View Full Version : Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2
Arlene
06-27-2008, 12:24 PM
I really don't think I can trust guys anymore. I really went out on a limb when I got together with him. And this is where it got me.
What an ass hole. :cry:
Dean: He's just not who I thought he was. He does it as an ego thing, to prove that he can do it. It's sick.
Harlz
06-27-2008, 12:33 PM
He's a self obsessed wanker, and he doesn't deserve to have you even thinking about him.
It's probably best to have a little while to let it all out, then start trying to look forward.
Arlene
06-27-2008, 12:37 PM
Yeah, I know guys, thank you so much. At least I have work this weekend to distract me, hopefully. Although it's going to rain, which means that work might be cancelled.
Yeah, I know guys, thank you so much. At least I have work this weekend to distract me, hopefully. Although it's going to rain, which means that work might be cancelled.
Try not to beat yourself up over it. :hug:
Arlene
06-27-2008, 12:48 PM
And now I have crap to worry about like, did he give me std's? We never used protection, did he ever with anyone else? My mom is worried about that, she made an appt for me to get checked out. This isn't right.
Can you get yourself tested?
Arlene
06-27-2008, 12:52 PM
My mom made an appointment for me.
Fingers crossed, for whenever that is.
Wow, I guess I was wrong. Way wrong.
I'm so sorry to hear that, Arlene. :hug: You deserve better than to be treated that way, especially with how much time and caring you invested in that relationship. Apparently, he didn't care that he was throwing away something that great.
Wow, I guess I was wrong. Way wrong.
I'm so sorry to hear that, Arlene. :hug: You deserve better than to be treated that way, especially with how much time and caring you invested in that relationship. Apparently, he didn't care that he was throwing away something that great.
;) couldn't have said it any better.
I'm really, really sorry to hear about what happened, Arlene. I was keeping my fingers crossed for you, since it was pretty obvious how much you loved and cared about him. For him to just throw all of it out the window is the stupidest, most self-centered thing I've ever heard. He doesn't deserve you or anyone else if he's going to do shit like that.
I realize we don't talk much anymore but if you ever need to, I'm usually around. :hug:
Arlene
06-27-2008, 05:11 PM
Thank you everyone. :cry: He still hasn't contacted me. Ass hole.
Thank you everyone. :cry: He still hasn't contacted me. Ass hole.
Don't worry about him anymore, he doesn't deserve any of it.
i still can't believe he did this, people are truly evil.
Ryo Hazuki
06-27-2008, 05:17 PM
Never doubt your instincts. I did, and this is where I am now.
Lying and cheating, for a year. He's never been true.
WOW. That must really really really suck. Very sorry to hear that, I mean what an ass. :Hugs: You do deserve better than someone like that.
Misfit Jay
06-27-2008, 07:57 PM
I'm so fucking sick of not being heard, and over looked. I'm so sick of trying to tell people something, and then having them interrupt me or not pay any attention. I give everyone my respect, and attention. Fuck everyone. I'm done playing their fucking games.
freaking girl
i search for her almost daily and nothing ever seems to appear, i created a fake college myspace and added like 300 people in case she might appear, i even found a friend of hers and she doesnt have her on her list, then i found a guy that knows her, when to his friends and nothing, i give up. What else can i do?!
i'm convinced this girl lives in a freaking cave where no internet exist, how this girl doesn't appear on myspace or facebook or anything like that is beyond me.
freaking girl
i search for her almost daily and nothing ever seems to appear, i created a fake college myspace and added like 300 people in case she might appear, i even found a friend of hers and she doesnt have her on her list, then i found a guy that knows her, when to his friends and nothing, i give up. What else can i do?!
i'm convinced this girl lives in a freaking cave where no internet exist, how this girl doesn't appear on myspace or facebook or anything like that is beyond me.
You could get talking to her and ask if she has one.
You could get talking to her and ask if she has one.
i know man, but i have to wait until august and time doesn't move fast enough
arghhhhh
i know man, but i have to wait until august and time doesn't move fast enough
arghhhhh
Ah. Well, I guess you could try finding her then talk from there. Shame she doesn't seem to have an account anywhere though.
Ah. Well, I guess you could try finding her then talk from there. Shame she doesn't seem to have an account anywhere though.
yeah, but it's ok i just find it hard not to have anything until august, but i guess i just need a little more patience. August isn't that far away and when it gets here then i will talk to her :)
Arlene
06-28-2008, 01:12 AM
Now im just confused. Josh called me and he seems genuinely frustrated and trying to make me believe that what Joe is telling me is a lie. I just dont know what to think. I want to believe him so much because I love him but I cant put myself in that position. He needs to do something really amazing for me to believe him. But he just sounded so sincere. You're all going to be like "dude wtf" but like...I can tell that he sounded sincere but Im afraid all the while. I want to believe him so much because I love him, I love him so much.
And he's really trying at this point. *confusedheaddeskugh*
Now im just confused. Josh called me and he seems genuinely frustrated and trying to make me believe that what Joe is telling me is a lie. I just dont know what to think. I want to believe him so much because I love him but I cant put myself in that position. He needs to do something really amazing for me to believe him. But he just sounded so sincere. You're all going to be like "dude wtf" but like...I can tell that he sounded sincere but Im afraid all the while. I want to believe him so much because I love him, I love him so much.
And he's really trying at this point. *confusedheaddeskugh*
Let me get this straight, Joe told you all about what Josh was doing, but did he gave you any prove that Josh actually did all that? or what happened with Joe that you were so convinced that josh was never true and he was lying all along? Because how a person can be such a liar and then sounding so sincere as you are saying is beyond me.
Let me get this straight, Joe told you all about what Josh was doing, but did he gave you any prove that Josh actually did all that? or what happened with Joe that you were so convinced that josh was never true and he was lying all along? Because how a person can be such a liar and then sounding so sincere as you are saying is beyond me.
That's how liars work their magic.
That's how liars work their magic.
I know but man, how can people be like that? for example cry and beg to get back into a relationship while knowing deep inside that they don't care. (not talking about your case, arlene)
People are just so bad sometimes, idk. This world is fucked up :lol:
This world is fucked up :lol:
Tip of the iceberg I'd say.
I wish my friends would respond to me when I ask them really important questions.
Now im just confused. Josh called me and he seems genuinely frustrated and trying to make me believe that what Joe is telling me is a lie. I just dont know what to think. I want to believe him so much because I love him but I cant put myself in that position. He needs to do something really amazing for me to believe him. But he just sounded so sincere. You're all going to be like "dude wtf" but like...I can tell that he sounded sincere but Im afraid all the while. I want to believe him so much because I love him, I love him so much.
And he's really trying at this point. *confusedheaddeskugh*
I honestly don't know what to say. I wish it were some easy thing, where you could just go and ask Josh whether this really happened or not, and he'd tell you yes or no, and that would be it. But it's not gonna be that way, I don't think.
I'm really sorry to see you in this kind of situation, hon, and I know that you don't deserve this, no matter whether it's true or not. :hug:
Chris.
06-28-2008, 05:47 AM
Part of me is glad I actually followed through on something. I was genuinely interested in this girl I saw at work tonight and I slipped her my number/myspace to see if she was interested and now im waiting to see if she calls or adds me. The other part of me thinks ive already been rejected and fears the worst. So confused.
Part of me is glad I actually followed through on something. I was genuinely interested in this girl I saw at work tonight and I slipped her my number/myspace to see if she was interested and now im waiting to see if she calls or adds me. The other part of me thinks ive already been rejected and fears the worst. So confused.
You did your part and now you just have to wait, at least you had the guys to do it. if she doesn't reply or anything don't be mad or sad just remember that not eevrybody likes everybody, no big deal.
If she does replies then you're gonna be happy because she maybe wants something with you and that's good, the important thing for you is that you did something at least and if she doesn't say anything, don't take it personally.
Chris.
06-28-2008, 05:55 AM
Yeah I know what you mean. Thats why I did it. I figured I might as well try and fuck was it hard to actually gather the courage to try it. Ive never done it before and it was awkward as hell :lol:
Arlene
06-28-2008, 10:31 AM
I believed Joe because he has no reason to lie to me, and it's just possible for him to cheat on my easily. A few weeks back he did have a few day old hickey on his neck and he told me some story, I didn't believe the story but I wanted to believe him. I knew that they had had a house party and whatnot so I figured maybe something happened when he was drunk that he didn't mean for it to. I'm just afraid he's a compulsive liar. As I said, he really needs to go out of his way to prove it to me that I'm worth his time. Because him just telling me that he's telling the truth isn't enough for me. It should be, but after all this, it's not. But he sounded genuinely frustrated, trying to make me understand. He said to me, "Have your siblings ever done something, and then you were blamed for it and there was NOTHING you could do to make anyone believe you?" I was like, no, but I understood what he meant.
The thing with Joe, he has no reason to lie to me and he's always been very friendly with me. But I was thinking about it and he does tend to get mad and then exaggerate. Even so, but why would he take it out on me?
So now I'm thinking of both sides and I think "well what if it IS true" adn then I think of all the things Josh did for me, that if he just wanted me as a toy on the side, he didn't need to do. And he didn't need to do those things to get me in bed, either. I had a thing for him forever. But like, he went to my awful ballet recitals, took me on a picnic, pushed to meet my parents and for me to meet his parents and for our parents to meet and like each other, and he always came over to hang out with my family, and he made us dinner, and whenever my feet hurt from ballet he would give me a foot massage even though he has the hugest thing against feet.
So now, I'm thinking about all these things, and I'm still confused. *sigh*
Lord Johnny: He did cry, a few weeks ago. Now, I NEED him to cry and beg and grovel on his goddamn knees. I need something more than "I love you and I'm being honest with you."
Iain: Thank you dear. :( I'm not really sad anymore, just confused as hell.
Thank you everyone for being there. I seriously have more and better friends on here than in real life. :hug:
Sylar: That's good that you took that little step out of your boundaries. Kudos to you. :) Even if she doesn't call, you tried, right?
Dr. Octogonapus
06-28-2008, 12:21 PM
To anyone with the security of knowing they'll always have a stable family and a roof over their head...I hope you're fucking greatful.
11:54
06-28-2008, 01:32 PM
I believed Joe because he has no reason to lie to me, and it's just possible for him to cheat on my easily. A few weeks back he did have a few day old hickey on his neck and he told me some story, I didn't believe the story but I wanted to believe him. I knew that they had had a house party and whatnot so I figured maybe something happened when he was drunk that he didn't mean for it to. I'm just afraid he's a compulsive liar. As I said, he really needs to go out of his way to prove it to me that I'm worth his time. Because him just telling me that he's telling the truth isn't enough for me. It should be, but after all this, it's not. But he sounded genuinely frustrated, trying to make me understand. He said to me, "Have your siblings ever done something, and then you were blamed for it and there was NOTHING you could do to make anyone believe you?" I was like, no, but I understood what he meant.
The thing with Joe, he has no reason to lie to me and he's always been very friendly with me. But I was thinking about it and he does tend to get mad and then exaggerate. Even so, but why would he take it out on me?
So now I'm thinking of both sides and I think "well what if it IS true" adn then I think of all the things Josh did for me, that if he just wanted me as a toy on the side, he didn't need to do. And he didn't need to do those things to get me in bed, either. I had a thing for him forever. But like, he went to my awful ballet recitals, took me on a picnic, pushed to meet my parents and for me to meet his parents and for our parents to meet and like each other, and he always came over to hang out with my family, and he made us dinner, and whenever my feet hurt from ballet he would give me a foot massage even though he has the hugest thing against feet.
So now, I'm thinking about all these things, and I'm still confused. *sigh*
Lord Johnny: He did cry, a few weeks ago. Now, I NEED him to cry and beg and grovel on his goddamn knees. I need something more than "I love you and I'm being honest with you."
Iain: Thank you dear. :( I'm not really sad anymore, just confused as hell.
Thank you everyone for being there. I seriously have more and better friends on here than in real life. :hug:
Sylar: That's good that you took that little step out of your boundaries. Kudos to you. :) Even if she doesn't call, you tried, right?
It's evident someone is lieing to you, and you should really find out who it is (easier said than done, I know). I'm just as confused as you are. You mentioned how he did all of those things for you, but then is supposedly messing around. You said you found a hickey on him and a girls necklace and some other items in his room, but didn't say anything about it to avoid confrontation. And like you said, Joe has no reason to be making shit up. I don't know the guy, obviously, but even I can see he has nothing to gain from it unless he's secretly madly in love with you, which is unlikely.
I dunno, in my opinion Josh has a problem. Like I told you earlier, maybe he needs other girls to fill that void when you guys aren't together since you guys don't see one another for weeks at a time. In my opinion, this is the route that I'm (personally) leaning towards. There are people out there that feel like they need sex all the time. Does it make it right if he possibly cheated on you? No, of course not. In fact, it's totally unecceptable.
I wish you the best of luck, dear. You are a true sweetheart. And I know I've said it before, but any true guy would be lucky to have someone like you. I hope you find out the real truth and make the right choice in what you do from here.
:)
Timothy
06-28-2008, 01:55 PM
That's how liars work their magic.
Exactly.
Compulsive liars can be very manipulative. I've seen it time and time again... you catch them in a lie, and they'll do pretty much anything to weasel their way out of it. Crying, getting down on their hands and knees, swearing on their dead parents grave, etc. Nothing is sacred, really.
I know you want to believe him, Arlene, but it seems like he has a mountain of evidence against him. I understand you love him and this is a very painful experience, but it's better in the long run to put your foot down and show that you deserve to be treated better.
I know I'm a bit late at this, but I'm sorry you're going through all of this bullshit. :hug:
Chris.
06-28-2008, 10:55 PM
Thanks for the support Arlene. :-) I dont really know what to tell you about what you are going through because I havent been in that kind of situation but it does sound to me like hes just lying to you.
Arlene
06-29-2008, 02:37 AM
I appreciate everyones consoling words and bits of advice. I really do. :hug:
Right now, I still don't know. I need something more for me to be sure. I need him to come to me, go out of his way and do something amazing, ride to my house on a goddamn horse and grovel on his knees and beg me to believe him. I need something like that to be sure. Or incriminating photos to prove the other way. My heart is telling me to believe him, and I want to so, so bad. I love him with everything that I am, I just can't bear this. I just can't stand it.
