she likes you... they don't seem to get what I talk about, because it's mostly American (or at least English-based) stuff: bands, tv-shows, movies, games, art, even humour,... and that really pisses me off. Everything Dutch seems so cheesy to me.
Ever since I went to America on holiday I've felt a little American and by logging in on this site almost everyday, I can actually express myself (in English).
Also, I only seem to like girls that are way out of my league, I just don't want someone "less". >_<

Well, there you have it. I'm fucking born in the wrong place...

[Messy Marj]

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the things I'm going to type here next and it may seem selfish to others or maybe sad, but it's just a problem I have and I just want to get it out of me...

Everyone around is me finding someone (girlfriends, boyfriends everywhere) and I've been wondering why I don't. I said this before in this topic, but I've got something I have to add to it.
I think it's rather sad of myself to be jealous of other people's love and imagine what it be like...

I've never had someone like they have, and I'm seriously doubting I ever will if I don't change.
I've gotten close a couple of times, but they always seem to back of when you do get close.

So here's what my problem is:

I want to find someone, but I don't want to force it and just hook up with someone random to have someone... that would never work out.
I need to find someone I can connect with, someone who gets me and obviously no one does over here.
I think the main problem is that I don't like the lame Dutch bullshit you seem to have to say to a girl (over here) so she likes you... they don't seem to get what I talk about, because it's mostly American (or at least English-based) stuff: bands, tv-shows, movies, games, art, even humour,... and that really pisses me off. Everything Dutch seems so cheesy to me.
Ever since I went to America on holiday I've felt a little American and by logging in on this site almost everyday, I can actually express myself (in English).
Also, I only seem to like girls that are way out of my league, I just don't want someone "less". >_<

Well, there you have it. I'm fucking born in the wrong place...
What I'm about to say sounds a bit lame, but I really do believe in the following; I really think alot of people make the same mistake, they want to find someone...And then there's their mistake, you can't just find someone who fits really well with you. I believe that it will come on your way, maybe not now but later, plus, you're young and it's not like you're turning 30 tomorrow right?
You're right about the just hooking up thing, but what is better is making new friends and if you like that someone special alot you could always take a step forward and become more closer, before you're totally stuck in the friends zone thing.
And ofcourse you can't have someone who likes exactly all the things you like, if that would be the case the relationship is just dull. You can learn her the things you like though, maybe she wouldn't like it, but atleast then she knows what you're talking about.

I know I don't really make a point with this, but that's because I'm the opposite of you in this, I can't express myself well in english, I hope I helped you a little though, I guess the moral of my story is, relax because you're still young and I understand you would want a girlfriend aswell, but it's better to first know a girl a bit better before you take a step forward but meanwhile don't hang in the friends - zone for too long. Eh, yeah.

[Christopher]

What I'm about to say sounds a bit lame, but I really do believe in the following; I really think alot of people make the same mistake, they want to find someone...And then there's their mistake, you can't just find someone who fits really well with you. I believe that it will come on your way, maybe not now but later, plus, you're young and it's not like you're turning 30 tomorrow right?
You're right about the just hooking up thing, but what is better is making new friends and if you like that someone special alot you could always take a step forward and become more closer, before you're totally stuck in the friends zone thing.
And ofcourse you can't have someone who likes exactly all the things you like, if that would be the case the relationship is just dull. You can learn her the things you like though, maybe she wouldn't like it, but atleast then she knows what you're talking about.

I know I don't really make a point with this, but that's because I'm the opposite of you in this, I can't express myself well in english, I hope I helped you a little though, I guess the moral of my story is, relax because you're still young and I understand you would want a girlfriend aswell, but it's better to first know a girl a bit better before you take a step forward but meanwhile don't hang in the friends - zone for too long. Eh, yeah.

Thanks a lot, Marj, that actually really helped. :hug:

All you say is obviously true, it's just that watching everyone around me hook up and act all tough to girls and that stuff... XD I just think it's lame what they do and the worst part is that it actually works too.
But I really do have to find some people who actually understand what I talk about...

[Messy Marj]

:hug: I'm glad I helped a little.

[Linja]

*blinks, looks around, and gives everyone a very, very, very, very big hug*

[Christopher]

*blinks, looks around, and gives everyone a very, very, very, very big hug*

:hug: (is a hug of at least the same size as yours-

[Tom]

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the things I'm going to type here next and it may seem selfish to others or maybe sad, but it's just a problem I have and I just want to get it out of me...

Everyone around is me finding someone (girlfriends, boyfriends everywhere) and I've been wondering why I don't. I said this before in this topic, but I've got something I have to add to it.
I think it's rather sad of myself to be jealous of other people's love and imagine what it be like...

I've never had someone like they have, and I'm seriously doubting I ever will if I don't change.
I've gotten close a couple of times, but they always seem to back of when you do get close.

So here's what my problem is:

I want to find someone, but I don't want to force it and just hook up with someone random to have someone... that would never work out.
I need to find someone I can connect with, someone who gets me and obviously no one does over here.
I think the main problem is that I don't like the lame Dutch bullshit you seem to have to say to a girl (over here) so she likes you... they don't seem to get what I talk about, because it's mostly American (or at least English-based) stuff: bands, tv-shows, movies, games, art, even humour,... and that really pisses me off. Everything Dutch seems so cheesy to me.
Ever since I went to America on holiday I've felt a little American and by logging in on this site almost everyday, I can actually express myself (in English).
Also, I only seem to like girls that are way out of my league, I just don't want someone "less". >_<

Well, there you have it. I'm fucking born in the wrong place...

You should come over to England and we could work on those 'hitting techs' :lol:
Or you could come and stay over at my place in England?
Making you want to stay in Belgium? :P

But seriously, you will find the right girl for you, just have to be patient.
I know this sounds cheesy, but some cheesy lines and stuff do work you just have to get to know them really.
'Way out of you league' pshh, you can get any girl (provided it's not a celeb or whatever :P) you just have to try to get them, rather than admit defeat and fall down at hurdle one, ask them out to a movie or something, just be honest and you might get a shot with them. Basically just get the courage to ask them out really.

I know this sounds cheesy, but i thought it was appropriate:

I believe in you, Grasshopper.

