Rachel
10-24-2004, 11:41 PM
dance balance cry die
(dancing on a ledge)
teeter. ready to jump.
wait. why am i here?
sirens. they want me down.
STOP! YOU CAN'T STOP ME!
(balancing on chance)
totter. i could just fall.
but...then it wouldn't have the same effect.
hmmm. such hard decisions.
NO! DON'T MAKE ME JUMP!
(crying makes it rain)
rocking. i might just slip.
take a look around, there's nothing to lose.
except maybe him. and her. and them.
NO! NO! I'M FALLING!
i can't die.
they won't let me.
-----
Swallow & Mutilate
cut through the dark cynicism
bleed away the putrid mediocrity
watch the blood abate onto your lips
amazing how love turns into animosity
do you enjoy it precious?
swallow the blood that stains your face
swallow the lies that caused this
isn't it ironic, you're choking on your words
heal the wounds of all this anguish
slowly slits will turn to regret
but scars will always exist
i won't forgive i won't forget
mutilation of the heart
(you caused mine)
mutilation of the heart
(now its my turn)
-----
prayer
i need for this to end
too much drama
{god help me}
jesus what's my problem
i'm loosing so many friends
all because i'm being me
i'm stupid.
yes.
i [can't] depend
on people i [can't] see.
(dancing on a ledge)
teeter. ready to jump.
wait. why am i here?
sirens. they want me down.
STOP! YOU CAN'T STOP ME!
(balancing on chance)
totter. i could just fall.
but...then it wouldn't have the same effect.
hmmm. such hard decisions.
NO! DON'T MAKE ME JUMP!
(crying makes it rain)
rocking. i might just slip.
take a look around, there's nothing to lose.
except maybe him. and her. and them.
NO! NO! I'M FALLING!
i can't die.
they won't let me.
-----
Swallow & Mutilate
cut through the dark cynicism
bleed away the putrid mediocrity
watch the blood abate onto your lips
amazing how love turns into animosity
do you enjoy it precious?
swallow the blood that stains your face
swallow the lies that caused this
isn't it ironic, you're choking on your words
heal the wounds of all this anguish
slowly slits will turn to regret
but scars will always exist
i won't forgive i won't forget
mutilation of the heart
(you caused mine)
mutilation of the heart
(now its my turn)
-----
prayer
i need for this to end
too much drama
{god help me}
jesus what's my problem
i'm loosing so many friends
all because i'm being me
i'm stupid.
yes.
i [can't] depend
on people i [can't] see.