I hate this feeling of not being sure. That's why I like simple math in school. For example, the answer is 7, and this is why. I solved this here, and now you can see without a doubt that the answer is 7. That's what I need. Something to point out to me and prove to me.
Edit: Oh, also, just like something I noticed. In all situations, Josh always has a story or explanation to go with something. I asked him why Joe would be telling me these things and he simple said "I don't know, I really don't know why he's doing this." It seems like he could easily say something like they got in a fight and Joe is taking it out on the thing that matters to him. Like, this is more of a, I-know-Josh sorta thing, because there's ALWAYS a story/explanation and it's interesting that he didnt even try to make up a reason for why Joe would say that. Maybe overanalyzing, but...why didnt he try making up a story, if he's the liar Joe is trying to make him seem?
Questions upon more questions. Fuck this, I quit. ([/end Dane Cook reference]
Speed Freak
06-29-2008, 03:33 PM
i passed evry damn subject 1 with an A...except bloody math..:cry:
Ryo Hazuki
06-29-2008, 06:01 PM
So apparently I've been MEGA hacked. And some jackass on my s/n is being rude and pretending to be my mother. :(
F-ck Casey
06-29-2008, 08:15 PM
Yeah, so one of my friends died last night, along with his fiance, a 15 year old girl and another girl I didn't know. We weren't best friends, but we talked alot when I saw him online on MySpace, and he was my only friend in the math class I had him in.
They were mudding (if you don't know, it's where you basically take an off-road truck and just drive in mud) and apparently they got stuck in a mudhole. I guess Josh called someone to come pull him out (there's alot of kids around here that suit up their trucks specially for pulling people out of mudholes) and there was something wrong with his exhaust pipe, and I guess apparently they died in Josh's truck of carbon monoxide inhalation, waiting for someone to come pull them out.
rest in peace, buddy. i barely got to know you. atleast you're up in that big gig in the sky with the girl you loved.
So apparently I've been MEGA hacked. And some jackass on my s/n is being rude and pretending to be my mother. :(
Those 4chan fuckers.
Yeah, so one of my friends died last night, along with his fiance, a 15 year old girl and another girl I didn't know. We weren't best friends, but we talked alot when I saw him online on MySpace, and he was my only friend in the math class I had him in.
They were mudding (if you don't know, it's where you basically take an off-road truck and just drive in mud) and apparently they got stuck in a mudhole. I guess Josh called someone to come pull him out (there's alot of kids around here that suit up their trucks specially for pulling people out of mudholes) and there was something wrong with his exhaust pipe, and I guess apparently they died in Josh's truck of carbon monoxide inhalation, waiting for someone to come pull them out.
rest in peace, buddy. i barely got to know you. atleast you're up in that big gig in the sky with the girl you loved.
I'm sorry to hear that, Casey. That's a sad way to go, especially at a young age. :hug:
Ryo Hazuki
06-29-2008, 09:24 PM
Wow, I'm extremely sorry to hear that Casey, It's completely awful.
Those 4chan fuckers.
I doubt it was people on 4Chan. I don't go there really. lol. It's weird because the people were explaining to me how the person acted, and well it described my mom pretty well, but I don't know how that could be because she was gone, and is still gone and hasn't been home sense, and the only way she could have known my passwords is if she has recording programs on my computer that makes logs, which she has no fucking right to do, since I'm 20 and well to put it simply it's not really her business. It was my yahoo, my aim, and my msn that this suppose person has "hacked" but.. if it's what I'm thinking then, even though I changed my passwords it won't help, and neither will getting new addresses.
I'm happier than I've ever been in my life.
11:54
06-30-2008, 09:00 AM
Finally!
Penny
06-30-2008, 09:48 AM
:hmm: I might give the national exams again next year...
Messy Marj
06-30-2008, 11:18 AM
Yeah, so one of my friends died last night, along with his fiance, a 15 year old girl and another girl I didn't know. We weren't best friends, but we talked alot when I saw him online on MySpace, and he was my only friend in the math class I had him in.
They were mudding (if you don't know, it's where you basically take an off-road truck and just drive in mud) and apparently they got stuck in a mudhole. I guess Josh called someone to come pull him out (there's alot of kids around here that suit up their trucks specially for pulling people out of mudholes) and there was something wrong with his exhaust pipe, and I guess apparently they died in Josh's truck of carbon monoxide inhalation, waiting for someone to come pull them out.
rest in peace, buddy. i barely got to know you. atleast you're up in that big gig in the sky with the girl you loved.
I'm sorry to hear that Casey. May he rest in peace. :( :hug:
Arlene, I don't know what to say. I just hope you'll get an honest answer eventually. :hug:
I feel overwhelmed over all this guilt..
Theazninvasion68
06-30-2008, 03:21 PM
I feel overwhelmed over all this guilt..
:hug:
explain, maybe it'd help take it off your shoulders?
:hug:
explain, maybe it'd help take it off your shoulders?
It's stupid.
My friends Anna and Sara.. they have this huge thing about me taking medicine. I take ADD medicine, and they're natural medicine freaks. So they don't like that I take it.
At one point I was taking Adderall, and I didn't realize it but it was making me have random bad mood swings and without knowing it I would sometimes say something mean or bad to my friend Sara. She got offended, and told me that if I wanted to stay friends with her I had to stop taking it because it was altering my moods too much. So I stopped, but without it I could barely concentrate in school, I slept all the time, and my attention span was crap. So I started a new ADD medicine and specifically asked for one that didn't give me mood swings. I decided not to tell Sara or Anna I was taking it.
Recently Anna came over, and decided to trick me into to saying I still took Adderall. This was out conversation:
Anna: "Hey, do you have any Adderrall left over?"
Me: "Why?"
Anna: "I was just wondering if I could like.. have one.."
Me: "No. You don't wanna take that Anna."
Anna: "Why?"
Me: "Because it messes you up. Trust me. And besides, Sara would kill me."
Anna: "So you still have some then though?"
Me: "Yeah I do, my parents keep all the medicines we have whether we take them or not."
Anna: "Why?"
Me: "I dunno, they just do."
It was bothering me how persistent she was being, so I asked her about it later and she said she only asked all of that because she wanted to know if I was still taking it. So she tried to trick me. I told her I felt like I was being analyzed by her and Sara all the time, and no matter what I did I couldn't receive their trust. I promised I wouldn't take Adderrall because I knew I had hurt Sara. Anna told me her and Sara were worried to death about me because they know the long term affects of medicines and how it can affect me, and I told her I didn't believe in that.
Now.. I understand if they're worried I suppose but I'm not hurting them in anyway. And I don't understand why they have to make it their business. I know this argument sounds stupid, but you have no idea how much it bothers me.
But today is why I'm really sad, because they wanted to hang out with me today and I said yes. But later my Dad told me I had a Doctor's appointment to get my new bottle of medicine. I was scared because I didn't know what to tell Anna, so I had to lie to her and say I had to clean since my aunt was coming this weekend. She is actually coming, but not until Saturday and my Mom isn't that freaked about the house yet. It bothers me though that I had to actually lie somewhat to make sure I don't get criticized for what I believe in.
Do I sound crazy in any way..? I can't tell. Ugh, my stomach is in knots.
Arlene
06-30-2008, 05:28 PM
Thanks Marj. I just really hope that he does something to make this right, somehow.
Tomorrow is supposed to be our one year anniversary. :cry:
Theazninvasion68
06-30-2008, 07:38 PM
Anya: You don't sound crazy in anyway, I used to take ADD medicine when I was younger ( 4th grade ), and that stuff does mess up your emotions. It also used to give me a mood swings too, I took Ritalin, and thought it helped, the mood swings were not worth it. ( Took me about a year and a half to realize that Ritalin was causing my mood swings)
Back to your point; Your friend's are worried, but thats what good friends do, when their friend is sick, or worried about their health. It feels really...not fun to be around your friends when you think, or they are, Analyzing you. But they worried as you said, and their cautious because they know what Adderrall did to you before, and probably think that if you were to take a different one, it'd be the same mood swinging effects.
It sucks to lie to your friends, especially so you wont be criticized, but sometimes, just taking a little for the truth should happen, you get more insight on their opinion, though it seems you have Way enough of it :lol: It might be a good Idea that you tell them your taking new Medication, and that you've honestly asked one, that doesn't have the mood swing effects, and how this new medicine Really helps you live day by day :) Be honest with them, and if they freak out, try to explain how you wouldn't be able to easily get by on a daily basis.
I hope that helped, I'm trying to figure out what I said there, I just said whatever came into my mind :lol:
:hug: hope you feel better too.
It's stupid.
My friends Anna and Sara.. they have this huge thing about me taking medicine. I take ADD medicine, and they're natural medicine freaks. So they don't like that I take it.
At one point I was taking Adderall, and I didn't realize it but it was making me have random bad mood swings and without knowing it I would sometimes say something mean or bad to my friend Sara. She got offended, and told me that if I wanted to stay friends with her I had to stop taking it because it was altering my moods too much. So I stopped, but without it I could barely concentrate in school, I slept all the time, and my attention span was crap. So I started a new ADD medicine and specifically asked for one that didn't give me mood swings. I decided not to tell Sara or Anna I was taking it.
Recently Anna came over, and decided to trick me into to saying I still took Adderall. This was out conversation:
Anna: "Hey, do you have any Adderrall left over?"
Me: "Why?"
Anna: "I was just wondering if I could like.. have one.."
Me: "No. You don't wanna take that Anna."
Anna: "Why?"
Me: "Because it messes you up. Trust me. And besides, Sara would kill me."
Anna: "So you still have some then though?"
Me: "Yeah I do, my parents keep all the medicines we have whether we take them or not."
Anna: "Why?"
Me: "I dunno, they just do."
It was bothering me how persistent she was being, so I asked her about it later and she said she only asked all of that because she wanted to know if I was still taking it. So she tried to trick me. I told her I felt like I was being analyzed by her and Sara all the time, and no matter what I did I couldn't receive their trust. I promised I wouldn't take Adderrall because I knew I had hurt Sara. Anna told me her and Sara were worried to death about me because they know the long term affects of medicines and how it can affect me, and I told her I didn't believe in that.
Now.. I understand if they're worried I suppose but I'm not hurting them in anyway. And I don't understand why they have to make it their business. I know this argument sounds stupid, but you have no idea how much it bothers me.
But today is why I'm really sad, because they wanted to hang out with me today and I said yes. But later my Dad told me I had a Doctor's appointment to get my new bottle of medicine. I was scared because I didn't know what to tell Anna, so I had to lie to her and say I had to clean since my aunt was coming this weekend. She is actually coming, but not until Saturday and my Mom isn't that freaked about the house yet. It bothers me though that I had to actually lie somewhat to make sure I don't get criticized for what I believe in.
Do I sound crazy in any way..? I can't tell. Ugh, my stomach is in knots.
:hug:
Don't listen to your friends, first of all. You're your own person, and they can't control you. Second, Adderral has NEVER shown any bad long term effects. Who are they to tell you what you should and shouldn't take, anyway? At least Adderral, and all those other things have proven that they work, in some cases. Natural medicine has still not been proven, most of the time. If the medicine helps you, take it. Don't listen to them.
I had friends who did that once, when I was taking Straterra, and then Concerta and Focalin, and I didn't listen to them, because they worked for me, and nothing bad was happening.
Thanks Marj. I just really hope that he does something to make this right, somehow.
Tomorrow is supposed to be our one year anniversary. :cry:
Aw... :hug: Again, I'm really sorry you have to be in this situation. It's not fair.
Yeah right now I'm taking Focalin, and I feel great on it. No mood swings, no rapid weight loss (surprisingly, because that's supposed to be a main side effect.. I guess it just doesn't affect me somehow.) and it really helps me concentrate. Adderrall definitely helped me focus more than that one, but I do agree that it did give me some problems.
Anyway, thank you Maverik and 11DollarsGuy. I really appreciate it.
@Maverik: Yeah I understand they I worried.. but at the same time, I'm tired of being badgered about it. I think it's stupid how they make medicine come between friendship. I've never had this problem with anyone in my life, it just baffles me. I stopped taking Adderrall for my best friend. What more do they want? Honestly. It's just kind of like.. leave me the hell alone, I'm trying to be a better friend to them now. I haven't done a single thing since I was on Adderrall to offend them or bother them. I feel uncomfortable to even take a baggie of my medicine if I spend the night at their house.
And yeah, I don't want to lie. I felt horrible about it all day, I try to make a point to NEVER lie to my friends. But I was sick of the constant prodding.. so I just had to lie. I wanted to be treated normally, and I honestly don't think that's too much to ask. But yeah, thank you for your advice though. But I don't feel like I want to tell them I'm taking medicine though still. I told my parents that I wish to keep my medical history a private matter, and they understood.
@11DollarsGuy: Thankyou. :) Makes me feel better to know I'm not the only one who thinks that. I told them I don't believe in natural medicines. I was brought up differently, especially since my mother is an SLD teacher and is the one who helped to get me diagnosed as ADD when I was a child. My Dad is ADD as well. I don't understand how some people can scoff at something like ADD.. I know plenty of people who do that, but honestly they don't know what the hell they're talking about unless they actually have it themselves.
I agree though, and I would like them to get out of my personal business so I'm going to try as hard as I can to just ignore them if they bring it up again. I mean, they're still my friends.. no matter how stupid they may be sometimes, I love them to death.
Thank you both. :hug:
In my drunken stupor last night, I left a comment on a girl's wall on Facebook telling her we needed to hang out. She sort of agreed to it, and asked me if next week would be alright since she's on vacation right now.
I decided to admit to her that I was a little (read: very) drunk when I left her that comment, but that if she still wanted to hang out, I'd be down with that. I told her any time good for her is probably a time good for me too.
The worst part about all this is that she's the same girl I wrote 85% of all my old lyrics and poems about. I still think she's amazing and would love to have something with her, but there's no way that's ever going to happen.
I'll stick with being happy that she actually seems to want to hang out though.