[Christopher]

You should come over to England and we could work on those 'hitting techs' :lol:
Or you could come and stay over at my place in England?
Making you want to stay in Belgium? :P

But seriously, you will find the right girl for you, just have to be patient.
I know this sounds cheesy, but some cheesy lines and stuff do work you just have to get to know them really.
'Way out of you league' pshh, you can get any girl (provided it's not a celeb or whatever :P) you just have to try to get them, rather than admit defeat and fall down at hurdle one, ask them out to a movie or something, just be honest and you might get a shot with them. Basically just get the courage to ask them out really.

I know this sounds cheesy, but i thought it was appropriate:

I believe in you, St0f.

Thanks, man. Yeah, I bet that's all true and we'll just have to see about coming to England... XD

Also, you should've changed my name to Grasshopper in that last sentence. :P

[Tom]

Thanks, man. Yeah, I bet that's all true and we'll just have to see about coming to England... XD

Also, you should've changed my name to Grasshopper in that last sentence. :P

So it is written, so it shall be done!

You know you want to come to England :P

[Christopher]

So it is written, so it shall be done!

You know you want to come to England :P

:lol: You know I won't, though... I might be coming over to England sometime, but probably when I'm 18+ or so.

[Tomi]

So perhaps I got half my life fixed after moving, but one half still remains as it was. -_-

[Linja]

I don't know..

[Agent O]

*Sighs* Here we go again. Time to face the challenge ahead... A' Level is staring straight into my eyes.

[F-ck Casey]

I graduate tomorrow. In a few months time, I'll be 18.

Am I supposed to be this scared?

[John]

I graduate tomorrow. In a few months time, I'll be 18.

Am I supposed to be this scared?

yes, but it goes away, don't worry.

[Louis]

Any suggestions on how to get over a girl?

[Friskey™]

Any suggestions on how to get over a girl?

Simple. Remove all ties with the person. It seems to be the best way. The risk is if it'll work or not.

[Louis]

Simple. Remove all ties with the person. It seems to be the best way. The risk is if it'll work or not.

It's hard to do that when she's one of my closest friends.

[mcpancakes]

It's hard to do that when she's one of my closest friends.

I know of a situation just like that. one of my friends likes this girl who's also one of his best friends and she just found out he likes her. haven't heard how it's played out yet.

[Friskey™]

It's hard to do that when she's one of my closest friends.

Trust me, I know...that's what I did.

[Harlz]

Trust me, I know...that's what I did.

Its what I've been doing for two years, and its not working for me. ;)

[Tom]

I might be getting back together with her!

*Happy dance*

[Harlz]

Eargh, I pretty much need her right now. *sigh*

[brokenLP]

gosh so much is going on
school is done in 4 days
i graduate in 12 days
i turn 18 in like 10 days
my boyfriend moves in a month from today
he's going to be 18 hours away
I'm scared of what is to come between me and him
I'm worried about the future.
I was supposed to go see Breaking Benjamin, Three Days Grace and Red tonight
But that obviously got ruined last night.
I just don't know what to do anymore.

[Zak]

My girlfriend and I just broke up. I'm an emotional wreck right now. It's really bad. We were really serious. She promised me she'd always be with me. She made me trust her and then turned around and shot me in the face. Sex complicates things for me. Now she's talking about having sex with someone else just to piss me off, because she knows I don't want her with anyone other than me. It's terrible. I feel really bad.

[Rachel]

im surviving pretty well so far, but im just in shock right now. im gonna be a wreck.

[Linja]

:hug: Rachelbaby, and Zak, and broken.

[+ / –]

Who I am.

I fuck up. I'm stupid.

I don't know who I am.

But I plan to learn.

What I wrote was wrong. I realized that.

I wrote it because I was mad.

It's natural to me.

But it hurts those around me.

So I'm going to stop it.

I apologize to those who were affected.

They say that holes in your personality will fuck you up.

Guess they do.

Anyways, who I am.

I'm analyzing myself and seeing what's inside. See what's wrong with me and try to improve on it.

And here's what I got so far. It isn't biased, it's just what I feel inside.:

I have low self-esteem. I try to compensate by being what my friends want me to be.

But that's not who I am.

I don't talk. It's not me. I look inside and I'm quiet. Reserved. I'm socially inept.

I try to be funny but it's only to see my friends laugh. It's not who I am. It's what I do to get the result I desire.

I like my friends being happy. I wish the best for everyone.

I don't think about myself that much.

That's unhealthy. I know it is. It manifests itself into bulletins like the last one I posted.

I'm not balanced.

I enjoy what I can't do and I hate what I can.

I have needs to be accepted. I don't listen to criticism well. That needs to change. I should know that I'm already accepted and not worry about it.

Criticism is my downfall. In my sense of self-loathing I usually accept what's said as true. This works in some senses but when it's trash-talk I take it as true as well. I stopped eating vegetables as a kid because I was made fun of it. I still have problems with it.

I need to learn to brush it all off. I also need to learn to take it right. I have messages that are waiting to be read and I won't do it. That's wrong.

In my mind I'm an idealist. I always know the right option to take. In reality it's a different story. I have pride. Too much of it. I need to accept that while I may think I have everything under control, I don't. I need help but I won't take it.

I'm a socially deprived creature. I'm a child in a sense. I'm very obsessive.

I tell myself I don't think about myself that much but I always do. I'm selfish at heart. I lie a lot. I don't know why. Maybe it ties into my need to be accepted.

I'm a pessimist at heart.

I have a tendency to not tell others my problems for fear of them worrying. I also have a fear of confrontation.

I don't look at the positive side of life very often.

I'm clingy.

I yearn for validity of the things I'm good at.

I need to think about things I'm good at.

I enjoy art. I like writing poetry. That stems from my pessimistic side. I guess it's cathartic in that I can transfer my inner rage into words. Oh I get angry easily. I have anger problems.

I like taking pictures. I like photoshop.

I'm a nerd at heart who tries to be cool. Again it's all in trying to be accepted.

I enjoy music. There's always something new and exciting to discover.

I'm a hopelessly idealistic person. I know the movies don't accurately reflect real life but I wish every day that it does.

