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erasethepain
03-25-2003, 10:07 PM
Stay Down

Sometimes I just cant help but hold my head down,
Asking myself, does anyone notices the shame I carry around?
Cause they keep walkin by me like I don't exist,
Failing to become what I cant, I've lost all confidence
I tell myself that there's always tommorow,
Then when it comes I bail out, beggin for somebody's sorrow,
But I don't think anyone hears me cause I get no respond,
and when I think it's all gone,
I become paranoid that I did something else wrong,
Thinking over the same exact thoughts,
I look back at every step I made,
and I find nothing, but it feels like somethings missing without the pain

I can't deal with the pressure,
It just takes too much out of me,
A part of me just wants to get off the ground,
But another part just wants to stay down

I let these walls hide me
Running from the truth, It helps to deny my self-pity
I've gave up trying, and my self-esteem is low,
I don't know what to do, and I can't rely on what I know,
Because everything I've been taught isn't helping me now,
So I just try to hide my feelings by shoving all of this pride down
We all fall sometimes,
But for some reason, I can't seem to put that in my mind,
I remember when I use to do everything by instinct,
Now I can't take a step without worrying about what other people think,
I don't know why I put myself down all the time,
Cause I just want to pretend the fault is everyone elses but mine

I can't deal with the pressure,
It just takes too much out of me,
A part of me just wants to get off the ground,
But another part just wants to stay down

Don't look at me,
Cause you won't like what you see,
I'm not going to let you lead me in,
I just don't feel like hurting myself again