After so many years of Tradition...Having my favorite Cousins come up for the 4th of July and having the time of my life hangin out with them cause the adults are at a cottage on the lake leaving us the house, Then suddenly We move, everything's jumbled and Tradition ends. I'm stuck here at my dads for a large chunk of the summer. The 4th of July is just another day to me now, And I really hate that. I would like to at LEAST be with some friends and have a good time but No. Stuck at my dads.
Ehhhh Man.
Messy Marj
07-01-2008, 12:10 PM
I sometimes wonder if it's better to not read the news anymore. Everything is so fucked up and so many people are completely insane. Like just now, a 23 year old woman stabbed a 27 year old pregnant woman to death, just so she could cut the baby out of the womb. Or a 15 year old boy raping a 9 year old girl. It's heartbreaking, isn't it? I'm tired of reading things like that, it makes me cry, it makes me think the end is near.
Arlene
07-01-2008, 01:30 PM
So Josh texted me this morning at 1:30. He said, "Happy kinda one year... I love you, whether you believe me or not."
Not how I imagined our one year anniversary to be. At least I was on his mind, I guess.
So Josh texted me this morning at 1:30. He said, "Happy kinda one year... I love you, whether you believe me or not."
Not how I imagined our one year anniversary to be. At least I was on his mind, I guess.
Now it sounds like he's trying to make you feel like the guilty one. I'm not saying that's what he's doing, but that's what it sounds like to me.
I've got a friend who's more or less a womanizer and he was a champ at making girls feel guilty and then they'd do stuff with him only for him to hurt them again. It got to the point where I called him out one day in front of a girl he was doing it to and it dawned on her what was going on. Straight out of a scene from a movie, she slapped him and scoffed away.
It's not worth it.
Derek The Infamous
07-01-2008, 08:20 PM
Its official! I've received my learner's permit.
My goal: license by end of summer.
My cat was just put down.
I feel like I lost my best friend. :(
Derek The Infamous
07-01-2008, 08:59 PM
My cat was just put down.
I feel like I lost my best friend. :(
When my boxer billy succumbed to cancer I felt like I lost a part of my family. It was terrible.
My cat was just put down.
I feel like I lost my best friend. :(
Losing a pet always sucks. Sorry.
That's why we had to put my cat down.
He hadn't eaten his food for about a week. He was eating crumbs and stuff off the floor when my mom cooked, but we didn't really think anything of it until we noticed we hadn't had to feed him for a couple days. We thought we'd gotten the wrong kind of cat food, so we got him a different kind (the same kind we'd gotten for him before) but he still wasn't eating. My mom put water in his dish to soften the food up and he went at it.
A couple days ago, my mom (or sister, whichever) noticed one of his canines looked black, so she lifted up his lip to look. His canine was rotting out of his mouth and was almost completely black, and the gum around it was bright red. We decided to take him to the vet earlier today and they told my mom he had cancer.
So then she called home and told me that she thought it was best to put him down (bawling her eyes out) so I'm pretty sure that's what's going to happen.
It's fucking awful.
Messy Marj
07-01-2008, 09:24 PM
That's why we had to put my cat down.
He hadn't eaten his food for about a week. He was eating crumbs and stuff off the floor when my mom cooked, but we didn't really think anything of it until we noticed we hadn't had to feed him for a couple days. We thought we'd gotten the wrong kind of cat food, so we got him a different kind (the same kind we'd gotten for him before) but he still wasn't eating. My mom put water in his dish to soften the food up and he went at it.
A couple days ago, my mom (or sister, whichever) noticed one of his canines looked black, so she lifted up his lip to look. His canine was rotting out of his mouth and was almost completely black, and the gum around it was bright red. We decided to take him to the vet earlier today and they told my mom he had cancer.
So then she called home and told me that she thought it was best to put him down (bawling her eyes out) so I'm pretty sure that's what's going to happen.
It's fucking awful.
I'm sorry. :( :hug:
Theazninvasion68
07-01-2008, 10:34 PM
I sometimes wonder if it's better to not read the news anymore. Everything is so fucked up and so many people are completely insane. Like just now, a 23 year old woman stabbed a 27 year old pregnant woman to death, just so she could cut the baby out of the womb. Or a 15 year old boy raping a 9 year old girl. It's heartbreaking, isn't it? I'm tired of reading things like that, it makes me cry, it makes me think the end is near.
The local town newspaper sucks, I agree with you, It's rather disappointing and very depressing/Heart-wrenching.
I wish they would put those stories on the back, and put more important news in the front, Like World politics and Global crysis, then your state/town, and then anything else.
It was on some news channel, that someone killed a 9 year old girl. Why... Just why?
I sometimes wonder if it's better to not read the news anymore. Everything is so fucked up and so many people are completely insane. Like just now, a 23 year old woman stabbed a 27 year old pregnant woman to death, just so she could cut the baby out of the womb. Or a 15 year old boy raping a 9 year old girl. It's heartbreaking, isn't it? I'm tired of reading things like that, it makes me cry, it makes me think the end is near.
To be honest, I reckon it's just the tip of the iceburg. It's best not to think about it though.
A lot of newspapers make a killing (for lack of a better way to put it) from sensationalisation and exploitation.
Theazninvasion68
07-02-2008, 01:48 AM
Anyway, thank you Maverik and 11DollarsGuy. I really appreciate it.
Thank you both. :hug:
Your welcome babe Anya
:)
Louis
07-02-2008, 08:10 AM
Things are looking up. Thank goodness.
Messy Marj
07-02-2008, 08:41 AM
To be honest, I reckon it's just the tip of the iceburg. It's best not to think about it though.
Yeah, I know...But you know, one part in me wants to know what's happening out there, but then you read things like that and I just want to throw my computer out of the window and lock myself up.
Misfit Jay
07-02-2008, 01:34 PM
YES! YES! YES! OH MY FUCKING GOD YES! That son of a bitch is finally going to jail! I love it! I hope that sick motherfucker gets fucked up in there!
This is so petty, it's pissing me off. My sister was bitching that she could hear "music" last night, and she pinned it on me, and said my music was so loud it was giving her a headache. Funny thing is, I wasn't listening to ANYTHING, and because my perfect little sister decided to pin it on me, I can't listen to music on the computer anymore. This was also through headphones, so I'm really wondering how it gave her a headache.
Poor sensitive her, though. Yet, when I can hear her music in the FUCKING BATHROOM, which is close to 20 feet from her computer, it's okay. And that's through headphones too. Yet she's never bitched at for it. I smell a fucking double standard, and it's pissing me off so badly that I'm being told now that I can't listen to music because of her. I'm literally shaking. This, on top of everything else.
And now my mom's feeding me a line of bullshit saying that "you're always yelled at for this, and you're going deaf", and yet my music is often the quietest in the house.
Andrea
07-02-2008, 05:15 PM
This is stupid but...I need to get laid, lol.......:disgust:.
This is stupid but...I need to get laid, lol.......:disgust:.
we all do :lol:
Andrea
07-02-2008, 05:35 PM
we all do :lol:
Yeah. :lol:
Sometimes I could care less about it and other times it just drives me up a wall. I guess I'll just keep waiting even though it sucks....lol.
This is stupid but...I need to get laid, lol.......:disgust:.
SUP ANDREA
:lol:
So one of the girls I talked to about hanging out seems reaaaaally interested in hanging out. I'm super excited about it.
Rachel
07-02-2008, 08:58 PM
tomorrow is jay's sister brittany's birthday. she'd be 19. oh wtf =[
Messy Marj
07-02-2008, 09:50 PM
Tomorrow morning Leonie will be operated on both legs again. I'm a bit nervous but I'm sure everything'll be okay.
Ryo Hazuki
07-03-2008, 12:12 AM
I don't smoke.
I want a fucking cigarette.
This stress is too much.
I don't smoke.
I want a fucking cigarette.
This stress is too much.
what's wrong?
Arlene
07-03-2008, 03:03 AM
I don't smoke.
I want a fucking cigarette.
This stress is too much.
Oh, I totally hear ya. This past week I've been wishing I was addicted to SOMETHING so I could take in the pleasure of doing something, but I'm not. Although I did drink last night and tonight, which was a release. Everything okay?
---
With Josh, nothing really new. He called me yesterday because it was our one year anniversary and he said that he just really needed me to know that he loves me with all of his heart and that I'm everything to him, and that he wasn't calling to tell me that to make me happy but that he just needed to tell me, because yesterday was supposed to be a really special day for us. I imagine he's still going to his parents camp this weekend, which I was supposed to go to so I really don't know when I'm going to see him...I would like to see him to talk things over in person, but I KNOW that he's so goddamned busy with work and bullshit that it's just like, shit. I haven't seen him in nearly two weeks, and it's harder to deal with since all this shit has been going on. *headdeskthrowsshitaround*
brokenLP
07-03-2008, 07:21 AM
He's driving me crazy!
Chris.
07-03-2008, 07:28 AM
The world and its unwillingness to cooperate with people who actually try to give their all is pissing me off. I just want something to go my way. Im trying, I really am...but its so hard to keep going when all I get is disappointment.
The world and its unwillingness to cooperate with people who actually try to give their all is pissing me off. I just want something to go my way. Im trying, I really am...but its so hard to keep going when all I get is disappointment.
I hear you. I've put in applications all over town (and even to places I can't even drive to since I don't have a car) but I haven't gotten a single call, and the places I've called back have said they're not interested in hiring me. It's just about the most frustrating thing in the world. Everyone harps on me for just sitting around not doing anything, but I can't help that there's nothing for me to be doing anyway. It sucks so much.
Chris.
07-03-2008, 07:47 AM
I hear you. I've put in applications all over town (and even to places I can't even drive to since I don't have a car) but I haven't gotten a single call, and the places I've called back have said they're not interested in hiring me. It's just about the most frustrating thing in the world. Everyone harps on me for just sitting around not doing anything, but I can't help that there's nothing for me to be doing anyway. It sucks so much.
Same here. Ive been working a steady part time job for 3 years and Im not really making that much but you would think that an employer would look positively on someone staying with the same business for so long. No such luck. Everywhere I apply turns me down. It is absolutely ridiculous.
Same here. Ive been working a steady part time job for 3 years and Im not really making that much but you would think that an employer would look positively on someone staying with the same business for so long. No such luck. Everywhere I apply turns me down. It is absolutely ridiculous.
I know what you mean. Granted, I didn't help myself by getting fired from my first real job (for theft, which I openly admit on my applications, since I figure if some place calls me for an interview, I can explain what happened) and I quit my second job (because of my health, but I left on good terms). However, given that I didn't burn down any place I worked at or ended up in prison or something stupid like that (I'm being a little extreme), you'd think at least a local grocery store would have me come in to work third shift stocking stupid shelves or something. But nope. Ridiculous, like you said.
Theazninvasion68
07-03-2008, 08:13 AM
It's the degrading economy right now.
Or I'm wrong, But it is, as you two been saying, Way to fucking hard to get hired.
Chris.
07-03-2008, 08:16 AM
What I dont understand is stores that say they are hiring either get lazy or just dont care to call most people back. You have a now hiring sign so the least you could do is at least give the person applying a call back saying the spot was filled or the application didnt meet expectations. I really hate being left in the dark.
Messy Marj
07-03-2008, 08:20 AM
It's what stores do, they're there to make money. The only people who they want to satisfy are the people who're investing in their products, like costumers for example. It's harsh but you can't stay too negative about it because that will never change.
Chris.
07-03-2008, 08:42 AM
It's what stores do, they're there to make money. The only people who they want to satisfy are the people who're investing in their products, like costumers for example. It's harsh but you can't stay too negative about it because that will never change.
Well when I first made that post, I just meant life in general. Im getting screwed left and right, but the job thing was part of it.
Messy Marj
07-03-2008, 08:54 AM
Well when I first made that post, I just meant life in general. Im getting screwed left and right, but the job thing was part of it.
Cheer up babe, life will get eventually better. Just keep applying until you finally found something and I'm sure that from that moment on life will flow better for ye. :)
Chris.
07-03-2008, 09:01 AM
Thanks. :-)
What I dont understand is stores that say they are hiring either get lazy or just dont care to call most people back. You have a now hiring sign so the least you could do is at least give the person applying a call back saying the spot was filled or the application didnt meet expectations. I really hate being left in the dark.
My buddy and I were talking about that same thing the other day. The least they could do is call and say it's not going to work out.
Ryo Hazuki
07-03-2008, 08:42 PM
I just fucking hate her. The end!
Seinfeld
07-03-2008, 09:58 PM
I just fucking hate her. The end!
Ouch... o_o
you need a:
:hug:
Derek The Infamous
07-04-2008, 02:14 AM
I think this would be a time to input some joyous news:
MY FRIEND DOES NOT HAVE CANCER!
Time to celebrate. I am floating on air at this news.
Theazninvasion68
07-04-2008, 03:04 AM
Grats Derek =)
lachina128
07-04-2008, 03:33 AM
Why is it that drama seems to fuckin stick to me like white on rice? Whether it's my family or my friends giving me problems, I feel like I can't escape them unless I'm smokin or doing something else. These people make me not wanna change my ways. And I HATE when I ask for advice and all I get in return is someone telling me to "have faith". Why have faith in a family that continually fights and seperates? Why have faith in friends that lie to you and use you for their own gain? Why have faith in people that say they love you but only want you when its convenient for them....
I think I just need to leave all this behind....screw going to UM...I should just go to UC.
As soon as I saw it, My heart, I swear stopped for a second.
I guess....Mentally I was planning to go ahead and move on. But to see it now, like this.
I wonder, Just how much I even meant.
i can't stand living with these 2, My god
*kills himself* lol
Daniel
07-04-2008, 07:13 AM
Derek, that's awesome news. I'm relieved for you. :)
-------------------------
So after a year and a half of being inseparable best friends (and being confused as a couple almost every time we went out in public), we had our first fight. Fuck it, it's her fault.
Arlene
07-04-2008, 01:20 PM
Aw Daniel! Everything okay? :hug:
Derek: That's such great news. It's good to hear positive things like that. ^_^
--
So, I'm going with Josh and his family to their camp at Lake Ontario tonight/this weekend. Me and my mom think that it could be helpful to see the truth in Josh. I'm going to be four hours away though, and my dad is afraid that if I see the "Bill Clinton behind his eyes" that I'll have no escape plan, but I can always feign sickness and I'm willing to do it if it helps me figure things out. I really feel that this will help things out. Plus he's so serious and excited about me going and whatnot so I hope it works out. And I'm glad that I'm seeing him, because yesterday I basically had a breakdown. Throwing and punching shit, music blasting, angry. It was bad. I've never gotten like that before. But we'll see what happens...