I believe in God but I don't know how to express it.

I'm hopelessly lazy. I'm problematic. I'm a procrastinator.

I love kids.

I unconsciously and consciously emulate others.

I eat because I feel inadequate.

I follow the crowd. I'm not a leader.

I express myself better in writing.

I don't exactly know myself. I don't think I ever have.

I would act one way with one person and another way with another.

When I hate, I HATE. I'm an angry person. I think bad things when I'm mad. I get sadistic satisfaction in thinking about ways I could hurt others. I get sadistic satisfaction when I'm fucked.

I run away a lot. I don't have a way of coping with problems.

I like singing even though I'm not good at it.

That's all I have so far.

I need more introspective time.

I don't remember writing this. But it's all true.

I'm isolating myself from my friends in order to find some semblance of my own self somewhere. I hurt them, and they may have forgiven me, but I haven't forgiven myself.

I need resolution.

I need to find out who the hell I am.

[Luke]

Wow...the army has really turned my friend, whom I considered to be like a brother, into a complete intolerante and racist asshole.

[Arlene]

Wow, I don't talk to any of you, but I regularly read the forums, and I just read through a bunch of these, and I just want to send a bunch of huge hugs out to everyone who feels they could use one. :hug::hug::hug::hug:

[Luke]

Wow, I don't talk to any of you, but I regularly read the forums, and I just read through a bunch of these, and I just want to send a bunch of huge hugs out to everyone who feels they could use one. :hug::hug::hug::hug:

I could use a beer, got any of those? :lol:

[Arlene]

I could use a beer, got any of those? :lol:

Lol there are a few in the fridge actually. :lol: But off limits for me, haha, you know the whole under age drinking thing :D

[Luke]

Lol there are a few in the fridge actually. :lol: But off limits for me, haha, you know the whole under age drinking thing :D

Yeah I do, happens usually every weekend. :lol:

[Arlene]

Yeah I do, happens usually every weekend. :lol:

I do what I can, but my parents are like...hovering...haha

[Harlz]

I just wrote a huge long rant in here, but it sounded way to immature, so I pressed Control+A, then backspace...

I think it'll suffice to say, Why can't I think of anything but her? I can't even get any refuge when I'm asleep, 'cos I just dream about her.
fuck

[Andrea]

My dad is such a heartless bastard. God. It's like he resents my brother and I because we have real good paying jobs at a much younger age than he did. Way to be supportive! :rolleyes:

[John]

[QUOTE='[HARLZ];657319']I just wrote a huge long rant in here, but it sounded way to immatureQUOTE]

hey, we are here to help and listen to each other. You can write whatever you want.

[Christopher]

So there's a guy with the same name and, apparently, nickname in her MSNname, who apparently is awesome... does she do this to make me feel bad?

[John]

So there's a guy with the same name and, apparently, nickname in her MSNname, who apparently is awesome... does she do this to make me feel bad?

most likely, she wants u to think about her. well there is 1% that maybe she isn't doing it on purpose but i can't really say since i don't know your history.

[Christopher]

most likely, she wants u to think about her. well there is 1% that maybe she isn't doing it on purpose but i can't really say since i don't know your history.

It's the 1%, mate. ;)

[The One And Only....]

fuck all of the fuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just thought i'd say that to get it out of me...i've had a horrible day at school and with teachers and finals....and my parents and family aren't helping. so ya.....

[Dr. Faust]

I'm pissed.

[Chris.]

My Chemical Romance has just pulled their last straw with me, as a fan. I've been a fan for about 4 years now and I've attended 6 shows here of theirs and met them 3 times a LONG time ago. They've turned into this joke band that really just tries to be as big as they can possibly be. The Black Parade is a solid album, I'll give them that, but they are NOT the band they used to be and do not treat the fans how they used to. It seems as though all the fans who have stuck with the band since the beginning (or before Three Cheers) have been left out in the cold and they don't even fucking care. Not to mention they try to say that The Black Parade is a concept album when its really not. If people knew the band, they'd know it's just Gerard's life story and they're lying to the fans calling it a concept record when the relation to Gerard's life is just so apparent.

The teenagers video has really set me off. Yes, its just a video, but it is NOT them. Seriously, a performance dressed up as an assembly in a high school where they get attacked on stage? Great concept guys. I don't know what the hell happened to this band but I think it's quite obvious that the fame has gone to their heads. I don't know if I'm even interested in watching them at Projekt Revolution.

[Andrea]

This past Monday was 1 month since my grandmother passed away. My mom got the phone bill yesterday and wondered why it was so high. She looked at it and saw a lot of April 28th calls, which was when my grandmother died. Seeing April 28th on the phone bill really set my mom off into a depression, especially seeing the first phone call on that date. There is always something to bring back that date and it's really hard to put it behind me and to go on living my life. Ever since then my mom hasn't been the same. She doesn't want to do anything and doesn't sleep well at all. I just wish there was something I could do. There really isn't except continuing to be the strong one and to comfort her through this whole ordeal but I always feel it's never enough or it's not helping. :(

[Agent O]

http://img267.imageshack.us/img267/9245/thelogolr0.jpg

I've seen this logo popping up in several websites and I'm just glad that a lotta people like it. I take it as an encouragement. Thank you.

[Linja]

This past Monday was 1 month since my grandmother passed away. My mom got the phone bill yesterday and wondered why it was so high. She looked at it and saw a lot of April 28th calls, which was when my grandmother died. Seeing April 28th on the phone bill really set my mom off into a depression, especially seeing the first phone call on that date. There is always something to bring back that date and it's really hard to put it behind me and to go on living my life. Ever since then my mom hasn't been the same. She doesn't want to do anything and doesn't sleep well at all. I just wish there was something I could do. There really isn't except continuing to be the strong one and to comfort her through this whole ordeal but I always feel it's never enough or it's not helping. :(

Oh, Andrea:hug:

[Andrea]

Oh, Andrea:hug:

Thank you. <333 :hug:

[John]

Oh, Andrea:hug:


Thank you. <333 :hug:

:D

[brokenLP]

Well.
He's leaving soon and it just doesn't feel real. It's like i'm dreaming he's not leaving but in reality he is and there's nothing I can do to keep him here. It's like I did something wrong and life is taking him away. It sucks. The worst part is I think we're going to seperate. We aren't deciding anything yet but I just know that we are going to let go for now. We were emailing and this is one thing that was said..."I love you Alicia no matter what happens, and if we do choose to seperate im sure someday our fates would again intertwine if it was meant to be"
But on another note
2 days left of high school! I'm so glad to get out of this place.
I have a final next hour that I didn't study for. I suppose I should.