Daniel
07-04-2008, 01:48 PM
Aw Daniel! Everything okay? :hug:
Derek: That's such great news. It's good to hear positive things like that. ^_^
--
So, I'm going with Josh and his family to their camp at Lake Ontario tonight/this weekend. Me and my mom think that it could be helpful to see the truth in Josh. I'm going to be four hours away though, and my dad is afraid that if I see the "Bill Clinton behind his eyes" that I'll have no escape plan, but I can always feign sickness and I'm willing to do it if it helps me figure things out. I really feel that this will help things out. Plus he's so serious and excited about me going and whatnot so I hope it works out. And I'm glad that I'm seeing him, because yesterday I basically had a breakdown. Throwing and punching shit, music blasting, angry. It was bad. I've never gotten like that before. But we'll see what happens...
I'm pretty pissed off/disappointed, but hey, I'm a big boy. I'll deal with it. That's good to hear about camp though. Either way it goes, I think you're going to get some answers, which is good. :hug:
Rachel
07-04-2008, 08:57 PM
So I guess a few months back, my moms fiancee was at a strip club and saw my father there. Whatever, ahaha, funny funny, whatevs, right?
Now he won't shut the fuck up about it, and I'm getting sick and tired of it. My mom's fiancee has really crude humor, and it's like, there are jokes I make, and some of them I don't want to discuss with my 44 year old future stepdad. He doesn't know when to stop making the jokes.
So, we were at my aunt's house today for 4th of july, and my stepbrother, Tyler, is the best man in my mom's wedding. So he joked with my stepdad "Oh I'm only gonna be able to go to half of the bacherlor party", and my stepdad goes "Maybe I'll invite Bo".
Bo is my father's nickname.
Like, dude, shut the fuck up already. I don't want to fucking hear it. There are certain things I don't want to fucking hear. So like, god fucking forbid I snapped at him when he kept going "go do your chores your mom is gonna yell." I got the first time cheif I don't need to hear it 8 times in a minute. So as I finish telling Jay that I'll brb, and I shut the Mac, my mom yells at ME FOR SNAPPING BACK.
dude. for once in your fucking life, can you fucking admit that it can be the fault of whoever the fuck you're dating , and not me all the time. I know I shouldn't have snapped, but just stop fucking joking around for once and leave me the fuck alone.
Fuck.
George Carlin was right.
There's nothing wrong with the planet. The planet is fine.
The people are fucked.
He said it best; we think our 200 or so year old industrial activity is going to put in jeopardy a 4 million+ year old planet? That's suffered solar flares, ice ages, impacts from space debris, all that, and we think our fucking exhaust, and PLASTIC BAGS are going to fuck it up? No. We're going to go away, and the Earth is going to stay the way it is. It's fine, despite our presence. When we're gone, it'll stay for a damn long time. Just because some big muckity muck with a bank account with more zeros on the end of it than a damn binary program says we're fucking our planet up... DOESN'T MEAN IT'S TRUE!
People pushed this issue onto me too much today, and it took a comedian to put it into perspective for me. Ironic, no?
Theazninvasion68
07-06-2008, 05:27 AM
George Carlin was right.
There's nothing wrong with the planet. The planet is fine.
The people are fucked.
He said it best; we think our 200 or so year old industrial activity is going to put in jeopardy a 4 million+ year old planet? That's suffered solar flares, ice ages, impacts from space debris, all that, and we think our fucking exhaust, and PLASTIC BAGS are going to fuck it up? No. We're going to go away, and the Earth is going to stay the way it is. It's fine, despite our presence. When we're gone, it'll stay for a damn long time. Just because some big muckity muck with a bank account with more zeros on the end of it than a damn binary program says we're fucking our planet up... DOESN'T MEAN IT'S TRUE!
People pushed this issue onto me too much today, and it took a comedian to put it into perspective for me. Ironic, no?
And why are humans so self-important, G.Carlin was right, We are so self-important. Why else would we be worried? Because Human lives are in danger, or other animals. Even if we put dangerous radioactive waste into the land, We're fucked, The planet will be fine, eventually, it'll decay and be part of the core, or something in the lava. We'll never notice about radiation posiening when your all burnt away from lava!
Plastic bags are biodegradable, eventually, it's reincorporated back into nature, somehow, someway. It won't be in our life times for many many many generations to come, but eventually that bags going to into the core, and it's going to melt, and be spewed out into rock or ashes, which helps plant growth, and maybe a tree, then after a few million years, it'll be crushed, and turned into oil, in about a billion years from now.
Ironic yes =)
Misfit Jay
07-06-2008, 05:52 AM
And why are humans so self-important, G.Carlin was right, We are so self-important. Why else would we be worried? Because Human lives are in danger, or other animals. Even if we put dangerous radioactive waste into the land, We're fucked, The planet will be fine, eventually, it'll decay and be part of the core, or something in the lava. We'll never notice about radiation posiening when your all burnt away from lava!
Plastic bags are biodegradable, eventually, it's reincorporated back into nature, somehow, someway. It won't be in our life times for many many many generations to come, but eventually that bags going to into the core, and it's going to melt, and be spewed out into rock or ashes, which helps plant growth, and maybe a tree, then after a few million years, it'll be crushed, and turned into oil, in about a billion years from now.
Ironic yes =)
And the only reason why Humans are in existence is to make plastic for Earth.
Theazninvasion68
07-06-2008, 07:20 AM
And the only reason why Humans are in existence is to make plastic for Earth.
Plastic is good, you know? Just as sillicone is great for breasts It makes alot of things very convinent and hassle-free. Trees? save those, and stop cutting, USE PETROLEUM BASED plastic bags!
Now Who's willing to save trees, or oil..
Mang, George Carlin was great.
Louis
07-06-2008, 05:54 PM
Plastic is good, you know? Just as sillicone is great for breasts
You are my hero for the day. That was hilarious.
Messy Marj
07-07-2008, 07:29 AM
I'm so worried about Leonie. She had her operation and it took much longer than they expected because both pins grew together with the bones so they had to saw and all. Now her right knee looks all weird and they might have to go back today. Her medications against the pain cause nausea and against the nausea she has another medicine. She took that one for the first time yesterday, but after an hour or so everything cramped, her fingers and toes were curled in all ways, her neck was bend a weird way, her jaws were stuck together, her tongue was stuck in the back of her mouth, her eyeballs were pointed at the ceiling and she couldn't even blink, and she was crying because it was hurting lots. So my parents phoned the doctor and he came immediately and gave her valium which helped.
I hate to be here right now, I want to be there for her, I love her alot. :(
Arashi
07-07-2008, 07:41 AM
I'm so worried about Leonie. She had her operation and it took much longer than they expected because both pins grew together with the bones so they had to saw and all. Now her right knee looks all weird and they might have to go back today. Her medications against the pain cause nausea and against the nausea she has another medicine. She took that one for the first time yesterday, but after an hour or so everything cramped, her fingers and toes were curled in all ways, her neck was bend a weird way, her jaws were stuck together, her tongue was stuck in the back of her mouth, her eyeballs were pointed at the ceiling and she couldn't even blink, and she was crying because it was hurting lots. So my parents phoned the doctor and he came immediately and gave her valium which helped.
I hate to be here right now, I want to be there for her, I love her alot. :(
Oh dear <3 :hug:
I hope she gets well soon. Really really.
I'm so worried about Leonie. She had her operation and it took much longer than they expected because both pins grew together with the bones so they had to saw and all. Now her right knee looks all weird and they might have to go back today. Her medications against the pain cause nausea and against the nausea she has another medicine. She took that one for the first time yesterday, but after an hour or so everything cramped, her fingers and toes were curled in all ways, her neck was bend a weird way, her jaws were stuck together, her tongue was stuck in the back of her mouth, her eyeballs were pointed at the ceiling and she couldn't even blink, and she was crying because it was hurting lots. So my parents phoned the doctor and he came immediately and gave her valium which helped.
I hate to be here right now, I want to be there for her, I love her alot. :(
:hugs:
Wish her the best for me. No one deserves to go through that.
Arashi
07-07-2008, 10:49 AM
I don't get it. He was never the jerk that he is now. And I really don't know what to do.
Messy Marj
07-07-2008, 11:19 AM
Thanks Aisha and Will, I hope she'll be fine as well. :hug:
Seinfeld
07-07-2008, 02:37 PM
I'm so worried about Leonie. She had her operation and it took much longer than they expected because both pins grew together with the bones so they had to saw and all. Now her right knee looks all weird and they might have to go back today. Her medications against the pain cause nausea and against the nausea she has another medicine. She took that one for the first time yesterday, but after an hour or so everything cramped, her fingers and toes were curled in all ways, her neck was bend a weird way, her jaws were stuck together, her tongue was stuck in the back of her mouth, her eyeballs were pointed at the ceiling and she couldn't even blink, and she was crying because it was hurting lots. So my parents phoned the doctor and he came immediately and gave her valium which helped.
I hate to be here right now, I want to be there for her, I love her alot. :(
:hug:
I'll be here...crossing fingers. :(
Arlene
07-07-2008, 03:16 PM
This weekend was great. I truly believe Josh. And he's trying. He's been calling me, and texting me often and stuff just to let me know what's going on. He was crying on my moms shoulder, real crying, I could tell. Saying that he had thought that he lost me. He was sleeping with the stuffed tiger that I got for him as a joke...it would always sit in the back of his car in the window and it was sitting on the seat to go with us and I asked him and he got all embarrassed haha.
So...I think he's for real.
Messy Marj
07-07-2008, 03:25 PM
This weekend was great. I truly believe Josh. And he's trying. He's been calling me, and texting me often and stuff just to let me know what's going on. He was crying on my moms shoulder, real crying, I could tell. Saying that he had thought that he lost me. He was sleeping with the stuffed tiger that I got for him as a joke...it would always sit in the back of his car in the window and it was sitting on the seat to go with us and I asked him and he got all embarrassed haha.
So...I think he's for real.
:hug: :-D I'm all happy for you! I was hoping he'd be for real. ^_^
Chris, thanks baby. Leonie's doing much better today, it turns out that after the valium stopped working she got the cramps again, but less than before, my dad still brought her to the doctor though. On the medicine it says not suitable for children, even if she's 21, she is tiny with her 5'0/94 pounds, so they never should've given her that.
Seinfeld
07-07-2008, 03:28 PM
:hug: :-D I'm all happy for you! I was hoping he'd be for real. ^_^
Chris, thanks baby. Leonie's doing much better today, it turns out that after the valium stopped working she got the cramps again, but less than before, my dad still brought her to the doctor though. On the medicine it says not suitable for children, even if she's 21, she is tiny with her 5'0/94 pounds, so they never should've given her that.
Glad to hear that she's a bit better. Still crossing fingers and sending best wishes. :)
Arashi
07-07-2008, 11:34 PM
My dream last night scared me. ALOT.
I am paranoid and insecure.
There was a girl at the party I was at the other night whom I've basically been in love with since near the end of my senior year of high school which was three years ago now. We were incredibly close to dating and I was supposed to take her to prom and everything. All of it fell through and I ended up dating another girl and after I started dating her, I freaked out on the first girl and tried all I could to make her feel horrible.
Well, at the party, I got mad at a friend and basically just left the party without telling anyone. No one noticed I was gone, and when I came back, she yelled at me for leaving the party. She told me never, ever to do anything like it again, and I apologized to her over and over. Eventually, she told me I didn't have to be sorry to her for anything. I asked her what she meant by "anything," and she told me I knew exactly what she meant, even though I'd apologized to her for freaking out on her years ago.
It was just weird of her to tell me I didn't have to be sorry to her for anything, period. She was actually dropping all sorts of weird hints to me all night she might still have feelings for me. She kept hugging me a lot and, at one point, after I'd screamed at her, she told me she thought I was just kidding, so she gave me a huge hug, kissed me on the cheek and told me it was OK I was mad. When she was fighting with her boyfriend, he kept going on about sending her "back to so-and-so and so-and-so," her previous boyfriends. Then he went, "Oh, how about you go back to—" and he stopped and looked at me, realizing I was there. Then she looked at me, too, and started screaming at him again. It was really, really awkward for him to say something like what he said.
At one point I remember telling a friend I was only making sure she was OK all night and apologizing to her because I was still basically in love with her. I didn't notice her standing less than five feet away from me. She just sort of looked at me and smiled, then went back to screaming at her boyfriend (there's a long story behind why that was going on).
I realize it's never going to happen, but it sure would be nice to hold her hand one more time and have it mean something between us...
will, that's like an exact mirror of a situation i've been in for a while.
Arlene
07-08-2008, 02:09 PM
Will: I dunno what to say, hun. Maybe it could work, I mean you guys are older now and more mature. You could always try; that is, if she and her boyfriend aren't together anymore. It seems that maybe if you guys used to almost be together and then you're being pulled back together, maybe you should give it a try. It could end in disappointment, but at least you would know that you tried? It's up to you dear, and either way I wish you the best. I don't understand why you always have such relationship problems, I would go crazy for someone like you if I lived by you. <3
---
Josh really is trying. Although I'm not sure if he fully understands that he has to work harder than he did before, to get us back to where we were, but he has to. Last night he promised me that he'd call me, and it was midnight and I had accepted that he wasn't going to call me and I was cursing him in my mind, and then he called me all cute sleepy. Said he fell asleep several hours ago and jerked awake because he remembered that he forgot to call me and he said he was so sorry and I was kind of a hard ass...I was like, "Yeah...I'm glad you called though because I was cursing you in my head." "I'm really sorry hunnie *yawn*" "At least you acknowledged it." But I couldn't be mad because he just sounded so sweet and sleepy. Like, when people are like asleep and all smily and cute and happy, that's what he was. And the way he said, "I love you, Arlene" kinda made me glow. I could see the smile on his face. :wub:
i'm seriously sick of my grandmother. it's like she has some attention deficit that means, whenever she's here, she has to give everyone grief, and if anyone challenges her all she has is “shut up” or something to that effect. i'm usually pretty laid back but i think i'm getting close to snapping at her. at best she's sufferable, maybe a little bit frustrating with the way you can't reason with her AT ALL, and at worst she's fucking revolting.
Arashi
07-09-2008, 01:14 AM
Seriously? SOMEBODY CHEER ME UP. NOW.
Theazninvasion68
07-09-2008, 02:24 AM
Seriously? SOMEBODY CHEER ME UP. NOW.
http://looploop.radiantage.com/?id=220
http://looploop.radiantage.com/?id=223
http://looploop.radiantage.com/?id=178
Feel better yet?
No?
Goodness, we need to get you some Emergency-Yaay-ness into you ASAP.
Call the doctor.
:hug:
Arashi
07-09-2008, 02:41 AM
http://looploop.radiantage.com/?id=220
http://looploop.radiantage.com/?id=223
http://looploop.radiantage.com/?id=178
Feel better yet?
No?
Goodness, we need to get you some Emergency-Yaay-ness into you ASAP.
Call the doctor.
:hug:
o.O
Err thanks :P
:hug:
I really thought he was different. Really did believe that.
Theazninvasion68
07-09-2008, 03:16 AM
o.O
Err thanks :P
:hug:
I really thought he was different. Really did believe that.
There are just people who pretend, that Wear their clothes, if you know what I mean.
I r sorry to hear.
Penny
07-09-2008, 06:56 AM
My best friend's brother died today from leukemia... He was only 20 years old... :cry:
R.I.P. Nick
Messy Marj
07-09-2008, 06:57 AM
My best friend's brother died today from leukemia... He was only 20 years old... :cry:
R.I.P. Nick
I'm sorry! :( :hug:
Penny
07-09-2008, 06:59 AM
I'm sorry! :( :hug:
:cry: :hug:
11:54
07-09-2008, 07:16 AM
I dunno what this is, but some chest pains, irregular heart beat and inconsistant breathing the past week has me a little concerned. Might be from lack of rest, but I'm not sure.
If I quit posting then you know what happened.
Messy Marj
07-09-2008, 07:21 AM
I dunno what this is, but some chest pains, irregular heart beat and inconsistant breathing the past week has me a little concerned. Might be from lack of rest, but I'm not sure.
If I quit posting then you know what happened.
Stress? Unconscious hyperventilation?
If I were you I wouldn't worry too much about it, just take enough rest and if there's anything on your mind, try to straighten it out.
11:54
07-09-2008, 07:24 AM
I really have no idea. Like right now I'm just sitting here and it feels like my insides are burning up. I do work night shift, 12 hours, but I handle that pretty well. I sleep alright, sometimes too long. I don't really feel stressed out, but that is a possibility. I've also been getting some odd headaches as of late, too.
I've never felt like this for so long, ever.
Messy Marj
07-09-2008, 07:31 AM
It sort of sounds like an anxiety attack. Sometimes I'm getting it as well, what's important is that you calmly control your breathing well, inhale through the nose, exhale through the mouth. If it doesn't stop or if it keeps occurring you could go to the doctor, he/she can give you little pills for it, they help really well.
11:54
07-09-2008, 07:39 AM
Thanks. :)
I've been having this problem lately where I would fall asleep.. and then suddenly would feel like my body is asleep but my mind's awake. Like I would suddenly realize I'm asleep and in a dream, but I can't wake up no matter how hard I try. It freaks me out though because I suddenly realize what's happening to me and I go into somewhat of a shock. I can feel my legs trying to move and can see my surroundings.
I looked it up though and realized I'm not the only one and that it's something called "sleep paralysis". Has anyone else here had this problem? And if so, do you have any tips on how to help this from happening again?
It really scares me and I want it to stop. I was dreaming today when I took a nap and was trying to decide if where I was was a dream or if it was reality. It was the same room I fell asleep in, same bed, same everything. Then suddenly I turned around and there was a weird distorted person (so obviously it was a dream). I freaked out, and tried to wake up, felt my self trying as hard as I could but it took me about minute or two before I finally snapped out of it.
>_<
Arlene
07-09-2008, 10:31 AM
Mike hun, are you okay? Text me later or something, I haven't heard from you in forever. I've been thinking about ya. :hug:
11:54
07-09-2008, 10:36 AM
Mike hun, are you okay? Text me later or something, I haven't heard from you in forever. I've been thinking about ya. :hug:
0o0o0 :shifty:
I dunno if I'm alright. This constant heart rate, heavy breathing, everything I explained is always all the time. It never slows down. Plus I have a lot of shaking, too. Everytime I try to eat cereal or something with a spoon/fork I can hardly get it to stay on. The shaking I get feels the same when I get an adrenaline rush, but it can't be that because I'm relaxed. I know it isn't asthma because I've been through that and back again once before. This is definitely very, very different. Feels like my heart is about to jump out, that's how easy I can feel it pounding.
I'm gonna try to go to sleep now though. Hopefully I can and get a good one in, get up at 4 and enjoy my day off. This is the first I've spoken up about it, since it's only been about a week or so since it started. I don't really wanna tell my family or my friends yet because I don't need them getting worked up over nothing, especially my mom.
Arlene
07-09-2008, 10:40 AM
0o0o0 :shifty:
I dunno if I'm alright. This constant heart rate, heavy breathing, everything I explained is always all the time. It never slows down. I know it isn't asthma because I've been through that and back again once before. This is definitely very, very different. Feels like my heart is about to jump out, that's how easy I can feel it pounding.
I'm gonna try to go to sleep now though. Hopefully I can and get a good one in and get up at 4 and enjoy my day off. This is the first I've spoken up about it, since it's only been about a week or so since it started. I don't really wanna tell my family or my friends yet because I don't need them getting worked up over nothing, especially my mom.
That makes sense...but if it is serious, you need to talk to someone about it. But as Marj said, just try to relax. Text me later hun.
Stop being unhealthy dammit! It's probably from all the crazy things you do, :lol:. <3
11:54
07-09-2008, 10:42 AM
I know. :( I'm just glad I'm fully covered from my work benifits. I'm always either getting hurt some way or getting sick or whatever.
Messy Marj
07-09-2008, 11:32 AM
0o0o0 :shifty:
I dunno if I'm alright. This constant heart rate, heavy breathing, everything I explained is always all the time. It never slows down. Plus I have a lot of shaking, too. Everytime I try to eat cereal or something with a spoon/fork I can hardly get it to stay on. The shaking I get feels the same when I get an adrenaline rush, but it can't be that because I'm relaxed. I know it isn't asthma because I've been through that and back again once before. This is definitely very, very different. Feels like my heart is about to jump out, that's how easy I can feel it pounding.
I'm gonna try to go to sleep now though. Hopefully I can and get a good one in, get up at 4 and enjoy my day off. This is the first I've spoken up about it, since it's only been about a week or so since it started. I don't really wanna tell my family or my friends yet because I don't need them getting worked up over nothing, especially my mom.
Anxiety/Panic attack - Physical symptoms
* A sensation of adrenaline going through your entire body
* Sweating
* Shortness of breath (dyspnea)
* Stomach Problems (spastic colon)
* Racing or pounding heartbeat or palpitations
* Chest pain
* Dizziness or vertigo
* Headache
* Lightheadedness
* Nausea / stomach pains
* Hyperventilation
* Choking or smothering sensations
* Hot flashes
* Cold flashes
* Tingling or numbness in the hands, face, feet or mouth (paresthesia)
* Feelings of "crawly," "itchy," or "cringy" skin sensations.
* Burning sensations
* Trembling or shaking
* Feeling of claustrophobia
* Feeling like the body is shutting down/ dying
* Tremors in the legs/shaking legs/thighs
* Tingling spine
* Feeling like one is experiencing a heart attack
* Exhaustion
* Muscle spasms
* Feeling of physical weakness or limpness of the body
* Grinding teeth or tensing other muscles repeatedly or for prolonged periods of time
* Temporary blindness
* Sizzling/ringing in ears/head
Yeah like I said, you clearly have these symptoms. I think you should go to a doctor, maybe you're over worked because I always see you typing how much work you have. You don't want to get a burn-out. =/
Arlene
07-09-2008, 11:33 AM
Dentist and gyn appt ftfl. >_<
11:54
07-09-2008, 01:24 PM
Thanks, Marj. Out all of those symptoms you posted, I have experienced about 3/4 of them. And even though I do work a lot, in a sense I only work 12-14 days out of an entire month, but the days I do work are 12-hour shifts, 2-3 days in a row.
Both my parents have experienced anxiety attacks as well through their lives. Could it be hereditary?
Messy Marj
07-09-2008, 01:28 PM
Thanks, Marj. Out all of those symptoms you posted, I have experienced about 3/4 of them. And even though I do work a lot, in a sense I only work 12-14 days out of an entire month, but the days I do work are 12-hour shifts, 2-3 days in a row.
Both my parents have experienced anxiety attacks as well through their lives. Could it be hereditary?
Isn't there any way that you can spread your days out? It's not good to be working your ass off the one day and the other one there's nothing to do.
http://www.npadnews.com/faqs.asp#q6
It's the 6th question...I know I must have it from my dad, so it must be like that.
11:54
07-09-2008, 01:37 PM
No, everyone is on a certain schedule. 2 days on, 2 days off, 3 days on, 2 days off, 2 days on, 3 days off. I've been there for two months and it's been fine up until the last 2 weeks or so. I have a hard time falling asleep, and usually don't do so until between 9am and 12pm, and I wake up between 4pm and 9pm. And I'm always hungry, too. No matter how much I eat, I never feel full anymore and I really don't like that.
Messy Marj
07-09-2008, 01:40 PM
No, everyone is on a certain schedule. 2 days on, 2 days off, 3 days on, 2 days off, 2 days on, 3 days off. I've been there for two months and it's been fine up until the last 2 weeks or so. I have a hard time falling asleep between 9am and 12pm, and I wake up between 4pm and 9pm. And I'm always hungry, too. No matter how much I eat, I never feel full anymore and I really don't like that.
That schedule doesn't look nice, at all. I don't know, I don't think you should stay there if it makes your health all weird, health goes before anything. Maybe you should look out for another job while working this one, cause well, the money has to keep coming ofcourse.
11:54
07-09-2008, 01:46 PM
I know, but I need the money. I'm trying to get back up on my feet after have double surgery over the winter and then getting laid off from my job. It's a tall hill to climb. I really don't know why they have the scheduling like that. They've only had it for a few years and they think everyone likes it, which hardly anyone does. The place isn't that bad. I dunno, I'd rather work 4 12-hour days a week and then have my weekends off. It'd be better to have a consistant schedule, where you work and have the same days off every week.
Messy Marj
07-09-2008, 01:52 PM
I know, but I need the money. I'm trying to get back up on my feet after have double surgery over the winter and then getting laid off from my job. It's a tall hill to climb. I really don't know why they have the scheduling like that. They've only had it for a few years and they think everyone likes it, which hardly anyone does. The place isn't that bad. I dunno, I'd rather work 4 12-hour days a week and then have my weekends off. It'd be better to have a consistant schedule, where you work and have the same days off every week.
If hardly anyone likes it, why don't you all go and discuss it with the boss? Ask your colleagues if they also experience anxiety attacks, tell your boss about it. It can't continue like that.
Timothy
07-09-2008, 02:42 PM
I've been having this problem lately where I would fall asleep.. and then suddenly would feel like my body is asleep but my mind's awake. Like I would suddenly realize I'm asleep and in a dream, but I can't wake up no matter how hard I try. It freaks me out though because I suddenly realize what's happening to me and I go into somewhat of a shock. I can feel my legs trying to move and can see my surroundings.
I looked it up though and realized I'm not the only one and that it's something called "sleep paralysis". Has anyone else here had this problem? And if so, do you have any tips on how to help this from happening again?
It really scares me and I want it to stop. I was dreaming today when I took a nap and was trying to decide if where I was was a dream or if it was reality. It was the same room I fell asleep in, same bed, same everything. Then suddenly I turned around and there was a weird distorted person (so obviously it was a dream). I freaked out, and tried to wake up, felt my self trying as hard as I could but it took me about minute or two before I finally snapped out of it.
>_<
I get sleep paralysis quite often, actually. I experience the hallucinations too, and I completely understand why they would creep you out. A couple weeks ago I swore I saw a giant spider on my bed, haha.
Have you been really stressed out or sleep deprived lately? I've heard that can often be the cause of it.
lpboarder
07-09-2008, 04:58 PM
haha @ Internet doctors
Messy Marj
07-09-2008, 06:13 PM
haha @ Internet doctors
?
edit: I'm not even gonna wait for your reply. Sometimes I get panic attacks and if I see someone on here experiencing the same thing, I tell the person about it and I try to help (as I'm sure anyone else would do), because we're a community, we're all friends. I doubt you'll ever get friends here with your superior attitude though.
If you have nothing nice to say, then don't say it at all.
lpboarder
07-09-2008, 06:16 PM
No, everyone is on a certain schedule. 2 days on, 2 days off, 3 days on, 2 days off, 2 days on, 3 days off. I've been there for two months and it's been fine up until the last 2 weeks or so. I have a hard time falling asleep, and usually don't do so until between 9am and 12pm, and I wake up between 4pm and 9pm. And I'm always hungry, too. No matter how much I eat, I never feel full anymore and I really don't like that.
That's crazy. My customers have similar shifts and I do not envy them in the least.
haha @ Internet doctors
Quit being a jerk.
Arlene
07-10-2008, 01:28 AM
I hate that I'm a female, because now I'm starting to feel extra emotional and I'm still sorting my freaking mind out.
Dammit to hell.
But at least I addressed a main concern to Josh, that I've been kinda withholding, (so as not to piss him off because I'm a baby and I hate confrontation) and he reassured me in that way.
Shouldn't love be easy? It's so easy to love him, no question, but it's so hard to be sure. Plus I don't feel very confidently about myself so I think that I'm not good enough. But I need to not think like that.
I just need to trust in him 100%. I'm more like 80% right now.
Misfit Jay
07-10-2008, 01:43 AM
I'm so close to snapping, and saying fuck everyone. I'm so sick and tired of people, and being used, and not being able to show my true potential.
haha @ Internet doctors
Way out of line.