[Joeykat]

I can't get into an assignment completing mood -.-

[Derek The Infamous]

This past Monday was 1 month since my grandmother passed away. My mom got the phone bill yesterday and wondered why it was so high. She looked at it and saw a lot of April 28th calls, which was when my grandmother died. Seeing April 28th on the phone bill really set my mom off into a depression, especially seeing the first phone call on that date. There is always something to bring back that date and it's really hard to put it behind me and to go on living my life. Ever since then my mom hasn't been the same. She doesn't want to do anything and doesn't sleep well at all. I just wish there was something I could do. There really isn't except continuing to be the strong one and to comfort her through this whole ordeal but I always feel it's never enough or it's not helping. :(

While I am aware it might seem like nothing you can do for her really matters, I want you to believe that it means a lot more to her than you may think. By buying you those John Mayer tickets as a thank you for being there, it's already clear that what you've done for her has made an impact. Unfortunately because this involves her mother, your mom is going to be in and out of depression for the next couple of months, and you just gotta keep doing what you've been doing and hope she eventually finds a way to be happy again.

You're a great kid for sticking by her side and this whole thing will only help to bring you all closer than you were before. Hang in there kiddo. :hug:

[Seinfeld]

I had a big fight with my mom again...it's not that I'm the only one to fight with his parents. But ever since dad moved to the states, it keeps getting harder to be with her. Yesterday she started yelling at me, cuz I didn't fully agree with her on when a person is fully grown. I told her that I believe that no-one's ever really grown up...and she took that to mean that I was saying she was childish and stuff like that. She sent me to my room, cuz I refused to apologize for yelling back at her. (It's always hard for me to apologize for something I don't feel sorry for...Kinda got that from her) A few minutes later she came down and told me I better apologize or I'm grounded. I told her she could ground me...that I didn't mind. And she bitchslapped me for it. I started shouting at her and the neighbours started taking a peek at what was going on...which was about when my mom ran out the door and left for her boyfriends house....I just fell to my knees, slammed my head against the door 3-4 times and started crying...I know I was lying there for about 3 hours yelling and crying that I wish I could be any other way cuz I knew what time it was when she left and what time it was when I finally got back up...Then I went into the bathroom cuz I was feeling sick...spent the next hour their glaring at my reflection in the mirror. threw up, passed out and woke up on the couch next morning...yeah...so basically this morning. I still feel kinda...weird...I'm ashamed that I spent 3 hours crying and wishing I were something else. Still can't really look at myself in the mirror...I try to avoid it.

[Chris.]

This past Monday was 1 month since my grandmother passed away. My mom got the phone bill yesterday and wondered why it was so high. She looked at it and saw a lot of April 28th calls, which was when my grandmother died. Seeing April 28th on the phone bill really set my mom off into a depression, especially seeing the first phone call on that date. There is always something to bring back that date and it's really hard to put it behind me and to go on living my life. Ever since then my mom hasn't been the same. She doesn't want to do anything and doesn't sleep well at all. I just wish there was something I could do. There really isn't except continuing to be the strong one and to comfort her through this whole ordeal but I always feel it's never enough or it's not helping. :(

I know how you feel, because my grandpa passed away and for awhile, my mom was depressed too. She was never happy and didn't want to do anything anymore. I didn't really know what to do either, but I was there for her and she seems to be getting better but my grandpa's birthday is tomorrow, so I know it's going to be a rough time for my family. It's bad when it's how you feel but when it's someone as close to you as your parents and you have to sit there and watch because you can't really do anything, it's the worst.

[Linja]

:hug: for Doc.

--

Okay, I quarrelled with my mother. I'm currently not speaking to my da right now, so this isn't cool. I want some damn pancakes. I need to make myeslf feel better.

[Seinfeld]

:hug: for Doc.

--

Okay, I quarrelled with my mother. I'm currently not speaking to my da right now, so this isn't cool. I want some damn pancakes. I need to make myeslf feel better.

*gives pancakes*

Parents can be a real pain...

[Harlz]

This past Monday was 1 month since my grandmother passed away. My mom got the phone bill yesterday and wondered why it was so high. She looked at it and saw a lot of April 28th calls, which was when my grandmother died. Seeing April 28th on the phone bill really set my mom off into a depression, especially seeing the first phone call on that date. There is always something to bring back that date and it's really hard to put it behind me and to go on living my life. Ever since then my mom hasn't been the same. She doesn't want to do anything and doesn't sleep well at all. I just wish there was something I could do. There really isn't except continuing to be the strong one and to comfort her through this whole ordeal but I always feel it's never enough or it's not helping. :(

I went through the exact same thing about 5 months ago. And right now it may not seem like you'll ever move on, I know for me it was almost impossible to see how my mum, or myself for that matter, could move on and recover from what happened. But eventually you will, it gets easier with time.

And by the sounds of things, you're doing a great job by supporting your mum, thered nothing more anyone could possibly ask or expect of you.

Keep it up, and good on you for being strong. :)

[Dr. Faust]

I stopped trying to believe anything. Life is just so fucked and everyone is so dishonest towards me as of late.

[Whimsicality]

My lying cheating bastard ex boyfriend needs to goddamned stop being cute.

[Fox]

My lying cheating bastard ex boyfriend needs to goddamned stop being cute.

I feel you...

:hug:

[Dr. Faust]

Ive got that with my ex-girlfriend, but we had a clean breakup(that is, after one day of her freaking out at me).

[Messy Marj]

I want to tell my mom I love her, but I don't know how. :unsure:

[Tom]

I love her so much I'm getting flutterness in my chest.

[The One And Only....]