We all try to help each other out here, and if you want to make fun of it, please just get out and make it easier on the rest of us.
Way out of line.
We all try to help each other out here, and if you want to make fun of it, please just get out and make it easier on the rest of us.
well said offa.
Theazninvasion68
07-10-2008, 03:08 AM
haha @ Internet doctors
=\
Not a big place for humor, We're not Internet Doctors, We're as offa said, We're here to help each other out and Support each other, Not Evaluate symptoms and prescribe medicine. We're also not phycologists. As I said, We're just helping each other out by coping with a social or emotional or health issue. I could say this thread is about " Anything you want to let out" And therefore you're saying is legitimate, Saying how you laugh at Internet Doctors posting at Other forums or pages or comment boxes, or ect.
Besides; If we were Internet Doctors, Alot of people would jokingly Refer to Weed for Stress, Alcohol for Social or ....um, trouble-making and Depression? Porn would be a good remedy to loneliness, temporarily.
:lol:
I had that to let out, and I said it.
Rachel
07-10-2008, 03:19 AM
wow. you're a prick
[and it's not about anyone on here, actually]
Chris.
07-10-2008, 07:55 AM
What dont you get about me not wanting to talk to you? To be completely fucking honest, what you did to me was completely wrong and out of left field. The fact that you refused to even work on anything says a lot about who you are and I really dont feel like associating myself with you any longer. You say you want to be friends with me but I dont want to be friends with someone who fucking goes behind my back and talks to other people about how bad of a person I am when all I try and do is keep you happy. Its goddamn ridiculous to think that I ever actually felt anything for you and at this point, I couldnt care less if you got hit by a car. You make me fucking sick and I hope you have a great life fucking one of MY friends. Fuck both of you.
Arashi
07-10-2008, 12:02 PM
I've been having this problem lately where I would fall asleep.. and then suddenly would feel like my body is asleep but my mind's awake. Like I would suddenly realize I'm asleep and in a dream, but I can't wake up no matter how hard I try. It freaks me out though because I suddenly realize what's happening to me and I go into somewhat of a shock. I can feel my legs trying to move and can see my surroundings.
I looked it up though and realized I'm not the only one and that it's something called "sleep paralysis". Has anyone else here had this problem? And if so, do you have any tips on how to help this from happening again?
It really scares me and I want it to stop. I was dreaming today when I took a nap and was trying to decide if where I was was a dream or if it was reality. It was the same room I fell asleep in, same bed, same everything. Then suddenly I turned around and there was a weird distorted person (so obviously it was a dream). I freaked out, and tried to wake up, felt my self trying as hard as I could but it took me about minute or two before I finally snapped out of it.
>_<
Had the same thing happen to me some time ago and it really creeped me out. I really have no solution for it, but somehow it stopped happening. I hope it stops soon love.
@Penny, I am sorry to hear that. :hug:
Ryo Hazuki
07-10-2008, 03:43 PM
I've been having this problem lately where I would fall asleep.. and then suddenly would feel like my body is asleep but my mind's awake. Like I would suddenly realize I'm asleep and in a dream, but I can't wake up no matter how hard I try. It freaks me out though because I suddenly realize what's happening to me and I go into somewhat of a shock. I can feel my legs trying to move and can see my surroundings.
I looked it up though and realized I'm not the only one and that it's something called "sleep paralysis". Has anyone else here had this problem? And if so, do you have any tips on how to help this from happening again?
It really scares me and I want it to stop. I was dreaming today when I took a nap and was trying to decide if where I was was a dream or if it was reality. It was the same room I fell asleep in, same bed, same everything. Then suddenly I turned around and there was a weird distorted person (so obviously it was a dream). I freaked out, and tried to wake up, felt my self trying as hard as I could but it took me about minute or two before I finally snapped out of it.
>_<
This is quite a late response but yes, I have definately experienced this. Almost every night I did, I hate it and it usually happened when I was having a nightmare. You try to wake yourself up and you succed but it's like you're weighted down by some invisible force, you can SEE and you can HEAR but you can not move. Often it causes hallucinations. And it's very scary. It's an very awful thing to go through and I don't know any methods to stop it, but I'd reccomend trying to not be so stressed out. I don't know if that's it but I've seemed to grow out of it, it doesn't happen very often anymore, and well I don't have nightmares hardly anymore either. And again it's awful. I'm sorry that you experience it, or that anyone else does and.. well all I can really suggest is to try to not be stressed out cause I'm not actually sure what causes it.
And other than that..
The other day, someone tried to exorcise me.
Yes, to Call god and make him "Take The Demons Out of Me"
For listening to slipknot and telling them to back the hell off,
And.. did I mention,
It was my very own hardcore extremist, Crazy insane never missing a day of church fucked up sister?
And it happened in a public library no less.
Seriously. Come on. :ermm::angry:
lpboarder
07-10-2008, 04:03 PM
=\
Not a big place for humor, We're not Internet Doctors, We're as offa said, We're here to help each other out and Support each other, Not Evaluate symptoms and prescribe medicine. We're also not phycologists. As I said, We're just helping each other out by coping with a social or emotional or health issue. I could say this thread is about " Anything you want to let out" And therefore you're saying is legitimate, Saying how you laugh at Internet Doctors posting at Other forums or pages or comment boxes, or ect.
Besides; If we were Internet Doctors, Alot of people would jokingly Refer to Weed for Stress, Alcohol for Social or ....um, trouble-making and Depression? Porn would be a good remedy to loneliness, temporarily.
:lol:
I had that to let out, and I said it.
Eh, yeah, bad idea on my part. *shrug*
It was a snap decision from something in the past on here. Ah well.
Anyway, I thought weed for stress was a given? :P
Theazninvasion68
07-10-2008, 08:06 PM
Eh, yeah, bad idea on my part. *shrug*
It was a snap decision from something in the past on here. Ah well.
Anyway, I thought weed for stress was a given? :P
:P theres always a need to re-encourage.
----
I feel like I'm doing something wrong with my Girlfriend, Like... am I doing something wrong? I don't feel good or smart enough to be with her. The best thing is to talk to her about it, and i will.
Maybe I'm just not as confident as I was when I met her.
Louis
07-10-2008, 09:13 PM
Maybe it is a problem.
I don't really know.
It seems like it has with some things.
I still don't know.
Rachel
07-11-2008, 12:39 AM
I can't do anything for you, and that worries me only a fraction more than worrying about if the cops find him before you do.
one of my best friends is originally from zimbabwe. recently there was a death in his family there and he's going back. the more i think about it the more worried i am... he never mentioned anything at all about the circumstances of the death, so for all i know... gah. whatever it was he might still end up stuck there, among other things.
Arlene
07-11-2008, 02:53 PM
one of my best friends is originally from zimbabwe. recently there was a death in his family there and he's going back. the more i think about it the more worried i am... he never mentioned anything at all about the circumstances of the death, so for all i know... gah. whatever it was he might still end up stuck there, among other things.
Aw man. Hopefully he'll be okay. And all the best to his family. :hug:
Linja
07-11-2008, 10:00 PM
Someone just called me 'hardcore'. Too bad the comment pertained to me being afraid of destroying myself, and yet-.
It's funny...I go to Ireland tomorrow evening and I've been gearing myself up for one whole year to tell her how I feel. I've replayed what I'm going to say and how I'm going to say it like hundreds of times and it's just dawned on me...I don't have a fucking clue.
Messy Marj
07-11-2008, 10:58 PM
It's funny...I go to Ireland tomorrow evening and I've been gearing myself up for one whole year to tell her how I feel. I've replayed what I'm going to say and how I'm going to say it like hundreds of times and it's just dawned on me...I don't have a fucking clue.
Aww haha, don't worry! Just tell her how you feel from your heart, and don't feel silly or ashamed. I'm sure you'll do just fine! For how long will you see her? Even if it's just for a day or so, imagine all the things you can tell her in a whole day! So you know, you got lots of time, no? :)
Aww haha, don't worry! Just tell her how you feel from your heart, and don't feel silly or ashamed. I'm sure you'll do just fine! For how long will you see her? Even if it's just for a day or so, imagine all the things you can tell her in a whole day! So you know, you got lots of time, no? :)
Thanks for the reassurance. :)
I don't really know what's gonna happen. I don't get to see her nearly as much as I'd like to (in fact the last time I saw her was at the LP concert on January 28th...) so it's gonna be weird seeing her every day for a week. I've heard that she's seeing someone but I don't really care all that much about that. I'm telling her either way. I gotta just let her know...it's not worth me bottling it up for however much longer.
Thing is that I've actually had myself in hysterics when I've thought about what I'm gonna say. Every time I think about it it's like I'm looking down on myself telling her and sometimes the words just seem so damn corny and stupid, but there are other times when I can just see myself getting pretty emotional about it because I think she truly is amazing and it kills me to know that it can't happen. I'm not gonna be a drama queen about it...I just need to let her know.
I think I'll finally get some peace of mind when I know that she's aware of it and I don't have to be afraid of her reaction anymore. I can't see her reacting badly to it (but then again I've like banned myself from even thinking of a bad reaction), all I want to do is get it out to her. I think people have taken for granted how special she actually is. In this day and age it's not easy to find someone that you have so much in common with and who has the most amazing personality you could think of.
Time will tell...
Messy Marj
07-11-2008, 11:16 PM
I think people have taken for granted how special she actually is. In this day and age it's not easy to find someone that you have so much in common with and who has the most amazing personality you could think of.
You should tell her that, it's very sweet. :)
I don't think you should be afraid of sounding too corny, sometimes cliché moments aren't bad you know. Just throw out what you want to throw out and don't worry about anything. Good luck and have fun! <3
You should tell her that, it's very sweet. :)
I don't think you should be afraid of sounding too corny, sometimes cliché moments aren't bad you know. Just throw out what you want to throw out and don't worry about anything. Good luck and have fun! <3
Thanks alot Marj. :)
Arlene
07-12-2008, 01:47 AM
Yesss! I kicked ass on my final scores this year for school!
My overall quarter average is a 98.338.
My New York State regents exam scores were:
1) History: 91
2) Bio: 86 (not great, but not my best subject)
3) French: 97
And my math final was an 89 (also not great, which confuses me 'cause im good at math but I dunno.)
And my individual classes were all over a 92 for the 4th quarter average! Yesss!
Also happy...I talked to Josh tonight and he was just in a good mood, sleepy, at home and relaxing. He was falling asleep and he just wanted me to talk, and to keep talking to put him asleep because the last thing he wanted to hear was my voice before sleeping. :) I put him to sleep, I could hear him breathing and whatnot and it just made me feel extra fuzzy inside.
I'm in a good mood. And I have work tomorrow, which I'm excited about. And I'm seeing him all day Monday. All to me. Just us. I'm so freaking happy right now. :D
Harlz
07-12-2008, 04:49 AM
God dammit... sitting on that bus with her for an hour and a half, helping her sort out her problems with him, hearing how she feels, and how amazing he is and so on...
I've never had to try so hard to pretend I was happy, that I didn't wanna break down and cry.
I spent the last half hour looking out the window, away from her, so she couldn't see the tears in my eyes.
Guess I'm lucky it was night.
Arashi
07-12-2008, 05:52 AM
Yesss! I kicked ass on my final scores this year for school!
My overall quarter average is a 98.338.
My New York State regents exam scores were:
1) History: 91
2) Bio: 86 (not great, but not my best subject)
3) French: 97
And my math final was an 89 (also not great, which confuses me 'cause im good at math but I dunno.)
And my individual classes were all over a 92 for the 4th quarter average! Yesss!
Also happy...I talked to Josh tonight and he was just in a good mood, sleepy, at home and relaxing. He was falling asleep and he just wanted me to talk, and to keep talking to put him asleep because the last thing he wanted to hear was my voice before sleeping. :) I put him to sleep, I could hear him breathing and whatnot and it just made me feel extra fuzzy inside.
I'm in a good mood. And I have work tomorrow, which I'm excited about. And I'm seeing him all day Monday. All to me. Just us. I'm so freaking happy right now. :D
That sounds awesome love :) I'm hapy things are sorting out for you :hug:
God dammit... sitting on that bus with her for an hour and a half, helping her sort out her problems with him, hearing how she feels, and how amazing he is and so on...
I've never had to try so hard to pretend I was happy, that I didn't wanna break down and cry.
I spent the last half hour looking out the window, away from her, so she couldn't see the tears in my eyes.
Guess I'm lucky it was night.
:hug: It must really kill you, but don't force yourself to pretend. If you have a bunch of feelings, let them out. It will be much better.
It's funny...I go to Ireland tomorrow evening and I've been gearing myself up for one whole year to tell her how I feel. I've replayed what I'm going to say and how I'm going to say it like hundreds of times and it's just dawned on me...I don't have a fucking clue.
Go for it :)
I hate my life and everything about it.
I hate my life and everything about it.
honestly, will, i'd love to be you, and i'm sure quite a few other people wouldn't mind either. i'm not trying to put down what you're saying or anything like that, i mean that as a compliment.
i'm sorry about the coheed thread if that was because of this.
Arlene
07-12-2008, 10:25 AM
Thank you, Aisha. :)
Will: I agree with Dean, love. You're such a great guy, try not to let life get you down. :hug:
So, that Nair that you use in the shower is bulllllllllshit. It worked, and I also had an awful allergic reaction to it on my legs. So now basically my whole shin on my right leg is covered in bumps and swollen areas. Bull-freaking-shit. And it doesn't tell you anything to make it better, it just tells you to test it in an inconspicuous area before using. Rar. And I have work today with capris and my leg looks ridiculous. Grr.
Linja
07-12-2008, 10:35 AM
Everyone really, really needs a hug: :hug:.
Arlene, you need both a hug, and some soothing, cool skin cream. *hands you skin cream*
Arashi
07-12-2008, 11:40 AM
Everyone really, really needs a hug: :hug:.
Arlene, you need both a hug, and some soothing, cool skin cream. *hands you skin cream*
I love you :lol:
Harlz
07-12-2008, 11:42 AM
:hug: It must really kill you, but don't force yourself to pretend. If you have a bunch of feelings, let them out. It will be much better.
Thank you for caring, really.
But honestly, what can I do?
"hey I know you're mad about another guy, and you're on the verge of going out, but I like you, so um, yeah?"
I dunno, the whole scenario just seems useless.
Arashi
07-12-2008, 12:05 PM
Thank you for caring, really.
But honestly, what can I do?
"hey I know you're mad about another guy, and you're on the verge of going out, but I like you, so um, yeah?"
I dunno, the whole scenario just seems useless.
I get it, I really do.
Why don't you let her know in a subtle way that you don't want to talk about that guy anymore.
11:54
07-12-2008, 12:10 PM
I hate my life and everything about it.
Me and you both.
Harlz
07-12-2008, 12:29 PM
I get it, I really do.
Why don't you let her know in a subtle way that you don't want to talk about that guy anymore.
Cos I can't help but want to be there for her...
Turns out it's irrelevant, someone just informed me she knows how I feel.
Apparently she feels bad about it, and bad for me.
Meaning she pities me.
Meaning everything, every hug, every one of those smiles she gives me when I catch her eye on the bus or at lunch, everything... It's all pity.
Fuck.
Even my friendship with her, what if all it is is her feeling guilty?
Shit.
I can't deal with this.
And I know, it's trivial, people have far worse problems, but this make me want to do something stupid, I don't know, crash my car, get in a fight, break someone nose, something.
Fuck
not pityt.,... anythingh but that,...
Arashi
07-12-2008, 12:44 PM
Cos I can't help but want to be there for her...
Turns out it's irrelevant, someone just informed me she knows how I feel.
Apparently she feels bad about it, and bad for me.
Meaning she pities me.
Meaning everything, every hug, every one of those smiles she gives me when I catch her eye on the bus or at lunch, everything... It's all pity.
Fuck.
Even my friendship with her, what if all it is is her feeling guilty?
Shit.
I can't deal with this.
And I know, it's trivial, people have far worse problems, but this make me want to do something stupid, I don't know, crash my car, get in a fight, break someone nose, something.
Fuck
not pityt.,... anythingh but that,...
Cmon, from what you have said, she really really spends a lot of time with you. That means she cares. She wouldn't spend so much time on you if it was just pity.
It seems bad, I know, but its all just a bunch of insecurities. If she hasn't said anything about it, there is no major reason for you to think that way.
honestly, will, i'd love to be you, and i'm sure quite a few other people wouldn't mind either. i'm not trying to put down what you're saying or anything like that, i mean that as a compliment.
i'm sorry about the coheed thread if that was because of this.
now that i'm sober...
nah. my post in the coheed thread was uncalled for. i don't know why i made it. i could use the "i was drunk" excuse but we chastised cale for doing that. so i'm not going to.
anyway, i was just feeling really down last night.
after a party, you know, where i'd been drinking. heavily.
my best friend dropped me off at home and i've got no idea what was said, but i jokingly tossed my guitar (a gift he gave me for my birthday while i was in the hospital after my chest surgery) into my yard. i just stood there for a second and i was like, "what the fuck did i just do?"
i don't know. it was stupid. and all he did was shake his head and tell me to make sure it wasn't broken in two pieces. ugh.
i'm just tired of being single (it's been a year and a couple months now) and i'm tired of being useless. the only constructive thing i've done in the past two months is my band. i'm not signed up for school right now, i don't have a job (and no one will hire me anyway).
it's just stupid.
thanks though. what you said made me feel better. you too, arlene.
I hate to think because of her and others i'm now an irritable unfunny asshole. Because experiencing all that crap for so long i just stopped caring. So when I even see a girl that Sounds nice and looks cute. I cant even begin to try and make friends with her. My mind kicks in and says, Yeah..RIGHT, You're not for her.
Linja
07-12-2008, 09:08 PM
I hate to think because of her and others i'm now an irritable unfunny asshole. Because experiencing all that crap for so long i just stopped caring. So when I even see a girl that Sounds nice and looks cute. I cant even begin to try and make friends with her. My mind kicks in and says, Yeah..RIGHT, You're not for her.
Your mind's not being very wise in such cases, no offense meant.
Your mind's not being very wise in such cases, no offense meant.
I agree with Nick, i know it;s a bad thing to say but seriously, when you can't get anything and you are never enough for someone, what can you do?? it seriously pisses me of and everytime it gets worse.
I'm gonna try and see what happens with this girl (i'm gonna see her in august, most likely) if nothing happens with this girl, i won't try anything again for a long period of time, i don't get what do girls want.
@Malice, can you say something about what can i do or nick too in this case, about how can we stop feeling this way??
Your mind's not being very wise in such cases, no offense meant.
^^ What John said, Me and him have talked about this and we feel pretty much the same way.
It's not like I'm being negative, I really DO feel like a huge chunk of self esteem rips away everytime I experience this crap, ALWAYS The friend, NEVER anything more. And I used to brush it off, keep trying my best. But it comes to a point and just bugs the living shit out of me. It makes me Just want to stop trying to be anything more. But obviously I won't just stop completely and say fuck the world, I'm not like that. I know things won't just come to you, and I Know I have my whole life ahead of me. All I'm asking for is something All my friends seem to get for at least a little while, A good healthy relationship, Not some extremely technical story between me and another person. I ask for that at LEAST once during High School.
Plus being Slightly Autistic doesnt help the communicative part.
/rant
whoo, I feel better.
Louis
07-13-2008, 06:45 AM
I might as well just smash my head into the damn wall, and that still would seem better.
Why do I even bother anymore? Why?
Arashi
07-13-2008, 08:09 AM
Everyone is right. I should do something about it. It kills me.
If only my feelings for him were not on the line. Murshad, why do you FUCK with my head so much?
Linja
07-13-2008, 12:52 PM
^^ What John said, Me and him have talked about this and we feel pretty much the same way.
It's not like I'm being negative, I really DO feel like a huge chunk of self esteem rips away everytime I experience this crap, ALWAYS The friend, NEVER anything more. And I used to brush it off, keep trying my best. But it comes to a point and just bugs the living shit out of me. It makes me Just want to stop trying to be anything more. But obviously I won't just stop completely and say fuck the world, I'm not like that. I know things won't just come to you, and I Know I have my whole life ahead of me. All I'm asking for is something All my friends seem to get for at least a little while, A good healthy relationship, Not some extremely technical story between me and another person. I ask for that at LEAST once during High School.
Plus being Slightly Autistic doesnt help the communicative part.
/rant
whoo, I feel better.
Mehh. I reacted like that mainly because I feel the same way. I've mostly only ever been "the friend", even when I've been "the girl", it wasn't right. And I know, that I (we!) can be more. I guess it takes a nudge or so. I've tried it before, almost got there, but I was taking too long and someone beat me to it. Carpe diem and all that shit. Only I was less with the carpe and more with the procrastination and laid-back vibe. Or perhaps I'm still at that first stage you talked about, the 'brushing it off' one.
Bottom line is that if you don't at least try to catch that wave, you're never going to ride it. Yes, you'll hit your head on those sharp rocks you were trying to avoid, but you'll get pulled over there by the current, anyway. Metaphorically swim parallel to the shoreline and all that shit. Swimming straight over to the beach won't work, because that current? She's a bitch. It's no point - and not healthy! - sitting around and saying "I'll wait", or "it'd never work out, anyway", even though that is the easiest thing to do. Eventually you'll just go stir crazy.
[separate rant] Girls suck. Boys do, too. All people suck. We are not made to understand each other, unfortunately (fortunately?).
Louis and Aisha: :hug:
Arashi
07-13-2008, 01:42 PM
Mehh. I reacted like that mainly because I feel the same way. I've mostly only ever been "the friend", even when I've been "the girl", it wasn't right. And I know, that I (we!) can be more. I guess it takes a nudge or so. I've tried it before, almost got there, but I was taking too long and someone beat me to it. Carpe diem and all that shit. Only I was less with the carpe and more with the procrastination and laid-back vibe. Or perhaps I'm still at that first stage you talked about, the 'brushing it off' one.
Bottom line is that if you don't at least try to catch that wave, you're never going to ride it. Yes, you'll hit your head on those sharp rocks you were trying to avoid, but you'll get pulled over there by the current, anyway. Metaphorically swim parallel to the shoreline and all that shit. Swimming straight over to the beach won't work, because that current? She's a bitch. It's no point - and not healthy! - sitting around and saying "I'll wait", or "it'd never work out, anyway", even though that is the easiest thing to do. Eventually you'll just go stir crazy.
[separate rant] Girls suck. Boys do, too. All people suck. We are not made to understand each other, unfortunately (fortunately?).
Louis and Aisha: :hug:
Thankyou.
:hug:
And I do agree.
All da boyz and galz in the world SuckzzzZZzzz.
Except for a few. ;)
Linja
07-13-2008, 02:37 PM
Thankyou.
:hug:
And I do agree.
All da boyz and galz in the world SuckzzzZZzzz.
Except for a few. ;)
<333. Yes, except for a few :lol: These few can still fail at life occasionally, but they're not the vacuums the others are.
Arashi
07-13-2008, 02:40 PM
<333. Yes, except for a few :lol: These few can still fail at life occasionally, but they're not the vacuums the others are.
Nicely put ;)
Messy Marj
07-14-2008, 10:01 AM
I might take a tiny break from the internet. I'm so emotionally empty, I sort of have to 'reload'. This morning I was hurting like I have never hurt before, and my chest pains me from all the crying, but now I'm completely empty and we have to start all over again. I'm so tired, so so tired.
One of my friends bought me a really expensive gift for my birthday...
Derek The Infamous
07-14-2008, 10:13 AM
I might take a tiny break from the internet. I'm so emotionally empty, I sort of have to 'reload'. This morning I was hurting like I have never hurt before, and my chest pains me from all the crying, but now I'm completely empty and we have to start all over again. I'm so tired, so so tired.
A break is sometimes the best thing you need to get your life back on track. Perhaps you just need to give yourself a few days. You deserve them and we're here for you if you need us.
One of my friends bought me a really expensive gift for my birthday...
guilty?
Arlene
07-14-2008, 01:14 PM
A break is sometimes the best thing you need to get your life back on track. Perhaps you just need to give yourself a few days. You deserve them and we're here for you if you need us.
QFT Marjdear. Take some time for yourself. And if you need anyone, we're all here for you. :hug:
Arashi
07-14-2008, 01:34 PM
I might take a tiny break from the internet. I'm so emotionally empty, I sort of have to 'reload'. This morning I was hurting like I have never hurt before, and my chest pains me from all the crying, but now I'm completely empty and we have to start all over again. I'm so tired, so so tired.
Aww love what's wrong?
:kiss:
I hope you do sort things out without saying goodbye or now.
One of my friends bought me a really expensive gift for my birthday...
What did this friend get you?
What did this friend get you?
I'm not completely sure, but I think he got me a pedal for my guitar. They're not cheap.
I feel guilty about it because we make fun of him all the time (all in fun, though) and I didn't get a chance to get him anything for his birthday.
Arashi
07-14-2008, 02:02 PM
I'm not completely sure, but I think he got me a pedal for my guitar. They're not cheap.
I feel guilty about it because we make fun of him all the time (all in fun, though) and I didn't get a chance to get him anything for his birthday.
Wow. Call him up?
Wow. Call him up?
Nah. It'll be OK. I never get a chance to get anyone anything for their birthdays because I'm almost always unemployed when my closest friends have their birthdays and I always feel guilty about it. Two summers ago my best friend bought me a guitar (and a guitar case) and it was well over $500 total. Last summer I worked and no one got me anything. This summer I ended up with a ticket to Warped Tour, a ticket to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame and Museum, all the alcohol I want (since I'm turning 21) and possibly this guitar pedal. Granted, three years ago I bought my best friend a guitar for his birthday, and I was the only one who spent the day with another friend last year on his birthday, but I always feel bad nonetheless. I guess I'll just have to make it up to them somehow.
Arashi
07-14-2008, 02:10 PM
Nah. It'll be OK. I never get a chance to get anyone anything for their birthdays because I'm almost always unemployed when my closest friends have their birthdays and I always feel guilty about it. Two summers ago my best friend bought me a guitar (and a guitar case) and it was well over $500 total. Last summer I worked and no one got me anything. This summer I ended up with a ticket to Warped Tour, a ticket to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame and Museum, all the alcohol I want (since I'm turning 21) and possibly this guitar pedal. Granted, three years ago I bought my best friend a guitar for his birthday, and I was the only one who spent the day with another friend last year on his birthday, but I always feel bad nonetheless. I guess I'll just have to make it up to them somehow.
I'm sure you will :)
shut up shup shut up
I HATE you for being such an asshole sometimes, your so incredible stupid sometimes
GO AWAY, i can't live with you any longer. :(
miny_girl_LP
07-14-2008, 06:22 PM
shut up shup shut up
I HATE you for being such an asshole sometimes, your so incredible stupid sometimes
GO AWAY, i can't live with you any longer. :(
:( who? :hug:
:( who? :hug:
my sister, she's the definition of annoying.
miny_girl_LP
07-14-2008, 06:48 PM
my sister, she's the definition of annoying.
tell me about it..i have one of those too...when did you get yours? :lol:
tell me about it..i have one of those too...when did you get yours? :lol:
she's older than me, she's 27.
very annoying, she's mad most of the times for every little thing.
she's a pain in the ass.
miny_girl_LP
07-14-2008, 06:53 PM
she's older than me, she's 27.
very annoying, she's mad most of the times for every little thing.
she's a pain in the ass.
mine is older too... mine is 26
i can't even figure out her problem!she's always yelling,nagging...she doesn't leave you alone for things your parents won't even bother telling a word about!...:angry:
the other day when i got out of my first form 10 college exams i talked to her on the cell about it..and told her all of the kids didn't do almost anything at the test.And she had to open her big mouth and shout at me that everybody was gonna be accepted but me at the end!
mine is older too... mine is 26
i can't even figure out her problem!she's always yelling,nagging...she doesn't leave you alone for things your parents won't even bother telling a word about!...:angry:
hahaha, yes.
and she argues with my mom for every little thing.
i can't wait to move to a place where she doesn't have to be around.
miny_girl_LP
07-14-2008, 06:56 PM
hahaha, yes.
and she argues with my mom for every little thing.
i can't wait to move to a place where she doesn't have to be around.
same here...i mean i love her...she's my sis but i love her more when she's 200miles away and i hear her only on the phone from time to time...
same here...i mean i love her...she's my sis but i love her more when she's 200miles away and i hear her only on the phone from time to time...