This past Monday was 1 month since my grandmother passed away. My mom got the phone bill yesterday and wondered why it was so high. She looked at it and saw a lot of April 28th calls, which was when my grandmother died. Seeing April 28th on the phone bill really set my mom off into a depression, especially seeing the first phone call on that date. There is always something to bring back that date and it's really hard to put it behind me and to go on living my life. Ever since then my mom hasn't been the same. She doesn't want to do anything and doesn't sleep well at all. I just wish there was something I could do. There really isn't except continuing to be the strong one and to comfort her through this whole ordeal but I always feel it's never enough or it's not helping. :(

i know it is hard to let go of a loved one and see the after affects. my aunt died of cancer a while back. she struggled for 5yrs with it. and it just pulled our family closer, but when she died, we all drifted away from each other. my mom was depressed all the time and so was I. the only thing i can say to you is that you will eventually accept that she is gone and learn how fucked up life is and everyone dies eventually. just think you will hopefully see her in the afterlife, just count on that. i don't have much advice for you except to keep doing what you are doing and don't give up. there isn't much you can say when someone dies, it is just something that heals over time. much love for you in these hard times.....:(:blush:

[Dr. Faust]

I need to get some better excuses.

[Arlene]

I had a big fight with my mom again...it's not that I'm the only one to fight with his parents. But ever since dad moved to the states, it keeps getting harder to be with her. Yesterday she started yelling at me, cuz I didn't fully agree with her on when a person is fully grown. I told her that I believe that no-one's ever really grown up...and she took that to mean that I was saying she was childish and stuff like that. She sent me to my room, cuz I refused to apologize for yelling back at her. (It's always hard for me to apologize for something I don't feel sorry for...Kinda got that from her) A few minutes later she came down and told me I better apologize or I'm grounded. I told her she could ground me...that I didn't mind. And she bitchslapped me for it. I started shouting at her and the neighbours started taking a peek at what was going on...which was about when my mom ran out the door and left for her boyfriends house....I just fell to my knees, slammed my head against the door 3-4 times and started crying...I know I was lying there for about 3 hours yelling and crying that I wish I could be any other way cuz I knew what time it was when she left and what time it was when I finally got back up...Then I went into the bathroom cuz I was feeling sick...spent the next hour their glaring at my reflection in the mirror. threw up, passed out and woke up on the couch next morning...yeah...so basically this morning. I still feel kinda...weird...I'm ashamed that I spent 3 hours crying and wishing I were something else. Still can't really look at myself in the mirror...I try to avoid it.


I know you posted this a few days ago, but I was just reading back in posts and I saw yours and i just wanted to offer you a hug and my condolences. Fighting with parents/parents fighting is the worst and is so hard to deal with. And no, don't be ashamed for crying, it's normal and everyone does it...I mean that sounds kinda lame but it's true. I guess I want to say, good luck, I guess, and I don't know you, but don't be ashamed of who you are. :hug:

[androidkaita]

On my youtube, a guy that I know from school posted a comment on my profile that I cannot repeat, but it scares me. I just hope that somebody got his password, and that its not actually him posting that shit. His profile description scares me because its not just some random guy who got his password, its somebody who knows him. That is, if somebody even did steal his pass, if not, that means its actually him, and thats even scarier.

[Arashi]

See here, I have some problems.

I broke up with my boyfriend some where in Feb and after that we became really close friends. But then we had a fight (of a sort) and then I tried for both of us to get on friendly terms again, and he did for a little while and now we completely ignore each other.
And I may still like him. While he sort of really hates me. Why wouldn’t he? I’m the girl who broke his heart.

Then one of my “best” friends got really close to him. And some of my friends don’t talk to him much after what happened between us two, but they both cling to each other. And, I am a bit jealous. I am so jealous that I left for my place when he tried her glasses on and had a good laugh with her. It just bugs me, but my friend Sila said “Aisha, he’s doesn’t care about you anymore and it’s high time you should too”.
But I can’t, not yet. And it’s unfair because back then when we were together he really really liked me, but I never gave him a chance. It’s too late now.

Secondly, I find myself completely over with religion. I don’t want to pray. I really don’t care. And maybe I’ll become religious sometime, just not now. I know religion is good and all. But, I’m a bit agnostic now. Maybe just a little bit.


And I don’t think I will get great marks in my papers I’ve just given. Everyone said “Wasn’t the paper just awesome? I had so much fun doing it!” and I just say “yeah… it was great”.
No, not really. Not really at all.


So my life kind of sucks.

[John]

See here, I have some problems.

I broke up with my boyfriend some where in Feb and after that we became really close friends. But then we had a fight (of a sort) and then I tried for both of us to get on friendly terms again, and he did for a little while and now we completely ignore each other.
And I may still like him. While he sort of really hates me. Why wouldn’t he? I’m the girl who broke his heart.

Then one of my “best” friends got really close to him. And some of my friends don’t talk to him much after what happened between us two, but they both cling to each other. And, I am a bit jealous. I am so jealous that I left for my place when he tried her glasses on and had a good laugh with her. It just bugs me, but my friend Sila said “Aisha, he’s doesn’t care about you anymore and it’s high time you should too”.
But I can’t, not yet. And it’s unfair because back then when we were together he really really liked me, but I never gave him a chance. It’s too late now.

Secondly, I find myself completely over with religion. I don’t want to pray. I really don’t care. And maybe I’ll become religious sometime, just not now. I know religion is good and all. But, I’m a bit agnostic now. Maybe just a little bit.


And I don’t think I will get great marks in my papers I’ve just given. Everyone said “Wasn’t the paper just awesome? I had so much fun doing it!” and I just say “yeah… it was great”.
No, not really. Not really at all.


So my life kind of sucks.