:lol: agree
No one will give me a bleeding job. <_<
Arashi
07-15-2008, 02:17 AM
No one will give me a bleeding job. <_<
:hug:
My friend's girlfriend wanted to give me a cat for my birthday.
I told her I wouldn't be able to handle having another cat so soon after we put my other one (the one I had for almost 17 years) down.
Ugh.
Was I born to fail this much, or did I actually have to work at it?
Theazninvasion68
07-15-2008, 06:52 AM
Was I born to fail this much, or did I actually have to work at it?
:hug:
Don't worry, There could be much worse Failures.
No Ace, Just You
07-15-2008, 10:38 AM
Hm, so 2 and a half years ago the one girl I ever loved broke up with me, and fair enough, I eventually got over it and moved on with my life.
Fast forward to today, and I have a dream where I meet her again and get her number, and I wake up to realise I miss her.
Help? :S
miny_girl_LP
07-15-2008, 11:11 AM
Hm, so 2 and a half years ago the one girl I ever loved broke up with me, and fair enough, I eventually got over it and moved on with my life.
Fast forward to today, and I have a dream where I meet her again and get her number, and I wake up to realize I miss her.
Help? :S
well it's natural for you to miss her even after such a long time....love doesn't die easy...maybe you should go out more and meet more people including girls that is...and maybe you'll find another girl to make you feel better than that did...every girl carries a different, her own kind of love...you're biggest mistake would be if you try to find someone to replace her...
Arashi
07-15-2008, 01:30 PM
well it's natural for you to miss her even after such a long time....love doesn't die easy...maybe you should go out more and meet more people including girls that is...and maybe you'll find another girl to make you feel better than that did...every girl carries a different, her own kind of love...you're biggest mistake would be if you try to find someone to replace her...
What she said.
Also concerning my ex boyfriends, even though I do hae a boyfriend now it's not like I have forgotte them because I did really like them. Before. And that memory won't get off my mind easily. Probably never will.
Harlz
07-15-2008, 02:11 PM
It's an experience. I don't think anyone should ever really forget.
=======
My life is an Octavarium, and I am trapped inside it. Yep. That's right. Octavarium.
I just like the word really...
Arlene
07-15-2008, 02:27 PM
Mmm...I saw Josh yesterday, which was great. But when we were saying bye last night, I just got ridiculously sad and started crying. I suppose it's just because I don't see him every day and I really hate to see him leave. I think part of it too is that when he's hanging out with me I know that he's all mine and what he's doing and whatnot, but once I see him pull away in his car I feel like my grip on him isn't as tight. I'm still working on building trust after everything, and I'm getting there, I just still have all these thoughts. I just need to really hang onto the fact that he loves me and that I love him.
I wish all that shit never happened. I feel like I'll never be able to completely trust him again...and he knows it. He said that to me. He told me that he knows that I'll never completely trust him or look at him the same way again. At least he knows.
Despite me feeling sad when he left, yesterday really was great. We went out to lunch and then saw Hancock and then we came back and were just cuddling and hanging out at my house watching more movies and whatnot. It was so...peaceful.
Arashi
07-15-2008, 02:43 PM
Mmm...I saw Josh yesterday, which was great. But when we were saying bye last night, I just got ridiculously sad and started crying. I suppose it's just because I don't see him every day and I really hate to see him leave. I think part of it too is that when he's hanging out with me I know that he's all mine and what he's doing and whatnot, but once I see him pull away in his car I feel like my grip on him isn't as tight. I'm still working on building trust after everything, and I'm getting there, I just still have all these thoughts. I just need to really hang onto the fact that he loves me and that I love him.
I wish all that shit never happened. I feel like I'll never be able to completely trust him again...and he knows it. He said that to me. He told me that he knows that I'll never completely trust him or look at him the same way again. At least he knows.
Despite me feeling sad when he left, yesterday really was great. We went out to lunch and then saw Hancock and then we came back and were just cuddling and hanging out at my house watching more movies and whatnot. It was so...peaceful.
:hug:
Linja
07-15-2008, 02:59 PM
>_<" Sinking, and sinking, and sinking, and sinking. Not cool.
Arashi
07-15-2008, 03:00 PM
>_<" Sinking, and sinking, and sinking, and sinking. Not cool.
whatsup?
Messy Marj
07-15-2008, 03:11 PM
Mmm...I saw Josh yesterday, which was great. But when we were saying bye last night, I just got ridiculously sad and started crying. I suppose it's just because I don't see him every day and I really hate to see him leave. I think part of it too is that when he's hanging out with me I know that he's all mine and what he's doing and whatnot, but once I see him pull away in his car I feel like my grip on him isn't as tight. I'm still working on building trust after everything, and I'm getting there, I just still have all these thoughts. I just need to really hang onto the fact that he loves me and that I love him.
I wish all that shit never happened. I feel like I'll never be able to completely trust him again...and he knows it. He said that to me. He told me that he knows that I'll never completely trust him or look at him the same way again. At least he knows.
Despite me feeling sad when he left, yesterday really was great. We went out to lunch and then saw Hancock and then we came back and were just cuddling and hanging out at my house watching more movies and whatnot. It was so...peaceful.
Sweetheart, we're in the exact same position right now, it's ridiculous. To make it short, yesterday morning my boyfriend and me got into a fight, it got so bad I was actually already throwing my stuff in a bag, we made up, and today we went to picknick which was so nice, so you know, we're ridiculously alike o.O. It's all so hard when you love someone so much but you can't trust him and you can't know all the time where he is or what he's doing. Building trust is so hard. :(
Baaah, I wish you were here so we could hug. o.o
Also, Derek, thank you, you have no idea how much that means to me. I'm just gonna check now and then for the meantime, I just need some time to load up. <3
Linja
07-15-2008, 03:44 PM
whatsup?
More like what's down. My mood, really. My state of mind. I don't know why. I'm just feeling a little - maybe a lot - desolate right now. Kind of like I'm stuck in limbo. Or is that purgatory?
***Hugs for both Marj and Arlene.
More like what's down. My mood, really. My state of mind. I don't know why. I'm just feeling a little - maybe a lot - desolate right now. Kind of like I'm stuck in limbo. Or is that purgatory?
Yeah, I know what you mean. We can talk if you want.
I think limbo would be slightly more appropriate btw. :P
Linja
07-15-2008, 04:48 PM
Yeah, I know what you mean. We can talk if you want.
I think limbo would be slightly more appropriate btw. :P
I am angry at your laptop, you know? It is depriving me of you.
Arlene
07-15-2008, 05:03 PM
Sweetheart, we're in the exact same position right now, it's ridiculous. To make it short, yesterday morning my boyfriend and me got into a fight, it got so bad I was actually already throwing my stuff in a bag, we made up, and today we went to picknick which was so nice, so you know, we're ridiculously alike o.O. It's all so hard when you love someone so much but you can't trust him and you can't know all the time where he is or what he's doing. Building trust is so hard. :(
Baaah, I wish you were here so we could hug. o.o
Also, Derek, thank you, you have no idea how much that means to me. I'm just gonna check now and then for the meantime, I just need some time to load up. <3
Aww Marj. :hug: It does suck. You just kinda feel helpless, right? I feel vulnerable, but he inisists that he's being honest with me. Hell, he sobbed on my shoulder after everything, and I could tell it was real, it's just so hard to build the trust after it's been broken. And then after everything, they do amazing things, like taking you out to a picnic, or holding you tight the entire night and never letting go of you throughout the day. I'm always around if you need someone, hun. :hug:
I would totally hug you, by the way. <3
Thank you Aisha and Mali. <3
I am angry at your laptop, you know? It is depriving me of you.
Well, there's always here, or Myspace, or Facebook in the meantime.
Seinfeld
07-15-2008, 05:24 PM
*hugs for marj and arlene*
Hey, I know what you two feel like...Trust is kinda like a vase...you drop it, and glue it back together...but one day the shards are too small to even pick them up.
Well, at least I have my work cut out for me. She broke up with me, so I won't have to worry anymore. :) It's really relieving.
Jennster
07-15-2008, 05:26 PM
I hate it whenever my sister dates. She gets all annoying and totally ignores everything that I say to her.
chyeah. She's only paying attention to me today 'cause it's my bday.
whatever.
No Ace, Just You
07-15-2008, 05:43 PM
Thanks guys for the advice, I think it's all stemmed from the fact I've been fucked around a bit by girls recently, so it makes sense that I'll remember back then.
Over the past couple weeks, I've realized I'm going to have to change my outlook on life if I'm ever going to be in another relationship any time soon. I almost never approach girls anymore because I'm always so sure I'll be shot down or I won't be able to commit to them.
I'm not afraid of commitment. My first relationship was six months and my second was almost a year and a half. I'm afraid of not being committed enough.
For example, there are hardly any girls around here anymore I'd want to be with, aside from the three I've crushed on since I was a sophomore in high school. Yet I'm afraid to look "out there," because I've got no real methods of transportation and no job I could support a relationship with.
It kind of sucks. I'm used to it, but I need something different. I want someone to hold my hand when I go to the mall. I want someone to talk to me on a drive instead of me just screaming the lyrics to Chiodos songs at the top of my lungs. Ooh! I want someone to play with my hair. I love that.
Oh well. That's the least of my worries. I do miss having someone, though.
Linja
07-15-2008, 07:01 PM
Over the past couple weeks, I've realized I'm going to have to change my outlook on life if I'm ever going to be in another relationship any time soon. I almost never approach girls anymore because I'm always so sure I'll be shot down or I won't be able to commit to them.
I'm not afraid of commitment. My first relationship was six months and my second was almost a year and a half. I'm afraid of not being committed enough.
For example, there are hardly any girls around here anymore I'd want to be with, aside from the three I've crushed on since I was a sophomore in high school. Yet I'm afraid to look "out there," because I've got no real methods of transportation and no job I could support a relationship with.
It kind of sucks. I'm used to it, but I need something different. I want someone to hold my hand when I go to the mall. I want someone to talk to me on a drive instead of me just screaming the lyrics to Chiodos songs at the top of my lungs. Ooh! I want someone to play with my hair. I love that.
Oh well. That's the least of my worries. I do miss having someone, though.
:hug:
No Ace, Just You
07-15-2008, 07:30 PM
Over the past couple weeks, I've realized I'm going to have to change my outlook on life if I'm ever going to be in another relationship any time soon. I almost never approach girls anymore because I'm always so sure I'll be shot down or I won't be able to commit to them.
I'm not afraid of commitment. My first relationship was six months and my second was almost a year and a half. I'm afraid of not being committed enough.
For example, there are hardly any girls around here anymore I'd want to be with, aside from the three I've crushed on since I was a sophomore in high school. Yet I'm afraid to look "out there," because I've got no real methods of transportation and no job I could support a relationship with.
It kind of sucks. I'm used to it, but I need something different. I want someone to hold my hand when I go to the mall. I want someone to talk to me on a drive instead of me just screaming the lyrics to Chiodos songs at the top of my lungs. Ooh! I want someone to play with my hair. I love that.
Oh well. That's the least of my worries. I do miss having someone, though.
Dude, I know how you feel. I feel a little trapped, too afraid to go for it, but trust me, you'll meet someone and you won't have to miss being with someone.
Good luck mate, I'm planning on doing the same.
Timothy
07-15-2008, 11:13 PM
I'm turning into such a selfish prick, and an asshole.
Arlene
07-16-2008, 01:12 AM
Will, if I were you I would try not be to afraid to step out there. I understand that you don't have the transportation and whatnot (I'm the same way, I can't get my license yet) and it's really freaking frustrating, but if the person is aware of that, she could pick up the slack, I'm sure. Any girl would be so lucky to have someone like you. You're very handsome, funny, smart, and I can tell that you have a good heart. I think that you need to work on your own self-esteem first though. Sounds lame, but if you have more confidence in yourself I'm sure things will feel a bit easier.
For example, me and Josh became a couple after I felt the confidence in myself and I took the first step and kissed him. I had a crush on Josh for 2 years before I did anything about it. And I finally felt the confidence in myself, and I put myself out on a limb, but it's brought me a year and counting, of happiness.
Just try to chin up, dear. Just know that you ARE a great guy, and you are more than worth any girls time and that you could make someone happy. <3
Tim: Honey, I'm sure you aren't. What's eating at you?
Arashi
07-16-2008, 01:25 AM
Over the past couple weeks, I've realized I'm going to have to change my outlook on life if I'm ever going to be in another relationship any time soon. I almost never approach girls anymore because I'm always so sure I'll be shot down or I won't be able to commit to them.
I'm not afraid of commitment. My first relationship was six months and my second was almost a year and a half. I'm afraid of not being committed enough.
For example, there are hardly any girls around here anymore I'd want to be with, aside from the three I've crushed on since I was a sophomore in high school. Yet I'm afraid to look "out there," because I've got no real methods of transportation and no job I could support a relationship with.
It kind of sucks. I'm used to it, but I need something different. I want someone to hold my hand when I go to the mall. I want someone to talk to me on a drive instead of me just screaming the lyrics to Chiodos songs at the top of my lungs. Ooh! I want someone to play with my hair. I love that.
Oh well. That's the least of my worries. I do miss having someone, though.
Firstly Will, you are an amazing guy, okay? Have more confidence, don't rush into anything but go with the flow. Why don't you try asking one of the three girls out? I'm sure they'd want to date you :)
Rachel
07-16-2008, 02:16 AM
Lake Winnepesaukie makes me excited. I get to be away from Massachusetts for a week, and I get to just relax and commune with nature right in the backyard. Surrounded by fresh air, clear water, and mountains.
Thank God.
Thanks, everyone. I appreciate the kind words. :)
@Ataka
The problem with asking any one of them out is that they've either got boyfriends or they're just not interested. The one who isn't interested, I've been trying to arrange a meeting with her to just get together and have a cup of coffee or something and catch up, since I haven't seen her in person in over a year and a half. It's just sort of frustrating, I guess.
Linja
07-16-2008, 02:12 PM
I'm turning into such a selfish prick, and an asshole.
Why do you think that?
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