Well here's what i think if you still like him then you should fight for him to the end, try to talk to him and see what happens maybe he's ignoring you because sometimes we do that to try and heal our hearts but that doesn't mean that he doesn't have any feelings for you. I guess maybe he's spending too much time with your friend just to stop thinking about you or something the thing is you will never know if you'll get another chance with him if you don't try.When your friend told you that he doesn't care maybe he lied to her about that or maybe it's the truth. maybe he doesn't care about you at all if thats the case then you should forget about him as well because there's no point of fighting for him if he doesn't want anything, good luck Aisha :)

[androidkaita]

On my youtube, a guy that I know from school posted a comment on my profile that I cannot repeat, but it scares me. I just hope that somebody got his password, and that its not actually him posting that shit. His profile description scares me because its not just some random guy who got his password, its somebody who knows him. That is, if somebody even did steal his pass, if not, that means its actually him, and thats even scarier.

it was my friend screwing around. lol i guess.

[+ / –]

Just got back from a 'date' to see Knocked Up...

I'm feeling elated.

[Linja]

I don't like her. She's so manipulative.

[Daniel]

....

Ah fuck it.

>_<

[Arlene]

....

Ah fuck it.

>_<

? :hug:

[Jennster]

I hate him. Will I ever be his friend again? Uh. No.

[Evan™]

the last time i had so much free time to actually be competative in RT was the last time my life went down the toilet and i think its happening again...its the same every holiday season....i must be the only person on here who hates holidays...

[Messy Marj]

the last time i had so much free time to actually be competative in RT was the last time my life went down the toilet and i think its happening again...its the same every holiday season....i must be the only person on here who hates holidays...
I don't like holidays either. I always want to be busy cause I'm impatient.
But why do you think your life is going down the toilet?


At this moment I'm a little afraid, and I miss my home in Holland so so much. I'm afraid that I'm gonna fail miserably with the language, work and the social stuff. People here are a bit selfish...when i ask them to talk a bit slower, they do talk slower...for 10 seconds and then it's jsfkdhkuiry, in my ears it sounds like a really long word. I'm ripped between my own country and my boyfriend. When I go back to Holland, it hurts because I can't see him everyday. If I stay here it hurts aswell. I hate trying to fit in, I hate it so much.

[Linja]

I don't like holidays either. I always want to be busy cause I'm impatient.
But why do you think your life is going down the toilet?


At this moment I'm a little afraid, and I miss my home in Holland so so much. I'm afraid that I'm gonna fail miserably with the language, work and the social stuff. People here are a bit selfish...when i ask them to talk a bit slower, they do talk slower...for 10 seconds and then it's jsfkdhkuiry, in my ears it sounds like a really long word. I'm ripped between my own country and my boyfriend. When I go back to Holland, it hurts because I can't see him everyday. If I stay here it hurts aswell. I hate trying to fit in, I hate it so much.

I get you, minus the boyfriend thing :hug::hug:

[Messy Marj]

I get you, minus the boyfriend thing :hug::hug:

:hug: you're sweet <3

[Gitsnik]

Are those sheeps dutch? ^^

[Messy Marj]

Are those sheeps dutch? ^^
Aren't you posting in the wrong thread? :P

[Arlene]

ACK I'm such a BITCH! *headdesk*

[Evan™]

I don't like holidays either. I always want to be busy cause I'm impatient.
But why do you think your life is going down the toilet?


well...firstly the people i usually hang out with at school are the first people i dont want to hang out with outside school coz i see them everyday and to be completely honest i think i see too much of them and im kinda tired of them....i would rather much hang out with my "drinking" buddies but most of them are out of town and then theres this girl i really wanna hang out with (must be her weirdness) but i can tell she's getting kinda annoyed at me for talking to her (i think)....and yeah so pretty much the same thing as last year when i spent most of the holidays doing nothing except rotting away in front of the computer....gasp......


as for your situation...well...the borders not very far take a day trip to Switzerland or Belgium...they speak Dutch there more frequently i believe...

[Tomi]

Why do just about all the jazz band kids despise concert band? It's not making sense to me, really.

Tonight's concert performance was just pathetic. For concert, the jazz bands are merged into the concert band [which I'm in -- it's all of about 25 people]. I don't get why there's no love. They seem to not even care about it. I mean, sure, they signed up for jazz, and they'd rather play that [I'm somewhat in that boat, yet in the other boat (fact that I'm actually in concert band too) too], but you should at least make a strong effort to learn the music. Jazz is just half the equation to playing good music. Concert is of equal value.

*sigh* It bothers me so much, for some reason. It's rather annoying when they fuck up the most simplest thing -- beginning of Pirates 2, it's in 3/4 with a 4/4 bar 5 measures in. Nearly the whole band [remember, there's about 25 that are actually in concert, so we're only a quarter or so] missed the 4/4 and treated it as a 3/4. To make matters worse, the measures consist of only a quarter note on the 1st beat, the rest of the bar is rest. HOW DO YOU FUCK THAT UP?! Even the bassists messed it up [5 of us, only 2 (myself and Sara) actually got it]. So damn simple.

Concert should have been a mandatory course to take jazz band, and there should be auditions for jazz band. Works so much better like that - I mean, just look at my old schools.

Whatever. I guess you just can't win with everyone. I want to try to make a difference next year.

[Harlz]

Im so sick and tired of being used by girls. Are they ever honest, about anything? I honestly don't know that any of my female friends give a shit about me, unless of course they want advice on some guy who is like "OMG so, like, hawt."

[Joeykat]

;662972']Im so sick and tired of being used by girls. Are they ever honest, about anything? I honestly don't know that any of my female friends give a shit about me, unless of course they want advice on some guy who is like "OMG so, like, hawt."

It the same for both sexes, sometimes girls feeled used by boys and boys can feel used can girls. It really depends on who you hang out with because everyone is different. I admit that I have been hurt by guys and I do find it hard to trust men because of it but try to generalise the whole sex ;)

:hug: << Because you obviously feel down and need one

[Harlz]

Yay hug :hug:

And yea, your right, that post was one huge generalisation, hope I didn't offend anyone. Sorry.

[Messy Marj]

well...firstly the people i usually hang out with at school are the first people i dont want to hang out with outside school coz i see them everyday and to be completely honest i think i see too much of them and im kinda tired of them....i would rather much hang out with my "drinking" buddies but most of them are out of town and then theres this girl i really wanna hang out with (must be her weirdness) but i can tell she's getting kinda annoyed at me for talking to her (i think)....and yeah so pretty much the same thing as last year when i spent most of the holidays doing nothing except rotting away in front of the computer....gasp......


as for your situation...well...the borders not very far take a day trip to Switzerland or Belgium...they speak Dutch there more frequently i believe...
Uhmm..your situation sounds a bit hard indeed, but I do think you could prevent sitting in front of the computer all day long. Isn't there anyone that you really like (except for this girl)? Maybe you could go out somewhere fun, like a park with rollercoasters or something (I don't know the word in english for this kind of park hehe)? And if you like art, why not going to a museum, you could also do this alone. I'm sure that if you look around on the internet you'll find something interesting that's close from you. About this girl...why don't you just give her hints that you like her alot and you would like to take her somewhere? It's not so scary. :)


What you said about Belgium is right, they do talk the same language..but it's still not Holland lol, ohwell, I think I'll be going in a few months again. I think I miss my mom, my oldest sister and my cat the most..

[Tom]

Well, I'm in love with a clumsy girl >_<

All of the following happened today when she came over:
Fell on the stairs
Fell down the stairs repeatedly
Burnt her hand, but she says she doesn't feel a thing..
whacked her head over and over again when she turned around to talk to me.
When she went to kiss me she leant to far forward and fell over..
And i had to walk her home cause i was frightened she would get hit by a car, numerous times on the way home >_<

Oh my...

[Friskey™]

Well, I'm in love with a clumsy girl >_<

All of the following happened today when she came over:
Fell on the stairs
Fell down the stairs repeatedly
Burnt her hand, but she says she doesn't feel a thing..
whacked her head over and over again when she turned around to talk to me.
When she went to kiss me she leant to far forward and fell over..
And i had to walk her home cause i was frightened she would get hit by a car, numerous times on the way home >_<

Oh my...

Buy her a bubble for her birthday. :lol:

[Disenchanted]

Bleh. Just...bleh.

[Friskey™]

Bleh. Just...bleh.

Have a hug, my love :hug:

[Arlene]

Well, I'm in love with a clumsy girl >_<

All of the following happened today when she came over:
Fell on the stairs
Fell down the stairs repeatedly
Burnt her hand, but she says she doesn't feel a thing..
whacked her head over and over again when she turned around to talk to me.
When she went to kiss me she leant to far forward and fell over..
And i had to walk her home cause i was frightened she would get hit by a car, numerous times on the way home >_<

Oh my...

Tom, that is adorable. Probably kind of frustrating, but truly adorable, :lol:

[Arashi]

Well, I'm in love with a clumsy girl >_<

All of the following happened today when she came over:
Fell on the stairs
Fell down the stairs repeatedly
Burnt her hand, but she says she doesn't feel a thing..
whacked her head over and over again when she turned around to talk to me.
When she went to kiss me she leant to far forward and fell over..
And i had to walk her home cause i was frightened she would get hit by a car, numerous times on the way home >_<

Oh my...

Maybe she's clumsy because she really likes you and doesn't know how to "relax" in front of you.
She sounds cute though, I've been in her position before.

I felt stupid, so never laugh at her.


Well here's what i think if you still like him then you should fight for him to the end, try to talk to him and see what happens maybe he's ignoring you because sometimes we do that to try and heal our hearts but that doesn't mean that he doesn't have any feelings for you. I guess maybe he's spending too much time with your friend just to stop thinking about you or something the thing is you will never know if you'll get another chance with him if you don't try.When your friend told you that he doesn't care maybe he lied to her about that or maybe it's the truth. maybe he doesn't care about you at all if thats the case then you should forget about him as well because there's no point of fighting for him if he doesn't want anything, good luck Aisha :)

Thanks for the advice :).

But maybe it should stay this way.

[Evan™]

Uhmm..your situation sounds a bit hard indeed, but I do think you could prevent sitting in front of the computer all day long. Isn't there anyone that you really like (except for this girl)? Maybe you could go out somewhere fun, like a park with rollercoasters or something (I don't know the word in english for this kind of park hehe)? And if you like art, why not going to a museum, you could also do this alone. I'm sure that if you look around on the internet you'll find something interesting that's close from you. About this girl...why don't you just give her hints that you like her alot and you would like to take her somewhere? It's not so scary. :)


What you said about Belgium is right, they do talk the same language..but it's still not Holland lol, ohwell, I think I'll be going in a few months again. I think I miss my mom, my oldest sister and my cat the most..

haha i would like to go out but by myself its just really awkward you know? but yeah i should ask her out but im frightened as hell as how she would look at me in the future...

anyways...honestly take a day trip to Calais it would do you an awesome amount of good...

[Fox]

Well, I'm in love with a clumsy girl >_<

All of the following happened today when she came over:
Fell on the stairs
Fell down the stairs repeatedly
Burnt her hand, but she says she doesn't feel a thing..
whacked her head over and over again when she turned around to talk to me.
When she went to kiss me she leant to far forward and fell over..
And i had to walk her home cause i was frightened she would get hit by a car, numerous times on the way home >_<

Oh my...

Tom, you are lucky 'cuz she sounds adorable even tho' she keeps having accidents ^_^

I've been there before and it's basically because she gets nervous around you. She wants to show you how much you mean to her but doesn't know how to, so she gets nervous and doesn't relax and that's why she keeps messing up.


Cute ^_^

[Tom]

Buy her a bubble for her birthday. :lol:

I was considering that :lol:


Tom, that is adorable. Probably kind of frustrating, but truly adorable, :lol:

Not as frustrating as shocking :lol:


Maybe she's clumsy because she really likes you and doesn't know how to "relax" in front of you.
She sounds cute though, I've been in her position before.

I felt stupid, so never laugh at her.


Nah i don't like laughing at people, besides there is no time, because i have my shocked face on every 4 seconds when she does something :lol:


Tom, you are lucky 'cuz she sounds adorable even tho' she keeps having accidents ^_^

I've been there before and it's basically because she gets nervous around you. She wants to show you how much you mean to her but doesn't know how to, so she gets nervous and doesn't relax and that's why she keeps messing up.


Cute ^_^


Yeah it is cute, but i'm really scared for her cause she keeps hurting herself >_<



Well she's coming over at lunchtime today, so I'm gonna have to brace myself lol

[Christopher]

Well, I'm in love with a clumsy girl >_<

All of the following happened today when she came over:
Fell on the stairs
Fell down the stairs repeatedly
Burnt her hand, but she says she doesn't feel a thing..
whacked her head over and over again when she turned around to talk to me.
When she went to kiss me she leant to far forward and fell over..
And i had to walk her home cause i was frightened she would get hit by a car, numerous times on the way home >_<

Oh my...

:lol: Haha, that reminds me of the My Half Acre episode of Scrubs, you know, with Mandy Moore.

[Luke]

Fuck this, I just realised I'm falling for my best mate's ex who he still like loves. Damn it.

[Dr. Faust]

I just went to my good friend's birthday, but he didn't invite two of my older friends (who I think are jack-asses, but but I want to be polite to them), which I think is okay, and I would probably do if I didn't know them for so long. But I'm not allowed to tell them, so I've gotta lie to them until they stop asking. At which point I thought 'I really want to stop being around them, because they are both arrogant pricks' but it's not that easy.

FUCK.

[Christopher]

Fuck this, I just realised I'm falling for my best mate's ex who he still like loves. Damn it.

I've been there, man... but it'll turn out alright, just be honest.

[Harlz]

Fuck this, I just realised I'm falling for my best mate's ex who he still like loves. Damn it.

I've been in that situation. Except I was the best mate.
Don't worry too much man, if you guys are good mates he schould be able to understand, I did, and it worked out fine in the end, 'cos no one got the girl :lol:

[Disenchanted]

So...all my best friends are going away for the summer. I've got no idea of what I'm gonna do. At least I can comfort myself with the fact that one of them isn't going away until August.
Summer holidays kind of suck.

[Christopher]

So...all my best friends are going away for the summer. I've got no idea of what I'm gonna do. At least I can comfort myself with the fact that one of them isn't going away until August.
Summer holidays kind of suck.

:hug: I kind of have the same problem most people I hang out with are gone all summer.

[Disenchanted]

:hug: I kind of have the same problem most people I hang out with are gone all summer.

Thankies :hug:
Yeah, it does suck. =(

[Tom]

:hug: I kind of have the same problem most people I hang out with are gone all summer.

You hang out with people?! :O




:lol:

Yeah a lot of my friends are going away, but the gym is my real friend...... :lol:

And yeah now i think of it, she does remind me of that episode from scrubs, just try to picture her, but like 5x worse lol






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Well she came over Saturday lunchtime, but would anyone like to guess why i wasn't on LPA or at home on Sunday?

Well if you guessed that i was in hospital with her all day yesturday because she broke her ankle you guessed right (would have to be pretty good at guessing though..)

She managed to trip over thin air in my hallway and brake her ankle... she tried to walk on it, couldn't, then she started crying and so i phoned the ambulance, and off we went to hospital, and i sat with her for nearly 2 days straight (no sleep too >_<) and i've just gotten back now, and she's sleeping on my sofa lol, and so i'm gonna go join her and get some well needed sleep >_<

What a weekend, but God i love her.

[Fox]

Well she came over Saturday lunchtime, but would anyone like to guess why i wasn't on LPA or at home on Sunday?

Well if you guessed that i was in hospital with her all day yesturday because she broke her ankle you guessed right (would have to be pretty good at guessing though..)

She managed to trip over thin air in my hallway and brake her ankle... she tried to walk on it, couldn't, then she started crying and so i phoned the ambulance, and off we went to hospital, and i sat with her for nearly 2 days straight (no sleep too >_<) and i've just gotten back now, and she's sleeping on my sofa lol, and so i'm gonna go join her and get some well needed sleep >_<

What a weekend, but God i love her.


Actually, when you posted here, I knew you were going to say something about her... lol


I hope she feels better... ^_^, was it that bad??
and yeah, you deserve some sleep..


Poor thing, I'm so srry, I hope things get better with her...
:blush:


Aww Tom! :hug:

[Disenchanted]

I. Hate. My. Friends. They should all go FUCK themselves. Abandoning ME? FUCK YOU, BITCHES! *headwindow*
They don't understand that I'd never abandon them...NEVER. But then they go and do this to me?


My heart hurts.

[Fox]

I. Hate. My. Friends. They should all go FUCK themselves. Abandoning ME? FUCK YOU, BITCHES! *headwindow*
They don't understand that I'd never abandon them...NEVER. But then they go and do this to me?

JD are you ok?? :hug: :hug:

I'm srry to hear that...
but hey!, you always have the LPA *trying to cheer you up* ;)



:hug: :hug:

[Disenchanted]

JD are you ok?? :hug: :hug:

I'm srry to hear that...
but hey!, you always have the LPA *trying to cheer you up* ;)

:hug: :hug:

I'll be fine, thanks. :hug:

[Friskey™]

Something doesn't feel right. Something's not quite there.

Thing is, I can't put my finger on it. :ermm:

[Louis]

Why the fuck do I put myself through this? For what fucking reason? For what fucking reason am I doing this?

[Joeykat]

Aww man, just because our teacher (wetwipe) could not teach us properly and everyone failed his unit. We have a recovery session today 9-5. 8 hours to cram in one units worth of work and then a huge test. Great -.-

[Beca]

I hate everything :mad: I hate school, i hate myFUCKIN BROTHER. I hate me. I hate my friends. I hate this country.
I'm almost in tears now.

[Fear]

Yeah...so my ex is basically trying to tell me that she is going to kill herself to make me feel bad. She's just trying to get my attention, and I don't want to really talk to her, that's why she's my ex. I mean...how fucked up can someone be to basically threaten someone with suicide.

[Dr. Faust]

I think my ex - girlfriend just got fixed. Wow.

[Messy Marj]

I am very unhappy.

[Linja]

Why, sweetie?

[Messy Marj]

I'm living here now for a while and still it doesn't feel like I'm doing well with simply everything. I hate the place and I hate how the people here are always so hasty, selfish and impatient. I'm so afraid of everything what's still to come. It feels like throwing my life away. I'm crying alot when I'm alone and I also try to sleep loads and loads lately just so I forget that I'm living here. The only person here who's giving me a little hope is Maxime.